i found blood & i saw stars

“the room has two beds haha its not like you can say for certain he’s gonna have sex with her. ur only taking this so hard cuz he’s the only person you’ve ever wished to make love with and it hurts because you believe sex to be an emotional thing and the thought of him feeling a connection to somebody who could never understand him is what has formed an ache in your chest. Like its been over six months since he even breathed the same air as her there is clearly nothing between them haha” - me all last night

the other night i asked my mom if - someday - she’d like to be with me when i give birth to my baby and she told me she would be proud to be there when her grandchild is born!!! :’))

i always feel like such a superior groupie for knowing justin grew up in the new forest. the new wave of fans seem to think he’s from southampton but he’s literally spoken about needing to travel to the closest metropolitan area so he could attend concerts & go to the record shop. just cuz his tiny wikipedia page says he was born in southampton ppl think he lived & grew up there. like i’m pretty sure he absolutely would’ve been born in southampton cuz at the time, it was the nearest hospital to the new forest but still!! his literal family home is in the new forest

sometimes i think perhaps my childhood wasnt as sad as i remember and then i think of all the days i spent home alone while my parents were at work and films were what kept me from feeling lonely

i’d bet a kidney justin’s cali fuckbuddy makes fun of him with her friends. End thought

i cannot in good faith begin posting again til i sort out some things aka talk to my mom & cry for hours on end. Sorry i’m just going thru a lot right now

sometimes i just think about the time my mom told me i deserve better than justin and its like. But mom i like him cuz he has the capacity for being mean

i cannot even put into words how much i dislike the majority of justin’s friends. im sooo sorry

oh ok so the cover of the new vaccines album is really gonna be connected to that dumb blonde bitch. Ok

ppl who say sydney sweeney looks like she comes from a republican family are so outta touch with what conservatives actually look like