I was never a very social young person. I was very anxious and awkward and antisocial, and I liked to fantasize about love. As I got older and came out of my shell somewhat, I got more comfortable being around people and made friends, and realized that I felt the same way about all of my relationships. I was just happy to be with people, to have fun with them, to do normal people things, and in this I realized that it was not a partner I really wanted, I just wanted to be part of a community, a social group, and at 31 I still can't tell the real difference between romantic relationships and platonic ones(which is part of why I also ID as aplatonic). If there is a difference and it's not just being excited to be with a person(s) and have fun with them, then I don't even care anymore. It's all the same to me. If I look forward to being with someone in any sense, isn't that enough? Whether we considered each other romantic partners, or friends, or something more nebulous, if we're just happy to be there, that's fine.