indie semi-selective semi-private marvel cinematic universe oc blog for jesy stark. established may 8, 2015, revamped october 2016.

the blog was revamped early! come follow me and we can do stuff yaaay!

this is a super hard decision i had to made… this blog ( and by extension my sideblog that nobody really interacted with but i had to mention it ) will be retired. i was hoping to get back into this once aos came back but honestly i’m really not feeling jesy and even get on here is overwhelming… 

HOWEVER. i will be rebooting a highly selective and private version of jess ( with the same url ) in 2017 and will be spending the rest of the year getting her ready. i really hope that y’all will follow me over there bc i really love jesy with all my heart and i’d hate to see her drift away even more than she already has honestly. anyways, that’s really all i wanted to say.

tldr; i’m rebooting as a selective and private blog next year under the url jbstcrk over here

                                     I’M BRIGHT FOR MY AGE.

“Things have changed though. What with Myra and planning the wedding. Maybe we should pick one location and stay with it, or we move with you so you’re not on your own as much and we don’t have to miss each other.” Lily suggested thoughtfully, cupping both of Jesy’s cheeks gently. “You need a vacation baby. Leave Myra with your parents and the Avengers and we just go to some island for a week or two where no one calls us and the only time we are texted is if there’s an emergency or something cute/major happening.”

“Don’t get me wrong I’m so, so happy we have Myra and that we’re planning our wedding, and I would never expect you to choose a city. Just like I can’t choose a city. In California I have Stark Industries. I have my namesake. And here, I have the Avengers, and you and most of my family. Yeah it seems simple to make that choice, but with my parents being in California more often than not I need to keep both.” She knew in the back of her mind that if Lily asked her to choose, she would choose New York. She would choose Myra and Lily over anything. And she knew her parents wouldn’t be upset with her. “I don’t think we have time for a vacation, as amazing as that sounds. And as much as we both need one.” She sighed, biting her lip. “I don’t know, I’ll have to talk to my parents about it first, they’d probably be willing to fly up here for a couple weeks.”

“What?” Ally felt like she could’ve pulled a neck muscle with how fast she turned to look at Jesy. “They expect nothing? Are you out of your mind? You’re Tony Stark and Pepper Potts’ daughter. How exactly do they expect nothing?” She swallows down the rest of her anger and just nods at the information (or lack thereof) on Tony. “Does he know what happened to us?” Ally tried to look out a window, but laying down on the gurney didn’t give her a good vantage point. “I’ve never met her. But why do you want me to meet everyone? Aren’t I being turned into the UN?”

“First of all, that was sarcasm.” She said evenly. “I often wonder what my life would be like if I weren’t a Stark. But I don;t let myself linger there too long anymore.” She laughed a little. It was her sister’s next question that brought Jesy completely back to Ally, eyes narrowing in curiosity at the younger. Leaning over she started to undo the straps that were keeping her on the gurney. “I know I’m supposed to, but I’m not going to, neither is anyone else here, I’m going to make that very clear.” As Jesy undid the last strap, she saw the nervous looks from the two other Agents that were with her. “Don’t strain yourself okay? I don’t want you to get hurt again, and trust me as much as you blame me for what happened, I blame myself about ten thousand times more.” She sighed, moving to sit next to her.

Send “Is there any hot water left?” for your muse randomly joining mine in the shower.

Lily’s head stayed in place, unmoved by Jesy getting up and walking away. She was in such a deep sleep thanks to pure exhaustion, there was nothing that could wake her at least for now. Dead to the world. Trapped in a never ending pool of darkness where dreams failed to give her more fear or comfort and simply did not exist. She was still breathing, much as it looked like she was a little on the dead side of things so that was something. 

Jesy didn’t sit back down, her nerves were too much to even be near her right now. Not because she didn’t want to be, but for whatever reason she just couldn’t be near her. Of course that all changed when the Agent flying the QuinJet told them that they were finally at the Tower and were landing. Having stood in them before, Jesy simply leaned against the wall and waited, watching as the door opened and her father made his way onto the jet. Walking over to Lily, Jesy finally crouched down and placed a hand on her leg. “Lily sweetheart? We’re home. My dad’s here to help take you inside and I’ll be right behind you okay?”

“Once you see them arguing you’ll see why i’m desperate” he rested a hand on her shoulder “You’re my only hope”

“That’s why i can stand you”

“I knew it would come down to this.” Jesy teased. “Jesy Stark being George Pan’s last hope. Oh man I’m gonna get used to this.” She smiled. “It’s also why we’re Batman and Robin.” She pointed out.

I Know Places || Closed

Lily had kept petting Jesy’s hair knowing that if she woken up suddenly it would hopefully provide some kind of comfort to the younger girl. She’d trained herself to keep up with it in her sleep as well. So when Jesy was awake, having woken up due to most probably turbulence, Lily was still messing with her hair while still being asleep herself. Lily really was a heavy sleeper.

When she finally came back to reality, she noticed Lily was asleep and slowly moved her hand from her boot, resting it underneath her head. She didn’t want to sleep anymore, afraid of what would happen if she did. So she lied awake, resting against Lily who was still playing with her hair which brought her an enormous amount of comfort. Looking out the window across the aisle from them, Jesy saw they were getting closer to the clouds again, and she wondered if they were landing, but then they were swallowed in darkness and she knew they were just flying through the clouds. Figuring there was still at least a couple hours left of their flight, she just reached down and grabbed her phone and headphones, putting on some music in attempt to drown out her thoughts but hopefully still let Lily sleep.

“And don’t even ask how Lily does it.” 

 “That’s how they do it, these little things. They come along one day and become the most important part of your life to the point you can’t even imagine what it was like before them and you sure as hell don’t want to imagine who it would be if they weren’t here tomorrow”

“Okay I really wanna know how she does it.” She laughed, resting her head on the back of the couch. “I didn’t think that one tiny little human could change my life so drastically though. What was it like for you when Lily had Gwen?” She asked curiously.

    –   hey everyone! so if you saw any of my ooc posts earlier today, you’ll know that i have an announcement to make! and judging by the text on the gif you’ve already figured it out. yes that’s right i’m putting jesy on a queue based semi-hiatus from now until about early-mid september.

         why? because now that i’m running judith i really want to get my feet wet in the twd roleplaying fandom. lowkey been feeling super overwhelmed being here lately too so yeah that’s fun anyways, i really just think that in order for me to give enough attention to my new blog i need to put this one on a semi-hiatus.

         what? the way this hiatus is going to work is based through my queue. once or twice a day i’m going to be checking up on this blog ( or whenever i get the chance ) to fill the queue with memes and replies in order to keep this blog alive. i will also answer any memes that i get and they will be put into the queue as well. i’m hoping to put out about 10 posts a day from 11am-9pm (est) in order to have about one an hour and that way from 9pm-11am i can focus on reloading the queue.

         the most important thing about this hiatus is you guys! i’m gonna miss a lot of you and you can add me on sk*ype, im me on here ( which i may or may not see on time ) and also im me on @bcrnchacs which is the blog i’m going to be focusing on. 

         i’m actually really excited about booting up judith so if y’all have a twd verse please come interact with me over there i’m looking forward to it if any of you do! and don’t forget to stay awesome lovelies! xo

ps. this post will also be in the queue about once a day, or once every few days. 

tl;dr. i’m going on hiatus to start up my judith grimes blog. this blog is running on a queue from 11am-9pm (est) with about 10 posts a day and i’ll be back around early-mid september. xo

  “Isn’t focusing on your life sorta what I’m supposed to do?”

“Why the sudden interest in my life anyways? Never pegged you for that type honestly.”