lunastorta

in many ways being alive is about getting to have a little coffee every morning

Fuck me as hard as my anxiety does

when camus said the literal meaning of life is whatever you're doing that prevents you from killing yourself

planning my week and creating a to do list of all the things that I need to finish this week, work is getting really intense and doing to-do lists is helping me to keep up with everything.

i started reading Susan Howe yesterday and also re-started Coventry by Rachel Cusk

I be like "omg, i have so much to do" and then go lay down

Hibernation would fix me

messy, stressy and a lil depressy

list of things im handling well currently

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finished presenting my paper on maratha military and sovereignty in class — it went great — and i will now reel from its after-effects for the rest of today

—reasons to keep a diary/written record of existence.

credits: 1. anais nin; 2. sophocles; 3. fanny howe; 4. @pigmenting ; 5. louise erdrich; 6. tristine rainer; 7. clarice lispector; 8. sei shonagon; 9. elaine feinstein; 10. susan goldsmith wooldridge.

10.23.21 | I wonder if there’s a word for the passing of days feeling both fast & interminable at the same time. I’m sure there must be. It’s honestly how I’ve been feeling for the past couple of weeks. While I was able to accomplish a lot of things on my to do lists, every single task just took so much longer than I thought it would. That could either be a testament to how poorly I manage my time, or how unrealistic I am with my daily goals. 

Featured above are two of my current reads: American Gods by Neil Gaiman, & The Ballad of Reading Gaol and Other Poems by Oscar Wilde. I’m getting through them slowly as I can only spare an hour or less on reading these days. But no matter how little or how much I read, it always helps to make me feel somewhat saner.

♫ Work Song by Hozier

more and more study aesthetics/ inspo

credits to - pintrest and owners

this website lets you listen to the sounds of all different forests around the world 

Roads to Nowhere

Good lighting and good coffee, what more could I ask for?

🎵 I know it’s over - The Smiths