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i got my new tetanus shot who wants to play bucket of rusty nails withme ^_^

please don’t

tetanus shots aren’t a cure, they just help. you can still get sepsis or tetanus and fucking die if you aren’t careful.

Don't listen to this person let's all play with buckets of rusty nails. Let's fill a pool with rusty nails and swim in it

悪魔の花嫁,  Bride of Deimos (1988)

Princess and the Pea Barbie (2001)

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People with siblings are so genuinely scary they're just constantly asking you things like "you never played 3-Minute Eye Gouge as a kid? you never played Fireplace Chase? you never played Actual Serial Killer?"

crash 1996 reference on my car after hitting a staircase

‘For Crying Outloud’ by Richie Talboy for Highsnobiety ‘Beauty’ Issue (2023)

this is completely accurate in all ways abt the horrors of polyamory.

I am ashamed to admit I tried it for a year (no it was a few years on and off :() once. During which time my main bf who was still married but using me to leave his wife who had cheated on him (this was why they became polyamorous) insisted I stop seeing others because it hurt his pride (even though obviously he and his wife were still polyamorous). So I saw only him. And then his wife would: every time her husband did something wrong (often) blame me instead of her husband. She would like break things I gave him or write angry sexually charged poetry about me. They both allowed me to take the fall for their divorce to their families since they didn’t want to admit their marriage had failed due to prior cheating.

but for me it was all in a day’s work of being an evil bisexual who plays out both mommy and daddy’s projections for them. Oh and anytime I even get near other polyamorous people again the same pattern starts. And I have to contemplate oh do I want to help these people break up or get closer? Sometimes I play along charitably despite not actually getting involved sexually or irl, acting out the whole time. It’s theater.

polyamory is for people who are playing out traumas like I was. Ofc to some extent: a lot of sexuality and love is the repetition of trauma. The difference is polyamory taints all of that with false utopia and is more falsely utopia the more it pretends to be openly imperfect.

or more commonly: polyamory is for people who want some third+ party to blame and who get off on jealousy. That’s the whole fetish. Just admit you’re slutty or have actual mistresses and affairs like the French. The wretched concept of polyamory removes all the mystery and eroticism from infidelity or promiscuity. Marvel comics ass, escape room ass mating strategy!

(No I’m not actually BPD. But I’ll play at it sometimes.)

That fucking sucks for you, but that's not what polyamory is and you can't do polyanmory without decolonizing first And shitting on it is colonial, so you need to do some deconstruction work by yourself for a while first.

I don’t want to do a colonic

(furthermore and more seriously: the contemporary concept of polyamory is from western “colonialist” cultures. Polygamy and other traditional multiple partner arrangements are not polyamory. And you are proving what I said in my post about the absurd utopian rhetoric surrounding polyamory. No, polyamory is not some gatekept beautiful well-defined anti-colonial thing at all. It is whatever polyamory is in practice for those who do it! And most of those people haven’t “deconstructed” themselves or “decolonized” themselves and even if they had: it wouldn’t stop them from being jealous, manipulative, given to blame or any other human failing.

Oh right btw: a listing of my polyamorous partners back then: a Trotskyite, an anarchist, an overtly apolitical but vaguely socialist communal homesteader type, and then the married couple I mentioned were both full cadre in party serious communist activists who are resolutely anti-colonialism. none of these political affiliations really mitigated the foolishness of love or the irrationality of sex in all relations including in polyamory).