i have lots of friends and acquaintances from LARP community who are on the front lines right now. killing and risking for the rest of us.

today, one of them has given their life.

how the fuck did the world come to this state??

FUCKING. HOW?

how many people

there is no sense in asking. i know. it's just unfair. and painful. and so hard to realize.

we will get back to making and playing games one day. where death isn't real. where pain doesn't really hurt. we will honor all the sacrifices, we will always carry them around with us.

soon.

when the last FUCKING enemy on our land is dead.

Another.

And much, much closer friend, and even closer for my partner. She had so many beautiful plans for the future. She had sn ongoing series of larps based on ancient China, and she wanted to play Flemeth from Dragon Age one day. She did LARPs, painting, diving, she was incredible, and she was also a soldier, defending us here.

All rzzians will pay. Let them be cursed, and their children, and children of their children.

But no curse will bring back those who we lost, and who will not see the victories, the games and the days to come.

Thanks to the automatic message in telegram from the channel she owned and will never write another post to, we now know that it will be 6 months in 29 days.

I'm still not over it. I don't know how to get over it. She was supposed to come home with victory and play the Empress in the larp game (which is uncertain to even happen now).

And i an not supposed to be so destroyed over death of someone who wasn't even my close friend.

Beniko and Shan - Best Friends

Theron: Lana, is that my mug you’re drinking out of? Lana: No, it’s mine. Theron: It… looks just like the one I have… Lana: You don’t have one like this anymore.

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Lana: Met a dumbass today. Awful. Theron: You looked in a mirror? Lana: …someday you will have to answer for your actions and the Force may not be so merciful.

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Theron: Let’s just agree to both say we’re sorry on the count of three. Theron: One… two… three. Lana: … Theron: … Theron: See, now I’m just disappointed in both of us.

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Theron: Everybody shut up, I’m thinking. Lana, patting them on the back: Well, don’t think too hard. I wouldn’t want you to hurt yourself.

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Lana: Ah ready for another fantastic day of being better than Theron. Theron: Hey!

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Lana: Honestly, I am so evil. So full of darkness. I feed of the souls of the living I strike fear into- Theron: You sleep with a teddybear. Lana: He’s my SECOND IN COMMAND IN MY ARMY OF DARKNESS!

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Lana: *sees someone doing something stupid* Lana: What an idiot. Lana: *realizes it’s Theron* Lana: Wait, that’s MY idiot!

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Lana: She’s the girl of my dreams! Theron: You say every girl is the girl of your dreams. Lana: I have a lot of dreams.

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Lana: If I was married to you I would put poison in your coffee. Theron: If I was married to you I’d drink it.

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Theron: So, you lied to me? Lana: That depends on how you define lying. Theron: Well, I define it as not telling the truth. How do you define it? Lana: Um, reclining your body in a horizontal position?

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Theron: “Before you embark on a journey of revenge, dig two graves.” Lana: … Lana: What a stupid fucking quote. Lana: I’m killing way more than two people, idiot.

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Theron: I failed my safety training course today. Lana: Why, what happened? Theron: Well one of the questions was “In case of a fire, what steps would you take?” Lana: And? Theron: Well apparently “FUCKING LARGE ONES” isn’t an acceptable answer.

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Theron: Lana, you’re my best friend. Lana: Best friend? BEST friend?! Bitch, I’m your only friend. Lana: I’M THE ONLY ONE CAPABLE OF TOLERATING YOUR DUMB ASS!

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Theron: Did you have to stab them? Lana: You weren’t there. You didn’t hear what they said to me. Theron: What did they say? Lana: “What are you going to do, stab me?” Theron: That’s fair.

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Theron: Any advice before Lana and I fight? The Outlander: Don’t wet yourself in public. Theron: Not the kind of advice I was looking for!

i have lots of friends and acquaintances from LARP community who are on the front lines right now. killing and risking for the rest of us.

today, one of them has given their life.

how the fuck did the world come to this state??

FUCKING. HOW?

how many people

there is no sense in asking. i know. it's just unfair. and painful. and so hard to realize.

we will get back to making and playing games one day. where death isn't real. where pain doesn't really hurt. we will honor all the sacrifices, we will always carry them around with us.

soon.

when the last FUCKING enemy on our land is dead.

Another.

And much, much closer friend, and even closer for my partner. She had so many beautiful plans for the future. She had sn ongoing series of larps based on ancient China, and she wanted to play Flemeth from Dragon Age one day. She did LARPs, painting, diving, she was incredible, and she was also a soldier, defending us here.

All rzzians will pay. Let them be cursed, and their children, and children of their children.

But no curse will bring back those who we lost, and who will not see the victories, the games and the days to come.

This is what their friendship is like in canon and nobody can prove me wrong

forever your most devoted follower 💮💮

anyway why is archery so fucking sexy

shoulders and absolute physical control.

next question.

this is how it went right?

oh.my.goodness.

I’m really into internet discourse but only pointless and stupid internet discourse like how many holes there are in a straw (it’s 2)

This is exactly what I’m talking about.

I’m sorry but mathematically speaking this question has a single objectively correct answer, which is 1 hole. This can be very simply proven; a straw and a torus are homotopic, and a torus has one hole.

i odnt think thats true one of my friends is a taurus and hes fine with gay people

anyway, i just found out that in one of the early drafts of iron man, howard stark was going to be alive as the cold and ruthless industrialist who would be THE ANTAGONIST OF THE MOVIE, THE GUY WHO TRIES TO KILL TONY like if this doesn’t tell you anything about the sort of space that character occupies in the concept of mcu iron man then idk what will

at some point, they also intended to hold out on obadiah stane and only present him as a villain in the second movie after spending the first parading as tony’s friend and mentor, so fucking imagine the nightmare scenario where tony’s own father tries to murder him in one movie and then the trusted friend who helped him through becoming iron man, also tries to murder him after using their closeness and tony’s vulnerability to his advantage

… I can see why Marvel changed their minds on doing this because it is a fascinating character arc with really complex villains.  Given Iron Man was the first of the Marvel movies to make it big - laying the ground work for Thor, Captain America and Avengers - I can understand why they decided to go for a simpler narrative: the princess in the tower saves herself from the dragon with the dragon.

But man, can you imagine?

Movie 1: the man who sends Tony to his death is Howard, his father.  This man then takes the things that Tony built out of blood and bone to escape, and builds a new weapon he intends to use to make a new fortune and start a global arms race.

It doesn’t even matter if Howard had intentionally wanted to kill Tony or his capture was accidental and subsequent refusal to pay ransom was company policy or a US government decision.  The point would be Tony actively rebelling against what he sees as his father’s interest in profit over ethics.   And in all this, there’s Obadiah Stane, supporting Tony despite having been Howard’s right hand man for years.  There’s Uncle Obadiah helping Tony recover.  There’s Stane, helping Tony fight and then kill Howard next to Pepper and Coulson.

End credits - Tony announcing he is Iron Man and that Stark Industries will be ceasing weapons development, with Obadiah Stane standing by him, acting CEO as the company mourns the death of its founder, Howard Stark.

And then, Movie 2 - Tony facing death from heavy metal poisoning and desperately trying to find a cure.  And there is Obadiah Stane, nudging Tony to indulge his worse impulses (and accelerate the poisoning) as a distraction while he takes the reigns of Stark Industries and re-starts the weapons division.

Tony’s realisation that Obadiah Stane has betrayed him - is, in effect, actively working towards Tony dying as the easiest way for Stane to take over Stark Industries - is all the more emotionally devastating to the audience because we spent an entire movie and 2 years assuming he was one of the heroes.  We’ve seen Tony call him ‘Uncle Obie’ repeatedly.  We’ve heard the childhood stories - we’ve seen a man, portrayed as a hero, care about Tony at some of his lowest moments.

And now, here’s this same man, destroying everything Tony has tried to do.  Worse, this man doesn’t care that Tony is preparing to die, that everything Tony is doing is towards a legacy, to make sure that the Stark name won’t be remembered for death and selling weapons on the black market.

And Tony is helpless - he’s dying, he can’t stop Stane, he’s cut off from his company and the world think he’s having a nervous breakdown.

On a side note, two years separate Iron Man I and Iron Man II - at Monaco Tony remarks that the event is his first vacation in two years.  Given metal poisoning and technology development, Tony probably found out he was going to die from the arc reactor in his chest fairly soon after the end of Iron Man I and then began working to make sure Stark Industries would have a future without him.  Tony had a long time to know he was living on borrowed time is what I’m saying.

Anyway, there’s Tony, betrayed by the man who helped him kill his father.  There’s Tony, stretching out his life by days and months only if he stops using the arc reactor to power the Iron Man.  There’s Tony - helpless and caught.  And into this comes Nick Fury and Howard Stark’s research notes.

And here’s Tony watching a video of the man who sent him to his death.  A video filmed literal decades ago and talking to him.  Here’s Tony being saved by his father and the man who tried to kill him.

What a mind fuck those two movies would have been.  How complex and weird and ridiculously human both those villains would have been.  How utterly impossible to tell the story well in 5 hours split over 2 movies, 2 years apart.

But wow can you imagine how well Robert Downey Junior would have done portraying a man betrayed twice and saved twice by the same two men?

Can you imagine how much more screwed up we’d all be when we watched Tony find out about Steve Rogers. 

Because you see, that would be the moment Tony realises (or at least believes) that his father wanted the Iron Man technology probably because it would have allowed deeper, more thorough deep water exploration in search of a body. 

Think of a Tony who looks at Captain America and fights with Captain America  and follows Captain America while believing that his father chose Steve over his own son - over and over again, all the way to the end - rather than the [handwave Loki’s magic staff] deux ex machina of the Avengers.   

Anyway in the right script writer’s hands, it would have been amazing is what I’m saying. 

But probably not suitable for children.

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