I am devasted to announce
that until I personally indulge in that content, there will no longer be any Lord of the Mysteries, Dark Souls, or Red Rising content on my page as I have lost the person I searched content for☹️ and idk when, or if I'll ever heal enough from that loss to do so without it hurting me too much by remind me of them but there is always hope as long as there is life !
I love loving. I hate having to get over. I hate how it is expected of me to let go of your laugh, of your smile, of your kindness, of what you used to tell me about excitedly, and what I purposely searched for you so you could keep telling me abt your interests with that childish enthusiasm I am oh so fond of, to hear it in your voice and feel it in your chest, and seeing you smile without ever seeing you really.
Maybe I should forget you, there is no going back. But the secret of you, of your voice, of your face, of your love is one I'll protect even from myself, and the weaknesses of my mind to the passing time, I will keep you close to my heart while being afar from you, I wish the only thing I take with me to my grave is the trust of vulnerability we once shared.
Do not despair, even as I grow old and you further from me as the ports of the sea in Marseille are to the mist covering Sofia, even if it might become a lie as you let yourself be known & loved by someone else, deep inside me, when the question is asked : Who is it that you know best in this lone world? And you, who knows you the most intimately? The untold truth hidden in my miserable soul, the answer decipherable in my sorrowful eyes and my ridiculous smile will be,
You.
