[SUMMARY: Negan and Alex get into a big fight causing him to hit her. - as requested.]
Drama/slight violence/fluff
Negan and Alex. [[MORE]]
You watched as Negan did what he usually did. Being a leader of the Saviors was his main priority..or so you...

[SUMMARY: Negan and Alex get into a big fight causing him to hit her. - as requested.]

Drama/slight violence/fluff

Negan and Alex.
You watched as Negan did what he usually did. Being a leader of the Saviors was his main priority..or so you thought. At least it’s what it looked like. Negan never let you accompany him on any runs or missions, he never explained why but you hated it. You felt like a pet that he kept locked away from the outside world. You had people you spoke to and little things you did but it was always the same routine. You wanted to step out of the compound for once, you wanted to see what you could find, what you could do. But that was NEVER an option with Negan.

Negan stepped back in the house and quietly began packing a bag of supplies.
“Leaving again?”
He pressed his lips together stopping what he was doing, he knew you wouldn’t like the answer.
“Something I have to take care of.” He answered you.
“There’s always something you have to take care of. It’s always something that I can never help with.”
He sighed turning his back to you as he continued packing.
“We’re not going through this shit again.”
“You stay where you are told and that’s that.” He spoke very coldly.
“Or what?”
You usually kept your mouth shut and agreed to whatever he said, but what if you didn’t? What was he going to do?
He began to smile and threw his bag on the floor before turning back to you.
“Alex…don’t fucking test me.”
“I’m not. I’m being serious. What if I don’t stay here? Why do I have to anyways? I’m capable of fighting for myself.”
He took a deep breath trying to control himself from going through a rage. Although you and Negan were in a relationship he never seemed to show much affection towards you. So you never really thought he cared, and because of that you never knew him keeping you here was to protect you. His biggest priority was keeping you safe. His biggest fear was losing you.
“You’re staying here.” He responded simply.
“Negan-”
“Enough!” He yelled loudly making you jump. He picked up his bag and headed for the door.
“I’ll be back in the morning.” He gave you a quick kiss on the cheek still angry and walked off. You didn’t bother to look at him or say another word. You hated this role of yours.

That night was another typical lonely night in your home. You wished Negan would let you out or at least stop leaving you alone so much. You wanted a normal life with him even with those walkers out there. You sat up not being able to sleep and thought enough was enough. He wouldn’t be back till the morning and he wouldn’t know if you left just for a walk. You knew how to use a gun, you knew how to fight, you knew you could do it.
Running to the living room you gathered a small back pack with water, a snack and your weapons to go.

You slowly opened the door making sure no one was around. There was no way Negan would ever know, his men were gone, he was gone, and you weren’t going anywhere far anyways. It was the only time you had to yourself.

Easily you made your way out and walked around the area for a bit. It was dark but it was quiet but above all it was refreshing. No walkers were in sight as you used your flashlight to lead the way. After a while outside you decided you could go back home. But God you wish you could appreciate this in daylight. Negan had to loosen up sometime.

You entered the compound to complete silence as expected but when you opened the door to your home you found Negan. He looked like he was tearing the place apart when he saw you and froze. His eyes widened with fury you had never seen before.
“N-”
“Where were you?”
You didn’t understand why you were getting so nervous, you didn’t do anything wrong but still you could barely form any words.
“Where were you?!” He asked again louder as he slowly walked towards you.
“I-I went out..” You slowly closed the door behind you and put your stuff down.
“Out?” He scoffed scratching the hair on his face as if he couldn’t believe what you were saying.
“I thought you’d be back in the morning..”
“Yeah well I felt bad for leaving you. You know, since I always do. Decided I’d leave my men to do the dirty work while I came back to be with you but you had your own agenda didn’t you.” He stepped closer.
“This isn’t the first time you’ve done this is it?” He asked calmly but with anger.
“It is..I swear Negan.”
“Don’t fucking lie!” He yelled. But you couldn’t take how controlling he was any longer.
“You can’t just leave me here! Expect me to not doing anything and just be ready for whenever you want to fuck me!” You suddenly yelled making him tilt his head as if he didn’t understand what you were saying.
“I don’t give a fuck what you feel like or what you wanna do. When I tell you to stay in you fucking stay inside!” He yelled back.
“No!”
He was surprised at how you responded and began to laugh.
“No?” He stepped forward.
“No! You can’t tell me what to do. You can’t tell me where to go or where to not go! You can’t tell me anything!” You finally yelled after holding this in for months. But Negan could feel himself about to blow. The thought of something happening to you for you being so damn rebellious made his blood boil. You were the only woman he loved, the only person he loved, the only person he had left. Just the thought of you getting hurt made his heart sink but he didn’t know how to express that. At that moment Negan wasn’t thinking straight any longer. He suddenly grabbed your arm and roughly dragged you to the bedroom.
“Let me go!” You screamed as he pushed you into the bedroom.
“No!” He roared louder than ever before.
“From now on you don’t leave from here, you don’t go anywhere! This is your home! You need something you tell me!”
You shook your head repeatedly.
“No! You can’t watch me forever. What you do think I’ll never have a chance to sneak off? All you want is control, that’s all you’re about!” You bravely got in his face as he stared down at you pissed because he knew you were right. You could see his face and arms grow tense as you spoke.
He couldn’t bare losing you.
“But you know what Negan..” You continued with a slick smile on your face.
“The next time I leave through those doors will be the last you see of me, cause I won’t come back!” Out of nowhere you felt his hand across your face as he hit you with all his fear and anger.
You gasped loudly.
Negan stared at you in disbelief himself not expecting to have gone that far. It was as if he had no control. The thought of losing you and you threatening to escape made him snap. Your hand shook as you held onto your face, you began to taste blood.
“Alex..” He whispered as you stared up at him in fear. Never had he seen that look in your eyes.
You took a few steps back as tears welled up in your eyes. You’ve seen Negan destroy people, destroy things but never had you expected him to lay a finger on you. You could tell he regretted it right away.
“Alex I’m sorry..” He tried to reach out to you but you screamed smacking his hand away and that’s when he saw the blood on the corner of your lip. It had been years since you felt this kind of fear. After your father died you promised yourself you’d never let another man hit you..he had caused enough harm. You loved Negan, but that didn’t matter anymore. You didn’t want a man like this.
“You’re just like my father..” You whispered making Negan frown with his furrowed eyebrows. He knew how much you hated your father, he knew why, and it was all coming back to him now. The last thing he wanted to do was make you feel how your father did. He was suppose to be the man who made you feel safe.
“Alex you know it’s not like that.” He tried to reach for you again but you stepped back.
“Leave me alone.” You swallowed nervously and ran past him to the bathroom. He didn’t bother to stop you disappointed in himself. He knew you had every right to be angry, every right to fear him.
“Fucking stupid fuck.” He whispered to himself.

You locked the door of the bathroom and could hear him slamming things angrily. You washed off the blood from your lip and could already see a light bruise forming. Flashes from your past came flooding back into your mind with your father hitting you every chance he got. Soon you heard silence and decided to step out of the room. Negan was gone but you still felt afraid. You had nowhere else to go so you quietly went to your bed and hid under the covers. You prayed that Negan wouldn’t show up but you knew it wasn’t going to be that way.

Not too long later you heard him step in the room. Your back was facing him as you lay in bed so you had no idea that he was quietly staring at you. He thought you were asleep and all he wanted to do was hold you, he wanted to kiss you, he wanted to show you how sorry he was but you suddenly turned to him and sat up.
“Get out.” Your voice was cold.
“Alex..”
“Get out! I don’t want you here with me! Sleep somewhere else! Get away from me!” You screamed leaving him at a loss for words.
“I only wanted to protect you.” He muttered with guilty eyes.
“So you hit me?! I only need protection from you. Get out.” You looked away hiding your tears crushing Negan with your words.
Negan didn’t say a thing and quietly left the room.

Later that morning when you stepped out of the bedroom you found Negan asleep on the couch. You froze for a moment not wanting him to hear you and quietly made your way to the kitchen.
You sat at the small table and began eating an apple when Negan walked in. You sighed avoiding eye contact as he took two glasses from the cabinet and placed them on the table. He poured some juice into it and quietly pushed a glass over to you.
“Go on, drink it.” He muttered leaning back in his chair. You grabbed the drink and suddenly tossed it to his face.
“Go fuck yourself.” You whispered and stood up heading to the door when he caught your hand.
“Enough with this shit Alex! I didn’t wanna fucking hurt you, I don’t know what got into me when that happened.” You rolled your eyes as his grip on your hand tightened while he stood up.
“You got to believe me …I fucking love you.”
You shook your head not believing a word.
“No you don’t..” You cried.
“You wouldn’t have done that.”
“Look at me.” He took a hold of your face making you look up at him.
“I’m not excusing what I did. It was fucked up baby, you didn’t deserve that. But you’re the ONLY fucking person I live for. I can’t do this without you.”
For the first time you saw vulnerability and sincereness in his eyes. But you weren’t ready to forgive him.
“And what if…what if you do it again..what if it gets worse.” He shook his head as you spoke.
“It won’t, I promise.” He looked at you with desperation in his eyes but you didn’t speak.
“Baby please..”
You gently pushed his hand off and shook your head.
“I need some time..” You whispered and walked away.
Negan cursed at himself once again before grabbing a towel and drying his face.

You kept to yourself all day not wanting to talk to anyone, not wanting to see anyone. Negan himself didn’t do much with only you in mind when he suddenly barged into the bedroom.
“What are you-” he cut you off dragging you outside of the house.
“What are you doing!” You screamed when he finally stopped at his truck.
“Get in.” He hopped into the drivers seat himself, you hesitated for a moment before stepping in.
“What are we doing?” You asked confused.
“You’ll see.” He responded as he sped off into the road.

Not too long after he stopped at small destroyed town.
“You wanted to see the outside world. This is the outside world.”
You looked around to see dozens of bodies. Turning to your side you looked down just outside your window to see a toddler.
Your stomach turned.
“I wanna go home.”
“No. This is what you wanted right.” He continued to drive around for you to see a few walkers roaming afar, homes destroyed with children’s toys on the ground covered in blood.
“Stop.” You cried in a whisper.
“This is what you wanted right?” He asked in sarcasm.
“Stop it!” You screamed hitting his arm making him hit the breaks and turn to you.
“Don’t you see this is what I was protecting you from?! This is what I was stopping you from seeing to not see you fucking cry like that and to see the hope vanish from your eyes. This is what I protected from happening to you…you turning into one of those fucking things. I’d never fucking forgive myself.”
You began to cry and he sighed leaning back.
“I’m sorry I hurt you, I’m sorry I scared you. I’m not your father. I love you…too damn much.”
You wiped your tears away, this is the most you ever heard Negan express his feelings for you.
“I’m scared..” You whispered in tears. He winced at your words, he couldn’t stand that he put fear into the woman he loved.
“I can fix that.” He took your hand and gently kissed it.
You nodded giving him a coy smile.
“Ok.”
“Ok.” He smiled and he leaned in to kiss your cheek before driving off back to the compound.

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