I Don't Know What I'm Doing And You Can't Stop Me

Still haven’t made a pinned, but I wanted to add my ao3 account, which you can find here!

Also, the deal with the mutual bracket is that I just want to spread some positivity and blather on about my mutuals!

Remember, there are no winners, only losers, because you all follow me and that means I get to affectionately bully you.

Feel free to reblog these with propaganda, I want to tell these people how cool they are! Both those in the bracket and those not in the bracket can do so. This isn't cheating and there's no prize anyway so enjoy!

(My only rule is that propaganda has to be positive. You don't have to cheer for both sides, but do not disparage the other person. Friendly rivalry is fine, but this is about positivity, and barely anyone will see this, so be kind!)

I’m sorry to everyone I hurt. You didn’t deserve that pain. Thank you for trying, and I’m sorry that I didn’t expect it. You’re all amazing, and you all mean a lot to me. I’m sorry that I hurt you.

I’m leaving. I don’t know when I’ll be back. Goodbye.

Maybe I should just leave again.

I just want to wake up as a different person who has never heard of Tumblr.

I hope I fall asleep and don’t wake up.

You don’t get to express sympathy. You don’t get to pretend to care. You left. You weren’t there. You don’t get to lie now.

Feeling major I want to text my ex vibes but my ex is everyone on this godforsaken site.

I’m sick of positivity. I’m sick of joy. I’m sick of kindness and compassion and even basic human decency. I’m sick of it all.

Why do I treat people well? I wouldn’t have left. I wouldn’t have left. They did. They all did. I wouldn’t have left for any of them. They didn’t care. They didn’t care about me.

Did you just want me to be normal? Fucking smiley and naive, always the one to reach out, to initiate, always happy to help, always there, always? Did you think I’d just bounce back, that once I was “normal” you could love me again? That’s not love. You never loved me. And I don’t know why I didn’t realize until now.

I’m never going to be the one that walks away, am I?

I hate everyone. I don’t know if that feeling will change. If it does, it’ll probably turn to neutrality. I don’t know if I’m going to like or love the same people again.