Originally posted by lindsayhalsteadgifs

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader (Sibling)

Requested: Yes

Prompt: Jay is having a hard time after Erin leaves

Warnings: Swearing

Author’s Note: Refers to things in my other imagine “One Day”

“He’s lucky we have our own keys or I’d be breaking the door down.” You sighed to Will unlocking Jay’s front door. You swung the door open and heading straight for the living room as Will followed where you knew Jay would be seated with a few beers, and your assumptions were confirmed as you walked into that exact scene. You went over opening the curtains, letting the sunlight in causing Jay to groan. “Really?” You asked picking his phone up off the coffee table that was set right in front of him.

“What.” He grumbled.

“Your phone is right in front of your face and you’re just going to pretend you didn’t get any of our calls or texts?” You scolded gesturing to Will who sat on the love seat. 

“Just because we don’t have a mom anymore doesn’t mean you need to take over the role. Just because you couldn’t be alone whenever Derek died doesn’t mean I can’t.” Jay said harshly sitting back further into the couch. Will sighed heavily running a hand down his face knowing that Jay should’ve thought before saying that.

“Maybe if you weren’t acting like a child, I wouldn’t have to you jackass. I know you’re having a hard time, but that doesn’t mean as your siblings we aren’t concerned about you, but if you’re going to act like this whatever. Drink yourself to death. See if I care.” You spit out throwing the phone into his lap before turning around and leaving. You just made it downstairs whenever you felt a hand on your shoulder. You turned to see Will.

“You know he didn’t mean that.” Will gave you a look. “You know what it’s like to talk out of hurt.” Will continued.

“Maybe, but that was low.” You huffed.

“Yeah, and you’ve said some stuff just as bad. He’s hurting and he needs us. You know that.” Will reasoned.

“Fine. I’ll be back later, but I need some space right now.” You gave in which Will took as a win kissing your cheek and heading back upstairs. You had left and ran some errands, getting the three of you dinner after you reminded yourself that Will was right and you had said some pretty hurtful things to the both of them in your stage of grief. You cared the food upstairs opening the door that was still unlocked and walking in to lay the food on the counter in the kitchen. From the kitchen you could see Jay and Will seated beside each other on the couch watching the Cubs game, but also in conversation. Jay seemed to be in better spirits since before you left, no doubt thanks to Will and his smooth, intelligent way around words. You cleared your throat as they both looked up at you. “Brought food.” You mumbled pulling it all out of the bags. They both got up walking over to help you. The room was filled with awkward silence until you made your way into the living room sitting down in your normal seats. Jay on the far end of the couch, you on the other end, and Will on the love seat beside you.

“I’m sorry.” Jay sighed looking over at you.

“No, it’s alright. I understand.” You answered.

“You were right I was being a jackass and I shouldn’t have brought that up.” He said taking a bite of his food.

“Yeah, but I get it. You’re hurting, you’re going through some stuff, and sometimes you can’t control what you’re saying. Obviously I’ve been there. That doesn’t mean we’re going to leave you alone though. It’s part of the sibling handbook.” You laughed making Jay smile slightly.

“I just can’t believe she’s gone you know? Like I know she’s not gone gone, but she’s not coming back.” He sighed playing with his food a bit. “It’s just the little things that remind me of her. Like her shampoo she left here, or the way her pillow still smells like her.” He swallowed.

“I liked Erin. I did, but if she’s okay with leaving like that, without a single word to you-” You started before he cut you off.

“But I left her first. I can’t really blame her.” He answered.

“Jay, we all have issues with relationships, none of them are perfect, none of us are perfect, but how you guys went about your relationship, how you guys dealt with things it wasn’t healthy for either of you. You have to work together and you guys didn’t. In your relationship at least.” Will contributed.

“I just miss her.” Jay admitted.

“You loved her. That’s not going to go away, but you will get through it. So many people go through heartbreak and they come out stronger on the other side, and you’re not going to be any different. You’ve been through much worse.” You added.

“Let’s be real bro you’re a catch. You have girls throwing themselves over you all the time. You’ll have plenty more to choose from.” Will pointed out making Jay smile bigger.

“You’ll move on. You will. It might take a while, but you will. You just gotta have faith in the process.” You reassured squeezing his shoulder.

“You’re the little sister. Aren’t we supposed to be giving you advice?” Jay chuckled seeming more relaxed now.

“I’ve had just about enough of that. Time for the tables to be turned.” You joked making them both laugh. It might take some time, but you had no doubt Jay would have no problem finding somebody else. Somebody that would accept him for who he was and the baggage that came with him.

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Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: How Jay handles your period

Warnings: Swearing I think?

You had woken up to your alarm beeping beside your head, bed all to yourself, vaguely remembering Jay’s kiss goodbye an hour before as he headed off to work. Groaning you shut your alarm off tossing the blankets off your body. Moving to stand up you felt the wetness between your legs, gravity doing it’s work, already knowing the cause, you headed off to the bathroom to shower before it became a massacre on your sheets. You were right on time, and all the signs were there throughout the week. Tender breasts, cravings, irritability, tiredness. So, it definitely wasn’t shocking at all to wake up to your monthly gift. However, that surely didn’t make it pleasant. Moving out to the kitchen to start your coffee after getting dressed you grabbed your phone texting your boyfriend,

Good news. I’m not pregnant.

If wasn’t more than a few minutes later you received a reply,

Lol, code red?

Laughing you typed back,

Indeed, shark week has begun. Prepare yourself.

Bubbles popping up just as you answered,

That explains a lot..

Rolling your eyes small smile on your lips you typed a simple response before slipping your phone into your purse,

Douchebag.

You knew he was joking, but you also knew that your irritability during the PMSing stage was no joke so it was a fair reply. Jay and you had only been dating for a couple months so although he had witnessed you with your period before he hasn’t fully experienced yet. Pouring your coffee you grabbed your purse heading off to work. Hoping your regularly scheduled cramps held off until you got home. Unfortunately you didn’t even make it until lunch time. Nails digging into your desk as you breathed through the pain searching for the Midol you definitely had stashed somewhere. You’d think after having it so long you’d get used to it, but nope. Every month sucked just as much as the last. The day went by longer than you hoped and you were more than looking forward to being home. Walking through the door you didn’t hesitate to head straight for the bedroom. Stripping before throwing on a pair of sweatpants and one of Jay’s t shirts he had left. Walking out into your living room you grabbed the blanket off the back of your couch cuddling up in it. Falling asleep not long after. You were woken up to the sound of shuffling in the hallway. Leaning up you poked your head around to see Jay standing arms full of grocery bags.

“Fuck, I woke you didn’t I? I’m sorry.” He apologized walking in to lay the bags on the coffee table. Raising an eyebrow you adjusted yourself so you were sitting up straight as he started pulling all the stuff out. Chinese take out, pain killers, heating pad, chocolate, ice cream, and multiple pads and tampons.

“So…they had all these numbers and sizes on them and I wasn’t sure what they meant so…I just got them all.” He shrugged making you laugh loudly.

“You’re precious.” You smiled standing up to pull him in for a sweet kiss. Smiling happily he kissed your forehead handing you your food before going to put the rest of the stuff away. Returning he turned on your favorite show eating with you before pulling you into him. Rubbing slow circles in your shoulders. Not long after you started to relax into him more he pulled you off him moving to stand.

“Where are you going?” You whined reaching for him.

“I’ll be right back I promise.” He chuckled kissing your cheek. After a few minutes he returned picking you up with basically no effort carrying you into your bathroom where a bubble bath was already set up. You both undressed as he climbed in behind you wrapping you in his arms. Sighing with content you leaned back into him closing your eyes.

“You didn’t have to do all this.” You stated kissing the side of his neck but enjoying the warmth of the water around you as well as Jay’s body.

“I know, but I just can’t imagine how bad it sucks and you deserve everything baby.” He replied running his hands up and down your arms. It wasn’t long before you were wrapped into Jay in your bed. A pile of blankets on top of you Jay’s hands rubbing your lower back and stomach simultaneously. If you had this to look forward to every time you got your period it wouldn’t be so damn bad and after that day you had no doubt in your mind you were falling for Jay Halstead.

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: Reader has a hard time getting pregnant

Warnings: Trouble conceiving

A/N: First story in the pregnancy/daddy Jay series

You stared down at the counter sadness but yet anger beginning to course through you. You picked up the test, throwing it in the garbage before picking up your purse and coat, and heading straight for the door. It was only about a 5 minute walk before you arrived at your destination. You walked straight to the counter ordering a shot of tequila and a beer. Downing the shot in a second slamming it on the counter.

“Do I want to ask?” Gabby, your best friend, stood in front of you watching your actions.

“It’s not fair.” You clenched your jaw looking down at the counter.

“I know.” She sighed taking your hand in hers to squeeze it.

“We spend how much time and money trying to prevent getting pregnant, while those stupid pills and shots fuck with your health in the meantime and then when you want to get pregnant you can’t!” You exclaimed clearly still hurting. Gabby listened to you rant for another hour comforting you knowing how it felt before you decided to go back home knowing Jay would be off work soon. After Jay got home and the two of you ate dinner you curled up into him on the couch turning on the tv in and effort to distract yourself from your own thoughts. Halfway through the episode of Friends you felt Jay start to kiss up and down your neck, wrapping his arm around your waist, pulling you tightly back into him. “Not tonight.” You said grabbing his hand to stop him from moving it anywhere. You felt him pull back before he flipped you towards him so he could see your face.

“Why not?” He asked confusion on his features. You and Jay had been having sex almost everyday for the past 9 months. It was starting to feel like a chore at this point. You loved Jay with all your heart and you loved being close and intimate with him but it just felt like more pressure was put on you each time you had sex.

“I just don’t feel good.” You mumbled.

“Really? Well maybe you should-“ He started as you heard the hopefulness in his voice making your heart drop a little before you cut him off.

“No.” You shook your head looking away from him.

“Did you?” He asked knowing what you were implying. You nodded your head feeling the tears crowd the corner of your eyes not daring to look up at him.

“Babe. It’s okay. The doctor said-“ He tried to comfort you but you interrupted again.

“Yes, I know. That it takes average couples 5 months, but we’re approaching the 10th month Jay. That’s double the normal time. I’m just worried. I really didn’t expect us to have any issues. I just didn’t think it would

be this hard.” You admitted. He grabbed your face between his hands turning it so you were looking at him.

“I know baby, but it’s going to be okay. We’ll give it another month and if it doesn’t happen we’ll go get checked. Okay?” He asked trying to calm you. You took a deep breath nodding your head. He smiled sadly before leaning down to kiss your lips. “Alright let’s go to bed.” He said kissing your forehead before pulling you up with him to drag you towards your room. It had been almost a month since you had that conversation. You hadn’t taken any tests since that day. Not entirely sure you’d be able to deal with another negative staring back in your face, and you were terrified to think about making an appointment to make sure everything was okay. Knowing if you did you and Jay’s dreams of having children together could be crushed in a split second. For the last week you had been nauseous on and off throughout the day. At first, of course, your thoughts were morning sickness, but then you scolded yourself for thinking that. You hadn’t told Jay you hadn’t felt good. You just couldn’t handle watching his hopes sink again. Plus you knew there was a virus sneaking around your office so you weren’t surprised you had caught it. For the first time that week you and Jay both had time to sit and eat breakfast together, but you were once again starting to feel nauseous. You kept reminding yourself all you had to do was wait for Jay to leave. So naturally you had swallowed down the bile that had made its way up a few more times than you would have liked. Until eventually there was no swallowing it back. You had taken a drink of orange juice in hopes of settling your stomach, but it only fueled the fire. Sending everything you had eaten back up as soon as the liquid hit your stomach. You clasped a hand over your mouth hurrying towards the bathroom. Jay followed in after you pulling your hair away from your face to hold it back. After your stomach had stopped lurching you fell down off your knees groaning.

“Babe? What happened? Are you okay?” Jay asked kneeling down beside you.

“Yeah..I just haven’t felt well at all this week.” You answered and as soon as the words fell from your mouth you watched Jay’s face light up.

“Well…have you taken a test?” He asked trying to hide his excitement.

“Uh..no we’re out.” You lied turning your eyes away from his. Jay sighed cupping your chin in his palm to turn your face towards his. You were met with Jay’s skeptical face, eyebrow raised. “What?” You asked innocently.

“We’re not out.” He explained.

“Yes we are.” You retorted pretending like you hadn’t gotten busted.

“No. We’re not.” He replied standing up and walking to the bathroom closet to pull a new unopened box out. You stared at him blankly. “I bought a new box at the beginning of the week. I wanted to make sure if you took any they would be new and accurate. There’s even some older ones in there too.” He explained. You didn’t answer swallowing hard at his look. “So, are you going to tell me what’s going on?” He pushed voice gentle, kneeling back down beside you. As soon as you met his deep blue eyes you felt the tears bubble up, starting to breathe hard and fast, mind going a million miles a minute looking for an answer. One that would make sense to him. Jay immediately noticed your labored breathing before the tears began to run down your face. He dropped down further onto the floor pulling you into his arms. Stroking your hair and begging you to breathe with him. After a good 15 minutes your breathing returned to normal, tears finally ceasing, despite the headache you were now sporting. Jay pulled away from you looking concerned.

“I’m sorry.” You muttered looking down at your lap.

“Why? Just talk to me baby. Please.” He begged still as confused as he was a half hour ago.

“I can’t take that test, Jay.” You explained.

“Why not?” He asked picking up the box to inspect it.

“It’s going to be negative, and I can’t- I just can’t do that again.” You explained getting choked up again. Jay sighed heavily sitting down and pulling you into his lap.

“You’re going to take the test.” He stated matter of factly. You looked up at him eyebrow raised at his confidence for telling you what to do, making him chuckle. “Let me finish.” He smiled kissing your forehead. “You’re going to take the test…and we are going to see if it is negative. If it is we are going to keep trying and make an appointment.” Jay explained very calmly.

“Jay…” You bit your lip nerves taking over.

“Look at me.” He ordered tilting your head up with his pointer finger. “I love you with all of my heart [Y/N], and I can’t wait to have a family with you. No matter what happens. No matter how this turns out. We will figure it out together.” He promised running a thumb across your cheek bone. You took a deep breath nodding and pushing yourself on your feet. You stuck your hand out to where Jay was seated on the floor. He hoisted himself up while working on getting the box open. Pulling out one of the testing he handed it to you. You looked down at your hand still holding it out.

“What?” He asked looking from your outstretched hand to your face.

“I’m not about to risk a false positive.” You explained. He laughed lightly agreeing and taking the other one out and handing it to you as well. 2 minutes later you laid them on the counter, timer set on your phone. You sat on the side of the bathtub chewing at your lip nervously tapping your foot. Jay kneeled between your legs head in his crossed arms across your lap. Until the timer on your phone went off. You shut it off meeting Jay eyes neither of you moving. “You do it.” You stated, plead clear in your voice. He stood up slowing kissing you deeply on the way up, reminding you how much he loved you before turning to walk towards the sink. He looked down at the tests facial expression blank. Stance unwavering. You felt your heart sink watching him turn to you.

“Baby..they’re positive..” He said just above a whisper.

“Jay that’s not fu-“ You began to lecture reaching him in two steps and looking down at the counter yourself. Where two positive pregnancy tests stared back at you. You stood frozen unable to process what was happening while Jay had snapped out of his shock scooping you up in his arms hugging you tightly, tears running down his face as you wrapped your legs around his waist, arms encircling his neck.

“We did it. We’re going to have a baby.” He smiled wide kissing you all over your face and neck, disbelief slightly present in his voice. You could feel tears falling down your cheeks taking it all in. You had never been so happy in your life, and you had never been so in love with Jay as you were in this moment. Never so thankful as you were in this moment.

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: What happens when Jay drops a bombshell from his past

Warnings: Swearing

You had always trusted Jay even when he was working with Erin after they had broken up you still trusted him. You were never given a reason to not. He was always honest with you, open to communication, learning from the mistakes of his past relationships. Both of you were open with each other, gladly handing your phones to each other without any questioning, not having anything to hide. So, you were a bit on edge whenever you noticed Jay taking his phone in the bathroom with him during his showers which he never did, always questioning you why you wanted his phone to look something up, reminding you that you had your own even if it was the whole way in the kitchen.

Packing your lunch for the day you heard a phone buzz. It was then that you realized Jay had left his phone on the counter. After a few seconds of fighting with yourself you reached over picking it up to see the name Abby light up the screen. Setting the phone down you reminded yourself you trusted your boyfriend and he would tell you if something was up. Two days had passed and Jay was still being as secretive as before and you were getting irritated. Sitting in the break room eating your lunch when the oldest Halstead brother walked in looking through the fridge.

“Hey Will?” You asked.

“Hmm?” He mumbled grabbing a drink.

“Who’s Abby?” You asked looking at him innocently as his eyes widened dropping the drink. A few seconds passed before he cleared his throat picking the drink up from the floor.

“I don’t know. Abby who? There’s lots of Abbys in this world. Why do you ask?” He stumbled for words not so subtly.

“Just curious if you knew one in particular.” You shrugged smiling sweetly throwing your trash away and brushing past him back out into the hallway. Getting a few steps down the hall you leaned against the wall shutting your eyes and taking a deep breath to calm your rapid heart beat, not loving Will’s reaction to your question. You reminded yourself despite your swirling thoughts that Jay loved you and he wouldn’t do anything to purposely hurt you, or at least you were hoping. After another few hours your mind was officially in shambles, unable to think of anything else. So, after your shift and confirming with Kim that Intelligence wasn’t busy you headed for Jay.

“Jay’s a popular guy today.” Trudy said when you appeared before her desk.

“Why is that?” You asked.

“Red headed Halstead just came through here 5 minutes ago.” She explained making you laugh at the irony.

“Remind me murder is illegal, Trudy.” You shook your head, fuming as you headed towards the gate. Reaching the top of the stairs all eyes turned to you. Kevin and Adam pointed towards the break room immediately realizing your mood. “Thank you.” You smiled at them heading towards the back. Opening the door without warning you witnessed Jay and Will standing close whispering to each other, turning when they seen you walk in. Crossing your arms and raising your eyebrow you looked between the brothers.

“You’re on your own.” Will clapped Jay’s back avoiding your hard glare as he snuck past you.

“Okay, I can explain-” He started before you cut him off.

“First of all, remind me to never go to your brother for anything again. Secondly, if you’re going to cheat on me could you be a little more subtle about it. I was waiting for you to say something, but since you haven’t, I guess I’m going to have to ask. Who’s Abby, Jay?” You got the question off of your chest.

“I’m not cheating on you.” He answered, matter of factly.

“Then who is she?” You repeated yourself.

“[Y/N], just hear me out..” He begged.

“Just answer the damn question, Jay!” You yelled probably loud enough those in the bullpen could hear despite the door being closed. Sighing heavily he finally answered,

“She’s my ex-wife…or wife I guess? I don’t know I’m taking care of it.”

“You’re fucking joking right now.” You laughed.

“I know I-” He tried, but you shook your head backing up towards the door.

“I can’t believe you. You’re MARRIED and you didn’t think that was something I should know?” You said.

“I thought it was done, I thought the papers went through, but she-” He tried to explain, but you laughed tears gathering in the corner of your eyes.

“Jay, I can’t- I don’t even-” You searched for the right words, but couldn’t find them shaking your head in disbelief instead and walking out the door. Ignoring the curious eyes on you as you walked to your car. The fact that Jay kept this from you hurt. How could you not know that your boyfriend of 2 years used to be married, or…still is married according to him. Your head was spinning as you started off towards your apartment. Calling Kim once she had told you she was on her way home, spilling it all to her.

“Married? Are you sure?” She asked shock in her voice.

“No Kim, I didn’t just have a conversation with him about it or anything.” You answered sarcastically.

“Well..what are you gonna do?” She replied.

“I…don’t know.” You sighed heavily on the line. “I love him, but how could he keep something like this from me. I thought we told each other everything. I know he has a hard time talking about his past, but this seems like kinda a big secret to keep.” You explained.

“Good thing I know what we’re doing tonight!” She exclaimed.

“Kim, no. We both have work in the morning.” You groaned not appreciating her idea.

“We don’t have to get drunk [Y/N] geez.” You could practically hear her rolling her eyes. “Be over in 20! Love you!” She hurried out.

“Kim! No!” She tried, but the line was dead. Throwing your head back with a loud protest you headed for the shower knowing you were getting dragged out no matter how much you didn’t want to.

————

Walking into Molly’s you were seated in the back corner with your friends. Having ignored plenty of texts and calls from Jay in the last hour. You watched Will walk in grabbing a beer and coming over to you apologetic look on his face.

“[Y/N]-“ He started, but you glared at him.

“You’re a traitor.” You crossed your arms against your chest.

“He’s my brother! I just wanted to warn him. It wasn’t my secret to tell.” He explained, which made sense. Sighing heavily with the weight of having to admit Will Halstead was right.

“I know. I’m sorry. It’s just a lot to take in. Could’ve at least gave me a heads up though.” You smiled at him slightly.

“I’ll remember that for next time he fucks up.” He replied clinking your glass.

“Yeah…I don’t know if there will be a next time Will, at least with me.” You admitted taking a drink.

“What? What do you mean?” He panicked for his brother looking at all those seated around your table.

“It’s just..a really big thing to not cover. He’s married Will, and not to me that is.” You shrugged.

“You’re really willing to throw what you have away because of a tiny detail-“ He started as you looked at him like he was crazy.

“Tiny detail!? Are you crazy. He-“ You started, but out of the corner of your eye you spotted your boyfriend..ex-boyfriend? Jay. You spotted Jay. Walking in but he wasn’t alone. “Who’s that bitch.” You scowled jealousy immediately boiling in you as you looked at the tan, gorgeous, brunette by Jay’s side.

“Down girl.” Kevin chuckled beside you, practically seeing the steam coming out of your ears.

“That..is Abby.” Will answered for you.

“Uh uh. Nope.” You shook your head slipping out of your seat heading towards them despite your friends protests. You weren’t drunk, but with the amount of anger coursing through your veins your conscience may have been a little far off. Sneaking up behind Jay you slid in next to him, hand resting on his thigh, interrupting their conversation. Turning to face you shock clouded his face,

“[Y/N]! What are you doing here?”

“Kim invited me out for drink. You know after the day I had. How kind right?” You faked nice and you were sure Jay was on edge with how this was going to play out. “Who’s your friend?” You smiled sweetly looking over at the girl who was staring you down curiously. Even more gorgeous up close making your heart sink even lower if that was possible. Clearing his throat you could feel his knee bouncing from nerves.

“This is Abby. Abby this is [Y/N].” He introduced not making eye contact with either of you. Extending your hand you shook hers gently, smile still on your face.

“It’s nice to meet you.” You greeted. “Sorry to interrupt I just had something to give Jay here.” Your smile faltered a little, heart literally breaking, you were pretty sure, as you slide his apartment key into his hand. His eyes met yours once he realized what he was holding, panic surrounding the emerald irises. Bidding goodbye before you turned around you surpassed your table going straight to the bathroom.

Head leaned against the wall you counted your breaths trying to calm your racing heart, and fight against the bile threatening to come up your throat. You heard the door open, opening your eyes to see Kim and Hailey standing in front of you. It was then that the tears spilled out both of them pulling you into a hug. After a couple minutes of silence you sniffled wiping the tears away laughing a little. They both looked at you like you were deranged.

“I’m sorry. My emotions are so fucked.” You admitted head falling into your hands.

“[Y/N], are you sure this is what you want?” Hailey asked.

“Ugh, I don’t know. I’m just so mad! I know I’m acting irrational, but ugh!” You started to pace.

“I know it’s a big secret to keep, but he wasn’t trying to hurt you. You know? It wasn’t like he knew he was still married.” Hailey tried to reason as you were interrupted with a knock on the door.

“Babe? Can I talk to you?” Adam’s voice muffled against the door. Giving you both confusing looks Kim walked out to meet Adam. You could hear them whispering but couldn’t make out the words until Kim came walking back in.

“Okay. Jay wants to talk to you.” She explained. Staring at her blankly you stayed still. “It’s up to you.” She continued.

“Where at? I’m sure as hell not having this conversation in a bathroom.” You crossed your arms.

“Hermann said you could talk in the back room? He has a soft spot for you two or something.” She shrugged. Closing your eyes tight you ran a hand down your face before nodding and walking to the back room.

When you entered Jay was pacing in the small space, his head immediately popping up when he seen you.

“Baby! Okay I know you’re mad, but just please hear me out.” He begged voice croaking a little making you waver as you nodded your head. Sighing with relief he took a deep breath before starting. “We got married in Vegas and it lasted like 24 hours. We were just both really fucked up at the time and we found comfort in each other and just did something really stupid. I’m sorry I never told you I just thought the papers had went through and it was done and over.” He rushed out.

“So you’re only telling me now cause you got caught, you weren’t ever planning on telling me?” You asked eyebrow raised.

“I don’t know. I really don’t. She’s a great person. She deserves the world, but I’m not going to give that to her. I want to give that to you, [Y/N].” He swallowed hard. You looked him up and down taking in the tears glistening his eyes sighing before giving in and wrapping your arms around his waist. He relaxed instantly at your touch burying his face in your hair. “You know what we went through I wouldn’t take back because maybe then I wouldn’t have ended up here with you and I would never risk that. I love you so much.” He kisses your head hugging you tighter into him.

“Got any other secrets? Maybe a child out there somewhere?” You joked making him groan a “no” into your hair. “You have some making up to do. I’m not just letting this go.” You reminded him still pissed.

“What did you have in mind?” He asked backing you up slowly so your back was flush against the door his body trapping you against it before grabbing your jaw tightly in his hand lifting your face up so he could capture your lips with his.

“Hermann said we could TALK, Jay.” You giggled against his lips as his hands slid under your shirt to rest on your hips.

“Yeah, and we did, but now. We’re. Doing. This.” He punctuated each word with a kiss to your neck, and you were 10000% sure you were going to go through with it if you hadn’t spotted the camera in the corner of the ceiling.

“Jay-“ you croaked as he bit down on your collarbone lifting your hands above your head, “camera.” You explained enjoying his movements way too much. Huffing against your skin he turned to see the camera facing your way.

“Fuck. Guess I’ll have to wait till we get home.” He kissed your lips hard before backing away to open the door gesturing you out first.

*Not my gif*

Requested: Yes

Prompt: Natural Labor

Warnings: Swearing

You were about four hours in and already second guessing the choice to go through labor naturally. You weren’t afraid to admit your pain tolerance wasn’t exactly the best which means you had a long day ahead of you. Jay was sitting beside you rubbing your shoulders when you groaned in annoyance. Contractions still 10 minutes apart. You were only dilated 3 centimeters, but your water had already broken.

“Why did we think this was a good idea? This was a terrible idea.” You thought out loud causing Jay to chuckle.

“I think you may be exaggerating a little bit, honey. This isn’t even the worst part.” He replied.

“No uterus, no opinion, Halstead.” You glared up and him as he nodded his head, hands up defensively small smirk still on his face.

“Let’s go for a walk. We can get you more ice chips while we’re at it.” He requested standing up beside you. Sighing you adjusted yourself standing up with his help, informing the nurse, before you began your laps around the hall. Stopping for a second in front of the nursery, Jay stood beside you arm wrapped around your waist. “Just a little bit longer.” He kissed your head.

“You said that three hours ago.” You joked smiling up at him.

“Fair enough, but it’s all gonna be worth it when we have one of them.” Jay nodded towards the window at the room of babies sleeping.

——

Five hours later you were now in active labor, contractions minutes apart, too far along to even change your mind about the epidural.

“Jay, please get him out of me, please.” You begged, tears covering your face.

“You’re doing great love, it’s okay.” He smoothed your hair your hand in his.

“It’s NOT fucking okay! It’s the exact opposite of okay! It hurts! I want to go home!” You yelled.

“I don’t think that’s an option love.” He replied calmly, ignoring your outburst used to it by now. Feeling another contraction you shoved your face into Jay’s shoulder crying out as the doctor walked in. “Breathe baby.” He rubbed your back coaching you through the contraction as he had the last few.

“Alright let’s see where you’re at.” The doctor said adjusting your legs and checking, “it looks like you’re ready.” He informed you. Looking at Jay nervously you waited for the nurses and doctors to situate themselves around the room. Jay smiled reassuringly kissing you lightly on the lips staying right beside you.

“Next contraction I want you to push through it okay?” The doctor instructed nodding you took ahold of Jay’s hand, you did as you were told, squeezing Jay’s hand hard, noticing as he winced a little, but you couldn’t have cared less at that point and he didn’t dare say anything. After a 45 minutes of numerous pushes you were told to relax. Leaning your head back against your pillow with exhaustion, “Jay.” You whined.

“I’m right here baby, you’re doing incredible. I’m so proud of you.” He kissed your forehead, hand laying against your head.

“What if he doesn’t like me?” You asked, slightly delirious making Jay laugh.

“He’s going to love you baby I promise.” Jay smiled squeezing your hand reassuring, the doctor’s words drawing your attention away.

“Alright he’s right there I can see him, just a little longer, on 3.” He explained, following his commands and 10 minutes later you heard your son’s cries. Body flopping down in exhaustion as Jay cut the cord and they did the normal testing on your son confirming he was healthy while talking you through the rest of the process and fixing you up. Until you were finally left alone son in your arms Jay beside you.

“How is this fair?” You asked looking from your son to Jay.

“What?” He asked confused.

“I just spent hours in pain for him to come out a reincarnated version of you.” You pouted looking at your husband’s mini in your arms.

“What can I say? The genes are strong.” He shrugged smiling happily.

“I love you.” You sighed looking up at Jay earning a grin from him.

“I love you more. You were a superhero. I am so proud of you. Thank you for giving me something this amazing.” He leaned down kissing you before kissing your son’s head.

“Takes two to tango.” You joked earning a chuckle from Jay, “I can’t believe how much I love him already.” You admitted.

“I feel you, baby.” Jay replied resting his head on yours.

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: Jay’s girlfriend is sick

Warnings: None

A/N: Just a quick little Jay imagine that we all wish we could experience.

Waking up to Jay’s alarm it had immediately hit you. Your head was pounding, despite the numerous blankets piled on your body as well as Jay curled around you, you were freezing, could barely breathe, and your throat felt like it was getting clawed at. Jay still had not shut his alarm off only making your head pound worse. Slapping him on the shoulder he huffed burying his head further into your neck.

“Jay, get up.” You scolded, voice coming out way worse than you had anticipated. He groaned unraveling himself from you, making you shiver, as he reached over shutting the blaring sound off before turning back to wrap his arms around you, pulling you into him, causing you to sigh at the warmth.

“You wanna come shower with me?” He asked planting a kiss at the nape of your neck.

“No.” You stated, voice cracking. Jay lifted his head up giving you a weird look. “I think I’m sick.” You answered his unasked question.

“It sounds as if you might be right.” Jay joked leaning down and kissing your forehead. “Why don’t you call into work while I do the same.” Jay said reaching for his phone.

“You’re going to lie to Voight?” You asked, eyebrow raised.

“What he doesn’t know won’t hurt him.” Jay shrugged smiling as he walked out of the room. You quickly dialed your office informing your boss, hanging up as Jay walked back in the room. “Man you really can’t lie to that man.” Jay laughed coming to sit on the bed next to you.

“Do you have to go in?” You asked sadly.

“No, he said I could stay and take care of you as long as I keep my phone close. I’ll be right back.” He explained getting up to walk back out of the room before you could protest. After a few minutes of waiting you had gotten curious and rolled out of bed, blanket curled around you walking out to the living room almost bumping into Jay who was walking back towards the bedroom, Orange Juice and medicine in his hand. “What are you doing? Get back in bed.” Jay huffed at you making you sigh, turning right back around where you came from. After laying back down Jay handed you the medicine waiting for you to take it before covering you back up. Turning the TV on to your favorite show he kissed your head leaving to get shower, as you quickly drifted back off to sleep. Waking up a little later you still hadn’t felt the greatest. Turning you seen Jay was lying beside you typing on his computer. Moving to snuggle closer to him he instinctively lifted his arm to wrap it around you. “Hi sweetheart.” He mumbled kissing your forehead. “You hungry?” He asked closing his laptop. Shrugging you buried your face into his chest making him laugh. “Well I went out and got some soup while you were asleep let me go get you some.” He explained sliding you off of him while he went to the kitchen. Sitting up you averted your attention to the TV until Jay came back in tray in his hand. He gently laid it down on your lap careful not to spill the soup before sliding back into his side of the bed. After you were finished Jay had taken everything out before appearing back in your doorway. “Do you need anything else?” He asked sincerely. You smiled slightly nodding your head. “You gonna tell me what it is?” He laughed walking towards you.

“Your cuddles.” You answered looking up at him innocently. Leaning his hands on the bed he chuckled.

“Lucky for you I think I can make that happen, but first let’s go get a shower. It’ll help clear up your sinuses.” He said picking you up and carrying you towards the bathroom where the water was already running. Stepping in you leaned back into Jay as he washed your body and hair, thankful you were able to breath better thanks to the steam filling the room. Not long after you were cuddled into Jay on the couch as he had promised.

“Thank you.” You said head stuffed into his chest.

“Anything for my girl.” He smiled lifting your chin up to lay a kiss on your lips, but was stopped when your hand rested between your mouths. He leaned back, looking at you offended.

“You’ll get sick.” You explained.

“Then I guess you’ll just have to return the favor and take care of me.” He teased moving your hand and laying a gentle kiss on your lips.

Originally posted by yourheartisstillmine

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt:You had to get out of the house, to the district you went
Warnings: None

It had been a little over four months since Jensen was born. You loved motherhood and loved being able to stay at home with your baby while Jay worked, but you were starting to go stir crazy. You needed something that was out of routine for once or your crawling tensions were going to explode. You knew that nothing big was going down in the 21st that required Intelligence’s attention since Jay had informed you earlier that their day had consisted of paperwork and he was starting to go crazy too. You wanted to surprise Jay so instead of texting him you texted Kim asking if it would be okay to come in with Jensen for a small visit, which she enthusiastically encouraged. After changing him quickly you grabbed his diaper bag along with his car seat and headed to your car. Not long after you arrived at the district, already feeling more relaxed at the change in scenery. Lugging Jensen’s carseat in with you, you stopped at the desk first.

“[Y/N]!” Trudy greeted coming out from around her desk immediately, “Hi precious! Look at you wide awake today! You are just the cutest aren’t you?” Trudy smiled leaning down to Jensen. You set the carseat on the desk carefully removing him and handing him over to Trudy. “Can I carry him up?” She asked not taking her eyes off your son.

“Well of course.” You smiled following her up the stairs into Intelligence, car seat in tow. You could hear the conversation flowing down, complaints of boredom filling upstairs until you appeared at the landing. The room’s attention turned to you before they swarmed around Trudy making you laugh meeting Jay at his desk grin on his lips as the team acted like they hadn’t seen him less than a week ago.

“Hi baby, what are you doing here?” He asked kissing you as he pulled you down to his lap.

“I think we both needed a break.” You answered leaning into him as Voight came walking out of his office.

“What is-” He started before realizing what the commotion was about. “Oh! Hand that little guy over.” He ordered smile on his face as he carefully took Jensen into his hands. Talking to Jensen who could be heard giggling lightly.

“I know I say this all the time, but Jay he is your mini.” Kim smiled tapping Jensen on the tip of his nose over Hank’s shoulder

“Poor kid.” Antonio joked from the other side of the room causing Jay to launch a pen his way.

“Man we are gonna teach this kid so many things.” Kevin fisted bumped Ruzek who agreed happily. After getting passed around for a while Jensen started to get fussy, wiggling and whining in Ruzek’s arms.

“He’s probably hungry.” You informed after looking at the clock and gathering your son back in your arms. “If you don’t mind can I use the break room and then I’ll leave and you can get back to work?” You asked Voight going over to pick up Jensen’s bag. Voight happily assured you that was fine. Jay followed you into the room closing the door behind you and making sure the blinds were closed before helping you adjust Jensen so you were comfortable.

“You know that I really miss you guys during the day right?” Jay asked breaking the long silence kneeling in front of you still, thumb running over Jensen’s cheek lightly.

“I would sure as heck hope so, look at us.” You joked winking at him which caused him to chuckle.

“I don’t know how I got so lucky. I never imagined my life would turn out like…this.” He shook his head smiling happily. You laughed leaning over to kiss him lightly while handing him Jensen so he could burp him.

“Good thing you think like that cause I’m pretty sure you’re stuck with us.” You shrugged fixing your clothes.

“You have no idea how lucky you are little man. You have so many people who love you and are willing to protect you at any cost.” Jay said patting his back lightly until he succeeded. “Thank you for coming I think we all needed it.” He sighed kissing Jensen’s head before handing him over to you where you started buckling him into his car seat.

“I needed it too, and I think he likes the attention he’s barely made a peep the whole time we’ve been here, but $10 says he’s screaming his head off before we get home.” You joked.

“I would rather not make that bet.” Jay chuckled kissing your head and picking up Jensen’s car seat. Everyone taking their time saying goodbye before you were in your car headed back home. You couldn’t be happier to be reminded of the second family you had at the 21st district. Even Voight, a stone cold stubborn man, fell apart at the sight of your son. 

Originally posted by sofuckingchuffed

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: You get drunk on a Tuesday. Jay to the rescue.

Warnings: None

You hadn’t planned to get drunk. But here you were 11 o’clock on a Tuesday afternoon, you and your friends both a few too many mimosas in.

“No! You have to do it! I don’t want him to be mad at me.” You handed your phone over to Olivia, one of your best friends.

“Oh pleaseee. That man is head over heels for you. I don’t think he knows how to be mad at you.” She rolled her eyes dramatically taking the phone from your hand.

“Tell us your secret.” Your other best friend, Rachel, sighed, head resting on her hand.

“What do you mean?” You giggled taking another drink.

“He’s hot, brave, sweet. How’d you do it? How’d you rope him in?” She pushed.

“Sorry. Can’t reveal my secrets.” You shrugged shutting up whenever Olivia started talking.

“Hey Jay!” She exclaimed once he apparently picked up. “No, no she’s fine!”, “No.”, “Okay yes, no need to interrogate me.”, “Yeah that’d be great!”, “See you soon!” She said cheerfully hanging up and handing your phone back. “He’s on his way.” She informed. You and your friends had spent the next 15 minutes continuing to drink and gossip some more.

“Seriously baby, it’s noon on a Tuesday.” Jay looked at you accusingly, amusement on his face as he walked over to your table.

“Oops.” You smiled up at him innocently making him chuckle.

“Come on.” He shook his head leading you all out to his truck helping you in and making sure the other two didn’t fall on their faces. Driving off to Olivia’s place first Jay listened intently to your drunk conversation filling the truck, hand resting on your thigh over the console.

“So Jay,” Olivia started as his eyes flickered in the rearview mirror to meet hers waiting for her to continue, “[Y/N] told us about what you two tried last night and I was wondering where-“ She started as Jay’s eyes widened, blush taking over his face.

“Olivia!” You scolded whipping your head around to her in the backseat, cutting her off.

“What? I just wanted to know how-“ She started again.

“Shut up!” You begged.

“Fine. Whatever. I’ll look it up.” She pouted crossing her arms. As Rachel hit her in the shoulder for you. Before long the only people left in the truck were you and Jay as he parked in front of your house. Getting out and helping you towards the door.

“I’m not that drunk. I can walk.” You rolled your eyes, but kept your hand in Jay’s.

“You keep telling yourself that sweetheart.” Jay joked making your way into your house. Falling down into your couch you tried to pull him down with you. “I have to get back to work.” He laughed fighting against your strong pull.

“Pleaseeeeee. Just like 5 minutes.” You begged giving him puppy dogs eyes silently celebrating when he left out a sigh of defeat.

“You’re lucky I love you.” He mumbled to himself, but you just caught it.

“I’m lucky what?” You raised your eyebrow at him smirk covering your face. He looked at you fumbling for words, blush coming to his face. “Jay.” You pushed still smiling.

“You’re lucky I love you.” He repeated this time louder, more confidently. 

“Is that so?” You teased.

“Yes it is.” He replied leaning in to give you a quick kiss.

“Well I guess it’s good I love you too then.” You shrugged when he pulled away making him grin shaking his head.

“You’re something else.” He sighed to himself adjusting you so your were seated in his lap. “So you told your friends about last night?” He changed the subject making you giggle. You had never been happier to be drunk on a Tuesday afternoon.

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: Jay steps up to the plate after your baby daddy leaves

Warnings: Kinda slight smut I guess? Probably some swearing

You never really understood the hardships that could come along with being a single mother until it happened to you. You thought you and your boyfriend at the time were in a good place. No, the pregnancy wasn’t planned or anything but you certainly weren’t expecting to come home to all of his stuff gone the day after telling him. Vanishing without so much as a note. Heartbroken was an understatement. Luckily you had a great support system from your co workers at Chicago Med to your other friends from 51 and the 21st.

In the few years you had worked at Med you had grown close with all of Chicago’s finest. In particular the Halstead brothers. Will took you under his wing whenever you had first moved to Chicago and it didn’t take long for you to become close with his brother, Jay, as well. They were the first people you went to whenever Grant had left. Dialing Jay’s number as soon as you set foot in the apartment. He stayed with you that night long after Will had left to get some sleep after the shift you two had just been through. All of your friends promising to love your baby even more to fill the void. Jay in particular promising to be there every step of the way. The next couple months would be a whirlwind of an experience.

————-

“Jay, you don’t have to.” You sighed putting the groceries away.

“Yes, I do.” He stated taking the bags out of your hands and sitting you down on the stool.

“Okay first of all I’m pregnant not dying. Secondly, it’s not your responsibility.” You explained scrolling through your phone.

“You’re not going alone [Y/N].” He scolded.

“I’ll be fine. I work there. It’s not like I don-“ You began before he cut you off.

“Why don’t you want me to go?” He asked leaning against the counter across from you.

“I told you. It’s not your responsibility.” You repeated.

“And I told you that night I would be here every step of the way, and I meant it. I’m going.” Jay replied walking around to kiss you on the head heading into your living room.

————-

“How have you been feeling this week?” Natalie asked rubbing the gel over your stomach while Jay sat at your side.

“Well I-“ You began before Jay answered for you.

“She’s been having bouts of morning sickness the past 2 weeks. It’s been getting worse by the day.” He explained.

“Any pain or spotting?” She asked moving to get the wand.

“No, not-“ You tried to answer again before Jay’s voice overpowered yours again.

“She’s been having swelling and pain in her lower back but that’s normal right? Or do you think somethings wrong?” Jay answered making you throw him a glare.

“What? What’d I do?” He asked recognizing your look all too well.

“I’m capable of talking you know.” You explained.

“Sorry..” He mumbled looking away from you making you feel a little guilty for getting so easily irritated. You grabbed ahold of his hand squeezing it tightly making him throw you a tiny smile. From your other side you heart a tiny thumping making you whip your head over to Natalie.

“Is-is that…” you asked making her smile.

“Mhmm. That is the heartbeat, and here is your baby.” She smiled wide turning the monitor towards you and pointing. A mix of emotions hit you all at once. An overwhelming amount of love along with a hint of fear. You felt tears pool at the corners of your eyes trying to blink them back and swallow the lump in your throat. Getting into Jay’s truck after the appointment you were shocked into silence as he drove.

“Sweetheart. [Y/N]!” Jay shook you making you jump high, snapping out of your thoughts, “You still with me?” He asked when you turned to him.

“Yeah..sorry..I just.. zoned out there.” You answered turning back to look out the window at the buildings passing by. He didn’t comment until he pulled into your driveway putting the truck in park. You moved to get out, but he grabbed your wrist stopping you. You moved to face him a confused look on your face.

“You’re not getting away that easy. What’s going on?”

He asked knowing you like the back of his hand. You bit your lip feeling the lump form again, taking deep breaths in an attempt to calm your panic. “Hey, come on. Talk to me. It’s me.” Jay grabbed your hand concern look on his face.

“I..I can’t do this. You seen how little it was. I’m responsible for a human life now. Every decision I make affects them now.” You panicked laying a hand on your stomach protectively.

“[Y/N] it-“ Jay tried to comfort you but you continued.

“I work 24 hour shifts. Babies are expensive. And what happens what they start asking about their dad? What am I supposed to say then? That he-“ You panicked feeling your breaths getting heavier and quicker, your chest tightening.

“Hey hey hey. Look at me, dear. Right here.” He grabbed your jaw for you to focus on his eyes, getting lost in the deep blue irises immediately feeling calmer, making you take deep breaths until they returned to normal. “I told you before, I’m going to be here every step of the way, and you know everyone else will too. We have your back. There will never be a more loved kid in this world and they will always know that.” Jay promised squeezing your hand reassuringly.

—————

“I’m pretty sure this is fairly self explanatory.” Jay complained helping you down on the mat.

“I never said you had to come.” You shrugged as he positioned himself behind you chest firmly against your back making you blush to yourself. As a pretty blonde girl walked up in front of you hand held out to you.

“Hi. I’m Katelynn, I’ll be teaching the class.” She smiled cheerfully. You both took her hand introducing yourselves. “So, how long have you two been together?” She asked.

“Oh, we’re not-“ You started before she held her hands up.

“Say no more. I’m sorry it’s my first time teaching I should know better than to assume.” She apologized.

“You look so young to have kids. No offense.” You added.

“I don’t actually. You think they would want someone who you know has actually had a child, but I guess being a paramedic is enough of a requirement to know all about childbirth.” She joked, jealousy pinging you as Jay laughed at her joke. “It’s nice to see you stuck around though, for the child’s sake, obviously.” She smiled at Jay, once again making you want to ring her neck.

“Oh, he’s not..” You started to explain as she shook her head.

“I’m going to go greet the others before I put my foot in my mouth again.” She laughed apologizing again, but throwing Jay a flirty smile before walking away.

“I don’t like her.” You huffed leaning further back into Jay.

“What? Why? She’s perfectly sweet.” He defended her.

“Why would they have someone teach a class they know nothing about? That’s like having me teach a geometry class. We’d all be doomed.” You crossed your arms.

“Ain’t that the truth.” He laughed making you gently jab him in his side with your elbow.

“Alright everyone we’re going to start this class out with a little competition. Dad’s come get a baby.” Katelynn ordered. Jay leaned you up enough to stand before returning back to you, baby in hand. “We’re going to see who can undress, change, and redress your baby the fastest. While also being safe and gentle.” She emphasized. All the dads got in position hurrying on the word go. You watched intently, grin on your face as Jay flawlessly finished first. “And we have a winner.” Katelynn announced after inspecting the baby.

“Hell yeah!” Jay exclaimed turning to give you a high five. You shook your head, laughing, and met his hand with yours before noticing the older couples throwing Jay a disapproving look as he mumbled an apology sitting back down behind you and turning his attention back to Katelynn as she giggled at his actions.

——————

“Are you seriously not going to tell me?” Jay huffed crossing his arms.

“I’m seriously not going to tell you.” You shrugged grinning.

“I don’t think that’s very fair.” He complained.

“I don’t think you’re the one pushing it out of your vagina.” You retorted.

“Can we at least make a deal?” He asked sighing.

“Depends. What’s the deal?” You asked propping your feet up on his lap.

“When they’re born I have to be the first one to know AND you have to tell me the name you picked out for the opposite gender.” He explained. You took a minute to think it over before before slowly nodding your head.

“I think that can be arranged.” You agreed.

—————

You were 6 months pregnant at this point and you were exhausted. You couldn’t have been any more thankful for the people in your life. Jay and Will along with some of the other guys had built your nursery for you. The girls had thrown a baby shower for you, and Jay wasn’t kidding whenever he had promised to be there for you every step of the way. If neither of you were at work there was a really good chance that you two were together. He had fallen asleep on your couch and stayed throughout the night countless times in the last few months. Taking you to doctors appointments, birthing classes, helping you through the horrid morning sickness and pregnancy brain regardless of your mood swings. You name it, he was there. You had just gotten home from your shift at the hospital and you went straight for the couch.

“What do you want for dinner?” Jay asked walking in an hour or so later like it was nothing.

“Mmm, I don’t care. Whatever you want.” You mumbled barely keeping your eyes open.

“Take a nap. I’ll figure it out.” He said covering you up with a blanket from the chair beside you. It didn’t take long at all for you to slip into unconsciousness, but you were still conscious enough to hear and recognize the sounds around you. You could hear Jay shifting through cabinets before there was a knock on the door.

Minutes later you heard Will’s voice filling the apartment.

“Why are you doing this, Jay?” Will asked.

“Doing what?” Jay asked in return.

“All of this. You’ve taken over this ‘dad’ role and it’s like you’ve forgotten you’re not actually this kid’s dad. What happens when the baby is born? You just stay here every night? That’s not practical and you’re not thinking long term. I’ve been quiet for a long time, but you need to get your head on straight bro.” Will explained his concern.

“She’s my best friend, Will, yours too. Why would you want her to have to do this alone?” You could hear the irritation and defensive tone in Jay’s voice.

“You know that’s not what I meant.” Will replied.

“Then what did you mean? I’m not going to leave her to do this on her own. Especially after that jackass left. She doesn’t deserve that.” Jay sighed.

“How about you try that again, but tell me the truth this time.” Will implied.

“What the hell are you talking about?” Jay huffed.

“I’m your brother Jay. I’m not an idiot. I know how you work. If you can’t even say it to me how are you going to say it to her?” Will asked.

“I literally don’t know what-“ Jay started before Will cut him off.

“Stop! Why do you always have to put up this front? Just admit why you’re doing all this.” Will pushed.

“Because she’s my best friend.” Jay stood his ground.

“Just fucking admit it, Jay!” Will yelled, his voice muffling a little from what you would guess was Jay’s hand flying over his mouth.

“Okay, Will! Yes! I’m in love with her! Why are you making me admit it? It makes no difference!” Jay yelled in a hushed tone. At the confession you suddenly felt more awake.

“Why won’t you ju-“ Will started, but stopped whenever they heard you shifting on the couch. You heard Jay sigh a breath of relief whenever you opted out of making it known you had heard it all, turning on your side to continue pretending as if you were asleep.

————-

You hadn’t questioned Jay on his confession. You were scared. Scared he would just turn around and run, and you didn’t want that. Why didn’t you want that? Because you were pretty sure you were falling for Jay as well. So, instead you kept it to yourself. Pretending like you had never heard the conversation. Things had gotten a bit more tense between the two of you since then. You had lost track of the amount of times you almost gave in to your senses of wanting to kiss him, and even though he might not have noticed it became increasing harder by the day. Today you were 3 days over your due date, and you were so done. It was in the middle of the peak of summer and you were certain if you took one step outside of your apartment you were going to die. Your ankles felt and looked like balloons and you were just ready for it to be over.

“There has to be something else.” You whined almost on the verge of tears.

“Sweetheart, I’m sorry. I don’t know. We’ve tried everything on the list.” He sighed going over the list where you had various things marked off.

Exercise ✔️

Spicy food ✔️

Oils ✔️

Herbs ✔️

Massage ✔️

Until you had gotten to the bottom of the list. Where sex and nipple stimulation stood out checkless.

“Well…not everything…” You trailed off swallowing hard, blush heating your face.

“What? Yes we-“ Jay started looking down at the list before stopping and turning to you with big eyes. “[Y/N]? Are you being serious right now?” He croaked voice strained already.

“I don’t-I don’t know…I’m miserable and I just..” You stumbled over your words not meeting Jay’s eyes but you could feel them searching your face. Jay brought a gentle hand to your jaw turning your face so you were looking at him. “If you don’t want to I completely-“ You began before Jay’s lips cut you off with a gentle kiss. Your whole body immediately feeling like it was on fire. The kiss started gentle before turning more urgent, moving to straddle him as best as you could. You pulled away to get a breath lying kisses down Jay’s jaw to his neck.

“[Y/N]…I need you…to make sure.. you’re being…rational.. about this.. right now…” Jay rasped out between heavy breaths.

“I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life.” You admitted backing up to look him in the eyes. His irises a darker blue than what they normally were. He searched your eyes for any sign of hesitation before grasping your face in his hands, pulling you back to his lips. He trailed a finger down your shoulder and arm teasingly before he moved his hand to cup your breast. Massaging it gently. You took his hand in yours guiding him underneath your shirt so your bare breast was in his hand. He used his fingers to pinch your nipple lightly rolling it between his fingers. Making you whine into the kiss before he moved to your other breast. Enjoying every minute of him playing with them. Minutes later feeling a sharp pain in your stomach. You sucked in a deep breath pulling away from Jay quickly.

“What? What’s wrong?” Jay asked concern on his face stopping his movements.

“Nothing..I’m good. Sorry.” You apologized before moving back in to kiss him. Another pain shifting through you, making you groan, hand flying to meet your stomach, and it was then that the worst possible thing that could’ve happened did. Your water broke as you were on top of Jay. The pain suddenly disappeared as you heard a loud pop seconds before a gush of water covered you and Jay. Your eyes met Jay’s in horror feeling the most embarrassed you had ever felt in your life while Jay stayed completely calm. “Oh my god…That didn’t just happen..I’m so sorry. So so so sorry.” You apologized feeling tears immediately cloud your eyes at the embarrassment.

“Honey, hey hey hey it’s fine.” He promised kissing your forehead chuckling a little, “But we have to get to the hospital, okay?” He ordered moving to help you up off of him, rushing into your bedroom. Whenever he returned he had on a new pair of jeans, your hospital bag in hand , a towel, and a new pair of underwear and shorts for you. He moved to help you strip the wet ones off, and dry you before quickly putting the other ones on.

“Can you like…close your eyes or something?” You blushed making him raise and eyebrow at you.

“We were just about to have sex, your water broke all over me, I’m probably going to watch a child come out of you in a few hours, and you want me to close my eyes to help you change?” He teased, amusement in his voice.

“Good point…” You admitted changing with his help before he ushered you down stairs to his truck calling Will on the way down.

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Watching Jay stand at your bedside with your newborn baby girl in his arms had your heart beating rapidly. It was at that moment you knew you were completely and utterly screwed. You were head over heels for Jay Halstead and you had absolutely no intentions of turning back.

“So…the name…” Jay started coming to sit on the bed beside you carefully handing you her over to you. You smiled up at him enjoying the suspension he was in right now.

“You want to know?” You teased and he rolled his eyes nodding his head. “Kennedy Jaye [Y/L/N]…” You smiled down at your little girl before looking up at Jay to see his eyes clouded over.

“Are you..serious..?” He asked in disbelief.

“Yeah. Well, as long as you’re okay with it.” You added.

“Absolutely! 100%.” He smiled wide. “Did the boy name have my name in it too?” He asked after a couple minutes.

“Colton Jay.” You answered making his smirk go wider.

“We can keep that one in the hopper.” He winked making you laugh.

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Life had taken a turn for the best after Kennedy was born. Jay finally admitted his feelings for you and you were more than happy to reciprocate. He had been there for all of the ups and downs, by your side through it all in the last year. More than willing to take over the role of “dad” even though you always reminded him not to feel pressured into the responsibility. He truly was incredible with Kennedy and you made sure to count your blessings every day. Kennedy was in her portable crib napping in the living room as you were in the kitchen starting food since Jay would be home soon. Not long after you felt warm arms tangle themselves around your waist.

“Hi, my love.” Jay whispered laying a gentle kiss on your neck.

“Hi.” You hummed leaning back into him.

“Is my princess still napping?” He asked moving his hands to rub your shoulders as you nodded to his question. As if on cue you heard tiny cries start to come from the living room. Jay kissed you on the top of your head before going to retrieve your daughter. You turned the stove down to let the water boil walking over to take Kennedy from Jay’s arms. Once he handed her over she wiggled in your grasp, whimpering slightly, and making grabby hands at your boyfriend causing a sly smirk to light on his face.

“You don’t want mommy?” You asked frowning. She continued to whimper before whining out a quiet “daddy” leaning and reaching for Jay. Jay’s eyes widened at the word before convincing himself he was hearing things. Up until she said it again, this time louder. Registering what was happening a grin lit up his face taking Kennedy back into his arms, instantly relaxing her.

“I’m right here baby girl.” Jay assured her kissing her head, smile not even slightly faltering. “Did you hear her!?” Jay asked enthusiastically making your heart feel full.

“I did.” You leaned up to kiss his cheek. “Looks like I’m not the only one who likes to call you that.” You winked turning to head back towards the stove.

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6 years later. You and Jay were married now with a newborn baby of your own, Colton Jay Halstead. Kennedy had taken on the big sister role like a champ, and as far as she knew Jay was her dad. Until the inevitable day came. You had just gotten Kennedy off the bus and you could already tell she wasn’t in her usual sunshiny mood. She wouldn’t answer any of your questions upon walking in the door. You were visibly on edge wondering what could possibly be wrong. Concerned as a mother obviously. Jay returning home a couple hours later. He found you sat on the sofa feeding Colton.

“Hi honey.” He greeted leaning down to kiss you. “Where’s Ken?” Jay asked sitting beside you, “Wait what’s wrong?” He immediately sensed your mood.

“Kennedy came home today and there’s something wrong, but she won’t talk to me about it. I’m her mom. She can talk to me about anything. She’s only 7. Why is this already happening?” You sighed not happy that your little girl was starting to grow up.

“Where is she?” He asked looking around.

“In her bedroom. Watching The Little Mermaid.” You answered. He hauled himself up from the couch, returning a couple minutes later Kennedy in tow. He sat down beside you again, placing her on his lap. She cuddled up into him.

“I hear my princess had a bad day.” Jay stated looking down at her as she just nodded her head. “Well you know we have to talk about it.” He continued making her pout stuffing her face in his neck. “Sweetheart we’re here to help.” He begged rubbing a hand up and down her back until she gave in a couple minutes later.

“Are you my daddy?” She finally asked looking at Jay. Jay looked over at you, words caught in his throat.

“Why do you ask?” You cut in for him.

“Well…the kids asked me at school today why I didn’t have my daddy or mommy’s last name. They told me I must be adopted.” She explained. Making you nod.

“Well honey first of all you’re definitely not adopted. You’re my little mini me,” You laid a hand on her cheek staring at the little copy of yourself. “But, it’s a very complicated thing to explain. The important thing to remember is that a daddy is someone who loves you and cares for you and protects you and who is always there for you. Daddy does that doesn’t he?” You tried to answer beating around the bush. You knew this would come up you just didn’t think it’d be so soon. She sat in silence thinking it over before nodding.

“Well.. can I have daddy’s last name?” She asked. You were taken back by her question a little bit and looked over to see Jay surprised as well.

“I think that’s something you have to ask daddy.” You smiled watching her turn in his lap towards him.

“Can I have the same last name as you and mommy and Colton?” She asked sweetly. You swear you could see his heart melt, tears brewing in his eyes before he cleared his throat.

“I would love nothing more.” He answered kissing her on the head as she hugged him. One day she would know the whole truth, but you were convinced when she did she would only love Jay more, just like you did.

Your life had felt so much more whole once Jay came into the picture. He gave you the love you never knew existed. Not only loving you, but Kennedy. A child who wasn’t biologically his, but was more of a father to her from the word “go” than Grant could’ve ever been. To say you were truly and completely in love with Jay Halstead was an understatement, and you would never want it any other way.