when i caught the plane home

for the tenth time that year

watching melbourne

shrink beneath me

for the first time, i was really alone

i thought about her mouth

drunken, red wine

my red makeup on her eyes

our fingers, screaming with ink

matching in our masochism

our boys, like two small children

left stranded in a supermarket isle

i thought about his body,

where i vanished for a night

begging to be consumed

by something, anything

swallow me whole

and i thought about your face

frightened laughter

contort into confusion

at the power

i had snatched back at last

i looked at myself

chewed up and spat out

wedged between airplane businessmen

and i knew the dream was over

six months on

she tells me she’s not eating again

and that maybe she might leave him again

my heart skips a beat

i see you in the street

and suddenly i can’t breathe

and i remember that i was forgetting

#raw #lyrics

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Anonymous asked:

Would you mind elaborating on the “wanting to be a lesbian is a symptom of being a lesbian” thing? Sorry to bug you. It just caught my eye and now I’m curious

sunbutch answered:

what i mean by that is that many repressed or questioning lesbians don’t think they can be a lesbian for whatever reason, but they want to be. they’re drawn to the word lesbian, lesbian culture, and lesbians in general. they dread the idea that they’ll have to settle down with a man eventually. they wish they could be a lesbian so that they’ll have a reason to not be with men, but they think they’re not cool or brave enough, or that maybe they could possibly, theoretically love a guy at some point so calling themselves a lesbian would be wrong. so to all those questioning wlw out there, i’m telling you right now: if you want to be a lesbian, you’re probably a lesbian. you’re allowed to be a lesbian.

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ok universe, i’m ready to feel good things. make me feel good things.

whenever i post this it works reblog if u want to feel good things & the universe will bring u something sweet

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why are 20 yr olds so sad Are u guys ok

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On a global scale our lives are going to be objectively tougher than the recent generations before ours. Not necessarily ‘worse’ because we do actually have the power to change the world around us. But that change is definitely tougher to see and to make.

As time passes, when young people go through what many call their ‘politically angry phase’, there is more and more to be angry about, and more to feel broken about. There is a much higher awareness of the conditioning we go through while we are younger in order to maintain status quo and hold those low, low still so that when we finally are able to step back and see it, we are angrier and more self-aware. I personally hadn’t even come to see myself as a real person with worth-while thoughts, feelings and ideas by the time I was 20. I was at rock bottom. I saw myself as a gross manifestation of fear, dishonesty and indulgence and I absolutely hated myself. I’d also just moved out of my country town to the middle of the city. My eye’s opened to a world where those who perpetuate fear, dishonesty and indulgence have rule & respect. We all share in the sinking feeling of seeing these people win, or seeing them manipulate and suppress under the guise of human progress or community benefits. But a whole lot of cognitive changes happen when you’re 20 and in the current state of the world where what is make-believe is becoming more real - and what is supposed to be real is becoming like make-believe - it makes sense that 20 y.o’s these days are feeling a lil fucked up.

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Lupa J @ NGV crop / 2017

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make-up for Spring/ Zipper 1998 April

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Viktor & Rolf Haute Couture Spring / Summer 2018

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Her tail went from ? to !

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I ate till I felt sick

Maybe on purpose

To drown out the growing fear

As you slowly disappear

Skewered by the midday sun

I crawled across the blazing grass

Emptied my guts into the local pub

In my mouth last night felt like broken glass

It swirled down the drain and I could see it

All suddenly so real

When I sang about us to the crowd

We all heard every word

It’s not just in my head

I can no longer pretend

This isn’t some kind of end

Here all split open to be read

#im dead #sunny and dizzy at 1pm

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trying really hard to not post pictures of boy i like

tumblr is hard

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transparent female musician dream

had a dream last night that i was trying to pick out an acoustic guitar to buy and all these men kept trying to convince me to get a really small one. i kept being like “im big enough to hold a big one” and they all kept saying that i would only be able to carry a small one

haha

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Stitched some of my favourite frankie cosmos lyrics aka my personal mantra

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:) amazing

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Radiohead - The Gloaming (Thom A Capella) @ Tecnópolis, Buenos Aires 4/14/18

Remember in Selena when everyone started pushing like crazy during La Carcacha and the foundation of the stage started to collapse… and then the whole family got scared but Selena was like, “No guys, I got this…” and then she just went back out and was like “Como la floooooo-ooooooor” and everyone just got their shit together and started dancing? Well that’s pretty much what happened here, except it was instead of Selena and Como La Flor, it was Thom Yorke and The Gloaming. They were equally moving.

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honestly this is what i need to happen whenever i’m having a stressful day at work

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Anonymous asked:

my favorite random Ed factoid is he tilts his amps up to make it safer for fans in the front row. because he's a saint and a gem.

edobriens answered:

This is so sweet but also y'all…wear arplugs. Don’t wanna lose your hearing from going to gigs…