FINAL LINKS TO FOLLOW ME

Art twitter here

Pillowfort here

Both will have adult content! 

Also this is post number 6699 so I mean... what a good way to end it. Good byeeeeee!!!

TUMBLR NOW BLOCKING THE WAYBACK MACHINE

I just… I don’t know how to respond to this with anything other than an infuriated fucking howl, honestly? I’ve checked this and @essayofthoughts has checked this and there’s confirmation that Tumblr is actively banning archival efforts so it looks like this is not a bug.

If you were planning on archiving anything from this website, you’re too late. It is all going to fucking burn. Not only is Tumblr committed to destroying the platform, they are committed to absolutely fucking anyone who is trying to conserve any part of it.

Fuck you @staff. Fuck you.

Quizilla 2.0

Are you ready Tumblr???

I have a Pillowfort now! https://www.pillowfort.io/dario

I’m in the process of backing up my art so I can slowly start reposting it on there. I don’t think I’ll outright delete this account but I’m tentatively saying that I probably just won’t be around much after The Purge.

It’s my opinion that like if a white supremacist/Nazi is going to be reformed. They need to do so willingly. The only times I’ve heard of successful rehabilitation of fascists is when they made the conscious decision to no longer be one anymore and seek atonement. People who try to like hug and change fascists that don’t want to change are fucking morons

Correct. I was crypto-facist for a few years, and the people trying to hug me didnt change me because at that point I wouldnt have listened. It was only when I started to see the movement for what it was that I was finally able to listen.

I’m not derailing your addition but I’m horrified you’re only 18. When did you become a fasc?

Yeah trust me it *is* horrifying. I’m ashamed of who I was and I think my only atonement is to talk about how damn easy it is to become one when you’re young.

This is gonna be a long post.

For a little bit of background, I am a mixed race person, half brown and half white. I was raised in a Muslim family and am still closeted around them.

I started to have issues with Islam at around 12 or so, when I first started to get the idea that I might be gay. Now I never would have admitted that was my reason. If you had asked me I probably would have said “logic” or something. Because of that I went hard into atheism and atheist circles.

Now people hate to admit this but ex-Muslim spaces are predominantly right wing. Ex-Muslims often see the left as “too tolerant” towards a religion that hurt them. This was the only community I had though, and I read through everything. I was 13.

The other thing that people hate to admit is that, especially when you’re young, being mixed race is so damn hard. If I acted “too white”, following my mother’s German/Austrian traditions, I was accused of hiding my true nature. But if I acted “too brown” I was just another camel jockey. So I hid my “Indian” customs from others and tried passing as white. Especially online.

So I’m not saying this is all youtube’s fault or anything. I was raised to believe that the brown half of my family was lesser and stupid. And with my hatred of Islam, I believed it doubly.

Then came Anita Sarkeesian. I was watching pewdiepie and from there my recommendations were all set. If I’m remembering the pipeline it was pewdiepie - Philip Defranco - Chris Ray Gun (sp?) - Thunderfoot - Sargon - etc. But I was pretty much acquainted with all of the right wing youtube of the day.

Funnily enough, I found her through Thunderfoot. That got me into antifeminism, and more specifically, GamerGate.

I was primarily on the subreddits KIA (Kotaku In Action) and TIA (Tumblr In Action). Both made fun of the SJWs. I kid you not, I would gleefully wait for “Sanity Sunday”, where the people would talk about how feminism is disgusting, cultural appropriation is fake, the wage gap isnt real, etc. I would scroll through this tag for hours.

I got most of my youtube recommendations from those subreddits. This led me from GamerGate to more fascist lines of thinking, such as watching videos about why BLM is a terrorist organization, why all muslims were evil rapists, and why I was fundamentally right to reject my Indian heritage and follow my “correct” heritage.

From here I delved into “race realism”, and I believed it all. I had to. This was the only community I had felt safe in. One of the fash guys even offered to shack me up at his house if my parents kicked me out for being atheist. I was 15.

To say that again, I was 15 and believed that white was right, blue lives matter, “we wuz kangs”, etc. I never would have called myself a fascist or a Nazi. How could I? I used my brown skin as a token, so that people could point to me and say: “See, we aren’t misogynistic and racist! We have this brown girl right here.” But I believed in all the things the Nazis did. I’m not going to pretend I didn’t. I will never pretend I didn’t.

But then something happened. I admitted to myself, and to a few others, that I was gay. And suddenly, the homophobia that I had molded myself in, it didn’t fit right. I happened to, by accident, click on the reddit thread of GamerGhazi, the opposition to GamerGate. And after a long bout of introspection I found out that they were accepting of gay people, that the things I had been experiencing were common, that maybe, just maybe, we didn’t need a white ethnostate.

I don’t want to be dramatic but that accidental click saved my life.

From there it was a road of recovery. I deleted all my old accounts, made new ones, and started to read leftist theory. I found better friends, cut out old people. So now, just about two years later, I’m healing.

I think that’s everything. I probably got some times and dates wrong because I’ve been trying to move on from it. But if you need more info or anything like that, please let me know.

Reblogging for anyone who’s struggling with being an ex-fascist. Feel free to message me as well, I know how scary it can be.

I’m glad you made it out.

I assumed you were a guy until like the third paragraph.

Honestly? When I tell this story to people they get so confused.

“How could you possibly join that movement when you’re everything they hate??”

But the truth is, the alt-right needs people like me.

You can’t talk to people about the 14 words without someone obviously calling you racist. And rightly so. So what facists do is they actively recruit LGBT and POC people, because we are amazing shields.

But dont ever forget that they will be nice to you upfront, but the deeper in you go the clearer their message becomes. At that point though, you’re so full of self hatred that you either agree with them or are too afraid to speak out.

And if they got their way, the shields are the first to go.

Audrey Wollen via Lauren Spencer King

This high art is completely indistinguishable from a quality shitpost and I cannot quite describe the sheer existiential satisfaction and calm I am feeling right now

Power Armor is basically a fursuit for people who want to be robots

sh sshut up

staff saying “female presenting nipples” & then clearing out the top surgery tag for trans men is so sus 🤪

like i already knew that meant women and trans men, because why not be transphobic amidst all this other stuff, but also wild because their little footnote said that these images in “medical settings” or specifically about top surgery wouldn’t be affected. and yet. they just cannot pass up opportunities to oppress LGBT expression.

Are they… you know.. *mimes cutting someone in half with a chainsaw* a virgo?

the mimes are doing What

Are they… you know… *mimes beating the shit out of someone with a juggling club* a Capricorn?

tumblr sucked yet its the only thing people like us could ever have posted on. tumblr was a deep sea geothermal vent and we are all pallid, desperate crabs snapping at the dark toxcic nutrients spweing from its hole, and bringing us into the harsh light of the instagram influencersphere would kill us instantly.