Heya, peeps, ‘Lura’s back!
So yeah, I’ve been gone for a long while. And I’m really and sincerely sorry for the long absence, but lots of stuff happened in my life. I’m preparing for grad school (I start next week), I’m unemployed and been looking for jobs these past months, lots of family drama (one cousin got almost arrested and then was in a car accident, my uncle has been hospitalized a couple of times, my maternal cousin died suddenly, etc). But beside the RL stuff happening, I was incredibly reluctant to come back to this blog. Hell, I decided against coming back to tumblr and to this blog multiple times these past months and opted to do other things rather submerge myself in constant discourse and negativity.
Basically, I’m tired af. I’m bone tired of the discourse that is rampant on this site. I’m tired of logging onto tumblr dot com and being bombarded with news of some new fuckery that went down in some fandom like a voice actor getting harassed for supporting specific cartoon/video game characters kissing or a writer getting harassed because he/she dared to say something flattery about a character an anti dislikes/hates. I’m tired (and disheartened) of seeing some (keyword: some) people on the pro-shipping becoming jaded, petty, or mean because they want to get back at the sociopathic assholes that are antis and others possibly get caught in the pro-shipping and anti-shipping crossfire. I’m tired of seeing shippers in various fandoms who’ve witnessed their ships and fellow shippers be attacked by antis yet turn around and unironically spout anti-esque comments towards their OTPs and/or nOTPs. I’m tired of coming to this site and wanting to unwind and enjoy shitposts metas, pretty edits and/or gifsets, only to get suck back into discourse and end up feeling angry and down in the dumps. I’m a positive person. I’m not trying nor want to make myself like a special snowflake or make it sound like I’m better than the blogs specifically focused on fandom discourse or venting. On the contrary, I feel like a pathetic weakling compared to the owners of discourse and salt blogs who been through hell (I mean like receiving death threats, receiving hate messages, etc) who continue to be active, while here I am, wanting to nope out and hide away when I gotten what is essentially the “red carpet” treatment (which is receiving little to no hateful messages or treatment) when it comes to antis.
Anyway, I digress. I’m a positive person. I like focusing on things that I like and that make me happy. I can’t focus on things that make me mad or feel irritated for too long or every other day because I end up feeling drained and moody. I owe it to myself to care for my mental and emotional health rather than disregard both and constantly surround myself in stress from both IRL BS and fandom shit. So, what I ‘m saying is that I won’t be on this blog as much. I’m not abandoning it as antis are still amok and about causing hell and havoc and deserve to be called out as many people as possible. Me straight up leaving is granting antis an albeit small victory (again, as this blog is drop in the bucket as far as pro-shipping blogs go and I sure as hell ain’t infamous amongst the pro-shipping circle) in that their vileness pushed another person to leave the discourse and leave them to harass and bully as they please. Also, because there are countless people who need another place (even a blog like this one) to vent their grievances and talk about the crap they’ve been through.
Yeah, I know. Me saying that this blog won’t be as active isn’t saying much since this blog hasn’t been active in 3 months (Jesus Christ). However, I hated how I was gone for that long and didn’t explain to you guys the reasons for my absence. I hate to sound dramatic and self-important but I feel like I owe you guys an explanation. So, I won’t be active as much, sadly. You can send me asks or messages and I will respond to them. And I will talk (and LOVE to talk) to certain posters via messages (you know who you are). But the activity on this blog will be limited to queued posts and possibly positivity posts on Friday since Friday is my favorite day of the week.
So, sorry again for the long absence. Sorry for this long rambling post and wasting your time. But thank you for reading and your patience. Muchos abrazos y besos. Stay positive as possible.