Comfortability~

One day,

I will master my material world.

But first bad habits must be broken.

Like my lack of confidence,

and the sinking in my emotions.

Comfortability nudges at my shoulder

Cause it wants to take over.

And the more I allow it,

the more it secretly drain me of my power.

Disrupting my flow of currency,

Withholding my abundance.

The universe puts the pressure on me,

So that I can learn my biggest lesson.

Only then is when,

I’ll receive all of my well earned blessings.

-Ky Ashanai

@kythepoet

Vulnerability

Tired of her insecurities holding her in its webs,

She stood from the ground,

ignoring the sounds inside of her head,

that says she can’t do it.

“I can and I will” she violently yells,

internally.

“Stop trying to control me”

she whispers softly.

“Let go of my vulnerability.”

She fought the entanglement,

She didn’t think she could manage,

But somehow she pushes through.

Her confidence grew.

She had tuned out the voice that screams

a threatening

“No!”,

It was just her and passion alone.

Her vulnerability was now free to roam.

It was as if her heart ripped open,

From its glued down suppression.

And expression poured all over.

She felt freed,

10 full minutes of nothing but greed

for what her heart desires.

To be admired.

For the things that feed her soul.

-Ky Ashanai

@kythepoet

Self Confidence

My self confidence hasn’t been around much these days. But I say no more. I am putting my foot down and encouraging my self confidence to take the floor. My truth? No one will ever take that away from me. My body, my rules. My thoughts, my opinions, they are valid too. And if you don’t think so then screw you. From now on, I’m going to say what I have to say knowing EXACTLY what I’ve said. You will no longer be able to get into my head and convince me that I don’t know what I am saying. Enough. I am powerful, and I’ve given away too much of my power. I’m done. No more “I don’t know”, no more giving up my own self morals for the sake of someone else’s rules. I have my own set of tools, just as everyone else. The only time you can interfere is if I ask for your help. But you will not break me down with your sarcastic looks and your belittling sounds. I am my own individual and it’s time to embrace it. My goals, my dreams are the only thing I am chasing. If you wish to find me, I’ll be in my own lane, doing my own thing, embracing my name and everything that makes me, me. Facing change and overtaking inconsistency.

-Ky Ashanai

@kythepoet

Prisoner to Self.

I am like a prisoner to my own self. Caught between anxiety and my ever changing, overwhelming emotions , and I just can’t get out. Stuck in a place, I so desperately want to get out , and it is ruining me. Only time I am sane and can get a piece of mind is when I am sleeping and I barely even sleep these days. I convince myself that I’ll be okay because I genuinely believe I will but nothing is wrong with help, yet I still choose to do this on my own. I push everyone away with my dramatic approach when really I’m just trying to tame my emotions from pouring out. It’s like a never changing pattern that I can’t seem to control. Still quick to react, even when I tell myself no. See the best parts of me are underneath my anxiety. But I can’t seem to get anyone to meet the real me. I barely see her myself, half the time I don’t know if I’m being me or someone else. Everything is confusing as hell. My mental isn’t quite in the best health. The aggression behind my tone is a cry for help, but often misinterpreted as if I’m full of myself. My voice becomes weakened by my thoughts alone, and it takes me twice the strength to heighten my tone, when my emotions are high and my vibrations are low. It’s like an endless cycle of me trying to keep ones attention only just to push them away. I’m waiting on the day that I’m anxiety free, the core to all my problems. Self criticism is my biggest enemy. Always feeling like my voice is out of place when displayed, and I shoulda just stayed silent. Silence seems to be my best friend. Observation helps me play pretend while I figure out what I really want and that’s you but I don’t know how to express that to you without coming off too strong, that will only lead to a path of things going wrong. Sometimes I don’t know if I’m overly wanting to be in control or if I’m desperately trying to express myself, the best way that I know. The only way that seemed to work, has backfired and I’ll probably be left being alone, while I’m desperately trying to hold on.

- Ky Ashanai

@kythepoet

*Raw venting*

Hurt-

I’m Hurt.

Yeah, I’m hurt.

But I knew what I signed up for,

Just wasn’t alert of how you

Would leave me feeling.

I had no idea you would be

This amazing.

Your dreams, your chasing.

I wouldn’t dare interfere.

it’s something about the way you stare into my eyes.

When you asked if I were crazy,

I didn’t necessarily lie.

In the lane of love,

I’m passionately out of my mind.

But, I’m hurt.

Yeah, I’m hurt.

The thought of you wanting nothing more than what we’ve shared,

drives me insane.

I guess that’s what I get for overlooking the instructions to your game.

-Ky Ashanai

@kythepoet

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Vision-

Who would have thought,

this would’ve been my next move,

It’s like I chose but I didn’t really choose.

The answers all crashed down,

right before my eyes,

And I puked from how sick I was

of all the fucking lies.

My vision became so clear.

My dreams looked deep Into my soul,

Then, It dawned on me,

It was my higher self who chose.

-Ky Ashanai

@kythepoet

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Hectic-

I’m constantly seeking.

The glimpse of the moon is peeking in from my perspective.

The things that goes on in my head are quite too hectic.

Sometimes I hate that I feel so deeply,

Like desperately trying to float on top of the ocean,

Yet I’m steady sinking.

I’m steady thinking.

My thoughts flow freely.

My thoughts never leave me.

-Ky Ashanai

@kythepoet

Satisfaction-

Feel every moment for what it is,

Be grateful for the times that you’ve bled.

Appreciate the tears thats been released from your soul.

Be cautious of those who gain pleasure when you lose.

Don’t be fooled, you’re not real until you’re honest with you.

Stop feeding energies that leave you feeling low.

Fuck what they said, satisfaction only exists when you’re whole.

-Ky Ashanai

@kythepoet

Save Me-

Tears are forming,

An ineffable feeling wants to takeover.

Trying to take away my power.

After hours of inner work daily.

I haven’t felt like myself lately.

Someone, please, save me.

I couldn’t tell you from what,

Even if I tried.

Lately I’ve been quiet.

And I’m not the quiet type.

Pain always finds me,

Even when I find a good place to hide.

I take a seat here and there just to breathe,

But no matter how hard I seek a piece of mind,

Reality is always twelve feet behind.

-Ky Ashanai

@kythepoet

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Revelation - Ky Ashanai @kythepoet

Caution-

You didn’t wanna hear my truth,

Therefore resentment grew overtime.

And for some reason,

I’ve always felt like you never wanted me to shine.

So that explains why you’d dim my light.

Eventually, It blew out.

You watched in silence while I was smothered in doubt.

You said you wanted the best for me,

yet your actions never seemed to match.

Therefore, overtime I became detached.

Hope still lingered around.

Yet, you still were no where to be found.

You let me down.

But I can’t hold it against you,

It’ll only make it harder on my end.

All I ever wanted was to be your best friend.

But you didn’t hold my heart with caution,

You took my love for granted.

Although, I wish you the best.

These are the words that’s been buried deep within my chest.

Excuse my soul for venting.

-Ky Ashanai

@kythepoet

Spring Mornings-

Your eyes so bright like fireworks in the night sky.

Yet, you remind me of spring mornings.

Vibrant and warm, you get things done.

In a boring world, you make things fun.

I encourage you to tap into your powers,

connect with your inner sun.

Don’t run from the heat.

If you stand long enough,

soon, you’ll realize the ground no longer burns your feet.

You haven’t been defeated, yet you cry in defeat.

A scape on your knee, but you didn’t bleed.

So don’t stay seated.

Rise, darling, rise.

Like the sun that you are, levitating through the early sky.

-Ky Ashanai

@kythepoet

Slipping-

My energy is ran down,

So excuse my silent sounds.

As my problems analyze themselves.

You make me realize things about myself.

A feeling I’ve never felt.

I know what I want to say but can’t say it.

I desperately try to shake away this feeling.

Man, I’m always tripping.

Slipping when no signs are present.

I have the perfect words in mind,

But don’t know how to express it.

I often think how shitty it would be to

miss out on a blessing.

Or, another well needed lesson.

-Ky Ashanai

@kythepoet

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