The Guardian - Part Three
In the morning, dragging yourself out of bed had gone from the hardest part of the day to become the easiest part of your day. Memories of soft lips and a firm, secure grip that were both no longer present could quickly drag your mind to dark places. Wasting your day feeling sorry for yourself was not on your agenda.
You had promised Ida and Hazel that you would meet up with them for a late breakfast, and you were hoping to have enough time to visit the museum before heading to the park to walk with Peggy. Admittedly, you weren’t living the most exciting life, but you were grateful for the people you had left.
After straightening the covers on the bed, you walked to the window and opened the curtain, standing for a moment in the warm light of the early morning sun. Outside, some of the neighborhood children were horsing around with each other on their way to school. One of them, a rail-thin boy that was a good six inches shorter than the others, was thrown off-balance by one of the others and fell onto the pavement in a swift motion that made you wince sympathetically. As the other children either kept moving toward school or stood awkwardly near the fallen boy, one of the larger boys stepped in and helped him up. You couldn’t help the smile that made its way onto your lips as you left the window to get ready for the day.
The Winter Soldier kept watch across from the woman’s apartment building throughout the night and into the morning hours. He would wait as long as it took for her to exit and allow him a chance to investigate. One way or another, he would find out who she really was.
It wasn’t until a few minutes before ten thirty that the woman finally left her apartment. The Winter Soldier waited until she disappeared around the corner and no other prying eyes seemed to be present. He briskly crossed the street and strode to her door, making quick work of the lock and slipping inside.
The apartment itself was kept tidy; it was clear from the state of it that she was the only one living there. He stepped closer to the mantle over the small fireplace and looked at the framed photos that were placed across the wood. There was a photograph of the woman with an older version of herself, who must have been her mother. The next photograph was one that made his blood turn cold: the woman stood in a wedding dress next to a beaming man in a neat suit.
The man was the problem in the photo; the man had the Winter Soldier’s face. His eyes darted to the man’s left hand, but it was clearly flesh and not machine. He looked to the other photos lining the mantle, and the man was almost in every one of them. Other than his left arm being made of apparent flesh and bone, he was identical to the Winter Soldier in every way. They even shared the same small scar on their right cheekbone, though the Winter Soldier could not remember where the scar came from.
Flashes of images crowded into his mind, fleeting thoughts that felt more like memories, but they refused to solidify enough for him to concentrate on. He moved away from the mantle. His feet carried him as far away from it as he could get and he settled his broad frame into the chair of a small writing desk nestled against a window frame.
He sat still for a few moments, forcing his breath to slow and his heart to return to its normal pace. There must be a logical explanation, but all that he could come up with was that he and the man in the photographs were the same person. How could that be? He had no memory of his life before the facility that held him. He was created to be a weapon, to help move the world forward and suppress evil. It had been his understanding that he had not been born in a traditional sense, but could that be wrong?
A garbage truck rumbled down the street, breaking the Winter Soldier’s thoughts and drawing his attention to the window. Out of the corner of his eye, he spotted a neat stack of papers tied with ribbon on the corner of the desk. The papers looked worn and so did the ribbon, as if someone handled them frequently.
He reached out and moved the stack in front of him on the desk, carefully untying the ribbon and setting it to the side. The papers it had kept together were handwritten letters. The dates on the top of the pages indicated that they were written during World War II, before the Winter Soldier’s time.
The names at the top must have been the woman’s and her husband’s, James. Something about the name pulled at the back of the Winter Soldier’s mind. He knew that he was at a turning point: he could tie the letters back into their bundle neatly and leave them and the woman behind, returning to his assigned objective, or he could read them. If his suspicions were true, he knew the turning point might be one of no return.
He picked up the ribbon, tying it in an identical bow to the one it had previously been knotted into. As he stood, he returned the chair to its exact spot on the floor it had been in when he entered the apartment. On his way out the door, he paused. Almost involuntarily, he was suddenly back in front of the mantle, staring at a photograph of James and his wife, sitting on the same park bench the woman sat at each day and smiling in the afternoon sun.
Something inside of the Winter Soldier shifted, and he returned to the writing desk chair, removed the ribbon for the second time from the bundle of letters, and began reading.