Prompt: "I don’t care if I fall in love with a devil, as long as that he will love me the way he loves Hell.“

"You know that if Dean found out about this he-” Castiel shook his head, him not wanting to finish the sentence himself.

You sighed, looking down at your hands “Yeah well he can do whatever he freaking wants. I am not taking it back” you said with a frown.

He sighed, sitting down next to you and placing a hand on top of yours “I did not ask of you to take it back, (Y/n). I knowthat- I know that you saying that word means a lot”

You smiled weakly at him “It is, Cas. It is.”

“But he is not going to let this just go by, you know it right?” he said in a worried voice tone.

You sighed “Yes yes I know. But I can’t help it Castiel. You- it’s just impossible for someone to control these things. I tried to fight it, I swear but I just…” you trailed off with a small breath, biting your lip as you looked down at your hands.

“I know (Y/n). But you must think of the consequences. Of what is right to o for everybody”

You gritted your teeth, trying to keep a growl in “But I’m tired Castiel!” you hissed “I’m sick and tired of having to think about everybody else. I’m sick of putting everybody else’s needs before mine. For the first time I- I feel this way, even if it is for Lucifer and I just-” you growled under your breath, shaking your head “I don’t care- I don’t care if I fall in love with the devil, as long as he will love me the way he loves Hell” you ended up whispering.

Castiel did not say anything,he did not know what to say because he knew you were actually saying the truth. Being a hunter ever since you were a kid you had to make many sacrifices. But he did not have the time to say anything either.

When you were met with a much longer silence than you expected from Castiel you looked up with an open mouth ready to speak but instead closed it. You frowned looking around you when you were unable to see Castiel. He was gone without you realizing it. You shot up from your seat, turning around hoping that you would find Castiel somewhere. Until you stopped suddenly, your body froze.

“You” you breathed out as you locked eyes with the fallen angel.

“Yeah” he smiled “Sorry by the way for sending Cas away. I just needed to see you alone. Talk with you”

The smile he had made your stomach feel with butterflies that got even worse as he strode closer to you. You found yourself standing there, though, unable to make a single move as he neared you. Your heart was beating wildly insideyour chest even if you did not want it, and you scolded yourself mentally for it. You should not be feeling this way about him. He should not be able to make you feel this kind of things.

“Now” he spoke in a much softer voice you did not know he was capable of “What was that little thing you said about me before?”

Your eyes widened at the realization and a lump formed on your throat. But you tried not to let any of your emotions show - no matter how hard it was - but instead put on a brave face, the one of a hunter that you used in front of every monster. Only thing was you would never see him as a monster. Your heart never would.

“And why would you care to listen?” you tried with every fiber in your body to play it hard.

“Hmm” a quiet adorable smile was on his lips and you had to keep yourself from melting “Let’s say because you may bemore important to me than hell is” he shrugged innocently and you fought the urge inside you. You fought all of your feelings. All of the feelings you had for him. Because he was the devil and you should not feel that way. You should love him.

Yet you did.