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sleepwalking ● 23 | jjk

pairing: jungkook x fem!reader

summary: due to unfortunate circumstances, you ended up managing your ex-boyfriend’s band. you thought you’ve both made peace with it, but suddenly he’s very eager to prove to you that first love never dies.

genre: rockstar!jungkook / exes to lovers

warnings: explicit language, mentions of drugs (nothing graphic), descriptive SMUT (pet names and a sprinkle of worship included, beware), fluff and too much flirting to be allowed, some angst, SLOW BURN

words: 19.8k

chapter 23 in this open warfare, i won't fight fair, and in your waking moments, i will be there

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Anonymous asked:

Never apologize for taking your time to write !!!!!

I love this chapter so much tho I'm sad that we're so close to the ending bc I really wish we could see more of the staff and everyone just, yknow, joking around now that the two are together 😭😭

I hope Sid rots in the deepest depth of hell and would never come back amen

p.s. i cant even begin to define how much i love the way you narrate the story. now i want bees in my stomach and kiss in the rain

you're so kind to me, my love 😭😭 thank you so much for loving these characters as much as i love them, i will never be able to explain how much that means to me 🥺🥺 team fuck sid!!!!

i love you i love you i love you!!!!! 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

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Dude where do I even start :ccc

This chapter, I really couldn't wait to have some free time and read it peacefully (peacefully meaning, squealing and losing my shit at every paragraph)

I loved the plotting ok, the attention to details, the way they all worry about each other and just fight against this urge to bury Sid alive, so inspiring and wholesome :D

Also, something I've absolutely always loved about your writing is this continuous narration of the characters thoughs, interactions and quirks, like it may be the simplest of things for other people (like writers in general and stuff) but for me these moments -of Luna finally exchanging a gossipy stare with Maggie, or Jungkook feeling devastated when Oc took her hand away, and then making sure that it wouldn't happen again-, they just add so much endearment, personality, depth to the story. Idk, it feels like every comma you write has a purpose, and will eventually add up to some beautiful metaphors, and revelations.

What does it feel like to be such a talented writer??

Now, regarding the lovey dovey stuff... What the actual fuck are you trying to do to me? I swear I cannot look more deranged giggling at my phone every 32 seconds jfc, have some compassion.

Like jk demanding that kiss in the park? Had me doing flips

The “I never knew how to love you quietly."

AND OC RECITING HIS ENTIRE SPEECH??!? ‘We have Sociology together, I saw you sleeping in class, very cute by the way, the professor does not know how to shut up, have you seen that new Studio Ghibli film, I recently watched their classic with some friends, My Neighbour Jungkook, I’m Totoro by the way, I thought maybe—wait—no—’”
Not one period, nothing,” you continued, a melancholic haze in your eyes. “Just commas and an endless stream of thought. You could have asked me to bury a body, I would have said yes.”

STFU I ALMOST CRIED, THOSE ARE MY BABIESS

The rain listened. It had become a fundamental part of your present and a prophet of your future: the two of you were going to spend the rest of your lives listening to the rain and falling in love.

This destroyed me actually, get me someone to listen to the rain and fall in love with, rn please and thank u

Also watch me try and write 'transfixing. Beguiling. Effulgent. Pulchritudinous' next time I'm falling asleep to test my writing abilities fr, just you wait

He was almost ready to call Rated Riot’s next song “Smile Lines” and just sigh dreamily into the microphone for five minutes while Yoongi played gentle piano chords in the background.

As if their entire discography wasn't like this already, at least in my mind it is. But yeah, I can totally see him doing something like that next time oc does anything remotely endearing (breathing basically)

Ugh idk what to say, you have me screaming and crying for this couple, these characters and their story all the time, and I love you for it. There are also things I forgot to mention because my phone refuses to actually save things in the Clipboard, but overall this made my week, as your updates always do (and that paired with Ateez's performance in Coachella in a couple of minutes?? Yeah life feels worth living again 🤭🤭)

Thank you sm for this, take care of yourself pleaseee, ill be waiting for the next one cccc:

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oh how i wish i could thank you eloquently, instead of going sskdhfksh at every word of your message 😭 i must stress that the fact that you noticed (!) these little moments between characters and you've enjoyed (!!!) them is the absolute highest reward i could get 🙏🏻 it's so easy to skim, you know?

babe making you giggle is my main purpose in life at this point, i don't know what to tell you. and you'RE SO RIGHT OMG he's so whipped for her, their next album is just going to be jungkook morphing from this 🥰 into just this ❤️ (like me for you rn, fr)

i also hope you have more peace and quiet to do the things you enjoy in your life!! i love you!!! 🥺🤍🤍🤍🤍 bless ateez btw

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had to postpone my plans just so I could read the new chapter and DAMN was it worth it!!! I couldn't stop smiling the whole ch goddd i want what they have!!!!

this part here, for example, i seriously had to lock my phone and take a deep breath like???? the bees were inside me apparently lol

they ARE meant for each fr frr I will personally fight anyone who gets in their way (((( u hear me Isidore???)))))

and then there's this????? he WAS smiling and so was i?????!!!!!!! i literally can't omg that's too much for my poor heart :(((((

ugh you're just soooo good, I can't wait for the next parts! This one made me reeeeally happy, thank you so much for your hard work 🤧💘

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ahhh babe 😭 thank you so much for trusting me enough to postpone your plans for this 🥺🥺 also, not the bees inside you as well that's so cute pleASE 😭😭 sid shall crumble!!!

thank you so much for reading and for feeling all this!! knowing that these parts made you smile literally made my whole day, i love you so much 🥺🤍🤍🤍🤍

i hope you catch up with your plans and have a good day, love!!!! 🤍🤍

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trust me yesterday while I was at work, I was just wondering that I haven’t read sleepwalking in awhile and it was like a passing thought that just came to me okay? and then at night I see the notification that you have uploaded and I was like how the hell did I miss this notification 😭😭😭😭

also read ch 23 and I’m so fuckin excited for what’s about to happen next. shits going down for that mf sid (im sorry for the curses but its just i hate him sm😭)

also jk and oc ugh such cuties 🧿🧿🧿 i love their nostalgic moments and that tells us how down bad they are for with each other and honestly same. love how we get to know so much about their past and how their relationship has formed and is what it is now

love everything about this and honestly thank you for this story author ❤️

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babe the fact that this story randomly passes your mind as you go on with your day???? i am floored 😭😭 (that was actually me sending you signals and trying to lure you to me 👀)

ahhhh but i'm so excited that you're excited!!!! sid doesn't even know he has a boss battle coming up right ahead 🥹 and omg i really enjoyed writing these parts, so it makes me so happy that you enjoyed reading about their past!!! 🤍🤍🤍

seriously thank you so much!!!! i love you 🥺🥺🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

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Anonymous asked:

HELLOOO AHH i had a business trip the past month and couldnt properly comment on sleepwalking ch 21 and 22 but now that i have the time to drop by i just want you to know just how giddy these two made me like it's not healthy?? The way OC just readily accepted whatever they're going to face bc of their relationship and how sure she is about him and their second shot??

I want to bawl pls i want their love sm 😭😭😭

But also props to joon, the voice of reason and for fuelling her with logical thinking that is the company would probably be too afraid to lose her if it comes to it lol

hiii, love, thank you for taking your time to send me this after your trip?? omg 🥺🤍🤍🤍🤍 i love you and the fact that you felt giddy reading this is enough to fuel my motivation for at least the next week, thank you so much 🙏🏻🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

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Ara you're actually trying to kill me, I'm sure (also this is a long one, I'm sorryyy)

he collapsed back onto the pillows and buried his face in his hands, a ridiculous smile spreading beneath his fingers as his heart continued to race in his chest.

Pls we're twinninnng, this is me reading your series btw, the definition of giggling and kicking my feet at its finest

Also, me thinks that Joon and Maggie deserve their own altar each, I love them, with him casually saving their asses and talking some sense into oc as he should, and Mags representing each of my thoughts, like

That fucking loser,” she said. “That massive fucking piece of shit. Fucking good-for-nothing rat. Motherf—”. “Yeah, Mags,” you interjected, knowing she might not stop for a while.
Let’s kill him”. “Or, you know,” she added in response to your and Luna’s expressions, “let’s beat him up. That’ll work, too.”

I have never felt this represented in any form of media, let her continue please, Sid just keeps pissing me off and she deserves to take her frustrations out, preferably on him in a very violent way, maybe even with a brick or a chair, idk

You ended up watching each of the boys leap over the threshold of the door for no reason whatsoever, just to see who could jump the farthest—until Jungkook smacked his head right into the top of the door frame.

This has happened irl, I have no doubt about it. And I have to say, I absolutely love the way you portray the guys in the series, obviously we don't know them personally and never will, but as far as the persona each of them maintain for the public and what is shown in the media, this feels accurate and warm somehow, without engaging too much in the stereotypes, or forgetting that they're humans despite our (and the world's) expectations. I'm always glad to find writers like you to keep this thoughtful and respectful approach, even when it comes to fiction <3

Pouting, he walked over to you after everyone else had finished laughing and left. You fixed his hair, trying to bite back your laughter, and he pulled you into a hug.
Jungkook was about to object—you couldn’t remove your hands from his skin so abruptly, there was a certain procedure you had to follow to ensure he could still breathe when you were no longer touching him.

Stop it right now, this section made my heart EXPLODE, they're so mf cute, I'm so aloneeee jfc, like if you look up the word 'simp' his photo is showing up, there's no discussion

Still, he paused again by the door, giving you one last overly dramatic nod over his shoulder as if he were in a spy film. Then he left with a triumphant fist in the air after finally earning a chuckle from you.

Their banter has me squealing again, but who's surprised, honestly, this is like the 92828 time I say this, but their. dynamic. is. everything. to. me. I cannot stress enough how heartwarming it has been to see them allow themselves to express those feelings with time, so proud of my children :c

Stopping, you looked around warily until you finally spotted Minjun’s head peeking out from behind the corridor wall.

OH HEY BOO, I'm glad we're seeing more of his role here, and the entire interaction with Jude was uncomfy yes, but it brought us answers, some pity for him ngl, aswell as excitement for their plan, and it reenforced my admiration for oc, bc what a good person she is. I'm not surprised in the slightest about Sid letting his closest friend(pet) die, and I hope he rots in hell, alone and bitter while my babies live and love freely :D

Luna noticed the slight commotion and approached you. As soon as you finished telling the girls what happened to your handbag, she broke into a surprisingly graceful, but very, very drunken performance of flailing her limbs and singing, “I knew it! I fucking knew it!” while Taehyung watched her from the doorway with unmistakable fondness. He had genuinely never looked more in love.

Him and Jungkook go head to head over who is the most whipped, and I need me a partner like this, tyvm

“I am learning to be okay with others knowing, though. And I want you despite that. Despite others. Despite everything. I want to be with you.

No because I would die immediately, what do you mean oc, you cannot just say stuff like that and expect people not to propose on the spot, jk get the ring, I'll be the officiant idc

And know presenting a compilation of more tender moments from this chapter we have:

And it’s okay,” he continued. “I can’t make decisions for you, but you’re—you have us. We’ll always have your back. We won’t sit idly if we find out the label made you resign.”
You’ve found your family when you met Rated Riot. They made bets about your relationship, they teased each other at nearly every possible moment, they complained and argued, but they supported each other with unwavering loyalty. And you were prepared to fight, if it came to it, to stay with them.
Then Maggie caught you off guard by wrapping her arms around you—as if you’d crossed Middle Earth and battled Smeagol for her phone—and you realised how safe, happy, and comfortable you felt here.
He could hear Taehyung singing along to “Do I Wanna Know?” by the drinks table while Luna and Maggie waved the flashlights on their phones dreamily for extra ambience in the dimly lit room. He could also see, most unusually, the way Hoseok and Jimin seemed to be exchanging money right behind the two girls.

All these to say that I'm a SUCKER for the platonic affection, the found-family trope, the comfort, support, silliness, honesty, and love that comes with it, and specially the way you always manage to include those fragments of their interactions, personalities and memories in the story; bc yeah oc and jk will always be the main focus, but the fact that you make the effort of showing us the characters' (both main and secondary) struggles and development really ties everything together, and makes this au one of my favorite series of all time, I genuinely have enjoyed it more than some published books, you have so much talent Ara c:

I'm sure this ask is lengthy enough, sorry about that, but I loved this part (one of my favorites for sure), and I hope you take care of yourself, see you in the next one!! 💜

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babe, you are a dream come true, please don't ever apologise, you're perfect 🥺 thank you so much for sharing your beautiful thoughts and for hitting probably every single mark i was the most excited for you to read 😭🙏🏻

i love all of these characters so much, so hearing that you've enjoyed their little moments too is the biggest gift for me, thank you so much 🥺🤍🤍🤍

you are heaven-sent, i don't know what to say. your messages are absolutely, without any doubt, every writer's dream, and i seriously can't thank you enough for this!!!!!! i love you 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

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sleepwalking ● 22 | jjk

pairing: jungkook x fem!reader

summary: due to unfortunate circumstances, you ended up managing your ex-boyfriend’s band. you thought you’ve both made peace with it, but suddenly he’s very eager to prove to you that first love never dies.

genre: rockstar!jungkook / exes to lovers

warnings: explicit language, suggestive themes, FLUFF, some angst, mentions of drugs (including descriptions of harmful use), very plot-heavy chapter, SLOW BURN

words: 18k

chapter 22 if you want an enemy, i’ll be the last one that you ever meet

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Anonymous asked:

Sleepwalking is easily the best fic I’ve read in a loooong time ! The slow burn is so good 🤭 I love jungkook in this he’s sooo sweet and I’m so glad he wasn’t actually as bad as oc thought he was during their relationship so they can get back together 😆 Love it. Do you know when you’ll post the next chapter yet?

thank you so much, my love 🥺🥺 communication really is key in relationships!!!

and yes yes, i am hoping to post it tomorrow (friday)! it'll be a long chapter (again), so it's taking a bit longer, but i'm very exciteddd for it!!!! 🫶🏻🫶🏻

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