- ̗̀ emotional anorexic ̖́-

it seems as if everyone knows her, like she’s touched all of their lives in one way or another. her fingerprints are littered on everyone, each of them telling a different story. surely one person couldn’t possibly be so many people all at once, but when you meet her you begin to have your doubts. just seeing her smile is like taking a breath of fresh air, like the slight raise of her brows could change the way you see the world. but there will always be an air of mystery about her, something she’s not telling you. she’s so many people all at once, but she’s also just a girl with a secret.

give me a really possessive m/m plot where muse a will never admit to being gay/bi/pan or to liking even one guy, muse b. but the thing is, muse b is getting tired of his attitude and not admitting his feelings so muse b ends up finding someone else or, at least, wanting to find someone else. when muse a figures it out, they go crazy and refuses to let muse b be with or see anybody that isn’t him. whether or not muse a admits his feelings or sexuality is up to you, but i just want angst.

um. i know i’m barely here sometimes but this is really just an appreciation post to all my real ones out here.. i love u all.

@safcri : hello cleo u know i love u and all 50 of our pairings with all my heart theres a lot to write here but thank u for being the only charming asshole i need in my life talking to u and lindsey every day makes me feel dead inside but also a bit happier about it

@mythologicvl : linds u are truly the biggest asshole ik and there is also a lot to write here but ur the bianca to my adore and that says it all i love u so very much even though u drag me thru mud daily u are also very easy to write with please give me threads

@ofsycophants : kit u are my best friend in the entire world and u ARE my entire world i would do anything for u please come visit me soon i need u in my life bitch my sunshine my mf bff

@deardoses : morgan u dragged me in ur ff but i am here to say just this: thank u ugly. i love u

@indiigo @wearyhands @sedctives @demonschills

@hotboxed @mocnlit @miragcs @honeymoonavcnues @diorkisses @advcrsiity @huedskys @hvneybces @yeuns @kyukcn @hholys @aimlessheart @criimsons @ofcataclysmic @zehpyrs

oh my gosh ! i can’t believe that over 700 of you willingly subject yourself to mine and kal’s nonsense on your dashboard on a daily basis — it’s absolutely incredible. first and foremost, i just want to say a huge and profound THANK YOU to everyone who does follow me and has supported me on this blog. it means the world to me to know that so many of you enjoy my writing and enjoy kal as a character. for those of you who have been there since the beginning, I AM SORRY ! and to those who have just recently followed me who are realizing the enormity of your mistake in following me, I AM EQUALLY SORRY. hah. you all are so incredible and amazing and to all of my mutuals, i can’t wait to rp with you in the future. one of these days i will build the courage to overwhelm you with love … hopefully. okay, i’m sure you’re getting tired of me kissing ass so lets get to the promo part ! ((’: p.s. — every section will be listed out in alphabetical order !

OR, THOSE SPECIAL BBIES WHO PUT UP WITH MY ANNOYING ASS ON A DAILY BASIS AND STILL STICK WITH ME ANYWAYS.

@bloodiedsaints — MY LIL KIWI ((’: i think we first met around two years ago ? and tbh, i’ve adored you ever since then ! you were just so sweet ! little did we know that in that two years, WE WOULD STILL HAVE YET TO ACTUALLY HAVE A SHIP. it makes me laugh because we always try so hard to plot and we get so close to finishing and then we just get swept up in ooc nonsense lmfao. also, i don’t think i’ve met anyone who understands my love for paul wesley better than you do xD and i love that we can just talk for hours about our insatiable THIRST for him. honestly, you’re the most flawless lil bean and ilysm <3

@comcta — JAZ, JAZZY, JAZMANIAN DEVIL. don’t even get me started on you. you amazing me, in all honesty. you’ve been there since the beginning — the days when my writing was absolute trash, i couldn’t make a graphic worth two pennies, I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW WHAT PHOTOSHOP WAS, and coding was a myth. you were there through it all and, yet, you still decided that i was worth roleplaying with. that level of genuineness is just so rare and it exemplifies you so perfectly. and i adore you so much because of it. people as precious as you are so hard to find and i hope you know that i’m NEVER LETTING YOU GO, OKAY ? i know that there is always a shoulder if i need one in you and there is nothing more comforting than that. we’ve had so many ships and i miss and love every single one of them — they bring me so much pain in so many different ways. i just ! NEVER LEAVE ME OK ? I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH JAZZY.

@damgaed — MY MARIA, MY MARIO, MY BING. i just … i love you so much. i hate to say it but i honestly have to thank adri for the blessing that you are in my life ok. indie would’ve never been the same had we not met and it definitely wouldn’t be as special to me ! you are my partner in crime, especially when we wanna gang up on adri and call her out for her SHIT. but, tbh, half the talk, we just send each other gifs and memes and tell one another how much we love one another and its so fluffy and i love it. i love you. you are the chandler to my joey, the mario to my luigi, the maria to my victoria. we could talk about nothing literally all day and i would never get tired of it. MOST OF THE TIME WE’VE KNOWN EACH OTHER WE HAVEN’T EVEN HAD A SHIP, we just love talking to each other and that warms my heart the most — that we just love each other’s company that much. never change. never leave me. ‘cause i wouldn’t be the same without you and adri and i could never be the THREE AMIGOS without you <3

@dctrimentals — MY DUDE, MY BRO, MY ONESIE. i’m gonna attempt to keep this short because, lets be honest, i could write a damn novel about you and how deeply my love for you extends. i haven’t met anyone in roleplay who i’ve gotten as close to as you. i mean, YOU LITERALLY CROSSED THE ATLANTIC OCEAN FOR ME. not only did you cross the atlantic, but you also endured two hours of airport customs officers HARASSING YOU for me. like, who tf would deal with that for my annoying ass ? you just amaze me, ok ? you are so special to me and i don’t even wanna think about how my life would be without you in it. the three weeks you were here were the most amazing three weeks. to say that my family absolutely ADORES you would be a damn understatement. you put up with my zayn obsession and i put up with your justin and liam obsessions.every day i look forward to your call, even tho YOU FILL MY HEAD WITH INSANELY ANNOYING SONGS THAT ARE STUCK IN YOUR HEAD. you are the best to my friend, okay ? i love you so much <3

@deardoses — MORGAN, BBY ! i love you so much, ok ? we haven’t known each other all that long but indie became so much more enjoyable to be a part of when i met you. you liking that random starter call was the best thing that could’ve happened — even though our children give me HEART PALPITATIONS. it will never cease to amaze me how we went from being all CUTE AND KISSING EACH OTHERS ASS to calling each other out on our shit in such a short period of time but tbh, it just shows how comfortable we are around one another. i know that when push comes to shove, i always have a friend in you. I LOVE YOU, LOVE <3 ((’:

@hholys — SATAN ! honestly, you are satan personified but words can’t describe how much i adore you. two and a half years ago you liked a random starter call i posted and ever since — i’ve clung to you like a koala. half the time, we are just yelling at each other for our stupid ass decisions regarding our children. but the other half, we are supporting each other when it counts and laughing at each other when it doesn’t. every single ship that we’ve ever had never fails to slaughter me ESPECIALLY DYLAN AND KAL. they are one of those few ships that i’ve had since i began rping that just STICK with me as one of the top otps.  they ruin me, you ruin me, i’m just constantly in PAIN ‘cause of you ! but i love you so much. you and maria are always the first people to attack me when i come back from hiatuses and i don’t know what i’d do without either one of you. I’D BE NOTHING WITHOUT MY FELLOW AMIGOS <3

@khcleesis — MY LIL SQUISHY ! we haven’t known each other for too long but, tbh, it doesn’t even matter. you are the purest of the pure ok. i don’t think that there are any words to accurately describe how much i absolutely adore you. timezones cockblock us nearly every day but i love when i pull all nighters and you just pop up like a lil ray of sunshine and make my night all that much better. you never cease to bring a smile to my face. i love hearing about your day or what’s on your mind AND I KNOW I CAN ALWAYS COME TO YOU AND DO THE SAME WITHOUT SECOND THOUGHT. you make my heart melt. the best day will be the day we cuddle and watch game of thrones together ok <3

@untilwebleeds — ANDREA, MY LOVE ! listen, i don’t … even know where to start when it comes to you. i just … i think we met about two years ago and ever since you have just been KILLING ME EVER SINCE. half the time, i question if you are real, tbh. not only does your writing inspire me like no other, you’re just as much of an aesthetic hoe as i am. and i love knowing that I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE SUFFERING xD whenever i’m lacking in muse or inspiration, you are honestly the first person i go to. you’re graphics make me weep and you’re writing turns me into an absolute WRECK. there is just no one like you. we have had like five hundred ships and every single one manages to destroy me in different ways — especially when we just sit and headcanon with one another until we are BLUE IN THE FACE. and don’t even get me started on all the characters you’ve had and how amazing you are at executing them. i just … i love you so much for so many different reasons. you are an angel and the devil all in one and i love you because of it <3

OR, THOSE WHO I HAVE THREADS WITH THAT I ABSOLUTELY ADORE WITH ALL OF MY HEART.

@cvquette, @honeymoonavcnues, @kyukcn, @lostcontrcl, @louqor, @midnvghts, @ofcataclysmic, @ofplaceholders, @valxindies, @wstedd

OR, THOSE THAT I’M TOO SHY TO TALK TO AND, INSTEAD, ADMIRE FROM AFAR.

@auburnsouls, @blcckish, @bornsinnrs, @brazenings, @carryburdens, @cheatcodcs, @collisiontheories, @diorkisses, @gasolinehearts, @huedskys, @hvneybces, @indiigo, @lustrcvs, @midasardor, @mythologicvl, @neonthrill, @ofserpents, @pureimcgination, @rcdbonc, @roserecovery, @sadscngs, @safcri, @saintedlys, @sedctives, @signcfthctimes, @turbiidus, @turbxlence, @undaed