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Second Chance, I Guess

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She/Her || 30 || AroAce || I do art, I write, and play some DnD. Find me in more places: https://linktr.ee/isoren
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autistic-af

Right, so many of you may have seen the post about goblin.tools amazing ability to break down tasks into a to-do list.

Well, I downloaded the app yesterday because it's easier for me to remember it if I have the icon on my screen. And then I actually looked at it and holy moly this thing does more than make to-do lists (and these same things are available on the website.).

To-do list? ✔️

Need to formalise your words? Or even maybe make them more sarcastic and everything in-between? ✔️

What about needing to judge how an email comes across? Or you're not sure what the tone of a text message is? ✔️

Need to estimate how long a task will take based on your ability to concentrate on that task? ✔️

Oh, have a brain full of things but can't break it into a useful list? They got you. ✔️

What about random food in your kitchen but zero meal ideas? ✔️

This thing is fucking amazing .

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sometransgal

Sometimes your excuse to keep going despite the mental illness is just that you learned a new thing and want to explore that more. That can be just enough sometimes.

That and the new shoes I ordered coming in. D&D tonight with lovely people. Wanting to paint again sometime this week.

Im at the grasping at straws stage but by god my grip strength has improved.

This post has a funny habit of finding it's way back into my notes whenever I'm doing terribly. It's a nice reminder from the universe.

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leolaroot

time of year i remind every cane user to get an ice pick so you dont fall and die

almost biffed it in a fucking parking lot so time for me to repeat this. if you are a cane user in the northern hemisphere its time to get an ice spike coming in the mail BEFORE the ice forms.

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senirac

I did not know this was a thing. Had a family member start using a cane this past year. Will be buying them one. Thank you!

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neil-gaiman

Hello Mr. gaiman, I need your help, but there's a high chance that you won't see this,

but I'll write the thing I want to say anyway (writing makes me feel better, and lighter, such as a feather).

I'm lonely. I have always been lonely. But two month ago or so, a girl came to the high school I'm study in(I'm also a girl). I...fell in love for the very first time in my life, and she also fell in love with me and confessed her love to me a month ago. I recommended good omens to her, and she loved it(I also do! Can't wait to get an autograph in my beloved good omens copy I own), basically, she was the Crowley to my aziraphale…

Everything was good...until last night. She told me she doesn't think she wants to be like this (both of our families are homophobic, and she's scared), and we can't be 'us' and she just pretended and tested love on me (as if I'm a laboratory sample)... I had a massive panic attack... I'm heartbroken, and I can't talk about it with my family... told her I'll give her time to think…she apologised, but her apology is not enough, I'm afraid. She's the only one for me... Not only that, but I want and need her love.

What shall I do? God is not helping me at all... no one is helping me, I'm lost. I just want everything to be good! I never said a bad thing to her, I was the kindest, I was her angel (yes she used to call me that) and now...we had a break-up.

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There are no break-ups as bad as high school break ups. There are no highs and no lows as hard as what happens when your heart is held and your heart is broken then. And right now your heart is broken.

I can't give you advice on the person or even about dealing with your homophobic families, other than to keep yourself safe, and to hang in there.

What I can say is, it will be okay and you will be okay. You will find your person or your people, you will find yourself, you will find your world. This isn't the end of anything, it's just a stumble on the road.

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When I was seventeen, I met a girl and fell in love. She loved me too, but her family was deeply homophobic and had made her feel ashamed of any love that wasn't for a man. We were together for one beautiful year of promises, romance, and planning of our future before her parents found out I'd given her my high school's Senior ring as a promise we'd get married someday.

Suddenly I stopped hearing from here. I was terrified, panicked, imagining every scary thing I could think of. And two weeks later I get the call. We can't be together anymore. My parents know. They're holding college over my head, and I'm not sure I even want this. It was fun, but being away from you, the intensity fades away, and I can imagine life without you.

I couldn't.

I felt like my life was over. At 17. So I lived my life like it was. I did whatever I wanted, I was reckless and careless with myself and my feelings, and I ran around chasing what felt like good times because at least I wasn't thinking about her anymore.

And then one day I meet this woman. She's wearing a purple shirt and a smile that glows like the sun and I think to myself, she seems like a fun person to waste some hours with. And she is! We laugh and smile, we go out dancing and we stay up all night talking. A whole lifetime passes in six months and suddenly it hits me. I love this woman. And it makes me so angry. Because how could I move on from that first great love? How could I forget what it meant to me and love someone else? How could I just....be happy again?

So I stop texting, and I cry in my dorm room for hours, and wouldn't you know it this wonderful woman with the golden smile shows up at my door and begs me to tell her what's wrong, and then she HOLDS ME while I sob and tell her all about this amazing girl who ran away from me and she says "I would never croticize someone you love, but if she gave you up, that's on her." And she just sits with me, and lets me be sad and mad and in love and hurting and all the things I am, and she loves me anyway.

It's ten years later now and that woman with the golden smile has been my wife for seven of them. We've been through good times and bad, laughter and tears, happiness and hurt, and through it all the one thing that has stayed the same is that we have chosen each other again and again and we do the work to make that choice worthwhile for each of us.

First loves are powerful and you may well carry a part of them in you forever. But there will always be love that chooses you back, every time. It's okay if you get to enjoy a few loves, and wrestle with a few heartbreaks, before you find that.

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My department has been complaining to management for literally 7 months now about how we’re understaffed and it’ll be hell once summer comes around and we’re twice as busy. Summer is here. And it has been pretty awful.

There’s a couple things that suck about working every single day with just a skeleton crew. 

One… is that the money they must be saving by not staffing us properly… certainly did not go into our raises this year. 

But what’s finally starting to get upper management’s attention… is that we are human beings. People get sick. My department manager’s officially out for 3 weeks from an unplanned, emergency surgery. Another crew member has been struck down by the bug that’s going around. Which means we are officially in crisis mode.

Down 2 people… And we have no idea how we’re going to keep the place running. At least not for the entirety of the official store hours. Let corporate have their meltdown if we have to start opening late/closing early/or making a fuck-ton of overtime… Those are literally the only options now. It’s not even a matter of no one wanting to work extra on their days off… There is no one extra to call. 

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isoren245

Around 2020-2021 (mid covid, yes) I worked at a copy shop (the kind of place where you can get customized shirts, mugs, keychains and the likes), and was in charge of graphics, printing and maintenance of some of the printers. Sometimes call customers about their orders, but never front desk stuff (tho some customers over the phone were dismal, and I had to handle them usually while working on other things.

I worked 2 days a week at first with another girl doing the sam job to learn the works and slowly moved into a full 6-day week. At some point the other girl started uni, which was already known, but they never hired another person (and forced her to quit rather than fire her so they won't have to pay her compensations, but that's a whole other messy story). There's only one more person in the shop that knows a bit of photoshop, but also has in-store responsibility so can't help too much, let alone take over.

Cue to a few months later, I'm eagerly taking a copywriting course that take place on monday night and friday morning - meaning I can't work fridays for a few months (was about to leave in a few months anyway due to moving). My manager was livid, and I have sincerely tried to reason with her saying the downsizing they did at the shop makes it unsustainable (to which I was told that "workforce decisions are non of my business") and makes me feel like I can't have any time off, and even when I do I stress over the piling work I have to face. I offered to split my hours differently, but the best they offered was for me to come in every other Friday, meaning I miss 25% of my course, and they ended up giving me an ultimatum of taking that offer or quit (again, not fire me, quit, so not only I don't get compensation, I can't recieve unemployment benefits for 3 months)

I told her that this makes no sense, and that while this time it's a class, what would happen if I can't work suddenly for a period of time, if I'm needed at home for a family member or if I get sick and can't come in and she waved me off, sticking to the ultimatum.

She threatened involving a lawyer if I just up and left and I really didn't have the energy to drag it out, so I put in my 2 week notice.

And you know what happened the last week and a half? I got covid.

Nothing serious, but enough to get me quarantined for the rest of my employment period, perfectly delivering my point since I know they didn't get anyone else to do graphics and learn the works before I got sick.

So yeah, if you try to keep your staff to a minimum, it's gonna bite you back

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poobtato

Understanding The Endless: They are EXACTLY what they're called

I've seen this interesting post by @rey-jake-therapist and I've noticed something that The Sandman fans tend to do that some are already discussing: how we often view The Endless as humans and hold them to human standards when not only are they not human, they are not Gods who are supposedly all benevolent and always using their powers for the good of mortals and the world either (setting aside the fact that deities in The Sandman have never been infallible or all benevolent nor are they meant to be any of those in the first place). They're not even a separate entity who holds power over their dominion. They are not a representation of the concept they embody either. They are EXACTLY what they're called.

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Oddly specific. Got a deposit for 6,837 today

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weaselle

fuck it, i never ever do those “reblog for X, this one really works!” posts, but this one doesn’t have any of that BS, this is just straight up wishing us good things; and then the comment doesn’t even say any of that either. Zero claims on this post, all positive vibes

May you end this week feeling ever more certain of a future you’ll love

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vmohlere
May you end this week feeling ever more certain of a future you’ll love
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