tomorrow isn’t promised to anyone.
Buck + journey to bisexuality in seasons 6 and 7
╰┈➤ buck's gaze lingering on tommy's lips after their kiss ✧*。
we've talked about jealous eddie, and pining eddie, and afraid-he's-actually-a-homophobe eddie, but i think there's another element we need to explore and that's supportive eddie. because here's eddie diaz having just found out that the reason his best friend has been so weird lately is that he's going through this major revelation and it's all new and he's so excited and a little nervous, and buck needs his best friend to have his back as he explores these new feelings.
and eddie genuinely likes tommy, he was the one who wanted them to get on well! so even if it makes his chest tighten to see them brushing shoulders and holding hands and kissing he absolutely does not have time to unpack that feeling especially if it could in any way derail this thing buck is going through.
and eddie knows buck like no one else, he knows how buck's struggled with feeling rejected and like he's never anyone's first choice. but here's tommy, and he's cool and nice and adventurous and loyal and buck gets all giggly at the prospect of being with him, and that's exactly the kind of relationship that buck deserves to have, one that makes him feel seen and chosen, and this isn't like with his past girlfriends where eddie could be snide and tease and try to help him see how wrong of a fit they are for him, that kind of behavior could really hurt buck here, so eddie is determined that he is not going to ruin this for buck, no matter what, because this isn't about eddie and the weird flutter he gets when he thinks of another man with buck and what it must be like to get to hold him and kiss him.
buck coming to terms with his sexuality and realizing he's in head over heels in love with eddie while thinking that eddie is straight and permanently unavailable is such a delicious idea to me bc while buck isn't a stranger to being left or hurt by people he's been romantically involved with, he's never actually dealt with the kind of romantic rejection that most queer people deal with on a daily basis, where the other person simply isn't attracted to you and can never be, no matter what you do, and i'm so fascinated with the concept of how he'd deal with thinking that the person he wants more than anything is physically incapable of loving him the way he wishes, especially if it comes after the 7x05 still scene in the loft where i suspect eddie will 'platonically' reassure him that he's more important to him than anyone else. he's not going to know how to cope with that, to deal with the idea that he could be with eddie if eddie wasn't straight, that eddie would choose him if he wasn’t straight, that he could have love and family and a home with the person he adores most, that all of that and more would be possible if eddie wasn’t straight. i don't think he would deal with that revelation very well, with the idea that everything he's ever wanted is out of his reach and that despite it going against his very nature, this is one situation where he can't do anything to fix it.
Hope this little Psyduck doesn’t “fall” off of his swing!
recharging
SAPPHIRE BADGE QUEST SHINY #6
The moment I started planning my Sapphire BQ in 2020, I knew I wanted Feebas to be one of the targets. It has for a long time been a dream of mine to have my own shiny Milotic, a Pokémon I really wanted to try out in generation 3.
I’ve been hunting Feebas for the past year (13 months to be specific) - it really isn’t that different from any fishing hunt. While Feebas does have a 1/16 chance to move tiles on route 119 every day, it always seemed to go on previously-discovered tiles. I had the tiles mapped out, and whenever I would find out that it had moved, it took very little time to find it again. It makes the hunt slightly more tedious at the very beginning, as you will likely start hunting with knowledge of only one of the 6 tiles, but eventually you will have multiple tiles mapped out and the hunt will go about as smoothly as it can be.
Acquiring the Pamtre berries necessary to evolve her wasn’t too difficult either with a little Pickup farming on my LeafGreen version!
This shiny is beautiful beyond my expectations. I truly recommend any Milotic fan to give it a shot - it is that good and makes the 13 months hunting her (no phase either!) all the more worth it.
Onto #7!
This Ken likes boys, and his best buddy Allan likes Ken!
RYAN GOSLING as Ken in Barbie (2023) dir. Greta Gerwig
What was I made for?
Wanted to draw something simple through the tears,,
Graphics glitch makes for entertaining weather report…🔊 🔊
Animorphs into myself
SOULSILVER BADGE QUEST COMPLETED
My shiny Totodile was obtained on June 28th, 2020 and here I am, 3 years later and over 1200 hours of total playtime, finally turning the page on this quest. For those wondering, I only went with 8 shinies on this quest (Johto portion). Kanto will be properly tackled when I start my FireRed badge quest someday!
I’m so very proud of this team! Every single one of them is a shiny I was desperate to find in full odds. <3 I’m particularly proud of my shiny Sunflora.
I now turn back to my on-going quests after putting them on hold for about a week to finish up SS! Currently have a Sapphire BQ going on where I am hunting Feebas, and a X BQ where I’m on phase 8 for a 20% shiny Litleo. Crossing my fingers they shine soon!
SOULSILVER BADGE QUEST SHINY #8
I named him Morsel <3 Extremely relieved to find this shiny after 14 months of hunting. Mind you this wasn’t done religiously, as I’ve been quite busy with school, but it was a long time coming nonetheless!
I’ve always been pretty flexible with my approach to shiny hunting in BQs, and Tyrogue being my target for Claire despite having already beaten Claire over a year ago is a funny example of that! And since I don’t plan on doing the Kanto part of SS in the conventional BQ way (it has taken me THREE YEARS to get to this point and I need to be reasonable), this should be the final member of the SS BQ!
I might hunt a quick MM Magby before though to cover Kanto and because I really want a shiny Magmortar in 4th gen. Maybe.