im not like other girls . im worse
I’ll take 6
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No...
I thought I could figure out the referent, but no. I can’t. Which murdered British boys? Someone go back and ask that elderly neighbor or I’ll never be able to sleep again.
King Edward V of England and Richard of Shrewsbury, Duke of York! They were murdered by their uncle!
She... she does
very very accurate
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i cannot get over at this newsstory. i CANNOT. i cannot believe that they paid someone to write a story about how people aren’t having children in the middle of a global pandemic that cost MILLIONS of people their jobs. this is the stupidest fucking thing i’ve ever seen!! do they think people are just sitting at home like “well can’t find any new series to binge, might as well have a fucking baby! that’s the next logical step, right?” i’m going to SCREAM.
the thrilling FUCKING sequel
this feels relevant
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I don’t what kind of fucking vibe this has but it is nice and chaotic.
big 3 placements and what it says about your parents
look for signs prominent in your chart/big 3 (esp moon & rising) to see what it may say about your family. disclaimer that most of the stuff on this post is more on the negative side but of course, the positive side exists. however, astrology deals with past life and karma, showing places you need to learn and grow in this lifetime.
aries: people with aries placements lacked leadership from their parents as a child. nobody put them on the path they were “supposed” to go on so they had to find their own way and fight for themselves. emotions are quick. parents were mellow and hard to grab attention from so they seek partners who are aggressive and hard to pin down.
taurus: taurus placements lacked parents that took responsibility. perhaps they always felt stressed about their financial stability growing up and now either have a strong need to save or a bad habit of spending. there was a lack of comfort from the parents so taurus is always seeking comfort, especially from future partners.
gemini: parents were immature. geminis had to look for their own information and come to their own conclusions. may often have felt like they were the ones parenting. parents over-intellectualized situations so gemini learns to be emotionally unavailable.
cancer: parents may have good at guilt-tripping/emotional manipulation. parents were needy. parents may have been overprotective. the bond with the mother in the past-life is strong- so there is no real “escape” from the mother in this life, so they also seek partners who are motherly.
leo: leo had parents who tend to make things about themselves. life may have often been unpredictable and chaotic. because parents were focused on the outside of things, leo suffered a lot of criticism when they wanted to be themselves, and they turn to others to be proud of them.
virgo: virgos had parents who were overly critical. they wanted things to present in a perfect way. parents could never do any wrong, it would always be a mistake, but when virgo did it, they got in trouble. parents picked favorites, but so did virgo. they seek partners that they can “fix” as they couldn’t criticize their parents back.
libra: libra had parents who were overly aggressive and butt heads a lot, and perhaps tried to drag libra into it. libra had to learn to be the peacemaker and became indecisive in fear of not pleasing everybody at once. they seek relationships where they are the ones compromising but pull out of the relationship easily as well.
scorpio: scorpio came into this world as their parents’ big transformation in their life. parents struggled with intimacy, trust, and power control problems. the scorpio child absorbed much of the pain from their parents. scorpio ends up seeking intense bonds with others, they seek people who can give them the intimacy but they don’t give it back in order to remain in control.
sagittarius: parents always seemed to need space. parents perhaps had strong beliefs and the child eventually learns to think for themselves whether those beliefs need to apply to them. parents were unstable, so sagittarius is flaky. sagittarius seeks partners who are grounded but pull away when they feel their freedom is threatened.
capricorn: capricorn is the child for the parents dealing with their own past/present karma. capricorn learns to guard their emotions closely as there may have been punishment for being open. parents have high standards so they strive to be successful and are afraid of failure in all aspects, including love.
aquarius: aquarius brought their parents out of the their comfort zone. the love received is conditional and never seems to follow the same pattern, so aquarius becomes inconsistent and also detached when others seem to get too close.
pisces: pisces placements had parents who were heavy escapist people. the child was not often a high priority, but without knowing better, saw their parents with rose-colored glasses. they seek people like their parents in hopes of fixing them.
I’m Upset (drake voice)
Okay so here I am upset. I meditated on it and spirit tells me that I am my own peace. I am exceptional, I know my worth and I will never chase a man. I made my interest clear by texting him, hoping that he has a good day, because he usually texts me every morning and every night and I appreciate that. He replied trying to make plans asking my schedule for the week and I suggested a day for after work and a possible weekend trip. I got no reply and I will not be following up. That is all. I am happy and I will have a great week and a great weekend no matter what happens. I had a fantastic meditation today. I am going to get some supplies to repot my sunflowers tomorrow and I have my book to read and a juneteenth weekend with my bestie to plan so im booked and busy.
I’m doing it again
I’m falling too hard too fast. I’m giving too much too soon. I need to slow down. We need to slow down. I need to seem less available. I need to see other people. My imagination is getting the best of me and I’m picking out engagement rings and wedding venues when I’ve only known this guy for 10 days. Why does it feel like its been a month? Why do I feel like we should be planning a wedding and getting married? I need a week away from him. I can’t see him until after this weekend. I’m sprung and I need to cut off the physical contact. I need space. I need breath. I need plans and I need to focus on myself. I have seeds to sow and I have applications to fill and work to do and hair to do and nails to do and journal entries to write and home depot things to buy and sunflowers to repot and makeup to do and face masks to apply and legs to shave and videos to film and content to create and hair to braid and deep conditioner to make and money to make and jewelry making to learn and books to read and houses to clean and apartments to move and laundry to do and secrets to keep and workouts to do and fat to lose and thighs to tone and a soul to care for and a spirit to tend to a pictures to take and tans to sun and trails to hike and did I say money to make?
God damn it. I’m doing it again. One date in and picturing our life together, wondering if he’s thinking I could be special. Every time I think this time might be different and this will be the one and I get way in over my head and loose my cool. Keep your cool. Stay cool kitten. I came back to Tumblr because I don’t really have anywhere else to go with this. Or maybe I forgot how much it felt like a safe place when I was really depressed before. But anyway, here’s the story.
We matched on Tinder and after a couple of messages back and forth we decided to meet up after work on Thursday. He offered to give me a ride to the Biergarten he picked but obviously I wasn’t gonna have a stranger come pick me up at my house so I told him I’d Uber. I did my hair, went over my outfit with my mom to figure out how to be casual but not too casual and also feminine and doused myself in Guerlain eu de toilette. I nervously hopped into my Uber and he told me he was running 5 minutes late, big plus I love people who can communicate and are respectful of your time. He actually still ended up getting there a couple of minutes before me and texted to see where I was as my car pulled around. He was standing by the entrance when I arrived and we we’re both wearing masks but somehow I saw his eyes smile when he saw me walking towards him. I remembered that I was the prize. He went in for the hug. We sat outside, through a couple of awkward silences and had a nice talk getting to know each other over beers and german food. He’s from Berlin and has a good high-ranking job at a big company here. He’s been all over the world with them and we talked about travel, hobbies, what kind of food we like and stuff. When I mentioned I liked pool he said there was a table near his house, I thought he meant a bar near his house or an arcade or something but it was actually in his apartment building. He invited me for a drink to take to the pool table and he made us drinks. He was going to make moscow mules but ran out of vodka so we had rum and ginger beer which we named a Havana Mule. I don’t know if that’s a thing but it is now and if this goes anywhere it’ll be the house cocktail at our wedding lol. Anyway, I told myself I wouldn’t even kiss him but despite being in his apartment and a couple drinks in I would definitely not sleep with him. We had already broken down the touch barrier so eventually he leaned in for the kiss. We made out for a bit and he put the moves on pretty heavy. In fact the move of the year, a combo ass grab lifted me up and put me on the counter like a bag of groceries while kissing my neck, it almost hurt to stop him lol but when he took my hand and tried to take things up a notch, I had to stop him. When I pushed him away he backed off and stood on the other side of the room, saying he wouldn’t pressure me. It was so nice to feel like what I wanted mattered and like I had power and I didn’t owe him anything just for buying me a few drinks. He drove me home and we went for drinks and hookah before he dropped me at my door. When he asked to see me Saturday the next day I turned him down so as no to seem too available but said next weekend I’d love to. I’m excited to keep having fun with him and get to know him better. I’m holding off on sleeping together until he makes it really special and we have feelings for eachother or until I don’t like him anymore and the long game doesn’t matter.
She was the epitome of elegance, beauty and deviousness