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My Autistic Ability Is Acceptance

@myautisticjournal

AKA Not Being An Asshole
Hey there, demons. It’s me, ya boy.
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Quarantine Asks: Questions You Usually Wouldn’t Think of Asking But You’re Bored AF

  1. Animated character that was your gay awakening?
  2. Grilled cheese or PB&J?
  3. What show/YouTube video(s) do you put on in the background when you when you don’t have anything to watch but you want something on?
  4. Your go-to bar order, if you drink?
  5. What’s your favorite pair of shoes that you own?
  6. Top three cuisines?
  7. What was your first word as a child (that wasn’t a variation of “Mom” or “Dad”)?
  8. What’s a job that you’ve had that people might be surprised to find out you’ve had?
  9. Look up. What’s directly across from you?
  10. Do you own any signed books/memorabilia in general?
  11. Preferred way to spend a rainy day?
  12. What do you get on your bagels? What WOULD you get if you had access to anything you wanted?
  13. Brunch or midnight snacks?
  14. Favorite mug you own
  15. What coffee drink would you describe yourself as?
  16. Pick a song lyric to describe your current mood (and drop the name and artist!)
  17. Fruity or herbal teas?
  18. What’s that one TV show that you’re a little bit embarrassed to watch but you still like nonetheless?
  19. That book you were forced to read for class but actually ended up enjoying?
  20. Do you match your socks?
  21. Have you ever been horseback riding?
  22. What was your “phase” when you were younger? (i.e., Mythology Nerd, Horse Girl, Space Geek, etc)
  23. Have you ever been to jail?
  24. What’s your opinion on Lazy Susan’s (the spinning tray in the middle of tables)?
  25. Puzzles?
  26. You can only have one juice for the rest of your life, what is it?
  27. What section do you immediately head for when you walk into a bookstore?
  28. What’s one thing you’re trying to learn/relearn in your downtime right now?
  29. Who’s your go-to musical artist when you’re feeling upbeat?
  30. Where could someone find you in a museum?
  31. What’s that one outfit in your closet you never get the chance to wear but want to?
  32. Rainbows, stars, or sunset colored clouds?
  33. If you could own any non-traditional pet (dogs, cats, fish, rodents, etc), what would it be?
  34. Do you have more art on your walls or more photographs?
  35. You have to get one meme tattooed on your body, what meme is it and where does it go?
  36. Pick a superhero sidekick to hang out with
  37. Lakes, rivers, or oceans?
  38. Favorite mid-2000s song
  39. How do you dress when you’re home alone?
  40. Where do you sit in the living room (we all have a preferred spot, and you know it)?
  41. Knives or swords?
  42. A song you didn’t think you’d enjoy but ended up loving
  43. Pick an old-school Disney Channel Original Movie
  44. Are you a “Quote that relates to the photos” caption-er, an “explanation of where I took the photos” caption-er, or a no caption kinda person when you post pictures online?
  45. Name a classic Vine
  46. What’s the freezer food that you stock up on when you go to the grocery store?
  47. How do you top your ice cream?
  48. Do you like Jello?
  49. What’s something that you don’t have a picture of that you wish you did?
  50. How are you at climbing trees?
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thank you for your reply on my post, it was really validating. i tried talking about it to some friends but they're not autistic and they really didn't understand how deep the feeling of a special interest goes for me. just knowing that other people feel this way after losing one helps me feel a little better. i'll revisit some old haunts and keep my eye out for new stuff. I appreciate your help

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You’re welcome! I’m glad that it helped in some way :) It’s always nice to know you’re not alone!

As for the url thing...that’s a mood. You really lucked out on that lol. I’m so tempted to make a MDZS/Untamed blog, but the naming is such a struggle.

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Thanks for the ask! :) Also seriously every time I look at your blog handle, I am filled with envy (and also sorrow because THEYRE SO TRAGIC)

3. Make a three-song-minimum playlist of songs that make you happy!

- Good as Hell by Lizzo

- Crush by Tessa Violet

- My Year by MORGAN

10. What are your favorite YouTube channels? Why do you like them?

- JennaMarbles :) She just has so much fun doing wacky things, and she inspires me to try new things.

- Buzzfeed Unsolved, because their chaotic energy is very entertaining. Also spooky

11. What is the weirdest YouTube video you’ve ever watched?

- My friend regularly sends me videos that Jack Stauber does, and they’re all The Most Disturbing Things I have ever seen.

https://www.youtube.com/user/JackStauber

17. Do you listen to podcasts? What kind of podcasts do you listen to?

- I do listen to podcasts :) I mainly like fictional and D&D podcasts such as Welcome to Night Vale and The Adventure Zone. I’ve also heard that Critical Role and The Magnus Archives are good, but I haven’t listened to them. Also, anything the McElroy brothers do is up my alley.

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having trouble and need some help from other autistics

i was talking to a friend and i told her 

“i feel my special interest fading” 

my special interest has been kpop/korean culture/language and it’s been that for about 6 years. it’s been the thing i think about, interact with, love, and study every day. For six years. 

now that interest is changing, fading away, and i don’t have anything to fall back on besides The Untamed, but it doesn’t live up to Special Interest Expectations (if that makes any sense…like I used to love it a lot and i still like it but I don’t interact with it as much anymore) 

I told my friend I felt anxious and restless about losing my special interest, and she said “Do you need one?” 

And I guess I never really thought about how allistics don’t really think of special interests as anything more than…just an interest. 

I have to have a special interest. If i don’t have something to interact with every day and study and gather information about and love and cherish, something that brings me unbridled joy…I feel like I’m nothing. I’m depressed, and restless, and feel like a shell of myself. 

and losing a special interest of this magnitude? it hurts. It’s not a one and done, you wake up and you’re suddenly not interested anymore, at least not for me. it takes days, sometimes weeks, of going away and back to it and finally leaving it alone and feeling terrible for it. 

anyway. 

what do you do when you’ve lost a special interest? how do you feel? do you tend to pick up a new interest quickly or does it take a while? I would like some opinions. 

This is definitely a struggle, and I’m sorry you’re facing that :( Just because it’s fading and you may switch your focus to something else doesn’t mean that it’s less important! It sounds like as a special interest this has had a pretty big impact on your life. You’re not going to suddenly forget about it, and you’ll still have those memories to look back on.

For me personally, when I lose a special interest, I never really lose it. I make sure to add it to my list of special interests that I’ve had throughout my life so that if I’m ever dealing with being special-interest-less, I can look back on that and possibly get back into it. And I have gotten back into past special interests several times.

When I just lose a special interest though, I definitely feel bereft and lost. It scares me when I feel my interest fading, because I don’t like feeling that way. So your fears are totally understandable and normal. If you’re really upset and scared about losing your current special interest, maybe find a way to “refresh” it or put a new spin on it. If there’s something to it that you haven’t explored yet, try that. For example, reading or writing fanfiction, writing or translating something in Korean, watching Korean youtubers, etc.

Also, the speed at which we get into new things is different for everyone, but I tend to get into new things pretty quickly. It’s all about being willing to try new things. This is the time for finally checking out those shows/books/youtubers/recipes that people have been recommending. Just in general trying to keep yourself busy and engaged in something usually will help.

Good luck! I know changes are hard, but you’ll get through it!

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Quarantine Hobbies Ask Meme: Share what you’ve been doing!

  1. What music have you discovered or listened to lately?
  2. Have you made any new playlists since quarantine times? If they’re on Spotify, maybe drop a link?
  3. Make a three-song-minimum playlist of songs that make you happy!
  4. What’s your go-to show that you like to binge watch? Why do you like that show?
  5. Are there any shows that you‘ve been planning to start watching? Why do they interest you?
  6. What movie(s) always comforts you?
  7. Are you an arts-and-crafts person? If so, what types of art/craft do you enjoy?
  8. Do you have any planned projects to work on during self-isolation? If you’ve started any and you’re willing, share a photo of what you’re working on!
  9. If you had to recommend an art or craft for people to get into, what would you recommend and why?
  10. What are your favorite YouTube channels? Why do you like them?
  11. What is the weirdest YouTube video you’ve ever watched?
  12. Recommend a book or book series to read!
  13. Are there any books that you’ve read multiple times? If you could re-read a book that you loved as if it were the very first time, what book would you choose?
  14. What’s your favorite book genre? Why do you enjoy it?
  15. If you were to write a fanfiction about your own life, how would it go?
  16. What’s the best fanfiction that you’ve ever read (or the top three if you can’t choose just one )? What about it made an impression on you?
  17. Do you listen to podcasts? What kind of podcasts do you listen to?
  18. If you could make your own podcast, what would it be about and who would you invite to make a guest appearance?
  19. Are you addicted to Animal Crossing: New Horizons? If yes, what’s your favorite thing about it so far?
  20. If you had to recommend ONE video game, what would it be and why?
  21. Have you tried any new recipes lately? If yes (and if they were good), share it with the class! I’m sure everyone is as bored with the same old foods as I am by this point.
  22. What is your favorite website to waste time on? (Is it, perhaps, tumblr?)
  23. How are you finding ways to stay connected with your friends and family? From video calling to playing online games, what would you say has worked the best for you?
  24. If you have pets, first of all share some photos! Second, how have you been spending your time with them?
  25. Share your general quarantine experience so far. How are you handling it?

Share what’s been making you happy! Maybe we’ll all discover something new :)

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Routines: An Autistic Perspective

My routines are long. They’re tedious. Sometimes I don’t even necessarily enjoy them.

“Then why do you do them?”

Because firstly, they help me stay on track. They make sure that I take care of myself. Routines also ground me and make me feel secure.

Without routines, it’s easy for autistic folks to forget about things like eating, going to the bathroom, homework, etc. However, if I tell myself, “Okay, I’m going to eat lunch at noon every day,” then that helps me avoid forgetting about meals. My daily and weekly routines are important tools that help me function.

They are safety nets in a lot of ways as well. For some of us, the subconscious thought process is “Well even if everything else is chaotic, at least I have my routines.” When things change, I like to adhere to my routines as much as possible, because they bring me comfort. For example, when I travel, I like to make sure I have all of the necessities to go through my (long) nightly routine. I just don’t feel the same without it, and it bothers me.

For some autistic folks, the changes of being in quarantine/lockdown or not having access to certain things are very distressing. Please be patient with us. We are all having to adapt.

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Some cis people really will be like “Oh I just CANT use the right name/pronouns because I’ve known them for so long as [deadname]!” and then misgender a trans person they’ve just met who is open about their gender & pronouns. Like, obviously time isn’t the issue here. Make an effort.

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