[SUMMARY: Negan comes across Ricks group and finds...

[SUMMARY: Negan comes across Ricks group and finds his wife Lucille, who he thought was dead. But when he finds her, his heart breaks all over again when he learns she has amnesia and is now with Daryl.]

Drama/fluff

Negan and Lucille.

“Ya alright?” Daryl’s voice snapped you out of your thoughts making you look up. He found you in the dark bedroom all by yourself staring at the wall.
“I’m fine.” You smiled. Something you did too often without actually meaning it. Two months earlier you had been found by Ricks group. You had no memory of anything that happened before they found you, but when they did, you were in a hospital gown and had a bandage around your head. You were lost…confused and more than anything, afraid. The only thing you knew about yourself was that your name was Lucille. The only way you even knew this was thanks to the wallet you found in your room. You were lucky, you knew you were. Making your way out of the hospital to come across good people. You didn’t even know what was going on in the world…but they took you in. They helped you and you became one of them. And then things got deeper. Daryl and you became closer to each other eventually leading into a relationship. You weren’t in love with him, but you did care about him. Unfortunately, no matter what happened you always felt a void within yourself. You never knew the truth about yourself and every once in a while you couldn’t help but question your life.

“Come on outta there then.” Daryl whispered standing by the door. You smiled with a nod and stood up before following him out. Daryl couldn’t help but continue to look at you wondering what was going through your mind. He couldn’t imagine what it must’ve felt like to not even know yourself. He sympathized with you and truly tried to give you all the support he could.

Dinner was served at the table, everyone sat quietly as you entered the room when suddenly Carl came in running.
“Something’s wrong with Maggie!” He yelled making Glenn stand up and run off out towards her.
“Could it be the baby?” You whispered looking over at Daryl with concern.
“I don’t know. I’ll go check on em.”
“I’m going with you.” You responded quickly as you followed him out of the room to find Maggie pale and in tears laying on the floor.
“Dear god..” you whispered.
“I have to take her to the hilltop, it’s the only way.” Glenn spoke with desperation in his voice. You all knew it would be dangerous to just take off and leave, especially with the dangerous man named Negan roaming around with his men. None of you even knew what he looked like.
“You’re not going alone.” Rick told Glenn.
“I’m going with cha.” Daryl followed along making you nervous.
“Well, I’ll go too!” You cut in making Daryl look back at you.
“No. I ain’t havin’ ya come out there in the middle of all that. You wait for me right here, ya hear?” Daryl muttered low to you. You hated the sound of this but you knew Daryl would not let you go along with them.

A few others went along with them as you stayed behind with Father Gabriel and Judith. Your nerves took over you, all of them going out in the dark night with danger surrounding the area.
“They’ll be ok.” Father Gabriel spoke trying his best to comfort you. You nodded and looked down at Judith with a smile before looking back up and watching the RV disappear into the distance.

Time had passed and you prayed that things were okay…but little did you know what they had come across. As you lay in your bed peacefully, your group had come across the one dangerous man they were all trying to avoid.
Negan.

“All you sorry sons of bitches must be pissing on yourselves! Aren’t you??” Negan laughed as he stared down at the group of people on their knees. He knew he was going to kill one of them, but he couldn’t make up his mind with who.
“We can talk about this..” Rick muttered low.
“Talk about this?” Negan chuckled.
“You killed a shit load of my fucking men and you wanna talk about it??”
“Please..” Rick whispered.
“Shut up!” Negan yelled before crouching down to his level.
“I have an idea.” An evil smile slowly appeared across his face before he stood back up straight.
“How about we go to where you sons of bitches are staying. Get a look at EVERYONE apart of your shit and THEN I’ll choose.”
Rick shook in fear thinking about baby Judith back at Alexandria.
“Sound good to you? Cause it sure as hell sounds fucking good to me!” Negan and his men began to laugh. Rick and his group could do nothing. They were helpless,afraid and had no other choice.
“Load em up!” Negan ordered his men before specifically taking hold of Rick and bringing him to sit him beside him in the front of the car.
Rick could feel his heart pounding in his chest, never had he felt fear like this before.
“Oh we’re gonna be great friends, Rick. I can feel it!” Negan taunted Rick as he began to drive. He was surprised to learn the Saviors knew where to go..they had been watching all along.

You gently placed Judith down in her crib before you lay back down on the bed. You couldn’t sleep, the worry building up in your chest…what if something happened? You gasped as you heard the gates opening but looked out the window to an unfamiliar sight. Men made there way in with trucks and guns.
“What the hell is going on?” You whispered to yourself.
“Go on! Bring em all out!” Negan ordered his men making them rush to the houses. One running towards yours making your heart stop. You knew this had to be Negan, this was the man you were all trying to avoid, the man you were all trying to stay away from.
You screamed when your door was kicked open, Judith immediately began crying as the man pulled you off the bed and began dragging you out.
“No!” You screamed trying to push him off but he only laughed pulling you harder down the front steps.
“Give up the fight, pretty girl!” The man yelled at you making Negan look back to suddenly have his world come crashing down. His slick smile was instantly wiped off his face. Negan froze, unable to speak, move or even breathe. He zoned everything out around him and all he could see was you.
His wife.
It couldn’t be you…he thought to himself, he swore you were dead. He saw the machines flat line, he saw you die with his own eyes. It couldn’t be you..
“Stop!” You screamed making his eyes widen, that voice he hadn’t heard in so long.
He watched in shock as one of his own men dragged you down the steps as you tried your best to put up a fight. You smacked the man only making him angrier and that’s when he noticed him about to lay his hands on you.
“Don’t touch her.” Negan suddenly spoke loudly marching your way.
“Let her go!” He roared making the man finally take his hands off of you while you pulled back at the same time. You almost fell, pushing yourself back up to run off only to run into Negans chest. You screamed falling down on your back as he stepped closer. He frowned as you stared up at him full of fear. A way you had never ever looked at him before.
“Lucille..?” He whispered slowly crouching down to your level.
“No!” You pushed yourself back in fear and shock, how the hell did this man know your name?
“Lucille, baby…-”
“Get away from me!” You screamed in horror.
“Lucille..” He whispered as you shook your head.
“Daryl!” You screamed looking at him being held back along with the others. Negan frowned and followed your eyes to see who you were staring at. To see who exactly was the man you were calling out for. A shot of jealousy ran through his veins as he stood up and slowly made his way towards him. You watched as Negan stopped before Daryl, placing himself right in his face.
“You’re Daryl huh?” He spoke rather calmly, a tone anyone with common sense knew not to trust.
“Mhm.” Daryl responded as you watched along in fear when Negan suddenly grabbed him by his shirt, yelling in a way his men had never heard him yell before.
“What the fuck did you do to her?! What did you do to my wife?!” He yelled making you gasp. Ricks eyes widened in shock as he looked over at Negan. They couldn’t believe what they were hearing. You were this mans wife? Negan? The man who had been terrorizing group after group, taking all of their belongings.
“She can’t remember anything!” Rick blurt out before Negan could harm Daryl. Daryl didn’t say a word as Negan let go of him and took a step back without taking his eyes off of him.
“Can’t remember?” Negan looked over at Rick who clearly still showed fear.
“She was hurt when we found her, she didn’t remember a thing..” Rick muttered low before Negans eyes moved back to Daryl.
“You’re with her?” He asked low with sad eyes knowing the answer to this before he even asked.
“Are. You. With. Her.” Negan repeated flaring his nostrils.
“Yeah.” Daryl whispered sending a shooting pain through Negans chest.
Negan pressed his lips together and took a deep breath looking away. The thought of another man touching you, being with you and calling you his set off anger, jealousy and heartbreak all wrapped into one. He wanted to beat the shit out of him right then and there but the only reason he didn’t was because you were watching. Negan was not going to make you any more afraid of him than you already were.
He looked back at you to see you slowly picking yourself up. You froze as he began to walk back to you. You didn’t know what to say or how you were suppose to feel. You had no memory of this man.
He stood before you silently staring down at you. Sorrow in his eyes, almost looking as if he was about to actually cry. It tore him apart.

“You’re…you’re my…husband..?” You whispered with a shaky voice staring up at him. He nodded silently as he reached in his front top pocket on his chest and pulled out a small paper.
“Take a look,darling.” He frowned as he handed you the paper. You hesitantly took it to see it was an actual photo of the two of you together. Your lips parted in shock. You both looked so happily in love, you sitting on his lap caught in laughter as he kissed your cheek. You looked up at him to see actual tears in his eyes.
“This is…this is us.” You whispered as a tear rolled down your cheek.
“I always keep it with me.” He whispered tapping his hand right over his heart. His men were taken back by this. None of them knowing about his life before this..none of them having ever even seen him this way.
“I..I can’t remember anything.” You cried.
“Why can’t I remember?” You shook your head in frustration as tears continued to fall.
“Shhh…it’s ok..” he placed his hands on your waist and felt you tremble at his first touch before disappointedly pulling back. He wanted to comfort you, he wanted to hold you. You wiped your tears away and looked over at Daryl before looking back at Negan.
“You..you were gonna hurt them..?”
“No!” Negan responded right away.
“Not anymore, baby. Not if they’ve been good to you.”
Truth was, he still wanted to beat Daryl senseless. Nothing could make him feel ok with the fact that another man had you.
“They are good to me.” You whispered looking over at them. You could see the crushing look in Daryl’s eyes. He knew what this meant.
“Let them go.” You uttered low looking back up at Negan. He nodded and looked back at his men.
“You heard her and have the doc take a look at the girl.” Negan motioned towards Maggie before looking back at you and found you staring at Daryl making him frown. He knew you wouldn’t want to leave with him. Why would you? After what he just almost did and especially since you had people you actually knew here. He wasn’t going to force you to go along with him, but little did he know..he didn’t have to.
“Where are we going?”
Negan looked up at you in shock.
“You’re my husband..aren’t you?” You chuckled low although you were still filled with confusion. You didn’t feel right staying here with Daryl when your husband was right before you. You knew it would be a huge adjustment for you, but you wanted the truth. The whole truth.
“Yes I am.” He responded proudly before you looked over at Daryl.
“Let me talk to them. Alone.”
Negan nodded and stepped aside as you made your way to Daryl and Rick.

“Ya leaving ain’t cha?” Daryl whispered low staring at the ground. Rick looked just as disappointed as him, but he understood.
“Daryl, he’s my husband.”
“Yeah I heard him.” Daryl responded coldly.
“You’re always welcome to come by, Lucille.” Rick spoke genuinely.
You smiled and gave him a nod before looking back at Daryl.
“I’m sorry.” You whispered, but Daryl wouldn’t even look at you.
There was nothing more you could say. You sighed and quietly turned to walk back to Negan.
“Lucille..” Daryl’s voice made you instantly turn back to him.
“I’m always here.” He whispered finally looking you in the eye. You smiled and turned back to Negan who waited for you patiently.

Negan led you to his truck, opened the door for you and held your hand as you hopped in. You sat there silently as he stepped into the drivers seat and turned on the engine. Your nerves were getting the best of you, it was all frightening and new for you. You had so many questions for Negan but you didn’t even know where to begin.
Negan could tell your mind was racing and slowly placed his hand on yours.
“You used to like holding my hand as I drove.”
You smiled looking down as he caressed your hand with his thumb.
It felt nice.
Negan turned back to the road and drove off back to his sanctuary.

As soon as you arrived to the sanctuary that night, Negan took you straight to his room. He didn’t want you speaking to anyone there just yet, he knew you knew about him taking over peoples groups…but he knew you didn’t know about all the killings. The last thing he wanted was to terrify you more, making you leave.

As soon as you entered the room you froze at the sight of the bed. Your mind hadn’t registered yet that although right now he was a stranger to you, you and this man had slept together. Of course you had.. he was your husband. But it worried you, was he expecting you to have sex with him tonight, so soon?
Negan closed the door behind you and sat on the bed facing you.
“Something on your mind, sweetheart?” He scratched his face with his index finger as you continued to stare at the bed silently.
“Lucille..?” He stood up and slowly walked your way. He stopped right before you staring down at you, his eyes falling right on your perfectly plump lips. He missed the feel of you more than you knew.
“Hey..” he whispered placing his hands on you hips with his face close to yours making you snap out of it.
“I…I can’t do this..”
Negan felt you tense up in his arms as you began to panic.
“Hey…it’s ok baby. Im gonna help you remember everything, Lucille.” He whispered in a calm smooth tone.
“I don’t know what you’re expecting from me..I can’t..”
Negan frowned in confusion.
“I’m not expecting anything from you, baby. I just want you here. With me.” He whispered low making you slowly calm down. You felt him pull you closer as you placed your hands on his chest. You weren’t looking up at him, but Negan couldn’t help but smile. He wanted to kiss you so damn bad, he wanted to make love to you.
You took a deep breath and wiped the tears off your face before looking up at him when you noticed him begin to lean his face closer to yours. He didn’t want to make you feel forced to do a thing, he knew he’d stop if you wanted him to. But he needed to try. You didn’t move and soon you felt his lips gently press against the corner of yours,his stubble pressing up against your skin. You stood still as he slowly moved his lips fully on yours, closing his eyes taking in the feel of you.
“Kiss me, baby.” He whispered against your lips. You hesitated for a moment before slowly moving your lips with his. He moaned giving you a tight squeeze and that’s when you backed away.
“I’m sorry..” you whispered feeling guilty.
“It’s ok.” He responded, but you could tell it bothered him, it fucking hurt him. You didn’t blame him, here was his wife standing before him and he couldn’t even touch her the way he wanted to because she didn’t even know him. You frowned looking down at the floor.
“What happened to me?” You whispered. Negan took a deep breath and sat down on the bed.
“A drunk driver..” he whispered.
“A fucking drunk driver took you away from me.”
He cleared his throat trying his best to keep himself together but it was hard.
“We fought that night. I’m a fucking asshole sometimes and you got upset with me for acting like a dick to your dad. You took off and then….that shit happened.”
You listened to the story in shock as tears weld up in your eyes. You could tell he felt responsible for it all.
“Everyone left the hospital. I stayed there with you as the world started to go to fucking shit. I wasn’t gonna fucking leave my wife behind regardless of what the fuck was happening. But then you flatlined…I saw you fucking die…then the power went out. I checked for your goddamn pulse baby, there was nothing.” He looked down hating himself for not trying harder. Maybe he missed something he thought to himself and it only pissed him off more.
“I left you alone.”
You could hear the pain in his voice, he felt like he failed you.
“It’s not your fault.” You suddenly whispered making him look up.
“It’s not.” You slowly moved closer to him, staring down at him.
“You did everything you could.” You took him by surprised as you brushed your soft hand over his cheek. He closed his eyes at the feel of your touch. He seemed to be so moved by the feel of you. It made you smile.
“I missed you, baby.” He whispered as he opened his eyes. Negan stood up and slowly tried again. He leaned in without touching your lips, giving you a chance to stop him…but you didn’t. You wanted to give it a chance, this was a man that loved you after all. You let Negan kiss you, you let him put his arms around you and squeeze you tightly. You closed your eyes and tried to relax in his embrace, he moaned as your lips worked with his. He slowly moved his hands down your back before grabbing your ass.
“Negan-” you gasped.
“You fucking loved it when I did this.” He smirked as he began to kiss your neck more excitedly.
He moaned pressing himself up against you hard making you feel his erection. He wanted you right then and there, but he was moving too fast for you.
“Negan stop-” you whispered.
“Hm?” His kisses trailed back up your neck to your cheek.
“Stop.” Your voice cracked. Negan instantly froze out of breath staring down at you before turning around and throwing the chair across the room making you jump.
“What is it? I’m not Daryl? Is that what the fuck it is?!” He yelled in anger. It didn’t upset him that you asked him to stop, but it hurt him to think of why. To think that the woman he loved wasn’t familiar with him, he knew it wasn’t your fault but it all pissed him off.
“Would Daryl fucking make you happy??!! Huh?!” He yelled as jealousy took over him making him push another chair aside. You gasped backing away hating the way he was acting. Hating everything that was happening that you began to cry again.
Negan sighed rubbing his forehead in frustration, the last thing he wanted to do was make you feel worse.
“Baby, I’m sorry-”
“No. I can’t do this. I can’t-” you ran out of the room in a panic having no idea where to turn, where to go.
“Lucille!” Negan yelled running off behind you.
You just wanted to be alone for a moment, you wanted to get away.
You found a door at the end of the hall and ran towards it, immediately turning the knob and letting yourself in. You frowned in confusion at the sight before you. A wall full of polaroids.
“Lucille!” You heard Negan yell from down the hall. You took a step closer not exactly making out what the photos were at first.
“Lucille..” he whispered knowing he was too damn late.
You gasped realizing they were bodies. Their heads were smashed and it was a horrifying mess of blood all over.
Negan…your husband did this?
You looked down and gasped louder to see the bloody bat against the wall.
What the hell was this place?!
“Lucille..I can explain. Let me explain, baby.”
You didn’t respond looking back up at the polaroids in shock when you suddenly felt him close behind you.
“My love…”
You shook in fear, afraid to move. You didn’t know what this man was capable of.
“No…no please don’t be scared, baby.” He felt you tremble before him.
“Please don’t let me lose you again..” His hands slowly slid down both of your arms. You felt more lost than you ever had before and you had no idea which way to go from here..