TAYLOR SWIFT - cardigan (2020)

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@taylorswift is still holding my hand through this terrible year.

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It was really glad seeing my birthday having a "Lover" theme 💗 I've planned this in a long time to show my love to @taylorswift

My birthday cakes 🎂🎉 (look at the first one 😆 pretending Taylor gave it) Thank you to my aunties 🤗

The "Lover" crown I've made 💗💗💗

It was also fun celebrating it with my whole family that simply makes my brithday so special✨🤗

And of course to my best friend, Catherine who've helped me throughout the decorations ✨💗

Thank you @taylorswift 💗✨ This day wouldn't be more special without you, your latest album was really inspiring and beautiful. I love you so much. I've loved celebrating my birthdays with you 🎶❤️

TW: r*pe, su*cide

Hey @taylorswift

Epiphany. It was the song I chose when I first saw the track list. My gut said that it would be THAT song.

When I first started listening, the music, the ethereal music, it gave me a full on flash of some of the things I endured in my mind since I came home to NH back in April. I’ve had such a deep hatred of home. It was so wrong and cruel to me growing up. I experienced a culture of toxic treatment, r*pe, a goodbye note I wrote in the library of my high school, a place I never could call ‘home’ because I was either in a place full of whispers, hate, and jealousy or I was in a place where I felt empty and invisible.

Coming home from Minnesota during this quarantine gave me the opportunity to write. Write some more. Keep. Writing. And throughout all the filled pages, I realized that this is my epiphany. My moment where I’ve come to the realization that when there was nowhere to go during the quarantine, NH was there. My family was there. All the shit talked of NH and how terrible it was to me, but it was still waiting for me to step into and welcome me.

This moment made me realize that I wasn’t a victim of r*pe. I was a survivor. I spoke up about something I never thought I could share with my friends and family because I felt ashamed. But I was brave. NH turned me into a survivor.

This moment made me realize that the people who wronged me aren’t the villains anymore. I forgive. I forget. I move forward.

This moment made me realize that NH wasn’t the problem - I was. The love and forgiveness needed to come from within. So I forgive this land. I forgive it.

This moment made me realize that seeing the ugly and the harshness in situations and people is the worst way to cope with life. Being in NH made me realize that it was time to start seeing the love and beauty in things no matter how dark times may seem.

Epiphany was that song for me. The music, the lyrics, the calmness - it defines the very moment of my own epiphany. I’m leaving NH on Tuesday with my head held high and as my flight takes off, this song will be playing and I’ll be looking out my window (cause dibs on the window seat) and I’ll breathe and just say ‘thank you’

Thank you Taylor for releasing this album, this song, this beautiful, beautiful, song.

I love you.

Nadia

TW; Rape/Sexual Assault

Dear @taylorswift​

Yesterday, I decided to post on my IG and Snapchat that I would no longer stay silent and released my entire experience from when I was raped. I was extremely scared releasing it to my peers and the world. The overwhelming amount of messages of support and love I got made me feel so unbelievably full of gratitude and relief. 

Releasing this inner stressor and telling my story was my way of telling other victims that it’s okay. As I was posting it, I thought of you and that one night on your rep tour. 

“And I really—I’m not—I don’t want to, I guess I just think about all the people that weren’t believed and people who haven’t been believed and the people who are afraid to speak up because they think they won’t be believed. And I just wanted to say that I’m sorry to anyone who ever wasn’t believed because I don’t know what turn my life would take if people didn’t believe me when I said that something had happened to me.”

You, Miss Swift, helped me overcome my fear. My stress. My admittance. I was so scared to open up to the world that I was raped because I was so scared that no one would believe me. People believed me though and it’s really a feeling like no other. 

So thank you. Thank you for being an advocate. Thank you for speaking your truth. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. 

All my love, 

Nadia

Below is the piece I wrote regarding my traumatizing first time. I wanted to share this because I know that there are so many people who are/have been victims of sexual violence. Please know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and you are NEVER alone. 

To those who are going to read, please be aware of the graphic depiction and read at your own discretion. TW; Rape

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