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So I think I’m going to take small break with this journal for now... been told that it’s nice to take breaks if I haven’t even feel motivated as of late and I don’t want to force it wasting my days on just writing nothing. I will complete this challenge and I just need to feel determined but lately I really am not. Still gotta keep my head up! ^^
I just don’t know if I should even be here anymore... damn anxieties
Anonymous asked:
Try and stay determined! But also feel the need to post when you really feel like it. I'm still so sorry with what happened on the musashi callout thing. Really upset too that no one even defended you :| Hang in there dude!
It’s okay. Don’t think any of her close followers don’t really know me that much to stick up for me anyways and it was barely retweeted. Thanks, I appreciate the encouragement <3
Day 35: Again, I feel nothing enlightening today...I want to keep my spirits up but my determination to recover has been low because of certain things I can’t mention here and those call-out tweets are still haunting me. It’s almost been about a month but I just can’t get a peace of mind. At least the people I care about look to be happy, and I have that comfort to know they’re okay if I ever I’m gone. Though I don’t really know what’s going on behind the scenes outside socials, so I’d rather not overthink it and let them be. It’s difficult when you’re can’t do anything on your part, but I’ll just hope things will work out in the end. I just have to deal with this reality and not make things worse. I hate that it’s affecting me so much compared to others.
My message for today is to always think positive! And always be understanding of others even if they don’t see your feelings. Every person has their right to think what’s better for their mental health. Just be the better person, live with no regrets, and forgive those who didn’t even mean to hurt or stress you. I wish I could've changed what happened... but it’s too late, and I can’t do anything now.
Day 34: I think... I should finally play Undertale 👀 Was always fan of tobyfox’s soundtrack but never actually played the game itself...stupid memes lol. Though I seriously have to wrap up Layton first, heh.
Day 33: Nothing for today...
Day 32: Nothing enlightening today. Same old day off with trying to keep myself distracted and positive. To everyone struggling out there right now, please keep hanging on ❤️
The best team <3
Not even jealousy or ignorance can separate these two. :’)
Day 31: Chill and PokéAni... that’s all there is to it for this Sunday.
One of the best Pika eps! Glad Mimey/Bari-chan acted as the arbiter for this episode to help Pikachu back to Ash/Satoshi again <3
Bless Hanako/Delia Ketchum...just showed her how much Pikachu is really part of their family <3 Happy that we get to see her more often especially since their home operations is still in Kanto.
Thank you again PokéAni for the comfort tonight away from triggers and anxieties...seriously the best way to kickoff my R&R weekend since I work Saturdays 😭 So happy and proud to still be fan!
Good night~
#P J rambles#really didn't expect to love this episode as much when the preview first came out#I thought it was gonna be just fun but not wholesome ;v;#who needs subs when you can just tell storytelling with the Pikas xD#still gonna watch subs tho ofc heh#Mimey Delia Ash Pika...LOVE THIS FAMILY all played a good part in this ep#also MORE KOHARU NEXT EPPP YAAAAAY \O/#it's 5am I need to sleep klasjfkalsjdflkas
Day 30: Made it to 30 days...about a month since I started this journal. I ain’t stopping as long as I’m breathing. This is one of the most fun things I ever did in this blog as I mentally recover. It’s also kind of nice way for some of you to get to know a little bit about me every day. This is still a long journey ahead, but if it helps me heal along the way, the better. If you’re here for my ride, or even just secretly lurking in my blog, I consider it caring support nonetheless.
Thank you everyone, especially to those that made me part of their story/lives even if it was just for a little bit. Wishing nothing but good vibes for everyone this weekend ❤️ Ofc tonight is PokéAni Sunday so it should be fun as always \o/
Day 29: Listening to Ace Attorney music while working is the best way to keep myself focused lol
Day 28: Work, eat, tell my friends I love them, continue Professor Layton, sleep... sounds like a plan! ^^
Day 27: Bruh I miss the taste of milk... sis got a whole gallon yesterday to bring home last night and some nitrogen ice cream too 😭 Feeling better each day!
Day 26: I got nothing today... back to work I guess.
Day 25: I don’t know why but I feel like the urge to swim again for some reason... it used to be the only favorite casual sport I did back in my pre-teen years since my old home had a pool before and I used to swim everyday for my own leisure. Though now, the public pool at my apartment homes isn’t a good idea to dip in now due to the pandemic. Ehh I don’t like public pools anyways. I just can’t remember when was the last time I actually swam geeez...
I kinda miss it.