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@quidpropunk / quidpropunk.tumblr.com

Formerly Orphan Black. Now something.
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Another post on my husband's behalf:

The biggest issue with late diagnosis ADHD, is that you can be left metaphorically falling. Let me explain.

My husband is late diagnosis ADHD. This is very important, because he spent decades masking and using all his energy to keep things working.

He is now realising that he is damn tired and burnt out. He has never had support, therapy, understanding or compassion for his struggles. Mostly because his struggles were downplayed.

He was just "acting stupid", "lazy", "playing dumb", "being a little shit", and was 100% "too much".

He has slowly become insular, introverted, bitter and asocial. He has pushed away everyone but me. And even I am sometimes too much for him because of my autism.

However, now he has an answer to all this. He's none of those things people told him he was. He's smart, hard working, funny, and intense in a way that will leave you just as passionate. He's also combined ADHD.

But in the place of all those stories others told him, in the place of all those masks and all his self-made supports, he's now seeing that it has been damaging him and he has been left lost and confused.

"Yes, I know that's a symptom of my ADHD," he says, "but what do I do about it?"

And we're trying to figure that out. It's hard to let go of those self-made supports, to unmask and admit "maybe I shouldn't do this to myself". Because if you let go too fast, the executive dysfunction is so bad, he fears he'll be lost. The medication only helps so much.

Adult support for late diagnosis, whether it is ADHD, autism and many others, just leaves you to fall.

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I always hate it when people are all “so do you go to school, or are you working, or” and I either have to

  • make up some lie, or
  • eventually get around to “I am not working because of depression/anxiety,” and subsequently have to deal with whatever bullshit-riddled and completely unsolicited opinions on mental illness this stranger feels obligated to share with me.

So my therapist was like, “You don’t have to do either. You can just say you haven’t worked in a while because you’re recovering from an illness.”

I tried it when the home inspector was here today, and it fucking worked. He was like, “oh, I’m sorry, are you doing better now,” and I’m like yeah, and don’t worry, it’s not contagious, awkward laugh, and we moved on.

MY THERAPIST. IS A GENIUS. Because it is an illness, so it’s not a lie to say that, and it’s also none of his business to know specifically what it is, and I clearly don’t want to give more details, so we should move on from this topic. MY THERAPIST IS A GODDAMN GENIUS.

Dude I needed this. I never know what to say when people ask if I work because I’m severely disabled and don’t work.

REBLOG TO SAVE A LIFE HOLY SHIT

To add, this works on job interviews too.  I once had to answer the ‘so whats up with this gap of 8 months in your resume where you were unemployed?” and I just said I had suffered an illness and I needed time to recover.

It’s easy enough, not a lie, and puts them on edge enough that they usually don’t go digging.

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quidpropunk

excellent

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Like the thing about Loki in Norse mythology is there’s like 8000 myths about Loki just being chaotically mischievous and the other gods are like lol oh that scamp, no matter how disastrous his schemes are, their reaction is still pretty much always ‘haha oh that’s just Loki.’

EXCEPT for basically….one myth. Where Loki’s instrumental in the death of Baldur and the gods are all WHOA TOO FUCKING FAR DUDE and send him to Hel to be tormented for all eternity, leading to his ultimate escape/release in Ragnarok to end all things and lead the army of the damned and his monstrous children to pretty much…eat all the gods, destroy Asgard, and burn the World Tree all to the ground so it can all start over.

Here’s the thing though. Norse mythology spanned centuries. The tales of Loki as the mischievous trickster god were told for centuries.

However, for most of that time, the myths were told as part of oral traditions passed down generation to generation, until they were finally compiled in manuscript form in the 13th century, roughly. This is when pretty much all the sagas, as Norse myth compilations were called, are considered to have been written down for the first time, and so they included thousands of stories that had been told over hundreds of years.

They were also regional, though there was a lot of overlap, given that the Vikings traveled widely and regularly across the various parts of Scandinavia. Still, different parts of Scandinavia had their own sagas. Norway had different sagas than Denmark who had different sagas than Iceland, etc. Even though all of them featured primarily the same figures, they each had their own unique stories featuring the gods. However, very rarely did they have radically different takes on those gods.

Now what’s significant about the fact that pretty much every saga we have, where these myths were all finally written down and preserved, is from the 13th century….

Is that pretty much all of Scandinavia had converted to Christianity by the early 12th century, with active worship of the Norse gods being scattered and mostly underground from that point on.

Why is this significant?

Because it means every Norse myth we have a written recording of was not written by people who still actively worshiped those gods. Nor were they intended to be read as such at the time. 

They were written down by Christian scholars who wrote them AS stories. They were intended as collections of their regions’ cultural histories, but not by or for people who still actively believed in these stories or the figures they featured. They weren’t like….TRYING to be super accurate, is the thing. The scholars who wrote these sagas were writing down the stories that had been passed down for generations, but through the lens of people who saw them as stories their ancestors once believed, not ones that pertained to their own current worldview.

And they were writing these sagas for an audience of people who similarly believed as they believed.

Which means that inevitably, some things got ‘adjusted’ to fit the current world view, the zeitgeist of the scholars writing down the stories and that of the people who would read or have the stories read to them from thereon. Because again, they weren’t aiming for being 100% faithful to the tales as they’d been told to them. They were just treating them as stories. And what do you do when the story you’re writing down has elements that don’t make that much sense to you because they were born of and aimed a worldview that doesn’t match yours?

Well, if you’re the Christian scholars writing the Norse sagas, you ‘tweak’ those elements until they make a story that fits your worldview.

So remember how I said the various sagas were regional and had a lot of overlap but some stories were distinct to some regions and didn’t show up elsewhere?

Yeah, Ragnarok is one of those.

Thousands of sagas encompassing centuries of Norse mythology and oral traditions were written down all over the various regions of Scandinavia in the 13th century.

Ragnarok only showed up in one.

The most famous, granted, but still. Everything we’re told in Norse myths about the death of Baldur and Loki’s role in it, leading to his punishment and torment in Hel and his ultimate release and bringing forth the armies of Hel to slay the gods and end the world?

Comes from the Prose Edda and the later Poetic Edda, from Iceland.

Which had primarily converted to Christianity as far back as 1000.

Now, the Vikings? Were actually surprisingly not a big doom and gloom people. Pretty much every assumption of them as such comes from how synonymous we regard Ragnarok with their culture.

It is after all, the ultimate Judgment Day myth, isn’t it? Right up there with Christianity’s Book of Revelations. An apocalyptic end of the world scenario, a war between heaven and hell, where everything is destroyed so that the world can basically start fresh with a clean slate. Nothing old ‘deserves’ to survive, pretty much the only way for a world free of sin and evil to arise is from the ashes of the old, after everything has been cleansed with fire.

Now contrast this ‘myth’ with pretty much every other Norse myth that’s survived. Larger than life tales of grand adventures, noble quests, gods walking among mortals in disguise and heroes fighting giants and stealing from dragons.

Where the closest thing the Norse pantheon has to a devil figure is Loki, the god of mischief….not even evil, but MISCHIEF, because a far more accurate representation of the Vikings’ world view is that sometimes shit happens, because Loki the god of chaos likes to make a mess of things. And what do you do when that happens? If you’re the Vikings, you basically just shrug, go “well, that’s Loki” for you, and drink some more mead.

Loki isn’t vilified in a single myth until Ragnarok, because the Vikings didn’t hate him. And they certainly didn’t fear him. They LAUGHED at him. In nine out of ten myths, Loki ends up the subject of ridicule himself, as he has the tables turned on him or outsmarts himself

Until Ragnarok.

Which, granted, could very well be another Norse myth that was passed down generation to generation in Iceland, land of frequent volcanic eruptions and likely inspiration for Musplheim, the land of the fire giants.

BUT. Which could equally likely, and far more plausibly given the overall context of Norse mythology, simply be a story the scholar who wrote the Prose Edda made up to ‘finish off’ his saga of the world according to the Vikings, from beginning to end.

An ending his Christian audience of the times would understand and identify with a lot better than they would understand the concept of a devil-figure that existed to be LAUGHED at, to show how little the Vikings feared some mythical figure with the power to lie and deceive them….the complete opposite of the way Christians feared Satan.

Basically put….Ragnarok, for all that we think of it as the ultimate Norse myth….DOES NOT MAKE SENSE in the context of almost EVERY single other Norse myth AND in the context of how Norse society viewed the world and their place in it, or their gods and their relationship with them.

Same with Loki’s depiction in Ragnarok.

What both Ragnarok and Loki’s role in Ragnarok DO make sense in the context of, however, is in a bastardization of Christianity’s own doomsday tales of a Judgment Day, stylized to fit the trappings of Norse mythology and feature their gods instead of Christian figures.

With Loki recast in the role of the Devil, as he was the closest fit they could find to that.

And with Baldur, god of light (a Norse god who is at best a footnote in Norse myths other than Ragnarok, and certainly was never the major pantheon figure he’s assumed to be), recast in the role of the Christ figure. Whose death starts the ball rolling for Judgment Day and who is destined to return for it, to triumph over Loki/Satan and preside over the new, purified world once it’s reborn from the ashes of the old one.

Anyway, tl;dr, don’t believe the hype, Ragnarok’s probably not even an actual Norse myth but the invention of Christian writers who were like lol this would make for a great Book of Revelations fanfic AU, and Loki was almost certainly never regarded by actual Vikings as some evil, malicious world-destroyer who would lead armies of the dead at Armageddon whoops I mean Ragnarok.

tl;dr of the tl;dr Loki’s not actually evil and more on how Christians bastardize things.

Wow, fascinating! Thank you for this very informative post @bigskydreaming 💖

I don’t know how accurate all of this is, but I would like to point out that calling all of pre-1200s scandinavians “vikings” is like calling all of the citizens in the Caribbean during 1500-1800 “pirates.” I’m not sure if OP was just saying ‘viking’ to make things clear (I do that all the time as well), but ACTUAL viking culture is a bit different than homestead scandinavian culture. Storytelling in a farmhouse is a lot different than storytelling on a ship in dangerous oceans.

Other than that, interesting take! It frustrates me to no end that the norse myths and oral stories were written by Christians (don’t get me started on Beowulf, everytime I read it I just think of all the Good Shit I’m missing bc some monk wanted the story but not the “blasphemy”). I trust Snorri Sturluson, but we’ll never truly know if those were the real myths.

I believe OP was calling them vikings just to make things clear, as the time between the mid 700s to the early 1000s was referred to as the ‘Viking era’.

Snorri did write some interesting things, but he was still a christian man and edited the myths, even adding new gods and goddesses that were not previously there, when he was writing them in order to suit the society he was living in. Take his stories with a grain of salt when reading them, as they are not wholly accurate to the original myths that were passed down through time.

If anyone wishes to learn about the norse myths and the old norse language in a more proper manner, i highly recommend watching Dr. Jackson Crawford’s videos on youtube. He is an Old Norse specialist and instructor of Scandinavian studies at the uni of Colorado Boulder.

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Anonymous asked:

punk bands of color recs? if you could also rec your favorite album by each band so i can listen to it first it can be overwhelming to sort through them ^_^

[image id: a tumblr ask from an Anonymous user which reads “i’d love to hear [about] any punk bands of color that you like!! as many as you want ^^” /end id]

totally!! thank you for the interest, here’s a list of bands i really enjoy, an album (linked on spotify), and a blurb about each of them!! 

  • pinkshift — rainwalk — okay they only have 3 singles out rn but they are my favorite !! theyre from baltimore md and have an angsty pop punk / riot grrrl vibe and their music is perfect to fuck up your hair to 
  • ho99o9 — cyber cop [unauthorized mp3.] — pronounced “horror”! industrial hip hop / anarchic hardcore punk blend with a sickening horror inspiration. their live shows are fucking nuts and they’re based in LA!!
  • nova twins — who are the girls? — LITERALLY ICONIC love their style love their music and theyve been using their platform to uplift other marginalized creators! check out the voices of the unheard playlist!
  • turnstile — nonstop feeling — hardcore punk metal band from baltimore md !! they have 3 albums out rn and each of them rocks
  • the muslims — gentrifried chicken — self-described as “all-queer, Black & Brown punk band that’s politically and punklitically ruthless” !! their music revolves around sick lyrics and sicker sound. get into it
  • le butcherettes — sin sin sin — experimental genre-bending mexican garage punk band with teri gender bender as the main vocalist/guitarist 
  • big joanie — sistahs —Black feminist punk band from london’s diy scene! their start stems from the frustration with the scene’s lack of intersectionality & establishes that woc have always had a place in punk 
  • krimewatch — krimewatch — hardcore punk band from new york city! killer energy and vicious lyrics in japanese and english. 
  • death tour — blood pact — i dont even know where to start with this one tbh!! aggressive music with engrossing genre blends and an unwavering anti-authoritarian worldview
  • drinking boys and girls choir — keep drinking — punk trio from daegu city in korea! they have a great range of musical styles and their spirit is so fun it’s infectious 
  • letlive. — the blackest beautiful — no longer an active band but they’ll always have a spot in my heart. sick post-hardcore stuff with heavy-hitting music and politically inspired lyrics !!
  • skatune network — ska goes emo (vol. 1) — a must-listen if you’re into ska!! skatune network mostly does covers, but check out their other works with we are the union and their solo project JER
  • rebelmatic — ghost in the shadows — fresh noise and gritty vocals; their sound is reminiscent of classic punk rock with hardcore / funk / hip hop inspiration
  • pleasure venom — pleasure venom — huuuge fan of their voice. they emphasize heavy riffs, high energy melodies, and sharp vocals!
  • meet me @ the altar — garden — pop punk trio from the east coast! they are thriving rn and recently recently got signed to fueled by ramen
  • the OBGMS — the OBGMs — short for The oOohh Baby Gimme Mores!  sickk rock band with a bunch of recent releases to check out
  • otoboke beaver — itekoma hits — punk rock garage quartet from tokyo, japan. totally crazy energy and super lively performances !!
  • the kominas — the systems are down — south asian, subversive, inclusive, cathartic punk. they make it a point to challenge their listeners expectations. love their sound 

the punk scene is incredibly whitewashed and white punks love to ignore the racism/fascism running rampant in their circles. do your part to support artists of color and make it clear that bigots aren’t welcome! here’s another list of poc in alternative music, but the post is from a couple years ago at this point ^_^ please feel free to add more recs if you have em!

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Anonymous asked:

Hi. Where does "pro" in propunk come from? I get the punk part, but not the pro. I feel like Im missing something that should be obvious?

Thanks for the question! I'm not sure how old it actually is, but it deserves an answer! Propunk is an Orphan Black ship name. And I'm also in favor of punks (unless you're a Nazi. Nazi punks f*¢k off).

I am considering changing the name, since it feels a bit like an in-joke that few people left hanging around here are actually in on, but I'm also rather fond of the pun. And I have a hard time throwing anything away.

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CW: antisemitism, pale of settlement, pogroms, genocide, cultural erasure

I don't think goyim can really conceive of how much Jews actually hold back in our criticism of antisemitism in media, and when you hear us it is often because we see a dangerous message that you don't... Yet.

I have a complicated relationship with Tim Burton's rendition of The Corpse Bride. I love it as a beautiful piece of stop motion art, but it isn't what it should have been, he took a Jewish story from the Pale and with intention stripped it of its Jewish origins. This alone is incredibly antisemitic. The criticism you will hear has probably been "this is a Jewish story, it should have retained its Jewish elements" but have you heard why we feel strongly about this story?

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The story of the corpse bride is incredibly important to me and was born from Jewish trauma and Christian violence. Mobs would routinely attack Jewish weddings, they would murder brides and they would bury them in unmarked graves by the roadside still in their wedding clothes, they reasoned that without Jewish wives there are no Jewish mother's. Jews are intrinsic to the story.

It is antisemitism to take our story, about our pain, at the hands of non-jews and strip it for "useful" parts, in fact it is heartbreaking every time.

We are often forced to pick our battles and fighting a battle over a movie that has already been released by a director with a cult following is not worth it, you only hear us speak up in numbers when the antisemitism may lead to another century of violence, because raising our voice means picking a fight, because so many of you already see our pain as inconvenient and it is exhausting to never be heard.

-anyone can reblog

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This would help a lot of people, and it’s one of the reasons it’s so important to push back against the “but the parties are equally bad, so you shouldn’t bother voting” type rhetoric.

jesus christ this would be huge.

hi! if you see this and think it’s a good idea: PLEASE leave a comment. it’s super easy & you can do this in <5 minutes:

When a government agency proposes a rule change like this, they legally must have a public comment period before finalizing it. AND they have to read and respond to those comments in the final draft of the regulation. Not enough people are aware of this , but it can really have an impact!!

This link will take you to the Federal Register page for the proposed rule, where you click the big green button to Submit a Formal Comment

Your comment can be as long or short as you’d like- it can just be one sentence! The key is to clearly STATE YOUR SUPPORT for the proposed rule. You can also look at other existing comments for support.

If you have personal experience with disability benefits, especially the reduction of benefits from free meals/groceries, those are great to include. They like to hear from people personally impacted by these changes, or know people who are.

I know it can be intimidating to post a public comment like this but it is SO IMPORTANT to engage with specific policy changes like this. Saying “this is great!” on social media doesn’t help governmental officials understand the level of support a change like this has, or how much good it would do.

I need to make sure my husband’s mother sees this. In 1980 she teamed up with Joe Biden to block a bill from Reagan’s Secretary Of Education that would have placed disabled students in institutions forever, and she made throwing petitions on the White House lawn cool. This is something she would advocate for fiercely.

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quidpropunk

Yessssss

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some kind of prodigal return

So I guess I'm back on tumblr after a... [checks notes] seven?? year hiatus? Uh. A lot has changed. I probably won't be quite as active as I used to be, but hey, I'm not dead! In case anyone was... wondering. [Looks around] All of this decor needs revamping, possibly even a name change, so watch this space. Or don't. I won't tell you what to do.

Sorry, this feels a bit awkward. I'm going to have to get used to the new layout and such. I hope you're all doing well despite the, y'know, circumstances [waves generally at All of the Terrible]. Oh and my manners! I'm Sam, hello. I use They/Them pronouns. He/Him are... Acceptable. She/Her are a big no-no.

If I knew you before, then I missed you! If you're new here, welcome! I'm sure I'll put this somewhere more permanent, but to be clear this is a trans- and queer- positive space, as well as anti-fascist, pro-labor, and pro-neurodiversity/disability rights. I am a white person, but I'm doing my best to combat my own internal biases as well as those of people around me in the work of anti-racism. This is of course a lifelong process, and I hold myself responsible for any missteps or errors I may make in that effort.

All that was way more than I meant to write in this post, so that's it for now. Glad to be back, also for now! Byeeeeeee

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