Fenrir’s heart fell, and a strange sense of worry for past-Erik swelled up, like somehow he could go back and fix whatever tragedy had happened. But he kept silent as Erik drew him into the office, squeezing his hand, and found his own shaky as Erik passed him picture upon picture, paper heavy with crayon and marker and pencils, reds and oranges and yellows, and lines of black that terrified him.
A lump in his throat made it hard to breath, and he found he couldn’t quite stand anymore, so made it over to a chair to collapse. “Oh, Erik,” he breathed, staring up at his boyfriend, a man he still knew so little about. He held his hands out for him. “What happened?”
He wasn’t sure yet if he regretted showing Fenrir this, but he had already gone this far so it wasn’t like he could just back out now. Some sot of explanation was needed and Fenrir deserved to know the truth. That was, after all, part of having a relationship, and Erik was finding himself more and more invested in making this relationship really work.
Fenrir reached out for him and Erik took his hands easily, squeezing a bit harder than necessary as he forced out the words he knew needed to be said. “There was a fire. It was the middle of the night and we woke up to smoke everywhere. I ran to Anya’s room and got her out as quickly as I could, handed her to my mother who had already made it outside. We were still living with her back then. I waited for Magda to follow us out, but she... she didn’t come.”
He had to pause for a moment to collect himself, sinking down to sit on the arm of the chair without letting go of Fenrir’s hand. “I went back in for her, but it was just... Everything was smoke and fire and I couldn’t... I could hear her, but I couldn’t get to her.” He would never forget the sound of Magda screaming as the fire took her.
“The firefighters didn’t dig me out until later,” he said softly. “And it was far too late for Magda.” He turned sad eyes towards the drawings again before concluding with, “Anya was four. She remembers enough that I doubt she’ll ever fully recover.”