OOC

Hey guys, I need a break from TOS. God knows I’ve needed it for probably months now but I’m finally admitting it. While a lot of it over the past half year or so has just been massive amounts of exhaustion from taking on wayyy too much on my plate school-wise in addition to other irl stuff (series of old pets getting sick and needing care and then dying, getting my citizenship, etc.), and with my thesis done, some of that’s lifted, I can’t say I’m back to my old self. I miss how excited I was over RPing a year ago, less than a year ago, when it was torture to wait for chatzy and para replies instead of dreading when I’d have to be the one to answer again. I know that’s not how it’s supposed to be, and I can’t say what’s changed. Maybe some of it is the changes the group has gone through. Maybe part of it was how many players (and characters) I’d been close to had left in a short span of time - people I clicked with really well both in and out of character, entire planned arcs and plots going down the drain and removing a huge part of what made me feel like my character was someone with a direction, an identity and a place in the setting rather than just interacting aimlessly in a vacuum, which is what it feels like now. I’ve tried, and maybe I haven’t tried hard enough, long enough, consistently enough, but I can’t seem to get that feeling back. It’s not anyone’s fault, and if anything, the people I have RPd with have been lovely and patient to a fault, but I really don’t want to be the one dragging her feet through every plot and you don’t deserve that either. Especially when I like the plots, I just… can’t seem to work up the enthusiasm anymore. Frankly I’m surprised I haven’t been booted already. So I’m finally taking a break. Hopefully it won’t take too long before I get my juices back, but I don’t think I can do that with perpetual ‘I should be more involved in the RP’ guilt hanging over me, or within the bounds of a hiatus. For IC purposes, nothing has changed, Eloise is still living with Brett and working evening shifts at some shitty nameless bar. If anyone needs me, I’m still available on Skype.Adios, etc, it’s been real.

watermargin-s:

[pm] And what does that mean for you? Better?

Better at killing? Do you still You're a hunter Hah I can't believe I actually forgot that you're a hunter

watermargin-s:

[pm] You know how vague that sounds, right? Like concerningly, suspiciously vague

I didn't expect a lot of things to happen either. But they happened. Sometimes you need to just pick up the pieces and move on, and be better prepared next time.

zinnia-rhee:

Pretty sure it is, for free no less. It's very 90's. I mean, they have landline phones and everything. So cute.

Same. I'd guess that if I were the overlord of the town's criminal supernatural underbelly, straight-up murdering them all would attract too much attention for too little benefit. They probably get little enough in the way as it is

Can I ask what brought on you mentioning vampire watermelons? It's a pretty specific thing to pick as your 'least favourite supernatural crature'.

hawaiianhalfwolf:

I'm counting on it! ;) :D :)

I'm so glad I told you so we can now both be jealous of past!me. What do you do, anyway?

Vampire pumpkins. A whole theater full of'em. They're mostly vegetable but with a full maw of teeth. I sound crazy. Hahaha I sound like a crazy old guy sitting in his rocking chair talking about crazy old wartime stories If only

zinnia-rhee:

[user contemplates response in brief horror]

The X-files is like... 90's TV show about two FBI people pursuing supernatural cases while facing off against a government conspiracy. One of them is a scientist and a skeptic, the other Believes, and his sister went missing when he was a kid and he thinks she was abducted by aliens and that the government knows about it and covers these things up. It sounds ridiculous but it's a pretty good TV show if you're into that kind of thing. It doesn't take itself too seriously either, which a lot of shows of that type do.

We sure could use the FBI in this town. But face it, they wouldn't last a week.

Anyway, watermelons are real. shocking, I know! And so are vampire watermelons, I think.

professor-exorcist:

[pm] Of course he'd want to hear you. Ugh, adults are so tiresome

Wait, I'm 25

Ugh.

Same. Let me know if I can if I can help you with anyth Why would you possibly need me? I'm just a If you ever need something, let me know. I haven’t forgotten what I owe you.

adrien-babineaux:

[pm] More important than your beard? :O Is that a trace of humility I see?

adrien-babineaux:

[pm] It's a Mara thing I think we're too much alike. Plus she keeps hogging the attention of my favourite person in the household. It's hard to like a competitor.

I'll bet. I bet your beard has its own fanblog and everything. If it doesn't, I might just start one.

hawaiianhalfwolf:

Hear, hear. So many Disney sequels were atrocious. Especially the direct-to-video ones, HUGE budget cuts.

I'm sure it'll be a goldmine for the fanatical circle of people still obsessed with the movie by then. ;)

God, all this talk of movies is making me really miss my old job. I used to be able to sit in on movie screenings for free. Amazing, you know? And on a quiet night I could just watch reruns of horror movies in the back. And I only had to deal with vampire pumpkins flooding theater five like once.