Recovering from trauma and abuse is less about "pushing yourself out of your comfort zone" and more about creating a comfort zone and learning to stay inside it. Don't let anyone convince you that there's no healing to be found in comfort, stability and safety when that's something you've been deprived off. Don't let anyone convince you that your recovery process has to hurt all the time in order to be considered valid.
being insane is just a part of my charm
You’re probably wondering whether what you experienced was really ‘that bad?’. Let me tell you - if you have to question it, if it hurts, if it still runs through your mind, it was.
You don’t have to feel guilty over the pain you’re feeling.
Currently:
unfortunately, due to several experiences in my youth, i cannot just “walk up and join the circle of people talking”, but it does sound lovely thank you
it’s like everyone else has found their place and their friends and they all have lives but all i can do is sit in my room and sleep. it’s like i’m losing my youth to my own mind.