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Honestly, fuck being healthy

@fuck-me-up-exe

5'7" they/them 20 sw:140 cw:??? gw:120 ugw:100 had a leukemia stint & I'm a zombie (unfortunately)
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xenobotanist

For the record, "self-care" only goes so far.

I get enough sleep. I eat healthier than most people I know. I grew up exercising. I write and draw and design and dedicatedly care for two dozen plants that I adore. I love hiking. I spend time with friends and family.

And guess what?

I still have bouts of crippling anxiety attacks. I still have OCD and bipolar episodes. I'm still autistic. I still have cPTSD.

My body still can't regulate itself; it overreacts to allergens and textures and sounds and temperatures and a concerning amount of medications. Some of my bones didn't form correctly and I had to have surgeries on them. That's me, no matter what.

Which brings me to this: if someone's mental or physical health is holding them back, please stop assuming that the solution is to merely drink more water/eat healthier/exercise/learn to experience gratitude/be more optimistic.

Some things can't be fixed. They can be treated, alleviated, maybe even minimized, but never completely erased.

Please don't assume that we haven't already tried everything under the sun (up to and including essential oils and healing stones). We don't WANT to live like this. We're trying our best, and we've spent an unholy amount of time searching for answers. We've logged, journaled, and organized the information. We've researched it. Talked to doctors and experts. Tried elimination diets. Experimented. Resorted to spells and prayers.

So, honestly, it feels insulting when someone suggests the first thing that pops up on Google when you look up what's bothering us.

Sometimes we just get overwhelmed and need to complain. Vent. Let off some steam.

If you really want to help, listen (or read). Sympathize if you can. Ask questions, as long as it's respectfully. If we want your advice, we'll say so. Really. But chances are that unless you specialize in the specific field we're struggling in, you probably don't have anything to say that we haven't read or heard before.

Oh, and share stories like these. Spread the awareness. If we don't talk about it, no one really knows what's going on.

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being chronically ill is a whole new level of fomo

iโ€™ll see people i donโ€™t like hanging out and iโ€™ll feel such fomo not because im not there but because theyโ€™re out doing things i wish i could be doing but i canโ€™t

itโ€™s very isolating and i wish more people understood that

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fuck, I am so fundamentally flawed, shattered like a crystal.

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Disabled people lose their benefits if they have too much money.

Maybe we should do the same to rich people.

If you have over a billion dollars, you lose your government benefits. The police stop protecting your property from thieves and trespassers. Contracts can no longer be enforced in your favor. Your patents become void.

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n3r0ly-th3re

โ€œStop making your disorder your personalityโ€

Brother I have a personality disorder

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Being mentally and physically ill is exhausting.if I'm not suffer mentally I'm suffering physically and vice versa. I feel like I don't get a break and I hate it.
I'm exhausted.

THIS!!!!!!!!

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s1ckpr1ncess

I feel like I didn't get a normal teenage experience bc of my frequent trips to the hospital & severe social anxiety and it feels like everyone has had cooler experiences and has more friends than me and I'm always gonna be a weirdo loser who tries too hard but will never get it

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my biggest fear? people eventually seeing me the way i see myself

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Nowadays I just feel kinda lonely even in the company of many people it just feels like no one can understand me,what I'm going through, what and how I'm feeling inside,like i can't trust no-one , i can't share anything, tell anything to anyone.cuz it seems like they don't care.even if I tell them they change the topic. It just feels heavy like there are soo many broken peices of my heart inside me but i can't do anything to them i can't fix thm. Like my soul is hurting. it just hurts in silence.

sometimes I just ask myself what did I do to deserve this?why the one's I loved betrayed me?why right now when I need somebody by myside I don't have no one? Even when I was there for them?

Why I destroyed myself for nothing?๐Ÿ’”

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let your new years resolution to be nicer to people who need it, to let go of toxic people, to love yourself unconditionally and to smoke hella weed.

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I hate when people are like โ€œso tell me about yourself :)โ€. What do you want like my trauma or my favorite color letโ€™s be specific

I am very good at Tetris ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™‚๏ธ

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