Uhhh hi! Are people still here? This dark blue background is TERRIBLE
Anyway just popping in to say hello and to talk about my dumb life a bit because Twitter is a bad medium for these thoughts and also just a bad place in general (next social media goal is to wean myself off of that in the future). I don’t miss this website itself at all and I don’t think I’ll ever use it regularly again, but I do miss regularly talking to people on here. I’ve been kind of intentionally isolating myself both online and IRL for the last two months-ish, which has obviously made me super lonely and I’m struggling with that a bit, but right now it feels like what I need to be doing for myself to work on myself more. Someday I’ll start asking for help when I need it and leaning on other people more, but I think I need to be better at validating myself and not relying on other people to validate me first. Basically trying to take care of myself and be nice to myself, because my instinct is to be ridiculously self-critical and mean all the time and it’s not helpful.
So uh on that note of being nicer to myself, here’s some good things that I’ve done or been up to lately! I’m trying to draw in my sketchbook regularly and getting out to more figure drawing sessions when my work schedule allows me to. I start training in two weeks for a new volunteer gig that I’m super excited about. I’ve been reading more and keeping track of the books I read and a list of what I want to read next. Still listening to new music all the got damn time. @yourveryeyes and I are seeing Foals in Seattle next month and I can’t wait to see her again!! I’m budgeting and making an effort to save money and thinking about my future and career moves in a more hopeful way than when I was really down about it a few months ago. I’m letting my hair grow out and not doing what I did last year, which was taking a couple inches off every few months because I thought it was getting too messy when it wasn’t. I have good days and emotionally very bad days but I think I’m making the right moves to build a stronger foundation in my life when things feel like they suck.
Anyway that’s about it. I miss yall. Like I said I’m trying my best lately not to inflict my neuroses on other people, but I’m around on Twitter and stuff if you want to talk about anything. <3
