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Gabriel J. Matesanz

@gabrielmatesanz / gabrielmatesanz.tumblr.com

Illustration/Animation Student in Providence, Rhode Island. This is all things I make. Open to commissions and requests. More organized work at portfolios.risd.edu/gabrielmatesanz
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thinking about pokemon some more, I remembered this weird detail that I think I’ve told to a few of you: for all of my childhood I only ever caught pokemon marked male, with the “ ♂️” symbol next to their names. And I was the catch’em all style player, which means I was making a space of thousands of rowdy boys across multiple generations. This is especially odd given that later on and through the present I do the exact opposite, and always feel more comfortable in feminized spaces.

In hindsight, I’m not sure what it means that I intentionally cut out any signs of femininity–I’m reading about digital avatars and thinking, If the pokemon team as a whole was a receptacle for my consciousness, then as a child moving thru the space of gender formation I was practicing masculinity in a very small symbolic form, reinscribing what is a kind of rejection of anything arbitrarily marked “ ♀️” . This might be obvious but it’s funny to think of it happening at this small scale. IDK more thoughts on digital avatars later, for now here’s 3 confused starters while I’m beginning to think about it

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