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Multimuse idol rp blog

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....My life has been awful this past few months. A whole bunch of best friends left me for small problems. I had troubles with housemate, i had troubles with work. My breaking point is that my own best friend of mine I had to cut down our relationship since I couldn't handle it any longer. Been crying this past few months. Wondering if Im just a bad person in this life. Even when I'm being nice I was threated badly in return, my head always hurt, my chest sometimes couldnt breath like normal anymore. Even my own parents used to call me a burden. Whats more that I want? I have many reason to just shut down my friendliness in myself and start to ignore anyone because I'm scared if its going to happened again. The reason why i left many roleplay site. Reason why I ignore phone calls. Sometimes I also been thinking just to stab myself, harm myself in many ways... I'm tired of being a nice person... Who gets stab behind their back more then enough that I reach my breaking point... I just... Dont want to live any longer. I thought by quiting tumblr or roleplay will help me but no.... I thought by quiting whatever I do helps me I'm just scared shit at doing anything.

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shiirobara

I know that I don’t have pretty graphic to do this, but I really want to show my appreciation to my mutuals!! Thank you for keeping with my bullshit and whining these couple of months, I really love you guys and I hope we can keep being friends next year as well! 

                                        THANK YOU! 

@tenshcuin Kanan, I really admire you as an artist, and as a friend. I truly enjoy how you write your muses especially how you write Eichi! I’m glad that we are friends, and I know that we haven’t talk much lately, but I want you to know that you are loved! I love you so much!! Thank you for being my friend , and I love your art so so so much! (plus your ocs . Your ocs are awesome )

@tomochxn MOMO!!! I know this is probably being repetitive everytime I mention you on my follow forever, but!!! I LOVE ,LOVE ,LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!! I know we haven’t talk much , but I never regret following you in the first place. I’m glad that I met you. I’m very happy when we talk about ra*bits and their stage actors, and I really am grateful and thankful that you’re always been there for me ,thank you so much! 

@idolfated CASS !!! I never regret making Tenn blog, if it wasn’t for his blog, i wouldnt have met you! I love discussing about i7 characters with you, I love talking about sougo’s flaws with you as well!! I REALLY AM GLAD THAT WE ENDED STANNING PROBLEMATIC BOYS (ZOOL) TOGETHER XD I really enjoyed our rp and interactions, and I wish we can rp more in the future!

@mezzosproute HARU <3!! Not gonna lie that your memes always made my days seemed brighter , and helps me a lot when i’m feeling the worst. You’re funny and very friendly and I’m glad we’re friends!!! I admire your edits, they are so pretty! (esp the sougo in a wig icons IM SORRY ) I love how you are so dedicated to Sougo, and Abe (SOBS ME TOO I LOVE ABE ) . 

@mitsukiis PAULA ,,,,, You are just too good ! what do we do to deserve such a great person like you? You’re very friendly, and very nice. And i am lucky to be your friend! I never regret to follow your mitsuki on my oc (naomi) blog, I love how you portray mitsuki. Okay, sometimes i think you;re irl mitsu XD /showers you with lotsa love/ Thank you for giving hugs on discord , i know it’s just a very small thing but it really means a lot to me. 

@nijinookakera CENNNNNN !!! I really admire your Gaku, and I always love your rps that I (secretly) enjoys reading them XD I enjoyed your presence on the dash, as well on twitter timeline, and i am glad that we’re friends!!! I love how you are dedicated to Haruka, and i regret disliking him as a character . Now look at me, stanning ZOOL  and constantly drawing them XD Thank you for introducing me to ZOOL and now i love them so m u c h. 

@sevenseasmelody SOBS SHU HOW ARE YOU I MISS YOU,,, I love your Riku so so so much! I love all the angst threads we do, and of course the nanase twins angst , It kills my SOUL. I hope we can interact more in the future as well! <3 

@heartfeltvoice // @silvxrsky ARI!!!! we havent interact in here, but we have in my tenn blog (@kanpckis ) . I absolutely adore your Riku!! Even when we only rp just a little bit, i remember that I was overjoyed to find a riku blog and I didnt regret following you at all! You are such a bright and friendly person, I enjoyed talking with you a lot!!! <3

@determined-idols I really ADORE your ryuu! And i just love and enjoyed your portrayal of him! I enjoyed everytime i rp with you , and I know we havent talk much but! I hope we can interact more in the future!

@blueberryandroid I know we havent talk much lately, but I want you to know that I really enjoyed interacting with you in discord! We share pretty much similar opinions, and I love when we discuss things in discord ! (esp about fandom troubles coughs ) , thank you for approaching me and being my friend!! <3

@nobilism We havent been mutuals that long , but I really am glad that we are mutuals! I really love your Tsukasa, you portray him really well, and i just love how he reacts with ousama purin XD I admire your writing as well. And I always enjoy our rp together! 

                                HONORABLE MENTIONS

                 MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

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Sorry for being away on tumblr again... My anxiety, paranoia and depression seem to be at worst lately. Currently having high fever, migraine lately and sleeping troubles.

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Minaduki Rui : Aoi Shouta 

水無月 涙 : 蒼井 翔太

*rain falling*

Ah… rain… I don’t hate the rain.

The sound of rain covers the world like a thin veil, making up a small enclosed space.

I loved that small and solitude world.

When rain falls, I let my conciousness skip into an enclosed world as I listen vaguely to the sounds covering the world.

They are not the same sounds as one, but it mysteriously {T/N: Sorry! I really can’t understand this part well!!!} countless sounds… sounds… sounds…

Hehe… Mm… I really don’t hate the rain.

But… it’s a little but cold, huh.

This day at June with the cold rain falling, I… ran away from home.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

*Rui plays the piano*

Rui: Whew! Hehe! Mother, did you listen? Rui properly played it. With no mistakes, I played everything! Hehe! … Okay! I understand. It’s Onii-chan’s lesson next. Rui will call Onii-chan then.

*climbs stairs*

Rui: *pants* *pants* Onii-chan! Huh? He’s not here. Onii-chan, where are you? Rei onii-chan!

*opens door*

Rui: Ah!

Rei: Rui…

Rui: Onii-chan, you were here.

Rei: Yeah…

Rui: Rei onii-chan, you see, Rui played the piano reaaaaally good today! Mother complimented me that it’s really amazing. She hugged me, too. And then-

*Rei slams table*

Rui: !!!! O… nii-chan?

Rei: Hey, Rui.

Rui: W-what, Onii-chan?

Rei: You’re amazing, huh.

Rui: Huh? Amazing? Rui is amazing?

Rei: Yeah. Amazing. Rui, you are amazing. I practiced so hard, practiced so much. And yet the parts where I can’t do, you the little brother could play it after working hard just a bit. You’re amazing.

Rui: I-is that so?

Rei: That’s why… I’ll stop playing the piano.

Rui: Eh?

Rei: Because it’s not fun at all! I don’t want it anymore. Because I’m the onii-chan, I started playing the piano before Rui did. Everyday everyday, I practiced so much. And yet I can’t play it. Rui who started later was better. Mom always lets out sighs during my lessons.

Rui: Ah, Onii-chan…? *gets near him*

Rei: Don’t touch me! *throws papers*

Rui: *sobs and cries*

Rei: Don’t cry, crybaby Rui.

Rui: *continues to sob* Because… because… Onii-chan is angry.

Rei: I’m not… angry.

Rui: You’re angry! You’re definitely angry! *hick* Don’t get angry… I want to be with Onii-chan. If Onii-chan doesn’t want it, then I’ll stop playing the piano. So…!

Rei: *gasps* W-what’s with that!?

Rui: Because… *hick* Unless Rui plays the piano, Onii-chan will…

Rei: Don’t make a fool out of me… Don’t mess with me!!! *pushes Rui*

Rui: !!!

Rei: *gasps* Rui!!!

*Sounds of glass breaking*

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Rei: *knocks* Rui.

Rui: … Nii-san.

Rei: Mom told me to help you with your packing.

Rui: … thanks. But it’s alright.

Rei: Even if it’s alright, at least let me pretend I’m helping you. Unlike you, Rui who’s going to study abroad is busy was what I have been told, I don’t have a place to return to.

Rui: …

Rei: Anyway, I’ll just stay here for a while. It’s okay right? I won’t disturb.

Rui: … *packs stuff*

Rei: That… injury on your neck…

Rui: Eh? *covers the injury*

Rei: There’s a scar left in there, huh. If you wear such loose clothes like that, it can be seen. It’s the injury I made on you, isn’t?

Rui: …

Rei: Being left behind by you, the little brother. Even after hurting you and left a scar. Instead of giving up music, I decided that I should at least do my best in my studies. I was so desperate doing it even now. Hahaha… I’m being treated like a good-for-nothing, huh. It’s funny, isn’t? The me who goes to the so-called number 1 new academy, if it’s a normal parent, they should be proud right? But this music-centered house, it’s not normal, huh. I had forgotten. In this house, Things such as deviation doesn’t mean anything. If you can’t play any instruments, then you’re just an overweight good-for-nothing.

Rui: Nii-san…

Rei: I’m like… an idiot…

Rui: …

Rei: Oh yeah, there’s someone like you at school.

Rui: Eh?

Rei: Making a face saying it’s nothing at the results of someone’s desperate efforts. A sarcastic guy who can overcome things lightly. Having the popularity of someone who can do studies, sports, anything. I guess that’s called charisma, huh. In fact, he was even called king.

Rui: I…

Rei: … didn’t plan to do anything of that? Hehe… Our king-sama probably thought the same things as you. Saying they’re just doing things normally. Saying they didn’t do anything special. After all, geniuses like you guys won’t understand us ordinary people’s feelings.

Rui: I’m not a genius or anything.

Rei: No. You are a genius, Rui. Unlike me, you were definitely chosen. If you play the piano, anyone will know. … That’s why you’re going to study abroad, right? Go, Rui. You should walk through the path of music. With my share too, okay?

Rui: … Nii-san?

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

*rain falls*

*sighs* … I was such an idiot. Nii-san said all of that for me. In the end, I threw everything and run away.

It’s not music unless it’s classic, huh.

Mom, Dad, I don’t think that’s true.

The world are so much full of sounds.

There’s different kinds of sounds, With that number of sounds, no, even more than that, there’s different kinds of music.

But Dad and Mom can’t hear any of that, huh.

*walks through the rain*

*cat meows*

Cat… it’s still small. And… really light.

Are you homeless… like me?

*cat meows*

Hehe… Then, until the rain stops, it’s taking shelter together with me, huh.

Fuu… so cold…

*cat meows*

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"Rui let share a pokey stick together." Riku ask happily

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" Pocky stick?..." He tilt his head to the side. " But...isn't that what lovers usually do when sharing it? Shun-san told me that... " (Shun is a bad influence for Rui xD )

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“ Here… ” Hand him a sword to him.

Riku was surprised that Tenn actually handed him a sword. “Really Tenn-nii. You the best.” he took it waving it lightly. “Se- woah, woah” he tried to balance himself, losing the balance when he swing it too much. placing the sword on the floor

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“It just a moment lost of balance“ Riku retorted.

Stares at his own brother and judging intensely.

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