You don't believe in anything. You gave up on life before you were even born. Sat poisoning Cocoon from the inside, waiting for someone to come and destroy you. Sure, you think the end of the world is salvation. All you care about is death's release.
Her only purpose is to die over and over! Even though she can see the future, she’s not allowed to escape her fate. She is born knowing that she will die before she has truly lived. Countless deaths, without a life to give them meaning.