You’re No Fun (Gray x Reader)

Well hello there, here we are posting the second imagine I was supposed to post years ago but stuff happened and I went through some character development. Hope you enjoy!

Seonghwa was the most eligible bachelor for years now, he had figured out the perfect recipe in regards of being a public figure and he was extremely careful, he was always polite, usually quiet and chose his words wisely, showed just a hint of his character to get people wanting more and his personal life was a well kept secret, nobody knew who he was dating, if he was dating and what he liked about dating. To the public he was a man of mystery and of course that went perfectly with his good looks and amazing talent.

You were a well known artist based in the U.S but your roots were from Korea since your father was born and raised there up until he chose to come to America as a college student and fell in love with your mom. You were signed under Jay z’s label and happen to meet Jay at the infamous roc nation brunch he was attending. You were a big fan of his music and made a promise to collab someday.

“What’s up baby”

You said as you walked in the building AOMG was occupying. Jay got up to give you a warm hug as a welcome, you had come to Korea for a few concerts and some TV interviews and photoshoots so of course Jay reminded you the promise you had made. 

Kiseok and Seonghwa were the only ones at the living room area, Seonghwa knew of you and was actually a big fan of your music, he even tried to find your interviews with subtitles cause he found you fascinating.

“How are you?”

“I’m good, let me introduce you to some of the artists”

Jay walked along with you and that’s when seonghwa got a good look of your outfit. You were rocking a lace pink bodysuit with waist high white pants a baby pink coat, your hair and make up looked like you had them professionally done and of course you were in heels. Seonghwa was aware how you preferred to be overdressed and you had openly talked about being high maintenance now that you could afford it.

“This is Seonghwa and Kiseok, Seonghwa is the one that made the beat of the song I want us to do”

“Oh well I’m very impressed Hyung”

You replied in Korean. Seonghwa smiled, he had heard you in some interviews to speak Korean yet it was still fascinating to hear you speak to him.

“So what do you say? You want to work with us?”

“How could I ever deny someone like mister Gray?”

-

Since then you started travelling to Korea more frequently, your song with Jay was a huge success that you decided to do an m/v for it. The general public was just happy you were expanding more to your dads homeland and was ecstatic to have some new content from you, what they didn’t know was that the reason for it was that you and Seonghwa were exclusively dating. 

Seonghwa was everything you wanted in a man, kind, affectionate, honest, respectful and supportive of your career. How could he not, you even signed under illionaire so you can have more reasons to come visit him, he also came to see you as well but it made more sense for you to fly to Korea than him to fly in the U.S.

“Just give me 10 minutes”

“Now we both know it won’t be 10 minutes and i’ll have reply my make up after we are done”

Your contract with illionaire was finally signed and you wanted to celebrate, you had some close friends here as well but your best die hard friends were in the States, so you took the liberty of flying them here and going out to celebrate with a proper girls night.

Seonghwa was not a jealous man, he was lustful which meant that when he saw you in that tight black silk cocktail dress and smelled your perfume he wanted to grab a bite of you before you left.

“Now, now play nice mister. I promise when I come back we can have some special time”

“Fine, have fun baby”

“I’ll see you, bye”

You gave him a kiss as you grabbed your stuff and went out the door”

-

Seonghwa was surprised when he saw your friends holding you up and you drunk out of your fucking mind. You liked to party but you never really got so drunk, you usually stopped when you started getting tipsy.

“Did we wake you?”

“No I was waiting for her, thank you for taking care of her”

“Oh nonsense, it was her day of course she wanted to celebrate. Have a good night”

“You two, thanks again”

Seonghwa decided it would be easier to carry you bridal style than letting you flop around like a rag doll. Your eyes were open you just weren’t really talking, there was no sign of throwing up so it meant you weren’t extremely drunk.

“Hey baby”

you slurred. He smiled at you, he wasn’t mad everyone should let loose once in a while, he was just happy you were alright and with a group of people you trusted.

“Where are we going?”

“To the bedroom”

“Oh... yes”

One thing about you was that when you got drunk... your libido was off the charts, you always had a high sex drive but with the help of alcohol it became even worse. You started kissing his neck as he guided you to the room, at any other point he would have responded accordingly but drunk sex was good when you were both drunk. He smiled at your dedication to fulfilling the promise you had given him yet he decided it was best to take you up on it another time.

“You look so good, you know that? So... sexy”

It was hilarious to him how you tried to flirt while slurring. As he laid you down on the bed he started to take off your shoes, you giggled and lifted yourself up with your elbows

“I like it when you undress me”

“Come on, lay back beautiful”

“What if I don’t?”

He shook his head in amusement and placed the shoes next to your bed. He had never done this before but he had to take off your make up, so he took one o your wipes and gently started to wipe away your face.

“No, stop I wanted it on while we have sex”

“Jagi we are not having sex, you are too drink, stop moving”

“I’m not that drunk”

Of course like every other drunk person claimed you did as well. When he finally succeeded he took of your dress, which made you start flirting again with him and like the other attempts it did not work and got you to wear one of the shirts he had given you.

As he laid next to you you snuggled up to him and clanged to his body like a baby panda.

“I love you so much Seonghwa”

“I love you too (y/n)”

“No I love you more, I want a baby”

“What?”

He was caught off guard by your sudden declare of starting a family. He had thought of it as well although you’ve never discussed it.

“Yes... come on put a baby in me, we need to practice”

He laughed as you drunkenly tried to take of his shirt. He stopped you once more and brought you closer to him, placing a kiss at the top of your head as his other hand rubbed your back

“We will practice tomorrow, now get some sleep”

“You’re no fun”

“I love you too baby”

You Are A Goddess (Jay Park x Reader)

 hey guys... what’s up? how’s it going? let’s just cut to the shit, i felt nostalgic and started reading the imagines i used to port and I want to start writing again so...here goes nothing, this was requested by anon probably years ago i’m sorry baby for taking this long but I hope they see this and like it

Jay was a very handsome and charismatic man, you met him when you had gotten a job as Joon Kyungs a.k.a Dok2 personal assistant, so that meant you had to make a tons of phonecalls to other artists and people in the industry to confirm, arrange or cancel and inform about all types of things.

Jay was a bit stunned when he heard your voice over the phone, he could hear your smile, you sounded like you were really happy and excited for something and since he was drowning in responsibilities it was a breath of fresh air to hear someone talk in such a soothing and positive way. When he found out you were calling on Kyung’s behalf he got in contact with him and asked him about you

“Oh (y/n), she is my star right now, she is on top of everything and i’ve never met a person that is smiling genuinely so much”

After a few weeks joon kyung hosted an event for his birthday which meant you were in charge of pretty much everything and had to make sure everything went smoothly and exactly how your boss requested it. You saw Joon Kyung waving you over, he was with Dong gab and two other men you hadn’t personally met but you knew of them, well it wasn’t that hard since it was the infamous Jay Park and Simon D

“(y/n) let me introduce you to my good friends Jay Park and Kisok”

“It’s a pleasure to meet you, I am a big fan of your music and achievements”

“Thank you, that means a lot. We’ve been also hearing a lot of good things about you as well”

Jay took the lead and tried to stall the conversation as much as he could. As soon as you walked over to them he felt your positive aura that was so addictive, you seemed so grounded and so effortlessly put together it was fascinating for him, since in his industry they were so many people that tried so hard to seem like something they aren’t and were never meant to be it was a nice fresh tone to be around someone that seemed authentic.

“I’m sure he is exaggerating as always, but i’ll gladly take any compliment I can get”

-

After that Jay pursued you, he wanted to be around you, listen to you talk, he craved that comfortable and inviting aura you exude, not too long after that you started dating and not too long after that you were puking like you had been possessed by a Demon.

Jay was so excited about the baby, of course he was shocked at first and very scared since he had so many people depending on him that he was on call 24/7 with everyone and a child is a big responsibility, however in his eyes he couldn’t wait to be blessed by you with such gift, you would bring a life into this world, a beautiful combination of him and you and how could he deny himself such heaven?

He made sure you had everything you needed at any time, he was there at every doctors appointment, he was there when you needed some help to put your shoes on, baking and making all kinds of crazy recipes that you craved and of course he was there when you gave birth to a beautiful baby girl named Kyung Mi.

Yet not everyone shared his excitement, the media were ruthless and the fans were not pleased to say the least, their idol and a well known bachelor was suddenly not only in a relationship but also was having a baby. Your face was plastered all over the tabloids and of course they started digging up your past. While you were still pregnant Jay made sure to hide as much as he could, after you gave birth not only you started seeing more and more of it what also did not help was the extra weight you had gained and it seemed to be very stubborn,

“What are you doing? it’s 3 am?”

Jay had just walked in after a concert, expecting to find his girlfriend and baby girl sleeping, on the contrary he found you exercising and doing crunches at the living room with the baby monitor right next to you.

“Exactly, which means is the only time I can work out without Mi needing something”

He had noticed how you started eating less, always talking about new healthier recipes and it wasn’t the first time he had caught you working out in the middle of the night. He huffed and walked towards you as he sat down on the floor while you kept going with your work out

“Baby you’ve been staying up late to work out more and more”

“Don’t start Jay, you just got home as well”

“I had to work”

“Yes, so did I Jay. But now I have a family to take care of”

He bit his lower lip in a settle way to hold back his words. He knew how much it hurt you that you were staying home since you loved your job so much, of course Kyung understood and told you that when you feel ready to come back the spot is yours. Still, you felt in complete, nothing was the same anymore, you didn’t fit in your clothes, your breasts were swollen and bruised since Kyung Mi was starting to bite and of course the waking up in the middle of the night from the crying did not help either. Jay tried to help as much as he could , unfortunately he couldn’t drop everything and stay home so he understood your frustration.

“How about we take a shower together? We are both sweaty and we can... help each other”

“You can go first”

That also was a part of your new life, you wanted to have sex with Jay... who wouldn’t the problem wasn’t him it was you, you felt fat and ugly and just wanted to cover up and go to bed.

Jay was of course very supportive and expressed his feelings for you every day, that didn’t change the way you saw yourself even when you wished it did. Jay sighed and got up from the floor, leaving you be and getting lost in his own thoughts.

He had to do something and he had to do it quickly. Some how some way there was something he could do that would help you, of course that meant he needed advice from a woman and preferably someone that knew you.

-

“What’s going on big papa?”

Jessi teased as she picked up the phone. You and Jessi had gotten closer over the years and she was someone you used to go out with very often, so Jay thought maybe she had any good ideas.

“Hey, I need your help with something”

“I hope you didn’t hurt my baby (y/n), you owe her after pushing a baby out of her”

“No i didn’t do anything. She’s been very distant lately, she seems to be kind of sulking because of the baby weight and it has taken such a big toll on her”

“Well yeah i’m sure it did, have you tried like having a conversation?”

“yes but she is shutting me out, blaming me about not helping her and missing her job”

“Oh man, Let me see what I can come up with”

-

Jessi was a Saint sent straight from heaven. Her plan was brilliant, she went over the house at 10 a.m and pretty much kicked you out and send you at a well known spa and resort as a “god mother gift” where she had planned a full boy massage and a facial, as well as a sauna and yoga. You haven’t felt this relaxed in a while, letting someone take care of you and not having to worry about the baby crying and if she needs a diaper change was something she desperately needed. 

After everything she was led to a room that had a big package with a beautiful pink bow and a letter. As she opened it she immediately recognized the hand writing.

“To my baby mama,

Take a sweet nap and in 3 hours a hair and make up artist will come to get you all dolled up for our dinner. 

I love you,

your baby daddy”

You smiled and chose to not open the box yet, you left it to the side and laid down on the bed smiling brightly at the letter he had left you. You knew he cared but it was still nice to see that he really did try.

As the letter promised a hair and make up artist came and hooked you up with the good stuff, they made you look like a person you hadn’t see in a while. You went for a nice soft gold eye make up and a red lip and you hair just a nice blow out but it was just so refreshing to finally look like your old self. Then came the the time to finally open the box and of course what was inside was absolutely stunning

It was tight around your stomach which you did not love and it did put you down a little bit but since you had nothing else to wear you just pushed it in the back of your mind, he had even bought your favorite perfume to wear and of course you noticed the lack of undewear in the box.

As you walked in the hotels restaurant you noticed nobody else was in here other than the servers and Jay. He got up and offered you a single red rose

“Milady”

You giggle as you took it and gave it a little sniff. You couldn’t hold back and went in to hug him, which he wanted to do as well.

“You look ravishing baby”

“Thank you, you look handsome as well”

He pulled back your seat and as you sat down he placed a gentle kiss on your shoulder right on top of the extremely thin spaghetti strap of your dress before taking a seat directly in front of you.

“Tonight is not about me beautiful, tonight is dedicated to you. The sexiest woman on the planet”

“Oh please, maybe after I love half of what I weight”

“Baby why are you putting yourself down? You know I would love you no matter what you weight right?”

You bit your lip. You knew Jay loved you, it was just you that felt insecure and almost like you were holding him back from everything, his career, his friends, everything had changed now and you felt responsible for it, the reason that you were so good at your job was that you took responsibility for everything so naturally it happened now as well.

“I know it’s just, I feel like I’m holding you back”

“What? What do you mean?”

“You were supposed to have a world tour this year and you cancelled it, as well as many other performances cause you wanted to come to doctors appointments”

“Exactly, I chose to cancel them baby, I wanted to be there”

“Yes but... I don’t know I just feel like I’m a burden, also I’ve gain weight and I feel... ugly”

There was a silence after that, since the waiter came and placed the food in front of you. You looked down at your feet, embarrassed and also a bit nervous of what Jay would say, after the waiter walked away Jay got up from his seat and kneeled in front of you, placing his one hand on top of yours and the other reached your chin so you can meet his eyes.

“You are one strong woman you know that? You loved me unconditionally and you gave me a beautiful child, sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve such a person in my life, you are no longer a woman to me... you are a Goddess. That’s why I don’t think i’ll find a more perfect time to do this”

“Do what?”

He reached for his pocket and pulled a small red velvet box. As soon as you saw it you started tearing up and your breathing stopped. Jay looked at you once again, he was saving it for the end of the meal but now it just seemed such a perfect moment.

“(Y/F/N) will you do me the absolute honor and let me your husband?”

“yes”

you whispered as you bot got up and went for a passionate kiss letting your feelings flow and the tears roll down your cheek. You were so happy, finally after so long you felt the connection you had with him before the baby, you missed this pure raw bond you shared, the passion flowed after so many months of complete drought.

“You are so pretty even when you cry”

You laughed once again as you gently wiped your tears not to mess your perfectly applicated make up. He slipped the ring on your finger and kissed your hand 

“Let’s eat and then I can take my dessert in the bedroom”

“Can’t wait mister Park”

Naya Rivera

Naya Rivera is finally able to rest and her family found closure. Naya for me was and still is one of the most beautiful women I have ever seen, her role as the iconic Santana Lopez made me realize that those feelings for girls I had as a middle school girl were ok and that I will be fine. Reports are saying that she put all her strength into saving her son, that goes to show the love and selflessness her heart held was unbearable and I'm sure she is happy her son is safe and will grow with her family and ex husband, I pray her soul comes back to us cause we need kind people like her in this world, the body might have breathed the last breath but the soul will be born to another beautiful human that will shine bright like last time. Rest in Peace Naya Rivera, you will be missed

Give Me A Kiss (Jay Park x Reader)

Sup fuckers!? Y’all thought I would leave but nah bitch I am still here! anyway this was requested by @ilook-soperfectstandinghere14 Enjoy!

Being with Jay was wonderful, he is your first real love, mark the word first, unfortunately he is not the last, but you love him nonetheless, he was the right man to hold you close and teach you how a man is supposed to be, yeah he had his flaws but he never did anything that affected you dearly, even the jokes that went a tad bit too far were forgotten.

He loved you too, a pretty young thing with her heart on her sleeve (when she chose) and a wide smile full of life, he also knew you were not the one but he held on until you spread your wings for the man that was right for you. He loved the back hugs, the sweet kisses, the lust that was not just limited to his body but to everything, you were hungry for him, for life and for food -which he found very entertaining he almost felt lucky to be with you for your first milestones.

But neither of you forgot that jay was a public figure, a man that women would do lots of things just for a night or even an hour, sometimes you would get jealous or he would throw fit, yes he was a handsome man but you were a beautiful woman and he never forgot that.

Your relationship had to be undercover, it gave a thrill but it also gave a lot of anxiety when you went out in public, sometimes it had to come second, a famous artist and the CEO of two labels, they were a lot of labels on his back and also a lot of paychecks he had to make sure were on the right bank accounts on time or else people would point the finger at him without needing an explanation.

It brought him a lot of stress, countless sleepless nights and phone calls he had to ignore and call later -that is if he remembered or had the time- most of the time you would let it pass and focus on your work, yourself and your friends but it wasn't like that, something inside you kept you worrying about him, you knew very well he was a busy man but he has been away for too long.

Your boss let you leave early one time, they weren't many customers and you haven't had they day offs you've been promised for a while now. You bought his favourite from his favourite restaurant and drove to the famous building of AOMG, you called hoody to come and get you so it would seem like she was the one that invited you if any of the paps were lurking.

"Is he on his office?"

"No at the studio, he's been playing music and cursing all day"

Hoody informed you, you gripped the bag of take out tighter, maybe you should have come sooner, maybe you shouldn't have come, all types of thoughts were running freely in your mind.

You walked in after three times of knocking without any answer, he had his headphones on and he had hunched over the machine like a predator on it's pray. You placed the food and your other belongings on the nearest table and walked up to him, wrapping your arms around his neck and gave him a kiss on the cheek.

"What is my little girl doing here?"

He wasn't mad at all, he was caught of guard of course but he was aware that at some point you would get concerned.

" someone had to make sure you are alive, although you do look like death, are these bags under your eyes gucci?"

He snorted at your light hearted diss, he was well aware that his appearance was far from the usual well groomed fashionable image he had built. You liked this side, it made him more human than the man on the magazine covers, you got to see the sweat behind the man in the lights.

You pulled the chair next to him and sat down, your whole body facing his, you put your legs up his lap for more comfort and because you wanted that physical contact you haven't had in years.

"talk to me, what has you in this studio?"

"projects, you know i like to bite more than i can chew"

his hand traced up and down your calf's very lightly, it felt like silk was caressing your skin. You smiled at him, jay was an over achiever and everyone knew it, there was no ceiling on his achievements and it was a gift and a curse.

"i know but i miss those big ass bites on me?"

"I've been neglecting you"

"yes"

"come here"

He gestured, you crawled from one chair to another, wrapping your legs around him and let your cheek rest on his shoulder.

"you've been working out?"

"I had to do something with all this free time"

he felt bad, he knew you didn't deserve to put up with this type of treatment, you would be better of with someone that would be there whenever you needed him, he just couldn't say that out loud yet and who could blame him? you are a beauty, inside and out, head to toe you look stunning and when he felt your skin against his he was helpless.

"You need a vacation mister"

"I know but I can't"

"I thought there was no such thing as " i can't" there was only "i don't want to" right?"

He would always say that to you when you joined him in the gym and started to complain.

"look who's getting slick? you've been practising your clap backs while i've been gone?"

"don't change the subject, i'm not saying a month maybe a week, even Simon took a huge break and he is in this business more than you, now he is back and i'm sure he can handle it, he is the co- CEO after all"

he could see you were getting sour, you were eager for a positive answer, he exhaled heavily ready to reason out with you why he can't do that.

"We've never been on a vacation, do it for me, we might not have the chance again"

the last part was a whisper, he understood what you meant, you've been together for a while but at some point you would wake up and get bored of him gone missing or he would get to sucked in at work to remember you.

"you're not playing fair"

"I know"

"Fine, you win but only one week"

"two, come on jay"

"one and a half"

"you got it boss, now give me a kiss, I missed you"

I Want Your Love (Simon D x Reader)

....I’m back! So I decided to get back on this horse but they will be some changes, since i’ve found myself joining other fandoms I will be posting about other characters outside of kpop/ khiphop, I will upload the list with the added characters for you to request, this was requested by an anon, thank you for being patient. Enjoy!

Being a young woman was very blissful for you, slowly making your steps to womanhood and finally taking small but steady steps to conquering what you dreamed of doing as a little baby girl.

There's not a lot of people from your country that choose to come to Korea for a new life, but when you did it you never looked back expect when you visit your dear parents, other than that you were enjoying your time and making a new friends and a career that you proudly earned and worked from scratch, you were happy young woman.

You became even happier when you met him, you had previously worked for the wonderful jessi and you hit it of because of the warrior stories you had from coming to Korea, you were happy to say you had a nice friendship with her so she chose to introduce you to some of hers, make new friends and even a nice deal at the workplace. Instead you found the man you always wanted!

The bad boy or the loud ones had stopped being appealing to you a long time ago, so when you saw him sitting there and took upon your hand with a solid smile and a "pleasure to meet you" was all it took to be interested in this man with that was sitting quietly but joined in on the conversations once in a while.

"Hello"

You answered your phone, it was your day off so you feared it was your boss calling you in for a so called "emergency", Lucky for you it was something way better.

" Miss (Y/L/N)"

"This is She"

"Jung Kiseok on the phone"

You froze for a few seconds, a smile appeared very clear to your face, without even realizing it you were biting your lower lip

"Oh hi"

"I was wondering if you were free at any point of this lovely day"

"Oh you need help?"

"If that's what you call a date then yeah"

Kiseok was a great guy for the most part, you met him right before he went on his hiatus, something about you made him even more hungry for some simplicity, he wanted to devote so much time to you, to wake up by your side, cook dinner, go for a walk, watch a movie, work out together, read a book together, the list can go on and on.

From your side you loved the attention, it was the first time a man was clinging so much on you and you loved it every minute of it, he introduced you to everyone, went out with you, he was the man of your dreams, you were so caught up in the love bubble that the age gap never even crossed your mind as a worry.

That was not the case for him, he saw you as that beautiful young woman on her prime, your soft skin, your energy, curiosity for everything like all women in their youth, maybe that was the reason he focused so much on you, because he was scared of you leaving when he is not looking.

Kiseok was always a jealous man, it was never harmful of dangerous it was more complimenting and flirty, it made you feel wanted, he on the other hand was concerned, he saw how men looked at you, specifically that night.

You walk in with confidence as always looking for your man and spotted him sitting with his friends, you approached that crew and smiled to him

"hey baby"

You said and gave him a kiss on the cheek, slowly you sat down, sliding your hands right under your bottom keeping your black skirt in place, crossing your legs and leaning them to him so your knee was touching his leg.

"This is my girl (y/n)"

He said with pride as always, but that was replaced with suspicion when he saw how a few of them looked at you, with lust and way too much interest.

"Nice to meet you"

One of the had the audacity to even reach for your hand and place a kiss on it, while his eyes never leaving yours. You thought nothing of it, this were Kiseoks friends and they would never make a move, to your mind it was harmless and just a way of being nice.

From that point on Kiseok stayed silent and held you way too close, yes Kiseok always had some physical contact but you can tell his grip is way too tigh

"Is everything alright?"

You whispered to him

"Yes, don't worry about it"

He dismisses with an effort of a smile that wasn't even close to convincing you, so you just waited until you went somewhere more private.

"Kiseok, what is wrong?"

You said as you wrapped your arms around him from behind, bending down to reach his sitting figure and place a sweet kiss on his cheek.

As he took of his other shoe he closed his eyes and took a breath

"Do you love me?"

"Of course, you are my man"

you said as you started kissing his neck, he stopped you before he got way too into the moment and gave you what you were asking. He got up and stood right in front of you, looking straight into your mesmerizing eyes.

"When is your birthday?"

"November the 13th, don't worry you didn't forget"

"What year?"

"... every year"

"no, I mean what year were you born"

"Kiseok what is this?"

You started getting a bit confused, what was this sudden questioning of your birthday and... it clicked

" You are asking cause of the age gap"

You stated and he nodded. That's when real worry kicked in, was he breaking up with you? what is this whole thing for?

"You are so young? full of life, why are you with someone that cannot follow you in this adventures? that can walk with you on those milestones of life?"

"Kiseok i don't want that, I want you. I want you to help me when i think i'm lost, I want you to give me your opinion when i reach a stop, I want your love, your mind, your manners, I want you, you are the wiser and the most loving guy i've ever been with, why would i give that up?"

Those were honest words, what you adored was how Kiseok was so wiling to help you with difficulties you reached in life and was always there to guide you, he had figured out and conquered what he wanted, he wanted the same for you.

"It's you and me, unless you don't want it to be"

Excuse Me? (Loco x Reader)

Requested by anon. This is a collaboration I did with the lovely @lady-une which is why I didn’t post yestrday cause of different time zones but we pulled through and I hope you enjoy what we wrote (honestly it’s mostly her, so go and check her out cause she made me feel like a shitty writer). Enjoy!

Being with Hyuk-woo was bitter sweet, it was like living with two different people wrapped in one body.

You met from Jay, you were a trainee with him back in the JYP days, but gave up quickly and became a pretty good actress, you were not a household name yet like others but people knew you and your work, you did good for yourself.

Jay had invited you to play in one of his m/v's that he did with Reddy, everything went well and you had to go over the AOMG building in order to see the final product. You were very excited about it, you always wanted to be a the main star in one of his m/v's, he usually did some very provocative concepts so you kindly declined some of them to save your reputation, Korea was very strict about those kind of stuff.

As you walked in the room greened by white walls and bright lights, it was very aesthetically pleasing you had to give that to them. Jay approached you with open arms and gave you a big bear hug like he always did, you and him had reached that level of comfort that you were not even close to attraction, yes he was a beautiful man and you were a very attractive woman but it was 100% platonic between you too.

"Hello little girl, how are you?"

"Good how about yourself? you smell good"

You had a think about different odors, you always made sure to smell amazing and you enjoyed the sense of others smelling nice and clean.

"I'm good and thank you. Let me introduce you to the others"

Hyuk-woo introduced himself last, he was shy and his voice was barely heard, which to you was extremely adorable. You shook his hand and smiled at him, he could swear he fell in love right then and there.

You were so used to men being cocky and a bit of a douche bags, that Hyuk-woos silence and cute quirky attitude was extremely refreshing and almost addictive.

After that you made it your mission to be around him, your attraction towards him was so strong that you even asked Jay if he was single and what you should do to win him over. You were the type of girl that didn't like playing games, what you wanted you would go after it fair and square, so why back out now?

"Hello my pretty bear"

That was your nickname for him, it was cute and way too sappy but hey! a girl has to do what a girl has to do, also you loved how much he blushed when you called him that.

"Hi (y/n), how are you?"

"i'm good, i would be better if you went out with me"

"huh?"

He whipped his head towards you so fast that you swore he could break it right then and there, it was almost out of a comedy and of course you giggled at his expression.

"Come on, we've been flirting for a while now. Just go out with me already"

"O-Ok then"

"Good, I'll ask Jay when he can free your schedule, see ya babe"

That was the start of your world wind romance, the two of you were inseparable for the most part, save for the times your schedules didn’t allow it. Your relationship wasn’t perfect, no relationship ever was. The two of you would have little fights here and there about stupid things, like leaving the toilet seat down, picking up the dirty laundry, or who’s turn it was to do dishes. No matter the fights by the end of the night you two would always kiss and make up, that’s what you loved about him. He hated going to bed angry, he said he didn’t want to live his life with regrets. You too felt the same way, you didn’t want to live with regrets and wanted to live life to its fullest potential.

Lately though a bit of regret has been slowly seeping into your life. You were casted in your first prime drama as a supporting role, this was your first major role that would give you all the screen time you ever wanted. You had been getting up early and spending most of the time out on site for your drama often coming home super late at night.

Thankfully Hyuk-woo was on tour with AOMG up until wrapped up filming. You two would send quick texts as much as possible and you really tried to video message him but the only time you had to do that was at night and it didn’t always work with him. You were getting frustrated because you missed him and only wanted to be in his arms again, but you told yourself that eventually you two would come together again.

Finally you wrapped up your drama and Hyuk-woo was set to come home from his tomorrow, the excitement running through your body had you on cloud nine. You originally wanted to just go right home and to call him and talk over the phone but you ended up at the wrap party for the drama.

You were laughing and sharing drinks with the cast and crew when suddenly the bell over the bar sounded and you turned to see who showed up late when walked the man you wanted to see the most.

Standing from your seat you ran up to him and threw your arms around his neck. “What are you doing here?”

you whispered in his neck while you took in his scent.

“I wanted to surprise you, your manager said you were here and I figured I would come join you.”

Pulling back you smiled before grabbing his hand and leading him to the table you were just at. You take the seat you had just vacated you watched as Hyuk-Woo took the one across from you. You took the moment to introduce him to the writer, director, and your cast mates. He bowed and they welcomed him to the party.

Everything was going well and you couldn’t be happier. Lee Geun-suk who was the lead male in the drama grabbed a bottle offering to pour Hyuk-woo a drink which he excepted before he then turned to you and poured you a drink as well.

The three of you clicked glasses before downing the bitter drink. You could feel the heat creep up your neck and into your cheeks, you knew you were reaching your limit and should stop drinking soon.

Everyone around you was pretty buzzed leaving Hyuk-woo the soberest person there. Suddenly an arm belonging to Lee Geun-suk found its way around your shoulder pulling you into him.

“I want to congratulate y/n on finishing her first major drama! Y/n I know you were super nervous starting out, I am happy you took my advice! This drama wouldn’t have been the same with you, I hope I get the chance to work with you in the future.”

You smiled as he finished his statement slurring out the last few words, you pulled away and thanked him for his kind words.

Looking across the table you caught your boyfriend glaring at the arm wrapped around you before turning his gaze to you and lifting and eyebrow. Turning your gaze to everyone you thanked them for everything before excusing yourself wanting to go home as it was rather late. Both you and Hyuk-woo stood from your spots before stepping back and bowing before saying your goodbyes.

Arriving back at your apartment you slowly took off your shoes and jacket feeling a bit of dizziness come over you. Swaying on your feet you grabbed onto the wall for support before.

“Did you drink a lot tonight?”

“I didn’t think I did but I guess so.”

Holding onto your arm Hyuk-woo helped you to the bedroom before laying you down in bed and going to the dresser pulling out a sleep shirt. He then helped you change out of your clothes before covering you with the blankets. Snuggling deep into the bed you whispered, “thank you” before falling into a deep slumber.

Over the next week you were super busy with promoting the drama and spent most of the day out of the apartment doing interviews and recording promotional ads, of course  was also there as he was the male lead.

The interviews were mostly innocent but every now and then you two would get comments about how well your on-screen chemistry was. You would smile and blush while you covered your face while he would smile and nudging you with his arm winking at you.

Anytime you have a free day you would stop by the studio to bring treats and snacks for the guys. They were always grateful and congratulated you on your drama. Even though there was only two episodes out so far, the viewer ratings were high and you felt proud.

At night, you would always make a point to have a warm meal waiting for Hyuk-woo when he got home from work. You tried to wait up for him every night but always ended up falling asleep on the couch only to wake up in your bed the next morning.

Getting ready for the last day of your promotions you turned to Hyuk-woo who was still lying in bed trying to sleep a bit longer.

“What would you like for dinner tonight, I only have an interview today and then I thought I would go do some grocery shopping. So let me know what you want for dinner and I will make sure to get it. Do you guys need anything for the studio? I can stop by and pick some things up and drop them off on the way home.”

Hyuk-woo only moaned before rolling to face away from you and pulling the covers over his head. Standing from your spot in front of the dresser you let out a sigh before walking to the door and stopping to turn to him.

“If you think of anything please let me know. I love you and will see you later tonight I hope.”

The interview didn’t last that long which left you pretty much the whole day to get some things done. Hyuk-woo never texted you so you made a quick call to him to inquire again about dinner. His only response was “whatever” before saying he had to go and hung up on you. Staring at your phone you felt like something was wrong, making a mental note to ask later you took off to the grocery store.

Like most of the nights lately you ate dinner alone, making sure to package the chicken pasta you had made so that Hyuk-woo would be able to warm it up whenever he got home. Instead of waiting up you went to bed making sure to leave a sticky note on the table to let him know dinner was in the fridge.

The next morning you woke to find him quietly sleeping next to you. You smile as you scoot closer putting an arm around his waist as you nuzzled your face into his back taking in his scent. It had been too long since you were able to wake up and just relax with him in bed. Suddenly Hyuk-woo turned before pulling you into his hold and wrapping his own arm around your body. You heard him let out a comfortable sigh into your hair as you laid with your face now comfortably in his chest. Wrapping your leg around his hip you pulled him as close as you could get him as you began to lay light peppered kisses on his chest making your way to his mouth. The two of you hadn’t been intimate in a very long time and you missed the connection. Just as you were to deepen the kiss Hyuk-woo pulled away untangling himself from you before getting out of the bed.

“Babe what’s wrong?”

“Nothing, I have to get ready.”

“But you normally don’t go into the studio until around noon. I was hoping we could spend some time together, I miss you.”

“I have a busy day, I can’t always be here when you want me too.”

You watched with a surprised expression as he grabbed some clothes before going into the bathroom to shower and get ready. You had no idea where his attitude was coming from, this was so unlike him.

Throwing the covers off you got out of bed and went into the kitchen to make him some coffee and a light breakfast, wanting to make sure that he at least had something in his stomach. Opening the fridge you were surprised to find last night’s dinner still in there untouched, grabbing the items for his breakfast you close the door. Just as you were putting the lid on his to go cup Hyuk-woo came out of the bedroom and walked over to the door putting on his shoes.

“I made you some food, please take it with since it looks like you didn’t eat dinner either.” “I’m not hungry.”

Walking out the door he leaves you stunned, the man never turned down food let alone twice within 12 hours. There was something wrong for sure and you needed to figure out what it was. Once he left you ate the food you had made before cleaning up the mess and the food from last night that sat in the fridge.

With nothing scheduled today you just hung around at the house cleaning and putting away laundry. You tried to call him throughout the day but were just sent to voicemail. You thought of going right down to the studio to hash this out but decided against it not wanting to embarrass him in front of the others.

That night you refused to allow yourself to fall asleep until after you settled this with him. With a fresh pot of coffee you sat on the couch watching the tv drinking the hot liquid while you waited for him to get home. Just as you felt like he was never going to come home you heard the musical sounds of someone entering the passcode in before the door opened. Looking at the clock you noticed it was 1am. Standing from the couch you walked over to the door and watched him take his shoes off.

“Welcome home.”

Hyuk-woo stood quickly with his hand going to his chest,

“You scared me, what are you still doing up?”

“I was waiting for you.”

“Why? Just go to bed.”

“No, we need to talk. I need to know why you have been blowing me off and getting an attitude with me.”

“Not now y/n, it’s late and I am tired.”

“If not now then when? No I want to get this out so we can move on.”

“God cant you just leave this alone?”

“No, I am sick of feeling like this. Tell me what is going on? Is there another woman?”

“What? How could you say that?”

“I’m sorry, I know you would never cheat on me but I just feel super anxious because you are acting so strange.”

“If anyone should be questioning the other of cheating it should be me!”

Taking a step back as if you were just struck you couldn’t believe what he had just said.

“Excuse me?”

“You heard me.”

“I don’t think I did, it sounds like you were low key accusing me of cheating on you?”

“Just tell me y/n, how long has this been going on? Is this why you got that role? Did he get it for you? Were you ever going to tell me?”

“I have no idea what you are even talking about!”

“I know you’re cheating on me with him!”

Stumbling back you moved away from your boyfriend until you hit the kitchen counter. You reached back for the counter needing the support as you felt like your legs were about to give out.

“I knew it!”

All you could do was stair at the man you loved as he hurled insult after insult in your direction, accusing you of the most heinous.

“How could you y/n, you knew how much I loved you!”

“How could I? How could you! How could you ever accuse me of cheating on you! Never in a million years would I ever think of doing that to you! I love you! How could you doubt me and question my loyalty to you?”

“Don’t lie to me, I see the way you two look at each other! I saw how he held you close at the wrap party! It all makes sense if you think about it, all the short messages from you and phone calls. You were just too busy with him to even think about me!”

“I would never! I was busy Hyuk-woo, it’s not like I could stop filming just because I needed to hear your voice! This was my first major drama, you knew how important this was to me! I wanted to make a good impression on everyone and show them that I could do this! How could you ever think I would be cheating on you!”

“Then what about all those interviews, I know I am not the only one who sees the way you two look at each other. Even other people comment about your chemistry.”

“We are acting! It’s our job to make people believe there was something there but there isn’t! I only have eyes for you, I have only ever loved you!”

“I don’t believe you! Let’s just end this.”

“Fine, then don’t. Just know you will regret this.”

Turning around you storm off to your shared bedroom grabbing a bag from the closet before you start throwing in clothes and then move to grab toiletries before grabbing your laptop and chargers. When you enter the living Hyuk-woo is sitting on the couch looking at the tv that was put on silent. Tears flowed from your eyes as you watched the man you love sit in silence not even trying to stop you. Putting on your shoes you open the door and pause hoping and wishing he would stop you and tell you he was sorry but he didn’t. Walking out of the apartment was the hardest thing you ever did, but you couldn’t be in the same room with him with how he was treating you.

That night you got a room a hotel, thankfully your manager knew some people and got you into a room without people noticing. Now was not the time for a scandal to start, that would only fuel the fire of the dating rumors that circulated you and . You barely slept at all, finally falling asleep from exhaustion due to how much you cried. The sun was already coming up at that point and it only caused you to have a stressful sleep dreaming of Hyuk-woo and happier times. When you finally woke up it was midafternoon, your manager had come to check up on you. He didn’t pry into your personal matters and only asked how long you needed the room and if you needed anything. You thanked him for his concern but told him you would be fine and he left soon after.

The rest of the day you spent in bed just looking out the window, you watched birds fly in the sky and watch the sky turn colors with pinks and purples splattering around only wishing your emotions were as calm as the sky. Soon the sun set and the colorful sky was replaced with darkness and twinkling stars. Your phone hadn’t rung once, you had it on the charger wishing he would call and apologize, fearing this was actually it. A new waive of tears came on and your body rocked with sobs. How had things gotten this way? Suddenly the bell for the door rung and you jumped up rushing to the door swinging it open hoping he had showed up but only saw Jay standing there. Stepping to the side you allowed him entry, shutting it and walking to the chair across from the one he sat down in.

“How are you holding up?”

“How could he doubt me?”

“I don’t know, the man is blind y/n. Any of us could see how much you love him, we all know you would never do that.”

“But he thinks that. Did I not love him enough? Did I not show him that enough? I must have done something to make him doubt me!”

Tears fell like small rivers from your eyes as you crossed your arms over your chest trying to hold yourself together and as you cried. Jay stood walking over to you before getting on his knees and pulling you into a hug, you wrap your arms around him grasping onto the back of his shirt and cried your eyes out until there was nothing left. When Jay pulled away he brought a handkerchief out to wipe your eyes and you noticed the big wet spot on his silk shirt. “I’m sorry Jay, I ruined your shirt.”

“Don’t worry about it, this shirt means nothing. Look I know you love him and I know deep down he loves you too. I think this tour really put some stress on him and then you got busy with work. It was just a lot all at once and I don’t think he knew how to properly process everything. Why don’t you get dressed and I can bring you by the apartment? Talk it out with him.”

“I don’t think that’s a good idea, he is the one that broke up with me.”

“Just go home y/n.”

“I don’t think that’s my home anymore. Thank you for stopping by Jay I really appreciate it, but I know you are busy. Just do me a favor and keep an eye on him for me.”

Jay dropped his head before nodding and standing up before he put his arm on your shoulder giving you a light squeeze before walking out of your room.

Outside of your manager he was the only one who stopped by to see you. You had nothing on your schedule for the month and you were happy at once, to be able to have a free month to spend with Hyuk-woo but now you wished you had something to do to keep you busy.

You hadn’t heard from him in two weeks since that night you walked out of the apartment. Jay told you he was a mess and begged you to go back home but each time you declined. If Hyuk-woo wanted you home he would have called you but he hadn’t. His lack of communication was the final nail in the confine that housed your broken relationship. Calling Jay you asked how Hyuk-woo was but really you were just trying to see if he was out of the house.

“He is good as he could be giving the circumstances. We are at the studio right now.”

“Do you guys planning on being there all night?”

“I don’t know maybe, why?”

“Just wondering, I have to get going so I will talk to you later.”

Hanging up before Jay could inquire more you made the decision that today would be the day you retrieved the rest of your things. Grabbing your jacket and purse you put your shoes on and walked out of the hotel hailing a cab for the apartment.

Walking into the apartment you felt like it was a completely different place. There was a pillow and blanket on the couch and takeout trash littered the counters near the garbage. Pulling the moving boxes out of the closet you went to the bedroom where you began to pack up all of your belongings. Folding up shirts and pants placing them in the box along with the dresses you had bought for special occasions. Tears stung your eyes as you thought back to certain events that you wore the clothes too. 

Packing away all of your beauty products you stumbled across an old photo in the drawer, it was one you both sitting in the studio smiling as you laid your head on his shoulder. It was one from when you had just started dating, the two of you looked so happy and just smitten with each other. Placing that on the top of the pile in the box you closed it up and pushed it to the door.

 Grabbing another box you began to place shoes and purses along with the boxes that held your jewelry, necklaces and bracelets that Hyuk-woo had bought you over the years. Brushing your fingers across the blue velvet box of the necklace he had just bought you on your last anniversary you let a low sob escape your lips. 

Once the bedroom was packed up you moved to the living room. Grabbing some paper from the kitchen you began walking around collecting picture frames from the shelves and entertainment stand. Looking down on the pictures of smiling faces, yours, his, friends and family. You started to wrap them up all one by one before they too were placed in the box. Taking one last look around the apartment that you shared with Hyuk-woo you cried, all of the memories made there. So many nights of laughter were held here. 

Walking to the bedroom you gave it one last look over, flashes of the two of you in bed together as moans from the past love making ring in your head you turn the light off and shut the door. Calling your manager you informed him you were ready and your manager said he would be there in a few minutes as he was only just down the street. Sitting down at the counter you waited for him to ring the bell and to help load the boxes into the van.

Looking down at your phone you were about to call him again when the door suddenly unlocked and opened with Hyuk-woo rushing in. Looking down at the boxes and then to your surprised face as you sat there, you weren’t sure what he was doing here.

“Y/n….” He stuttered your name out.

“Hyuk-woo, what are you doing here? Shouldn’t you be at the studio?”

“Jay said you called earlier, he said you were acting strange.”

“Yeah I called to see if you were out of the apartment”

looking down at the counter you continued

“I didn’t want you to be here when I packed up my things.”

Hyuk-woo slowly walked to you before he stopped just in front of you. He was so close you could feel the heat from his body and his breath on your head as tried to calm himself and get his breathing under control.

“Don’t worry, my manager will be here any minute and then I will be gone.”

“Look at me.”

“Hyuk-woo, I don’t want to fight anymore. Please just go back to the studio.”

“Y/n please look at me.”

“No, there isn’t anymore for us to say. You said all you needed to say, and there isn’t anything I can do to change your mind. So please just go.”

You felt his hands come to your face cupping each side of your face lifting it to look at him. You held your eyes shut as best as you could but when you felt his fingers brush the tears that escaped your clamped shut lids you slowly opened them to look up at him.

Hyuk-woo looked down at you with his own tears in his eyes, he looked just as broken as you did. Dark circles were forming under his eyes and his face looked sunken in and pale.

“Hyuk-woo I..”

He put a finger over you lipes silencing what you were about to say.

“Y/n, just let me talk. I have been a mess of a man since you walked out that door. I tried to talk myself into being ok with us splitting up but no matter how much I tried I couldn’t. I couldn’t even sleep in the bed because whenever I opened my eyes you were there smiling at me but when I moved to touch you, you just disappeared. I can’t work and I can’t eat, everything tastes like ash and I can’t think of a single lyric. All I can think about is you. I was a fool, the guys told me that over and over for how I treated you. Laying here every night all that comes to mind is the memories we shared all the good times and then I started to think. How I could I ever doubt you, when you have never done anything to prove me otherwise. When Jay mentioned how you asked how late I was going to be in the studio I didn’t think anything of it. This anxious feeling kept growing inside me and I knew something was off. I rushed all the way here hoping that you weren’t here doing this but here you are. Please y/n don’t go, I was a fool! I was an idiot! But please don’t leave me, I should never had said those things to you and I wish I could take it back. I wish I had just talked to you about my feelings instead of handling it that way. Can you forgive me?”

Listening to him say everything as tears fell down his cheeks broke your heart. Standing up you reached your hand to his face cupping his like he did yours. His eyes closed shut at the contact and he nuzzled his face into your hand.

“Promise me you won’t ever hold things in like this. Promise me that you will always come to me when you aren’t feeling comfortable about something. I don’t want to go through this again, I don’t think I could survive something like this again. Every day I was gone I felt like I was slowly dying on the inside.”

Looking up into your eyes Hyuk-woo nodded his head, “I promise.”

Bringing your other arm up you wrapped them around his neck pulling him to you as you both cried and promised each other to never go through this again. Your lips met each other briefly before you both whispered I love yous to each other. Gone was the anxiety and sadness you had been feeling since you left, you knew things were going to be better from here on out.

I’m Not Sorry Part 2 (Dean x Reader)

So y’all wanted a part two, here it is people! enjoy!

You decided to go online, see what the people have to say for your part in Show Me The Money, honestly you thought people would catch up on your secret by now and it scared you a lot, you wanted to keep it under wraps as much as you could.

"(y/n) is finally back, she will win"

"(y/n) is already the best rapper in the show, (y/n) fighting"

"(y/n) is the best female rapper, the hyungs don't have anything on her"

Everyone was positive! yes they were negative comments but how could you focus on them when all the others are so bright and up lifting. You can't back up now, you had to go as far as you can on this show, for yourself but mostly for your fans, the fans that patiently waited for you to heal and to come back and now you have to come back strong - This was the scariest round of all, cypher.

Every contestant wanted a spot, everyone would do literally anything to see themselves go to the live shows, but every year it would get harder, every different type of style of rapper would join this show and they were ruthless and with this round they had a chance to be as cruel as they wanted to, this was basically the round where you have to tear the other person down in order to win

"Congratulations on coming this far, but now we have the cypher. Every rapper watched each and every contestants that passed and had to rank them, based on that result you will be scored from ten all the way to 1.

Every ones blood froze at their veins. Score? That was cruel, why would we need a score and get judged by other rappers, they were already trynna find some drama to fill the show

"You will compete against the others and only the best one can continue, the other will be eliminated and off the show"

You could feel the adrenaline run high, the tension in the room could be cut with a knife, all of you got scared but hungry for the win. The competition was on a 100.

"Both of the contestants will choose a beat and make a whole song together that you will get judged on. If you impress the judges you pass, or else you go home"

"Come on"

you whispered to yourself, this was cruel and unusual punishment, although you knew damn well this would bring a lot of people to see the show, anything for the views.

You were actually selected by the guy, which means you had to stand with your back on the screen and wait for the number to pop up, which made your heart go off and want to spit it out, you got an 8.5, not bad at all although -like everyone- you wanted it to be higher,you could see and hear others whispering, hoping to not get selected by you. 

"So (y/n), who will you choose?"

"Truedy"

you stated as soon as you were asked. You saw her frown but she walked up to the stage, trying to look confident and unbothered.

"Why Truedy?"

"She has already won a show like this, that she didn't make the right moves to use that success is on her, she doesn't need that place here as much as others"

You caught the face she made at your words, you wanted her to know what you thought. How can you cosplay a culture and believe the public won't catch up? So you were just the one to say that out loud.

"Go backstage and prepare your song,good luck to both of you"

You didn't really want to work with her, she was just an easy target, so when you settled on a beat you just wrote stuff on your phone, memorized it in your brain and whisper it to see if it goes with the beat, at the end of the day you had to do good for yourself, it's everyone for themselves at this point.

When it was your turn you walked on stage with a smile and the mic in your right hand and stood still where they told you too.

"Hello ladies, this will be interesting"

"So who chose who?"

"I chose her"

You were the one to reply, you didn't say it with the different tone it was just a fact.

"Okay,so let's see what you guys have"

"Let's get it!"

The beat kicked in and you shut off your mind completely. This was it, your one chance to prove you are better or you go home covered in shame.

You had agreed on her going first, but that doesn't mean you didn't play hype man in order to keep some attention to you and not get lost in the back ground. When it was your turn you took a few long steps and stood in front of her, your back facing her.

(Yes I did choose nicki minaj’s verse from motor sport and what? deal with it)

Uh, yo, watch your man, then you should watch your mouth Bitches is pressed, administer mouth to mouth You see them stats, you know what I am about I am the champ, I'm Iron Mike in a bout Attention, I'ma need you to face front You don't want smoke with me, this is a laced blunt Rap's Jackie Chan, we ain't pullin' them fake stunts My crown won't fit on your bum-ass lace fronts (uh) You bitches catchin' a fade, shout out my Lil Boosie All of your friends'll be dead, you can get hit with that Uzi I call him Ricky, he say he love me like Lucy Get you a straw, you know this pussy is juicy This Givenchy is custom made, now you can't get it at Saks though I don't work in no office, but they copyin' and that's facts though I ain't tryna be violent, but if Nicki on it, it slaps, ho Get you lined for that paper like a loose leaf when that strap blow I'm with a couple bad bitches that'll rip the party If Quavo the QB, I'm Nick Lombardi Pull up in the space coupe, I done linked with Marty I can actually afford to get a pink Bugatti "Hey yo Nick, didn't you just do a hit with Gotti?" That too send hits like Gotti It's a wrap, like the things on the head of a Saudi Bitch, you my son, go and sit on the potty (rrrr)

When you finished you even flipped your hair and walked out of the stage just when the song was done for more drama affect. You could hear them cheering when you walked back in with the brightest grin on your lips, you did good you had to admit, you had a good chance of winning

"(y/n).. waaaaah"

Zico was the first one to speak, you smiled at his comment, pleased with the outcome of your verse, you had a good chance of actually getting selected.

"The whole verse was like you had prepared it for months, very neat and with a great performance, she rapped like it was nothing"

"Thank you"

You said and did a deep bow. Hearing artists that you grew up listening and wishing to just get a glimpse of let alone praise you for your work was a true dream, who wouldn't want their idols to congratulate them for their work, no matter who that is.

"The results are in.... Truedy"

What? why did they call Truedy? You actually got scared for this, did you get eliminated?

"You will not continue with us... I'm sorry"

You wanted to scream as loud as you can, but you settled on a nod and a slight flip of your hair. You deserve it, you worked extremely hard for this. Dean was the one holding the hat, unfortunately, so you walked at him facing him straight in the eye with a slight smirk and your eyes full of cockiness.

"Congratulations (y/n)"

"Thank you, treat me good when I choose your team"

You whispered to them as you winked and walked away wearing the hat proudly. You had a good plan in your mind, he wanted to be evil? You'll show him evil, you were determined on taking the power back from him and make this a hell for him and a complete sweet revenge for you.

Take Care Little Girl (Simon D x Reader)

Request by anon. Enjoy!

You loved Kiseok, from the moment you saw him even when you did not believe in love at first sight somehow you fell in love as soon as your eyes met, you thought he was going to be the man of your life, you loved him and he loved you but sometimes love is not enough.

You quietly packed your stuff, only the sound of the clock and your sniffles were heard around the house... the house full of memories, memories that you cherished and memories that you want to erase forever in your mind, the memories that made you put all your stuff in a few suitcases. Fight after fight, curses followed by petty insults, smashing stuff and closing doors, accusation after denial, tear after tear, all that stuff that broke his and your heart. It was time to face the music, you had to put an end of this even that would hurt you, it would be better for everyone, since you hurt each other every day it won't be much of a difference you thought bitterly.

You waited for him,sat on a stool at the beautiful kitchen you had designed, the kitchen you used to cook meals for both of you, the kitchen that he would make breakfast, the kitchen that you broke so many plates and glasses, yelling from the one side of the table. You turned to the clock and saw the time, he would be there any minute now, your heart started racing, it was like you were going to pass out right there, you felt nauseous and for a second you thought that maybe you should unpack. You shook your head refusing to back down, you had backed down so many other times, not anymore, it was final and it had to happen, this loving relationship became toxic and you had promised to never let anyone make you feel lost or helpless.

As soon as you heard the door open and close your heart went from fast pace to completely still, your breath hitched to your throat and your body suddenly became cold. You knew he saw the suitcases, you could tell by the silence, he usually calls for you. You took deep breaths as you heard his footsteps approach you, when you opened your eyes he stood right in front you, his face showed hurt, you had to hold yourself from breaking down right there.

"Kiseok"

"You are leaving me?"

He sounded so broken, so vulnerable and it made you feel so guilty inside, you could feel a knife going straight to your heart as he started right through you.  A part of him expected this, he just prayed it would never happen, he couldn't help but blamed himself too, he thought he would be the one to protect you, instead he became the root of your pain and he hated himself for it.

"I don't want to, Kiseok we are in pain, we can't be like this"

"I love you, you are my woman"

"And I love you but love is not enough, do you want me to hurt you even more?"

"You never meant it"

He whispered to himself, he knew your Love for him ran deep and he knew that you would do anything for him, that's why you are sacrificing yourself to become the bad guy and end this.

"Let's say you forgive me, can you forgive yourself?... cause I cannot forgive you Kiseok, I just imagine... her"

You couldn't handle it anymore, you broke down in tears, completely collapsed on top of the cold surface and cried. He had cheated, yes it was one time and you thought you could move on, turns out you can't, after that it just went downhill and it mostly was because you could not trust him, everytime he had to practice, every time he went on tour and she was there... you just went crazy and many times you end in a fight over the phone, text, face time, anything. 

You felt his hand your back, you knew he hated when you cried specifically when he was the reason behind those tears. He rubbed your back soothingly, holding back tears himself, he had destroyed you, he felt so ashamed for what he has done, every day of his life after than night, the one woman that he adored he betrayed and traded for someone that had not done half of the stuff you had done for him.

"I love you (y/n), I love you so much"

He whispered in your ear, placing a kiss on your hair. You managed to pull yourself together and wipe away those tears, as you raised your head and looked at him again you reached for his face with your hand.

"I love you too, with all my heart"

You don't know why but you just pulled him closer and placed a soft loving kiss on his lips, the last kiss. As you pulled back you got on your feet and gave him the best smile you could give.

"Be good okay? No drinking and no partying"

"I will, call me if you need anything. Take care little girl"

You turned your back on him and went towards your stuff, grabbing your luggage and opening the door, you looked to his side one more time, as tears ran on your face again.

"Go on, you will regret it if you don't leave"

"I love you Kiseok"

"I love you too but you have to leave, you know I don't like it when I cry in front of you"

Dealing with a break up is already hard, being on the public eye is even harder, it almost feels impossible. People did not know about you and him, which made it even more difficult since you had to put on a smile and perform, give interviews, sign autographs, take pictures like you were not dealing with a bad case of a broken heart. You only found peace at the privacy of your dressing room, your house and the booth, so many touch ups for make up, so many tissues around the house, so many tear stained papers that you could barely make out the words you had written. After the release of your new song "I can't stay" people started to catch on, luckily you and Kiseok had never made public appearances even as friends so people did not suspect him, they jsut knew you were dealing with a very emotional break up.

"Hello and welcome back to our radio station, today we have with us a very special lady, miss (y/n), welcome"

"Thank you, it's been a while"

You said with a fake smile. You dreaded this interview, you begged your publicist to call in sick for you, obvioussly it did not work. You knew they would ask questions abou the song, which you did not know you would react.

"So you have just finished a tour and you came out with a new song right?"

"Yes, it's called I can't stay and it's available on Itunes"

"So I have to ask... why did you write such an emotional song, cause i have to admit I cried when I first heard it"

You took a deep breath and braced yourself for the worst.

"Well... I recently went through a break up and... I was and I still am very conflicted and sad about it"

"May I ask why?"

"I was with that person for a long period of my life, I lived with him and a lot of things happen from both sides and it was happening for a long time now so I just said that I can't stay anymore"

You could feel the tension in the room, the producer could see how you struggled to speak and put sentences together, honestly your eyes were already getting cloudy.

"Do you still talk to him?, cause you sound angry in the song"

"I have not but I do want to keep him in my life cause... i love him and he loves me, we didn't just stop loving each other, but you know... reality is not always good to us"

"Are you on to the next?"

"No, I can't move on yet. I need to deal with it and leave it and then move on to be real happy, I honestly do hope I found someone that will make me as happy as he did cause he did make me happy and he gave me his all and I gave him my all but that kind of dissapeared from the relationship... one second"

Your voice broke as you spoke, you closed your eyes and took a really deep breath, trying so hard to not let those tears spill. It was the first time you ever talked about thiss and it brought all those emotions back, all the pain, all the hurt all the anger, it just hit you right in your heart.

"It's okay, we will stop talking about it now."

"Thank you"

As you got back to your dressing room your phone vibrated, you had a message. You saw his name on the screen and it terrified you, what if he was angry at you for talking about it on air? What if he was hurt for betraying him? You opened the message with shaky hands and saw the screen.

"I'm sorry, I love you too, don't cry for me I want you to smile. Call me when you want, we can go for a beer"

You smiled as the tears hit the screen, it's not fair! you wished you could hate him, you wished he hated you, but no, breaking up while still being in love made it even harder, you wanted to run back to him. You hit reply and started typing

"I would love that, maybe when we get better. I'm sorry too, I love you"

I Am Not Your Father AU (Dean x Reader)

Requested by @jungshaekiseok, this took forever to make cause it is super long and I did not have much time to make it, it’s an AU cause I did not know how else to put your reqquest in a storyline, it’s probably the longest scenario I have ever written. Enjoy!

You didn't want to be in this place anymore, you knew you were better than that, you were made to be something bigger than this. 

Look at you, just a mere hitman, no you wanted to be the boss just like your fatherYour father was your role model, since your mother did not want to be around mafias and gang members and your father refused to let you out of his life, he took full custody and the head maid of the house was your mother. You were his only child, so he taught you everything he knew, from shooting guns, to negotiating, to being confident in yourself. You were his pride and joy, he wanted to make sure that once he was not around you would be in charge and made him proud.

What he did not see was that his partner would turn against him and burst into your house shooting everyone, your dad calmly packed some stuff for you and helped you escape, the last thing you remember was

 "make me proud princess, I will always be watching you" 

 and passed the necklace he always wore to you, it was a simple long golden chain with a small coin, it was your grandmothers, since he knew his time was over, it was time for you to have it. You were 16 and homeless at the time, your dads name was mud on the streets now, you had to prove everyone wrong and show what your name was really worth. - Zico was a smart man, he got informed of what happened and that the young child escaped safely from the house, he knew your father they were good acquaintances and he was aware of how well trained you were, he send his men after you and brought you to his "family", as a simple assassin, but you were more than that. 

As time passed Zico made you the head of the assassins, you would train the new ones and keep the old ones in line, that was still not enough.People were scared of you, to their eyes you looked like the devil, a young girl was not supposed to act like this, she is supposed to hate killing and do this if she has to and have a story behind it that would make everyone cry.

 You did not buy into that, girl or boy you should be dedicated to this, that's the reason you have kicked out a lot of newbies, they were too weak to do this.

" If you're not an asset, you are a liability"

That's what your father taught you, that's what you would follow.

-One thing you did not expect to find was him, Hyuk or as the streets know him, Dean. He was transferred or for better explanation, bribed from another gang to yours. You had to admit that he was good ,you doubted him at first thinking this might all be a plan to get to us and take everyone down, a source from the inside is everything a gang wishes to have. 

But, he proved you wrong, when he pushed you aside to have the deadly hit to the leader of his previous gang, you scolded him of course but you were epically impressed, he was out for blood.He was also out for you. He did everything he could to get you, a woman like you was everything he ever dreamed of, stoic, confident, strong, boss, cold blooded and also... sexy. 

-

"(y/n) where are you?"

 He yelled. You had successfully taken down another gang, but he had not seen you for about an hour, it was not like you to go ghost mode, he started panicking.

"What have I told you about yelling? someone might still be alive"

You struggled but managed to say to him as you slowly dragged one foot in front of the other. Your white blouse filled with blood on your left side brought goosebumps all over his body, he ran towards you and slowly lifted your arm over his shoulder to help you walk.

"he was a fighter"

You whispered bitterly with a small victorious smirk. The wound burned like a thousand suns but you would prefer to die than show pain.

"Pistol or knife?"

"knife, I'll need stitches"

You replied before you hissed as he pulled your shirt up to take a quick look at your trauma.

"Let's go, kyung will take care of you"

He stayed outside the room the whole time, he wanted to make sure you were fine and as healthy as a horse. When Kyung opened the door he practically ran to him, begging for good news.

"She is fine, had to give her a shot in case the knife was old, she just needs to rest for a few days and no training or fighting"

"Have you told her that?"

"Yes, she is not happy but she is healthy. Go talk to your crush"

Dean almost blushed at the comment, everybody knew about his huge crush on you, except you since you refused to see it, blaming it to just a friendly teasing.He walked in and saw you laying there, new clothes and kind of sweaty.

"Came to make fun of me?"

"Of course not, I wanted to see how you feel"

"I'll be fine Dean"

"But you are not fine now, you are hurting"

"no i don't"

"then lift up both of your arms or get up"

you stayed silent, looking at him with that stubborn piercing look that he grew to love. He giggled at you and reached to brush off the bangs from your face

."Don't worry I'll be your sexy nurse"

-

After that he went from the nurse to your boyfriend, he was there for you whenever you needed it, he even became the second in command, your right hand, he loved you more than his life and he had proven that when he took a bullet on his back to save you.But of course they were setbacks. 

Dean did not want this life for himself, he hid it well but he hated this job with a passion, he could leave but that would cost him, he knew that you would not walk with him, every time he saw you injured, he wanted to drag you out of there and make you live a normal life, but how can you make someone change when this is all they know, this was your normal.

-

"Dean I have to go, I am the captain"

"This is AOMG (y/n) not some mere gang, you'll get yourself killed”

"So you think I cannot take care of myself now? I was the one that taught you everything you know Dean"

He hated when you called him Dean, you would only use it when you were mad, it was your way of pushing him away.

"And I should thank you? you taught me how to take someone's life"

"So you prefer getting killed? fine, then leave your weapons here"

"let's just go (y/n), let's leave this, we can walk away, I want to marry you, have a life with you"

"Not this shit again! I am who I am Dean, deal with it or leave, marry me here, have a life with him here, no one is stopping us"

"I am not your father, I do not want my kid surrounded with guns"

Him mentioning your father as an insult brought you to the edge. You took the knife that was laying on your desk and threw it an inch away from his face, he felt the pressure of the air pass right next to his right eye.

"You bastard, don't you mention my father ever again! I am leaving, when I come back me and zico will have a talk about you"

You said and closed the door with such force that the pictures on the wall fell. He knew you could get him kicked out or killed, zico trusted you with all his heart, it only took one word from you and zico would behead anyone, he considered you family and the most trustworthy person in this gang. He wanted to leave but not without you, so death was the only thing he could request from the boss when the time comes.

He patiently waited for you to come back but he heard the door open and closed so softly that it meant bad news, he ran downstairs and saw a bloody Taeil and Zico's face as white a sheet of paper.

"What happened?"

"They knew we were coming, they cut our breaks, we crashed and I was the only one that could escape, some did not survive, some are waiting for rescue."

Hyuk felt his blood freeze in his veins, just in the thought that you had not survived felt the world disappeared beneath his feet.

"Then why are we sitting here let's go"

"Wait, we need back up. I'll call Namjoon to bring the others, Hyuk go call Kyung, we will need him"

Hyuk ran to the halls towards Kyung's office, he didn't even knock he just threw the door open catching Kyung by surprise.

"What's wrong Dean?"

"They crashed, we have to get them"

He could barely put sentences together, all he could think was you bleeding and crying unable to move or worse... dead.

-

He could not sit down, he was just pacing up and down the hall, his mind scattered in a million pieces.

 "Hyuk! calm down, she will be fine"

Zico attempted to bring some sanity to his dear friend, as he placed his hands on his friends shoulders. That unfortunately did not work, Hyuk was like a bull in a glass house, he himself could not pin point his emotion.

"How can you say this? You saw how we found her! she was unconscious, she was the one driving which means she is the one that took the bigger hit. So no, I cannot calm down"

Zico understood, he was worried about you too, all those years you had spent with him he thought of you as a sister, the closest thing to family of course he wanted you look to be alright more than anything but he has been through this before, he lost a father and a brother like this so you could say he was trained to hold back his pain, he also knew that if you saw him cry you would tell him to get a grip and get revenge for her.Before Hyuk could get any more mental Kyung walked out and he did not look happy.

"How is she?"

"She is severely hurt... wrist and ribs fractured, hit on the back of her head, cuts on her hands from breaking glass, she has lost a lot of blood, we need to take her to the hospital, there is nothing more I can do than what have I already done... she is in a coma"

Coma.... she is hurt, hospital. All these words made Hyuk's heart and mind ache, all he heard from what Kyung said was that you could die.

"Then what are we doing it here? let's go to the hospital"

-

It's been 5 months.... 5 months of you just laying in the bed with tubes on your nose and needles pierced in your skin, passing medicine in your system that could keep you alive.

If you saw yourself you wouldn't know yourself, all sickly white, skinny and pretty much dead... doctors had suggested to maybe "pull the plug", as soon as Hyuk heard that he went ballistic, you were a fighter and you would come back when you felt like it.Hyuk never left your side, neither did Zico, well Zico did leave only to make things right with AOMG, no one hurts his "noona" and lives to brag. 

"hello little girl, I know you don't like me calling you like this, I wish I could hear you cuss me out right now, I never thought I would miss your potty mouth that much. I really do hope you wake up, I bought the ring and everything, just please wake up, if you don't like it we can change it with whatever you want, i can buy you a machine gun if that's what you like"

That's when he saw it, your eyes flattering, all he did was run as fast as  he can outside, screaming for a doctor.

"She is waking up, it will take a while until she is fully awake, maybe tonight or tomorrow morning"

- 

All you saw was white, white wall, white sheets and all you could feel was your sore throat.

"(y/n) are you alright?"

You heard someone call you, you slowly turned your head towards the direction of the voice and saw your two favorite guys looking at you with wide eyes.

"Water"

You managed to say, your voice almost gone from dehydration. Zico was quick enough to grab the water bottle and a straw, Hyuk helped you to raise your head to grab the straw and take a few sips that felt like gods miracle for your throat.

"How do you feel?"

"Like shit, what happened?"

"You crashed and you have been dead for 5 months"

"She was not dead, she was in a coma"

Hyuk interrupted Zico, even now that she was fully functioning the word "dead" still made his blood run cold.

"i'm going to go outside. (y/n) you might wanna take a look at your left hand on the ring finger"

Hyuk could not wait, he had already slipped the ring he had bought for you in your weak hand.You stayed speechless, you understood what this ring was and it was exactly what you wished to be.

"Hyuk"

"We will do it however you want, we can give our kid a katana for its first birthday, we can grow a real life perfect assasin, I want to be with you and I can stay this for you, zico will be the best man, please say yes"

"Yes, but a katana at the age of one is a bit excessive"

"We can buy a gun instead”

I’m Not Sorry (Dean x Reader)

Requestedby anon. I don’t know if it’s angst but I tried, based on the song “i’m not sorry” by Dean. Enjoy!

You thought that being with Hyuk would be great, he wined and dined you, he treated you like the most precious woman. You were in the industry too so you did not trust him, you were an underground rapper and you were around rappers and other artists all the time, so you knew the game. You know the saying "things happen when you are not on guard"? exactly that.

He started ignoring you, missing calls and dates became normal, you started feeling used and it hurt, he was only there when he needed someone to warm his bed. The worst part was when you decided to confront him, asking questions he didn't want to answer.

"Hyuk i'm not a hooker, I deserve more than this, you told me I deserve everything! where did that go?"

"Look, I don't have time for this"

He went to get his trousers and pulled a pack of money, he started approaching you with the pack on his hand, you could feel your stomach turning.

"Take this, go buy some nice stuff and have a good night OK princess?"

He instructed you, placing the money on your hand. You looked at him with rage, you might have been sad a second ago but now you were fuming. You acted automatically and slapped him as hard as you could, you threw the money at him and got up to get your stuff. He just stood there looking at you with a devious smile.

"Don't EVER call me again, you are an asshole"

"Whatever you say princess, close the door on your way out"

"Go to hell"

-

You started issolating yourself, you had true feelings for Hyuk and seeing him treating you like this was a huge pain to your heart but also to your ego. Because of your unstable mind you decided to take a break from everything, from your friends, your studio, social media, the gym,everything. You stayed at home, you knew it would hurt your career but you had to do this, you ad to deal with your heartbreak.

Slowly but surrely you rose back up. You went to the gym, you called a few friends and you heared a few beats for inspiration. Of course your "no show" attitude made your name take a tumble, you just suddenly went ghost mode and people thought you were done for, you had to get started all over again, but you were ready to face the music and show to everyone that you still lived for music. 

"I don't want to face him again"

"This is the best opportunity to put your name back out there, Show me the money is a huge show and can give you back your credibility. If you do get through the team selection pick another team, you have worked with Jay and he would for sure want you on his team"

Your producer argued back. You and him had managed to develop a good friendship, that is the reason he was on your case for applying to this stupid show, you had to admit he was right about how big the show was,but could you really stand seeing his face again. You knew good and damn well that he would feel a great satisfaction for being able to judge you, cause that's just how he was, an asshole full of pride and lust for power over anyone.

"I don't know"

"This is your career (y/n) you are going to throw it away for him? this will give him more pleasure than letting him be a judge. Even if you don't go, you will have to face him, you can't hide anymore"

That hit you straight in your heart. He was right, you have been avoiding him for such a long time, you can't keep doing this, also it will help you one hundred percent move on from this, to finally see him and be comfortable with it, don't just run out the room or refuse to go to an outing just in the thought he could be there.

"Fine, I will apply"

-

On the first round of auditions you were lucky. Tiger JK was the one that showed up in front of you to hear what you had, so you bowed and waited for him to give you the go 

(These are lyrics from a song I like, nicki minaj ft. eminem Roman's Revenge)

I am not Jasmine, I am Aladdin So far ahead, these bums is lagging See me in that new thing, bums is gagging I'm starting to feel like a dungeon dragon Raah, raah, like a dungeon dragon I'm starting to feel like a dungeon dragon Look at my show footage, how these girls be spazzin' So fuck I look like getting back to a has-been Yeah, I said it, has-been, hang it up, flat screen Plasma, hey Nicki, hey Nicki, asthma I got the pumps, it ain't got medicine I got bars, sentencing I'm a bad bitch, I'm a cunt And I'll kick that ho, punt Forced trauma, blunt You play the back, bitch, I'm in the front You need a job, this ain't cutting it Nicki Minaj is who you ain't fucking with You lil' Fraggle Rock, I beat you with a pad-a-lock I am a movie, camera block You outta work, I know it's tough But enough is enough

You were happy with your delivery, your voice loud and clear with a heavy amount of confidence. Tiger JK smiled and gave you the necklace.

"Good Job, keep working hard"

You smiled and put the necklace on, as you saw the cameras approach you to see your reaction.

"2017 will be the best year, watch out"

-

Now was the hard part, but you decided to make it even harder so you pulled a few lyrics you had written while heartbroken just to fully let it all out and actually show some emotion other than confidence and the common project of "i'm the best, I get money" that everyone was projecting. So you patiently waited until your name was called and it did, you took a deep breath and walked to the door before the stage with the put of fire.

"Ohh this will be interesting"

Jay said. He was one of the few people you had confessed everything that happened, he sympathised with you and helped you find yourself again, you owed a lot to him.

The door opened and you walked in trying to avoid eye contact with him, inside you were shaking but on the outsdie you just smiled and stood on the spot with the big X.

"Who was the one that passed you?"

"Tiger Jk hyung"

You answered and looked at him. So did the others, waiting to hear the reason behind it.

"She had very strong lyrics, she was very strong and neat with the lyrics so the necklace was very well deserved."

"Thank you"

"Okay so let's go"

(These lyrics are from a song “doin’ good by kittib and Verbal jint)

It’s the first for me too After I met you, I got some sick time off But things just got dull and soft My growth did not become better

Even when you changed things however you wanted I was so busy adjusting to that I didn’t want to acknowledge this But my heart is bigger, even if I became the weaker person

I remember back then, you said, “not you” but I told you that I got this someday I hated myself for being next to you I hated myself but I still believed in myself

I’ve opened my once blind eyes I’ll put away the question mark that I had on myself No one can knock me down I’m turning the light off between us

I’m not a firefighter but now I’m extinguishing So I won’t find myself in anyone else Focus, look in the mirror Believe in what you see, I’ll win it all I’ll give time to myself instead of guys I need nothing

You took a deep breath and pretty much got out of the zone that you were on, you didn't really pay attention to the judges while you were rapping, it was like you were alone in the booth or your house. Although you got an all pass.

"That was a strong amount of emotion"

"I went on a hiatus because of something that happened on my personal life, so I wanted to come back here because I want to show that i'm still worth it but to also give a glimpse of were my mindset was at the time"

You explained looking at Dok2, who was the one that asked. They nodded and you waited for further comments.

"It was beautiful, we don't really see others coming here and admitting feelings like that"

Gaeko commented and you nodded, it was exactly what you wanted to achieve and you were happy someone got the memo.

"That's what I wanted, we are all humans"

"We'll see you on the next round"

Zico chipped in. You bowed and walked away with a happy smile all over your face. You did it, not only you passed, you saw and performed right in front of him, with confidence might I add.

-

What you did not expect was an unexpected phone call during the night hours. You picked up thinking nothing off it but your breath hitched to your throat once you heard that familiar voice.

"That was quite a show you put on today (y/n)"

Dean. You had stopped calling him by his real name a while ago, since the fame had eaten him up and there was no real person behind Dean. You swallowed the lump in your throat and faced the music

"What do you want?"

"I know you want to hear a sorry (y/n), but i'm not sorry. Actually I think I should hear a thank you from you, since the song that gave you a pass was all about me"

"Is this why you called?"

"Come on (y/n). What do you want to hear? that I missed you? No I don't, why you were hiding I made money. Why did you even performed that? to make me regret what I said? no I don't"

You could not understand why he called you,he was just bragging, honestly you did not feel hurt or pissed anymore, you were just over it.

"Here's what's up Dean. Don't ever call me again, you are an asshole that does not deserve any of my time, let me succeed on my own and please if I do make it in a team I would appreciate it if you NEVER come and talk to me. I hope you rot with your money in hell"

After that you hunged up. There it was, the pain was slowly creeping on to you, why did it had to be like this? why doeshe want to hurt you so badly? he called just to put you down, to rub his success on your face, he acted like you had hurt him and not the other way around. That's when the question came

"Should I give the show up?"

What if he is like this all the time? What if he never stops calling you, can you live with him waiting to rip you in pieces? What will happen next?

Relationship Milenstones For Workaholics (Gray x Reader)

Requested by anon. Inspired by the song “ride”. Enjoy!

Your relationship with Seonghwa did not start right away, it was like a slow burning. You were a bit different that what he was looking for in a partner, well that's what he thought.

You were a beautiful woman no doubt, but your attitude towards life and others caught him off guard. You were established at what you did, a full time job, a house, car, luxury brands at your closet, life was good, being a photographer had you living the best life. Jay managed to get you to do a photo shoot for the members, that's when he realized you meant business, being used to people treating them very kindly and like V.I.P, your strictly business approach made him be a bit of intimidated, since you had no problem shutting down a girl at the shoot that giggled at a small mistake caused by your different accent. - Jay on the other hand knew you were one of the coolest and kindest people so he made you hang around the others more often. There was an attraction towards Seonghwa from your side but you didn't want to act on it, thinking that he already had a relationship or he was just not interested. 

And you were stood corrected. It took a few months to realize that this feeling of happiness and  intimacy was not just friendly.

"Do you want to go for dinner after me and Jay finish?"

He asked you turning his chair from the keyboard to you. You smiled reached over for his hair

"Sure, what do you want to eat tonight?"

you carefully run your fingers through his hair pushing it away from his face, to you it was a normal act now, to others they could 100% tell they were feelings there. 

Seonghwa just enjoyed the feeling of your soft fingers on his scalp, he closed his eyes for a few seconds and a smirk appeared on his lips.

"Are you serious? Right in front of me? Stop flirting. Don't say you don't look at you guys, just get a room and go at it"

You were stressed, 100% stressed and you could barely function at this point. You have been spending day and night at the studio, watching every detail, perfecting every flaw, judging every angle, it was a big project and it had to be exactly like you wanted it to be and that means perfect. You were getting less sleep and more caffeine every day, you didn't even like coffee, now it was mandatory.

Seonghwa could see that your body was at edge of exhaustion. Your face was sickly pale, except the bags under your eyes which were just getting darker, your hands were getting shaky, your stomach has gotten so sucked in that he was scared of being able to see all your organs. 

"I have to do something"

He whispered more to himself as he read your last message 

-i'm working, can't make it today-

It was never like you to cancel plans, you were the exact opposite you would go to extremes to keep a date or a meeting on time and if someone canceled they would be backlash. 

"Overworking? (y/n) is a workaholic and a perfectionist you know how that feels, how many times we had to drag you out of the studio?"

Kiseok reminded him. He smiled at the thought.... wait, drag him out.... what if he did that? Yes, yes that could work.

"You are a genius"

Seonghwa jumped out of his seat and reached for his stuff faster than the speed of life, before Kiseok could process what was going on his friend and colleague was out the door.

He walked in your studio and as usual found you hovering over the computer with all the lights open, probably to keep you awake.

"(y/n)"

His voice snapped you out of concentration, making you jump out of your seat and your breath to hitch at your throat out of fright. You turned your chair towards him, your eyes fully open and  your hand over your heart.

"Seonghwa! you scared me"

"I'm sorry, let me take a look at you"

He placed your hand on your cheek and took a deep scanning look at your features. Your cheeks were sunk in, your eye bags dark and big, your lips chapped and dehydrated, your skin as pale as a peace of paper.

"Just like I thought, come here"

You didn't have a moment to protest, in a blink of an eye Seonghwa swiped  you off your feet and had securely in his arms.

"Seonghwa!"

"No talking. Save your work, grab your bag and let's go"

You groaned but did what you had to do, a part of you was happy that someone pretty much forced you to get out of the studio, your pride might not let you admit it but this needs to happen now, before you go further in this Rabbi thole called work.

"Good, now off to Neverland"

He screamed and started running outside, making you laugh hysterically. You knew where this phrase came from, when Seonghwa had mentioned he had never watched the disney movies you took it upon yourself and made him watch them with you in one night, with no sleep breaks what so ever. At the end of course he fell in love with them and thanked you.

He sat you in his car and got in the car himself, driving on to the big roads of Seoul. 

"Where are we going?"

"Nowhere and everywhere. You have to take some air kid"

He always teased you for being younger, although he liked it, it might not be a decade but he saw that your youth showed sometimes and was always adorable.

You ended up at a random hill, eating chips and other unhealthy stuff he bought at the 24 hour shop. You could barely hear anything, but the view was breathtaking.

"Thank you for this, I really needed it"

"Don't mention it, I know how stress works, you had to drag me out and force me to take a shower on the first month, I had to force you to eat and get out on the first year."

"Relationship milestone for workaholics"

You whispered with a sweet smile on your face. You loved Seonghwa and you knew he loved you but you have never said it to each other. Was today the day?

"Kiss me while I have Cheetos dust all over"

He demanded. You cackled but did give him a kiss on those dusty oily lips.

Maybe it was not today, but the ride showed the way to your love.

She Is Something Else (Gray x Reader)

Requested by anon. Enjoy!

You were always fascinated by music, your dad was a great musician, your first memory of him was playing the guitar while your mom painted.

You were a beautiful mix of your mom who was from Thailand and your dad who was Korean, you lived in Korea your whole life, since your parents thought it would be better for the family cause your dad was well established.

As you grew you learned how to play guitar but your passion was r&b and rap, you were the only girl that was 13 and had posters and had a playlist full of 50 cent, tupac, biggie, ice cube and other OG's from the hip hop community. That followed to you doing rap battles and open mic at clubs at the young age of 16, it was hard since you would go against people that are way older and ruthless, that also helped you go harder and push your pen. Now you could go against anyone with your eyes closed, they were no limits. 

"You know Gray is here?" "THE  Gray?" you asked one of your friends. You were surprised that a well established producer would hang around underground clubs, I guess he did not forget his roots. "Yeah, he is with the others, they say they are looking for new talent, I think they are looking for a girl with another talent" Your friend joked. You laughed and decided to take the joke a bit further. "I can do both" You weren't 100% joking. Seonghwa was a gorgeous guy, who wouldn't want to spend a night with him, you always wondered what's under the quiet and mysterious attitude. "Please focus on your performance and then worry who will keep you company" Your producer chipped in. You giggled at his comment and got up from your seat. Time to work

You were never the shy one. You quickly got rid of that habit when you got in the industry, being shy would not get you anywhere around here, so whatever you wanted you would try damn hard to achieve. Now that was getting Seonghwa's attention.

"Now before we continue I want to give a warm welcome to the very talented artists from AOMG. Give a round of applause for them"   The crowd cheered and the lights went on them, they smiled and raised their glasses- full of alcohol might I add- 

"Since they are here, we should do something special, do you remember my song 'beg for it'? we haven't done that in a while"   You didn't perform that song often cause it was very provocative, it was like a special treat when you were feeling yourself.

So the beat started and you got completely in the zone, you let your body move as it wanted while your voice got lower and smoother, puckering up your lips and dropping your shoulders to show your chest a bit better.

As the music stopped you had already seen where he was and looked straight at him. You smiled and did a bow

"Thank you everyone, have a good night"

You walked down the stage and back to your room to take your stuff. It didn't take much time for the bodyguard to come to you and tell you that they want you in the V.I.P area, you of course had no problem with it and followed him to the private area.

"That was an interesting show miss"

"Thank you, I always try to do something special for special guests"

You said to him, you could see that he was paying close attention to your lips, so you took initiative and put your hand to his shoulder.

"I also do private shows, but that's for very special guests"

"Let's go, I want to be in that list"

You didn't really think through it, Show me the money was a great opportunity for you and you didn't pay attention that a guy you shared your bed with was going to be there, you just brushed it off thinking that you are both grown ups and it wouldn't bother you. 

You pasted the first audition with great success, thank God Zion T was the one that judged you. Now here you were, waiting for the door to open and reveal all the judges, expecting you to rap a flawless verse for a straight minute.

"Oh it's (y/n) hello miss"

"hello"

"The infamous (y/n) came to our show? this will be fun, Right Gray?"

Simon butted in and nudged Gray. Gray managed to keep his cool and not give anything away. You just smiled and tried to brush it off

"So let's hear what you got"

Dok2 said and you nodded your head. As the beat started you almost immediately blurted out the lyrics, avoiding eye contact with Gray. He on the other hand just kept looking at you, he remembered exactly how you felt, smelled, feel, talked... moaned, it just kept repeating in his head. Soon enough the one minute was off and you got an ALL PASS.

"You were great, such good lyrics"

"Thank you, I appreciate that"

You replied with a smile on your face, still avoiding Gray's eyes. 

"So let me ask, have you thought what team to join?"

Simon asked, you knew where this was going, Simon was there when you left with Gray, so he was just trying to embarrass his friend in a sneaky way, just enough to make a fool out of him and not to get a scandal out.

"Yes I have" 

"Which one is that?"

"I'm inbetween illionaire and AOMG"

I mean.... why not join in on the fun? you were always a bit of a daredevil, so you just couldn't help but give him a bit more help to his evil plan against his partner.

"Did you hear that? She will be on our team"

Seonghwa wanted to either punch his friend or just show his utter excitement at your decision. There was just something about you that drew him in so of course he was happy that he had a chance to have you around him as much as possible. On the outside, he just simply smiled and nodded his head, he didn't forget that he still was around cameras and under the eye of the mnet that was in desperate need of some drama.

"Thank you very much (y/n), we'll see you on the next round"

"Bye everyone"

You walked out with your head held high and closed the door, the crew already waiting for you.

"Take a close up on my face, this is the face of the first female that will win this show"

You smiled with confidence and went to the room with the other people that had gotten to the next round, quietly getting a seat.

"She is something else"

Kush said on the mic, he didn't even know the story behind you two but he hit the nail on the spot. Something took over Seonghwa so he said 

"I agree, she is a handful"

Simon just laugh and that gave him a boost on his evil side to keep the teasing going.

"Do you want her on our team Gray? I think she will be a great add, she has the skill and the looks, am i right?"

"I hate you, I really do but yeah she is very... nice, she will be a great participant"

Enjoy The Drive (Jay Park x Reader)

Requested by anonymous. I know it’s not exactly like the song Drive but It is inspired by it, I hope it’s what you wanted. Enjoy!

Being in a relationship with someone like Jay was never easy, but it was worth it. You were a bit of a handful, that also means you are fun to be around, you could go from roasting someone to dancing in the middle of the road and eating like you've never seen food before. That's why Jay was interested in you, he met you from your best friend Giant Pink, you and her were inseparable when you were young, your dad was African American and your mom was Korean so your dad worked with her dad at the casino in the management department. You tried to visit her from time to time when she moved from Busan to Seoul, you were her number one fan and she was your support system. When you announced that you found a job in Seoul she got super excited and as soon as you moved she introduced you to everyone she knows, so she can make you feel welcome and that you have friends.

One of those friends was Jay, the first thing he noticed was your appearance, your choice of clothes was pretty over the top, so when you showed up with a fury red coat and leather shorts with boots that reached your knee, he had to notice you. What also caught him completely off guard was that when you took off your coat, both of your arms were pretty much covered in tattoos, the designs were beautiful and that's when he decided to get to know you. He slowly made steps to get on your good books, he wasn't even sure if this could work between you, he knew his flaws and how overwhelming his life could get, so he took it super slow, let you adjust and see if you also respond to his flirting.

"hello babe"

He started calling you that a few days before, it was the last step before he took the decision to ask you out, he wanted to see how you would reply to that nickname and luckily you liked it. He might not be sure but you were 100% crushing on him.

"Hey JJ"

you said before hugging him, he had invited you for lunch with the others, conveniently enough the only seat available was the one next to him. You had just clocked out from work so you were still in your pencil skirt and a white dress shirt and glasses, you didn't like wearing contacts at work.

"New shirt?"

"yeah, it was on sale and it goes well with the skirt"

"Nice, you look good"

He complimented, you smiled and touched his cheek. When you liked someone you were kind of awkward to taking their compliments, so you showed your gratitude by touch.

You ate and talked with the rest and after a couple of hours it was time to go home. Jay offered to take you, he knew you were saving to buy your dream car which means public transportation was your friend.

"thank you very much Jay"

"Before you go, I want to ask you something"

"what's wrong?"

You asked, as you closed the half open door of his car. Jay took a deep breath and opened his mouth

"I don't want us to be awkward with each other after this but... I like you and I would like to take you on a date"

".... tomorrow at 8pm, don't be late"

You kissed his cheek and left the car with the biggest smile on your face.

As the relationship progressed you fell more in love with him every day. He was kind, loyal, funny, caring, generous, hard worker, but he was also a public figure, which translates to you staying in the shadows and having to deal with every rumour and scandal in silence.

You could take the rumours, people would talk no matter what but he was pushing it, there was no reason of him posting the video of that girl, he could promote his music in other ways and you had not a single one of regret for confronting him.

He knew it was his fault, he was loyal and you were too, so he could understand how you felt. Not only you were mad at him, he also had a ton of stuff to handle, show me the money, asia got talent, approve budgets, take care of his artists, it was getting to him and the stress was pilling up. That made him feel even more lonely and miss you, you were always there when he needed you, to give him as much comfort you could, from cooking to giving him a massage or just simply being your silly self.

"I got to go, I won't be here in the morning"

He briefly informed the others while walking out the door. He had a plan, well it wasn't a plan it was an idea that he was praying it would walk. He got in one of the cars that you loved and drove outside of your house, with food and the biggest teddy bear he found at the store, he wasn't really the sappy guy but he had to bring the big guns and if that meant stuffing a life size teddy bear in a foreign car then so be it.he walked outside your apartment door and ringed the doorbell, hiding behind the bear who easily covered his body.

".... really?"

"hi (y/n) i'm baba the bear and Jay wants me to tell you that he is sorry"

He said in a high pitch voice, he heard your chuckle which was a good sign.

"Hi baba, do you want to come in?"

"no, i want you to come out"

"what?"

"just come with me"

Jay said in a normal voice, putting the bear down. You smiled and went to the side for Jay to come in and put the bear inside, while you put on your shoes and got your stuff.

"Milady"

he said as he opened the car door, showing you the seat and a fuck ton of Mcdonalds food. You almost screamed from happiness

"So far so good"

you said as you got in the car, taking th bags in your hands in order to not smash your food with your butt, he closed the door and quickly went to the drivers seat, starting the engine and taking off.

"Where are we going?"

"Time and patience young one, you will find out"

He informed you and just kept driving. You have to admit that you missed him, Jay was your partner and you chose to be with him for a reason, he was a great man and he did love you, sometimes too much and he did go to extremes often, like buying you very expensive stuff just for the hell of it,you understood where he was coming from, he wanted to make sure people that he cared for had what they wanted since he came of a lower class family, now he had the opportunity to take care of others.

"Why are we going away Jay?"

"Cause i was stressed, so I decided to take what's necessary. Food, phone, car and my girl"

"We haven't talked since-"

"I know" he cut you off " and I apologize, I didn't think of your side when I posted it and I know you kept your tongue back before, it wasn't just that video, it was all the stuff you decided to not say that made it big. I love you (y/n), you are my Beyonce, let's just enjoy the ride"

"Sounds good, my Jay Z.... but more handsome"

You ended up driving for hours, you found a good spot with a grat view and just stayed there, eating and listening to music.

"Do you feel better?"

"Yes, I always forget my stress when i'm with you"

Yeah... he was the one.

You Are Her Boyfriend? (Heechul x Reader)

Request from anon. Enjoy!

Being in a girl group was a blessing, even though you had to escape the dungeon of trainees and get over the social media lurking for your next wrong move and it can get overwhelming, specifically when you've had a mental record, depression to be exact.

At first it did pull you down and you found yourself in a dark place, it may sound corny but that's when you met Heechul, it was like someone above send him to you to lean on him. Although, you did make him sweat for a spot in your heart, you were always so guarded and even though it hurt you so much when you looked at him and said "I don't want you here" even when you wanted to fall on the ground and cry in his arms, it felt like that's what you had to do at the time.

As you slowly accepted his love and let yours show you started experiencing feelings that you haven't felt in a long time, you became yourself even if that meant getting tattoos and dyeing your hair black, cursing and gaining weight from the delicious food you stopped refusing.

You expected a big backlash when you started doing those things, suprisingly your fans were happy for you and your fanbase expanded more and more, cause you were happy and unfiltered, they saw that the change was not fabricated and it was what helped you put out music that came from the heart.

Heechul was with you along the way, holding your hand and reasuring you that it was okay to do what you wanted as long as you were happy. That did not mean your relationship did not have your ups and downs, busy schedules and keeping your love under wraps and of course the homosexual rumours towards heechul was an issue that brought fights and tears, they were times that you thought you have reached the end, that there was nothing that could save this relationship.

But here you are, still strong, happy and still madly in love with each other. Even when you wanted to finally scream it to the world, you have managed to be okay with whispering it to his ear those silent nights you spend with him.

-

"Babe I don't think this is a good idea"

You told him. You were happy when you heard that your group has landed a place as a guest star at the famous show "Knowing brothers", after a bit of thought it hit you that it could be dangerous for you and him, it's very easy for scandals to develop and even when it was true the last thing you wanted was people inveting your privacy, yes you would be very happy to finally let it out but it would overshine your music success and it's not the girls fault you fell in love.

"Why? You love the show and the girls want to do it"

"Yes but what if rumours start? you know how things are"

"They start rumours with every girl that comes as a guest"

"Cause you flirt with them, but that's an issue i want to bring up to another fight"

He giggled at your sneaky remark, he knew how jealous you can get and he secretly loved that, it meant that you loved him and wanted to be the only one in his heart.

"Fine but just think about it, I promise to be on my based behavior"

-

Walking in the studio of the show was a stress, your heart stopped when you made eye contact with Heechul.

"So please introduced yourselfs"

Jang-hoon said. The other three members got introduced one by one and then it was your turn

"I'm (y/n) and i'm the rapper of the group, treat me nice so I won't punch you thanks"

-

It was time for the question game and you decided to go last, it was much easier when the others had done their questions and prepared the whole thing, it was pretty much yoru way of preparing  yourself for the jokes and teasing.

"What is my ideal man?>"

"Me"

"No i'm not into girls"

You said to Heechul and just laughed, which caused the others to histerically burst into laughter although Heechul just looked at you surprised.

"Can you help us?"

"You can choose from someone in the room as an example"

"Kyung Hoon"

Yeong cheol said and you nodded your head

"I used to have a huge crush on Kyung hoon"

You admitted which caused Heechul to let his jealousy out and simply say

"You say that in front of your boyfriend?"

"What the fuck did you say?"

You pretty much yelled after he said that, the whole room fell silent and you could feel yourself blushing.

"Boyfriend? You are her boyfriend?"

"I hate you, you promised Heechul"

You said as you hid behind the other girls that were trying not to laugh at your freak out

"Heechul! you and (y/n)?"

" Not anymore cause I will kill him"

"You love me"

"Fuck you"