i’ll feel so lonely rip i want a bf and a solid group of friends i have a lot of friends but i’m nobodies best friends and i don’t have a solid group i’m all over the place it’s a mess and i’m mad at my mom and my cats outside i just don’t want to be alone any longer i’m sick of spending every weekend night in my bed alone wishing i was spending time with someone who makes me smile and be happy no matter who it is

i’m in such a weird place right now like all my close friends ditched me and talked shit behind my back and it makes me feel like shit but at the same time i gained more friends and had time to reflect on who and i am and stop giving a fuck about life but i always feel like 2nd best to everyone i’m nobodies best friend there’s people i trust very much but they all have other people and there’s this one group of people who i adore with all my heart and i don’t know if i want to be them or be in their friend group and then also i lot of my new friends are in different grades or go to different schools which makes it more complicated and my one friend is kinda in a difficult place rn and i want to help her but i’m not close to her it’s weird why is my entire life just decided to not give a fuck about me when i stopped giving a fuck i’m

hey folks this is the first time i’ve been on this website in months how’s it going