Hello kiddos
First, my sincerest apologies.
I know I have disappeared on all of my social media for possibly over a year now. Honestly, I had a bit of a mental break down, from physically moving back and forth between the east and west coast in the US. Things not working out. Cutting myself off to people irl. I wasn’t sure how to get over my anxiety of addressing it. Of course we preach self-care and positivity, but it’s really so easy to neglect it on the whole when life feels like it’s moving a bit too fast to keep up with. Dark thoughts that I thought had died out long ago returned in this time of weakness.
Today I am working on bettering myself and relearning a lot of the coping skills I had to learn years ago. So I don’t want others to worry at all honestly, but if I went and posted that within the time I was gone… it would have been dishonest. It was very worrisome.
However, in the now, I can carefully say I am not something to worry about. I am much healthier mentally even though it’s certainly not perfect.
And finally, and most importantly, I’m very very sorry for any worry, distress, or upset I have caused within many of your kind souls. I deserve life’s consequences, so the reaction and feelings you may have towards me is completely real to me and I dare not challenge it. I’ve thought so much about it with fear, but I will do my best to face the music (within reason: death threats are certainly not healthy for anyone involved.).
I appreciate the time you have given to read this letter. Much love to all those out there. I wish to become someone deserving of the many sweet comments and gestures you have gifted me over time. That is never something to take for granted, and I’m very sad I let myself and my mind override the good and run away.
Bless~stay lovely.
- Marrow Moody