Fire and Desire (18+)
Hey loves! Hope you’re well <3 Just a little fic, I got the idea at 4am LOLLL, it’s my first time writing smut, and angst so I’m so so sorry if it’s bad 😭, but I do hope you guys enjoy, maybe I’ll write a part 2 if you guys enjoy these enough. The fic was also inspired by two songs, Fire and Desire - Drake and Wish You Were Sober - Conan Gray, two different genres of music but I love both songs soooo, which is also one of the reasons why I named the fic “Fire and Desire.” Sorry about the angst in advance hehe.
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Anyways sit back, relax (well maybe not after reading the angst LOL SORRY), and enjoy the fic!! <3 J
Pairings: jenna ortega x fem! Reader
Warnings: SMUT (sex, fingering, eating out, dirty talk), ANGST!!
This fic is STRICTLY 18+, as it involves adult themes, minors DNI, you are responsible for your own social media intake, which includes reading entertainment which this fic falls under, so one last warning- this fic is 18+. Thank you!
Her body was my altar where I laid my hands on her sacred space, my body is her holy grail where my oceans is her gift to behold.
If the stars ever aligned for anybody, they aligned for you, for you and Jenna that is. Two naïve women who sought love and lust but could never tell the difference. Jenna was your co-star in a yet to be released romance movie “The Language of Love,” and to your delight, you were each other’s love interest, beforehand, you hate to admit it, but you did have a slight crush on Jenna, I mean, who wouldn’t? You never sought after it though, it was just a silly celebrity crush. Or so you thought, Jenna took a liking to you quickly and the connection you guys developed spread like wildfire, it was like you knew her in another dimension. Of-course, you being you developed feelings, love, or lust? You could never tell the difference, but the stars were aligned for you remember? Jenna felt the same, the only thing is she felt lust, she had an intense desire for you, for your sanction, but most importantly, for your soul. And this intense desire for your soul is why you couldn’t tell if what you guys had was love or lust. Lust. It became lust quick, maybe it was wrong because you wanted more but you had to keep her, you had to have her, and she had to have you. So, you guys did, friends with benefits that is.
“Fuck y/n… you’re so wet for me, aren’t you?” Jenna breathes, hot, upon your skin.
She sat on top of your lap; you were seated on the couch, she had control, you were taller and bigger than her, but during sex she had power, a power so strong she made you feel small, she was a goddess, and you were just a worshiper.
“Y-yes” you panted, you couldn’t take it anymore, you needed her in you. You escape the grasp of her hands that was holding your wrists down beside you and grab a hold of your cheeks pulling her into your taste, she tasted sweet with a hint of salt from the lone sweat that squeezed through gaps onto your tongue, your tongues fighting for power turned into delightful dancing, both organs swaying with each other.
“Fuck, Jenna, I need you in me.” You pleaded.
“Not that easy, amor, be a good girl and beg, beg for me or I leave.”
You scoff, looking her up and down, at the same time calling her bluff.
“Well okay, if that’s what you want.” Jenna kisses your sweaty forehead and hops off your lap, as she starts to walk away you grab her wrist.
“No wait, Jen, please stay.” Staring to beg.
She walks slowly towards you, enticing you with every step she takes closer. Knowing she wants more, you keep going.
“Jenna Marie Ortega, I’ve never needed someone so bad, your heat is what I want upon my body, the taste of your tongue is my craving, you run through my mind like a marathon and if anyone could read my mind, they’d think I’m insane, please baby, I need you, I need you inside of me.” You begged.
You begged and she provided.
“My good girl. Your wish is my command.”
She sat on top of you once more and spread your legs wide, allowing yourself to welcome her in, you laid soft kisses on her neck as she traced her slender cold digits on your folds, making you whimper.
“Patience is a virtue, baby.” She states.
You keep placing soft baby kisses upon her skin, with tracks of your cherry flavoured ChapStick running from her collarbones to the edge of her jawline and your most favourite, her neck. And without warning, she dives in, propelling her ring and middle finger into you with exertion, making you buck your hips and
“Fuck, Jen, you feel so good.” You praised.
“Yeah? You like that don’t you, y/n?” She continues, using a come-hither motion, reaching your g-spot every time, with every stroke, your moans grew in decibels. Your ocean lubricates her fingers, making her ease into you even more, your insides pulsate with heat, grasping her as she continues, and for the cherry on top she placed her thumb on your throbbing clit, making you gasp.
“Mhmh, Buena niña, that’s it, keep moaning, I know you’re close.”
She was right, you were close, your sinuses opened, your muscles tensed preparing for your orgasm.
“Jenna, oh my God, please, I need to cum, keep going.” You begged.
“That’s my little slut.” She praised. “Say my name, y/n.”
“Jenna, please. Jenna, Fuck.”
“Mommy, fuck, please, let me cum.”
“When I get to 1, hold it in for me, baby. “
“5.” She quickens her pace; how could you hold it in till 1?
“4.” She slows down her thumb, making sure to get every angle of your clit, you have to hold it in, you can’t cum before 1.
“3.” She sticks her tongue down your throat, taking her soft organ in.
“You got this baby, nearly there, say my name, my actual one. 1.”
Your orgasm crashes into you like a semi-truck, making your legs shake that she bounces up and down.
“FUCKKK, Jenna, fuck.” You praised and panted at the same time.
She giggles, and kisses your forehead, slowing down her pace, helping you ride out the high. Once your muscles relax and she hears you gasp for air, she takes her fingers out of you and runs your slick along your jaw and over your mouth, before she places it into her own, licking every bit of you off, but she missed a spot, your mouth. She giggles even more and goes in for a kiss.
“You were so good, baby.” You praised her more.
She sits next to you and caresses your hand, waiting for both of you to catch your breath so aftercare can take place. But you had other plans. You couldn’t let her have all the fun tonight. So, without warning, you tower over her and grab her neck, each finger found its place around her body part.
“My turn.” You snicker, she licks her lips and bites it making a soft tut sound, knowing she’ll be in for a ride. Your tongue glides in her mouth, allowing her to take you in, that doesn’t last long as you glide your tongue down her neck, licking her every flavour, slowly making your way down to her abdomen where you spread her legs wide open so your tongue can meet with her clit. You lay your tongue flat on her tongue, making her gasp with delight.
“Yes, y/n, you feel so good.” She praises you, making your heart beat faster.
You flick your tongue up, making her jerk with excitement. “Fuck, yes, keep going.” She urges, now her turn to beg, allowing your hunger for her to grow stronger. You feel a warm slick coat your chin.
“Hmph, you’re wet already? How pathetic.” You tease.
You continue to suck on her clit, taking her in with fire and desire, with every suck, her moans deepen, her speech stutters, rendering her speechless with every move you make.
“Shit, baby, I’m close.” She exclaims.
“Already?” You speak with pride.
“Your performance last round had me riled up, but anyways, keep going, don’t stop.”
You leave her pulsating and wet clit, her being so wet, her juices spread to your tongue. You make your way to her entrance; she welcomes you in by pushing your head closer to her pussy entrance.
You tease her more, “patience is a virtue.”
“Baby, please, I’m so close.” She exclaims, while grabbing your hair, the sting hurts so good. You stick your tongue in, going in and out while devouring her juices and folds, sucking with every might you have. She likes it, loves it. Her pulling gets harder and harder, as you go down on her harder and harder.
“Fuck, yes, right there.”
And with one final insert, you hook your tongue up, hitting her g-spot.
“OH MY GOD Y/N, YES, FUCK.”
You kiss her pussy, helping her ride out the orgasm, as she did you.
As you both sit up, both of you guys start laughing,
“hahaha, fuck what a night.”
“I agree, I’m so glad you came over.”
“Always, for you.” You stood up throwing on your sweats, the same ones, Jenna eagerly tore off when the night started, you head towards the kitchen and grab two waters and a few snacks.
“Here, love, drink and eat up.”
“Thank you, amor.” She reaches out for you, taking you in so your head rests upon her chest, hearing her heart beat with might.
Your heart matches hers, well to be fair, she has yours, but did you have hers?
“You’re so beautiful, you know that.”
She smiles, “I made you cum that good? Haha, you’re beautiful too.” She says back, kissing your forehead.
“Well, I should probably go, early day tomorrow.” She says to you, while sitting up.
“Wait Jen, why don’t you stay the night?”
“That’s nice of you, love, but you know I can’t”.
“You know,” you start, about to take a very big leap and confess your love to her. “If we were to make us official, we wouldn’t have to hide and sneak around.”
With an apologetic gaze, she furrows her eyebrows and looks down at her feet.
“Us, official, no one occupies my heart but you.”
“Y/n… You’re a great friend, and I love you so so so much, but we can’t, I’m sorry.”
She scrambles for her bag and starts heading towards the door, she turns the handle and as you hear the click, she turns back at you.
It’s been a week since your unrequited love mishap and not even an ‘I’m sorry from her’, work has been awkward, you’re an actress and so is Jenna, so hiding the way you both truly feel was an ease, feeling the sorrow was another thing, the only contact you and her made was during scenes, however, it didn’t help that you’re each other’s love interests. But lucky for you, it’s Friday, meaning you could wallow in self-pity for the entire weekend, you know you should try to get over her but when the stars aligned for you, how could you get over her?
That night, after drowning your sorrows in pistachio ice cream a bunch load of gummy candy, chips, and takeout, accompanied by a Twilight marathon. Just before you call it a night, you hear 3 loud knocks, who could be at your door at nearly 2am in the morning? With caution, because you weren’t expecting anyone, when your sight aligns with the peep hole, your heart and stomach drops. Jenna. Confusion takes over you, what was Jenna doing at your apartment at 2am? She didn’t text you either, you see a mixture of rain and sweat on her forehead with loose pieces of hair sticking to her, making you giggle. You open the door.
“Jenna? What’re you doing here.”
“Hi, hi.” She says shivering, her arms hugging herself, to keep herself warm, her leather jacket wasn’t doing the job.
“Oh, yes, sorry, come in, I’ll get you a blanket.”
She takes a step in and takes off her wet shoes and stumbles her way towards your couch. You on the other hand make your way towards the guest bedroom and grab a spare blanket from the dresser, too occupied to see her stumbling. You make your way towards her and wrap her in the blanket.
“Jen, are you okay? What’re you doing here?”
“Hmmm,” she smiles and leans towards your shoulder, “I miss you y/n, baby.” She slurs.
You scrunch your eyebrows as your realisation sets in, “Jen, are you drunk?”
“Mhmhm, what a detective you are.”
“Love, are you okay? How’d you get here?” You raise your concern.
“Yesssss, duhhhhhh, and UUUUUBERRRRRRR, c’mon baby. I was at the local bar, and the bartender was my therapist, and as each second lingered, the thought of-.” You see her cheeks inflate, that’s not good. You know that sign all too well.
“Oh! Jen here, let’s get you to the bathroom.”
“No, I’m fine.” She assures.
“Okay, fine, but here drink some water and eat something.”
“You’re too good to me y/n. I don’t deserve you, anyway, the thought of you grew strongerrrrrrrrr.”
Your heart races, does she know what she’s telling me? You try to brush it off, but your heart grew stronger and the blood in your cheeks rises, making you heat up and your cheeks blush. When you thought she couldn’t make you blush even more, she grabs your face, bringing you an inch away from hers, you can feel her breath and hear her breathing.
“Y/n, I’m sorry for what I said, I-I was just scared, I love you.”
With those three words, you were sure your heart stopped.
“Shh don’t speak, just kiss me.”
“No, baby, I can’t, you’re drunk.”
“Boooooo, I miss your lips, but like you said, my heart is yours, and yours only, the love I have only speaks your name and the stars aligned for us that day, no soul could compare to yours, the one that fulfills mine.”
You were silent. So silent, you swear your quickening heart beat filled the room.
“Y/n, say something, please.”
“Jen,” you pause, “you don’t mean that, we’re just sex, remember?” You see the light in her eyes sadden, you feel sorry for reminding her, but to be fair, she broke your heart first. “Come here.” You embrace her and provide her with comfort, her scent was heaven, like a vanilla soft serve or freshly baked cookies. She kisses your neck, with her soft plump lips, that alone had you weak in the knees, that alone nearly made you fold, that alone brought your sorrows back knowing she’s drunk and doesn’t mean what she’s saying, it’s just her guilt talking. You keep repeating. You feel her head relax, which means she fell asleep, you giggle, lifting her up and you make your way towards your bedroom, placing her down gently, taking off her jacket and placing your hoodie on her, which was always too big for her. You place a water bottle on the side table and some snacks, in case she got hungry or thirsty, which is a guarantee when drunk. You take a deep breath and take her beauty in, no words could exult her beauty, as you turn away you hear her mumble,
As much as you want to, you know you can’t, you couldn’t, she wouldn’t remember tonight and she can’t wake up confused in your bed with you right next to her, God, what would she think then?
“Goodnight, amor, sleep tight.”
And with that, you leave your room with a heavy heart, you take another deep breath and with that, you pass out on your couch.
When you woke, you take a second to remember the events of last night, lucky for you, Jenna wasn’t awake yet, so you decide to make some breakfast for the two of you, preparing yourself for any awkwardness that will ensue. You whip up waffles, eggs with spinach, bacon, and some chicken tenders to go with the waffles and a cantaloupe smoothie.
When Jenna woke, she had a raging headache, no shit, she drank so much last night it could knock a few people out but despite her small stature, she was no light weight. However, there was one feeling that ached her, that was worse than the headache, despair, regret, sorrow, every connotation, she felt it, the smell of sweet cinnamon and savoury bacon calmed her down, knowing it was in your nature to do this for her, it felt like home, maybe this is home, but she shakes the feeling away as embarrassment seeps in. Fuck. What did I do, what am I doing here.
As you set the food out onto the table she walks out of the room and glances at you with a soft smile.
“Morning,” she says softly.
“Morning, Jen, uh, here have some food, and there’s Panadol in the cabinet for your headache, I know you have one.” Taking a soft hit at her.
She couldn’t help but giggle, she knows you know her too well, and she knows you too well as well, she knows you were watching Twilight despite it not being on when she stumbled into your living room.
That’s not good, last time she said that she was rejecting your love, but either way you brace yourself for what’s about to happen.
“Thank you for all this, I really do appreciate it, but.”
“I know.” You cut her off. By now, you don’t know what takes a hold of you, but you don’t stop speaking.
“We’re just sex, well we were just sex, I don’t know what we are anymore Jen, you haven’t spoken to me this entire week.”
“Only because you’ve been avoiding me y/n.” She stabs back.
“And whose fault is that?” Instant regret sets in. You see her eyes water. Fuck.
“I don’t even know why I came here; it was a mistake.” She exclaims in monotone voice.
“Well,” you keep going, omg, y/n shut up, before you make this worse. “Let me remind you, you come to me, unannounced, drunk, and a mess, the first time we’ve properly talked in a week, and you pour your heart out, telling me how much you love me and how your love is only meant for me.” You try your hardest to keep the tears in, but Jenna? Tears were rolling down her face.
She sniffles, “yeah, okay, you know what? I shouldn’t have come here, I shouldn’t have said those things, I don’t even know why I did, I DIDN’T MEAN IT.” She raises her voice, making your heartstrings snap.
“Yeah, that’s right, I never meant a single thing, my love isn’t yours, I. AM. NOT. YOURS. I never loved you, I was just drunk, nothing I said was the truth, so don’t get your hopes up.”
“So, now you’re quiet? Pathetic.” She spits. She grabs her jacket and starts heading towards the door, “the stars never aligned for us. It was all in your head, I never loved you, in any way. I just used you, used you for sex, mediocre sex, might I add.”
“You don’t mean that.” The tears building up, you don’t know how long you can hold it in.
“Yes, yes, I do. Nothing I said was real, no I love you was. Everything I said was a lie, everything I said last night was an even bigger lie, I just wanted sex and plus I was drunk, did you really think I shared the same feelings?”
“You’re pathetic and I’m just a good actress, and apparently an even better one when drunk.” And with that she slams your door shut.
Your body is filled with so many emotions you can’t even begin to name one, anger, hatred, lust, love, sorrow, despair, regret. But there was one thought clear in your head, even when your heart is collapsing on itself.