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Herro Anna.

@annaakana / annaakana.tumblr.com

I document things.
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what to write (poetry)

Hemingway told me to write about what hurts

So suicide and death are pretty prevalent in my work

It twists and turns itself into my every written word

I’m a mocking bird, singing the same old song, it’s so absurd

But if I write, then I rewrite for the voice that went unheard

And I reword the same old story to the ending I prefer

Where death was just some distant doom that hadn’t yet occurred

And I could still hold onto her

King told me to write throughout the night

And wait for all the things it brings to fill me full of fright

But no monster or fanged demon ever feels quite right

Because I invite the absence of the light

In the darkness, perhaps she hovers there, just out of sight

Her ghostly figure fading as the moon brightens white

And as I chase her child’s hand, feeling mine ignite

She’s gone - and so’s tonight

Asimov told me to write to change the past

That every breath you took would eventually be your last

And if the blank page were God, what would you ask?

Seventy thousand words later, you will have surpassed

The shadows that have haunted you from tragedies amassed!

Praise the written word for it has the power to outlast

This fickle feeble flesh will give way, stories everlast

Christ was merely craft

If you ask me, write about your dreams

The changes that you’d make in a world that makes you scream

The cruelty and hypocrisy and welcome rise of the machines!

If you could look into the mirror and be what you believe

A sister who didn’t fail, merely fantasies

But aren’t our stories that? Rewritten tragedy?

Casually adjusting the casualties of our random reality? Bringing rhyme and reason to rhapsody? Dysfunctional family and rejecting finality and fucking profanity?

If you ask me what to write, just don’t ask me why

Because I’ve been writing as an excuse not to die

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hi anna! how did you actually find a good therapist that you trust and can talk openly to? i feel like going to therapy would help me a lot but i don't know where/how to start. (and also there's the money problem but let's keep that aside for a moment)

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I actually had to go through a couple therapists before I found the best one for me! And I knew he was awesome because he guides me through my thoughts and shows me different perspectives. I could be confident and trust him about anything

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Anonymous asked:

I'm trying to start therapy but I'm scared. I guess I partly feel guilty for relapsing but it's just hard for me to adjust to change. I have the numbers I just need to call. What can I do to get through this?

That’s a step in the right direction. You got this, don’t feel guilty! You’re doing this for yourself, that’s all that matters. I think everyone should have a therapist

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hey anna, i hope you don't mind me asking this question, but have you ever dealt with the fear of the end? the end of a friendship, a relationship or even just life in itself? how do you deal with such moments? sending you loads of love, Anna!

All the time. It’s scary to feel like you’re nearing the end of anything, but for me personally it also is a blessing. Because it makes me put everything into perspective and is a positive lesson for me. Like, if my relationship was ending, why and how did it get to that point? What can i do to better myself and what have I learned? As for life, I’ve realized that it’s the best thing anyone could ever ask for, and I know whenever it’s over, I’ve lived a pretty damn good one ha!

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Why do you think that talking about mental illness is a taboo topic or a topic not many people, especially in the media, talk about?

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I think it’s because people want to be able to understand things right away and to be defined in simpler terms. They wanna be able to be like “oh? depression? Yeah I know everything, here’s the solution!” When really it’s different for everyone. And because it is a difficult topic people choose to not want to understand it, and shut it down or ignore it, especially the media.

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Hi! Do you have any tips for dealing with people that just put you down / make you feel worse about yourself? It's cutting into my motivation and I really want it to stop.

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Unfortunately we all have those people in our lives, but they are also probably dealing with their own problems as well. You can always try addressing it with them and being honest about how their negativity is affecting you, and if there is an underlying issue they’ve been dealing with, you guys could maybe talk out? If they persist even after, maybe they’re not really your friends and don’t have your best interests and should distance yourself.

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I have finals coming up and im extremely stressed and anxious. I havent beed able to fall asleep in 4 days due to the anxiety and my confidence is at an all time low and im practically 100% sure im gonna get a bad grade on my science and math exams. Any advice?

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You’re doing the best you can. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Sometimes stress can make studying alot more difficult too, so make sure to take a break here and there. Good luck!

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Anonymous asked:

I have been on my antidepressants for about a month now, but these past few days I have been feeling very icky and that scares me, causing my anxiety to go crazy. I don't want to feel that way again, should I wait it out? It could just be a bad few days.

I’d recommend talking to your doctor, don’t wait it out.

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Anonymous asked:

If there's one thing you could tell someone struggling with depression/anxiety, what would it be?

Please don’t give up, you are going to get through this. Although there is no quick fix and it’s a journey, it’s totally okay to feel like this and just know that you aren’t alone. 

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