get you wild, make you leave

sitting in my dark room alone thinking what can i do with all this love inside of me

do you ever sabotage your own free time? like wtf is that about? i want to play this game or read or do something specific but instead i will just stare out the window or scroll mindlessly???

moved into my new apartment yesterday and woke up to this beautiful lighting.

still getting it all set up, but I already love it

the bookshops that define Hay-on-Wye, Wales

cd | Hello, Saturday.

A lot of people ask me about motivation, and usually, I would answer it’s not always motivation but determination because it means that you are disciplined, that you have honed your habits, and that you are enduring and resilient despite your current mental state or mood.

Sometimes though, I think it’s more of my long-term goal that “motivates” me. I use my brain now — exhaust myself — stretch myself in ways I thought unimaginable so I can reach my dreams smoothly. And after med, maybe I’ll have the weekends that I like. Breakfast runs, post-duty errands and the like? Something we call a “life.” Someday, perhaps.

But for now, I have exams until Saturday, I barely get sleep, and I know it’s flawed and all that but on the bright side — I get happy about the little things, I am learning how to be more present, and I am where I want to be. Mind / matter.

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giving someone the hair tie off your wrist is a stronger form of intimacy than making a blood pact

- some notes on Foucault!

it’s been a very long day today! I didn’t have any classes today, so I spent the morning in the library and then continued doing readings for my course at home after lunch✨taught a ballet class in the evening too and I’m soooo ready for bed now😴

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me? overthinking?? blowing something out of proportion and letting it consume me for days??? yes constantly

Jessie Burton, The Miniaturist

I’ve been super busy with classes but finally I have my driving exam in a few weeks 🍵

Bell hooks said "love is profoundly political. Our deepest revolution will come when we understand this truth. Only love can give us the strength to go forward in the midst of heartbreak and misery. Only love can give us the power to reconcile, to redeem, the power to renew weary spirits and save lost souls. The transformative power of love is the foundation of all meaningful social change. Without love our lives are without meaning. Love is the heart of the matter. When all else has fallen away, love sustains"

Death usually has to take life away. I don’t know if that’s just the animal. I don’t know if it’s not braver to die, but I recognise the habit; the addiction to being alive. So we live past hope. If I can find hope anywhere, that’s it, that’s the best I can do. It’s so much not enough. It’s so inadequate. But still bless me anyway. I want more life.

NT Live: Angels in America: Perestroika (2017) dir. Marianne Elliott

Aadnevik | Spring/Summer 2022

This right here… is better than any poem.

serve…