forever thinking about how sukuna considers your assassination attempts foreplay….but he does take it personally if you’re not doing it yourself. don’t send someone else to stab him or poison his food….you guys are in a committed relationship…

sukunas holding the decapitated head of the man you sent to slit his throat and he’s asking you if you even love him anymore

Ruptured Amethyst; Splintered Tanzanite

Dark!Satosugu x reader - Yakuza Au

Synopsis: In hopes of paying off your debt, you start working for two dangerous men. Soon, you realize they want more than money.

Word count: 9.2k

(Warnings: dark content, sexual coercion, dubcon, noncon, oral sex, piv sex, threesomes, gun, blood, violence) Ageless blogs will be blocked. Minors DNI

In this job, you quickly learned that it's better to just keep your head down. 

Do what you were called for and leave. Do nothing but sit on your computer and look at numbers. Stepping out of your makeshift boundaries led to nothing but trouble.

It worked perfectly like that for the first few weeks you were brought here. The other workers never bothered you, and it took you a moment to realize they were in the same boat as you were: owing a debt. You wouldn’t quite say things were peaceful; every so often, one of Geto’s men would hurl someone through a table, but things were manageable.

And then Gojo came back.

beyond the unending night (reader + satoru gojo)

notes: it's finally here. the long awaited halloween fic. yes, i know it's march, but i did start working on it in september. haha. there's so much i could say, but i will leave it at that this fic is, in every sense, a fic that i would not normally write. and yet here we are.

contains: f!reader (no physical description or gendered language is used), no explicit romantic pairing (though you don't have to look hard to find the reader x gojo implications), major character death (played with), semi-graphic depictions of death, blood and violence, minor suicide ideation, canon retelling (lines of dialogue are pulled from the jjk english dub because i'm a dirty dub watcher). opening poem is from higurashi no naku koro ni (minagoroshi-hen). fic title is from giga's beyond the way.

please note that this is a time loop fic and, by nature contains repeating scenes (particularly from canon). please do not read this fic if you do not like that sort of thing.

wc: 21,883 read on ao3 (account required)

Please tell me what happened in this night. It's like the cat inside the box.

Please tell me what happened in this night. You don't know if the cat in the box is dead or alive. Please tell me what happened in this night. The cat in the box was dead.

The first time, it is instant— you don’t even know what’s happening.

The second, it is by flame, but you barely realize it, barely feel it— a second of mind numbing heat before nothing.

The third time, it is something slicing across your throat; you see the blood spilling everywhere, then the pain follows— a moment of pure agony before nothing.

The fourth time you realize what’s going on; what’s really going on.

Cantor’s Paradox

Gojo Satoru x reader

r18

word count: 3,500

[mentions of canon-typical violence, explicit content, math]

How do you make a god who isn’t a despot? Give him a lover and make them mortal.

Human, he calls you. Like he’s not, like the word is something funny to him. You’re so very human.

What’s that supposed to mean, you return.

Nothing, in particular. Only that he can’t believe it. Only that this would be easier if you weren’t.

first law of motion

gojo satoru x reader

r18

word count: 9,500

[soulmate identifying marks, canon divergence, reader is not a sorcerer, alcohol mention, shogi as a plot fixture, gojo is forced to reckon with his humanness, and everyone else’s for that matter, gojo goes from indifference to absolute obsession, and he discovers a need to take care of his lover on the way, reader is kind of a hot mess tbqh]

Things are bound to get a little messy when your soulmate is Satoru Gojo.

It’s a summer weekend, and Tokyo is swollen with August heat and tourists. Bodies brushing against bodies, skin gummy and damp. A lot is happening, and a part of him wants to tune it all out. He gets the instinctive urge to shield his eyes, even though they’re already covered.

There’s some convention going on, he doesn’t keep up to date on that kind of thing. All he knows is the swelter and the quiet unrest that comes with it.

Crime increases during heat waves; so do curse attacks. He’s been sent to deal with some disaster, well below his pay grade. It didn’t even cross his mind to reject the request. The last few months have clouded his sense of purpose. The near misses and injuries, watching people under his protection be battered and brutalized—

He can do this, so he does. He can do anything. So he does.

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Levi Ackerman: Why he is Humanity's Strongest Soldier

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DRABBLES / FICS

˖  ݁ . ࿓ the fics are in rough order of how they happen (kinda)

hello, you — 𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓮. dark content. mdni. you think it’s a funny stroke of fate that you keep running into the same pretty stranger, albeit not in your best moments. little do you know, he’s known you for months before that.

i’ll give you my heart — 𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓮. dark content. mdni. you think it’s going well with yūta— the new guy you just started dating despite the way you’ve only seen eachother a handful of times. that’s exactly what he wants you to believe though, this is all going according to his plan.

take your turn — 𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓮. dark content. mdni. yūta has always been a giver when it comes to you and your pleasure, but you do think it’s about time that you repay the favour.

ease the ache — 𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓮. dark content. mdni. your glad your boyfriend yūta was always prepared, offering you a sleeping pill when you were having trouble was helpful— but why do you feel so needy suddenly?

two halves of a whole — 𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓮. dark content. mdni. sometimes you swear you have two boyfriends, the one that loves you and the one that fucks you. wc, 2k.

stay home instead — 𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓮. dark content. mdni. you loved your boyfriend, you did. but you think there’s only so much of his.. devoted personality you can take before the cracks begin to show. wc, 6.4k.

are you still watching? — 𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓮. dark content. mdni. your boyfriend, yūta, doesn’t ever like sharing what’s his. apparently that statement goes for your fictional crushes too. wc, 3.2k.

never have i ever — 𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓮. dark content. mdni. a party with your boyfriend isn’t something you expected to turn so sour. but maybe that’s because you didn’t expect your past relationships to start coming out.. or for one of them to be sitting in the room with you. wc, 9.2k.

learn to play nice — 𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓮. dark content. mdni. you know that your boyfriend yūta could be a little bit… difficult, but as much as you love him, you can’t let him get away with it all the time. wc, 5.1k.

the part that lingers — 𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓮. dark content. mdni. yuta finds it hard to live his life without you, it’s even harder for him to get off when you’re not there. you’ve unintentionally broken him that way. but it’s okay, he still has his ways of ending up wrapped in you. wc, 2.8k.

just as he left you — 𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓮. dark content. mdni. your (ex) boyfriend yūta decides to pay you a visit on his way home from a mission. although he forgot how pretty you look when you’re asleep.. and how hard it is to resist. wc, 6.1k.

you said forever — 𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓮. dark content. mdni. yūta’s never been one to back down easily. especially not after you told him you’d be together forever. soulmates. you can’t expect him to just let you go. wc, 4.9k.

EXTRA

just this once — 𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓮. dark content. mdni. yūta thinks it’s cruel how good you feel despite the fact he’s not felt all of you yet. he knows that you can feel better, he hopes you’ll give him all of you just once, that should be enough to keep you forever. wc, 2.9k.

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I want to share this pain with you.

I want you to know how proud I am of you.

I want you to know that I love you at all stages of your life.

Ulterior Motives

Pairing: Satoru Gojo x f! student Reader

Synopsis: Gojo becomes a little bit infatuated with his bratty new student.

Warnings: Explicit smut, noncon, teacher/student relationship (reader is 18+), possessive behavior, manipulation

Tags: Spanking, panty gag, dacryphilia, dirty talk, vibrators, bondage, orgasm torture, bratty reader, humiliation

Word Count: 24.4k

Notes: This one is for ABanonymous, I hope you didn’t mind the wait and I especially hope you enjoy the story. The title IS a reference and if you know, you know.

Next requested fic I will have out next Saturday, and that’s a pinky promise.

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Levi’s Childhood: “Bad Boy”, The Underground, Kuchel, and Kenny—What Are the Implications?

Content Warning: Discussion of rape, sexual abuse, and sex trafficking

“Bad Boy” makes it even more explicitly clear that the Underground was no place for a child. From the “Bad Boy” panels alone, it is evident that Levi likely had constant people preying on him at all times—especially before he awakened his Ackerman powers. All these men Levi encounters here had no issue beating a child to (near) death or selling him into sexual slavery. Similar to the way it is portrayed in the “A Choice with No Regrets” storyline, the Underground is also described by Levi as “hopelessly dirty” with “rotten air”. 

It is significant to note here that Levi was well-known for being a prostitute’s son; all of those men were aware of Levi’s relation to Kuchel, even before Levi himself made it clear. They wanted to traffic him for that reason. In terms of speculation, it is very believable and even highly probable that Levi experienced sexual assault and rape before he awakened. Having grown up in a brothel with his mom, and now further seeing how common sex trafficking in the Underground was and also Levi’s infamy for being a prostitute’s son—there is no doubt that Levi was exposed to extreme levels of sexual violence regularly, whether it be him being witness to it, him experiencing the direct threat of it such as in “Bad Boy,” or him experiencing the actual act. The trauma of this is impossible to overstate. It seems the most likely, however, that Levi has had direct personal experience with the act itself, as men would have likely continued visiting “Olympia” after she died (and before Kenny appeared), and upon discovering she was no longer a viable option to have sex with, some of those men would have set their sights on Levi, who was a helpless child in the process of starving to death. 

The men in “Bad Boy” spoke about Levi as if he was born strictly to live a life of sexual slavery, referring to him as a “whore’s child” and discussing how they’d be able to profit from making him do the same job as his mother, saying he may have “inherited her talents”. Levi had probably heard this sort of language used in his presence before. As such, it would not be surprising if Levi had learned to expect this sort of treatment, as if he was placed in the world solely to suffer. Levi would have sought out a reason for this—why must he constantly be subjected to suffering? Is it because there is something wrong with him? If that’s the case, what specifically is wrong with him? It is important to consider as well that Levi’s entire sense of identity at this point was wrapped up in being the son of a prostitute and being raised by a serial killer, who may or may not have been his father. 

The violence Levi was subjected to in “Bad Boy,” such as having his head repeatedly smashed against the ground with a fist, would have most certainly resulted in his death, or at the very least, permanent brain damage, had Levi’s powers not awakened in that moment. However, what’s notable to me during all of this is the absence of Kenny’s presence. This indicates that Kenny would leave Levi alone in the Underground for significant enough periods of time that Levi still had the opportunity to find himself in situations of extreme danger, situations such that would have resulted in his death. Given what we know about Levi’s childhood from Kenny’s recollection of it in the main series, Kenny would subject Levi to fights against fully grown men in order to develop Levi’s combat skills and likely prompt his awakening. It is also clear in these “Bad Boy” panels that Levi already knew how to fight, given the way he initially tried to protect himself from being beaten by all those men. He was, however, helpless in protecting himself, given the deep disadvantage he had from being a child, as well as being faced against multiple opponents. Levi’s combat skills after his awakening also demonstrated he already had significant training. The responsible thing for an adult in Kenny’s position would have been to, not teach Levi how to fight, but remove him from the environment that necessitated that knowledge in the first place.

Needless to say, this practice was cruel and immensely abusive. The amount of psychological damage and self-worth issues this would undoubtedly cause Levi are immeasurable. It was Kenny’s responsibility to protect Levi’s childhood innocence, but it is because of Kenny’s actions (and inactions) that Levi was placed in a position of having to kill multiple men as a young child. Kenny may have saved Levi from the imminent death of starvation, but his abuse and abandonment ultimately caused Levi more harm than good in the long-run; he taught and exposed Levi to a life of violence. Indeed, Kenny wanted Levi to be a force for violence. That is all he ever modeled for Levi and desired from him, even though he had the capability of sparing Levi from such experiences. However, it speaks to Levi’s innate goodness that he still loved Kenny after all he was made to suffer by him and even forgave Kenny by the end.

The awakening of Levi’s powers demonstrated to Levi the idea that he was an agent of destruction and a monster. Recall back to the moment during the “Uprising” arc when a man accuses Levi of being such and Levi simply responds, “Maybe I am”. Levi’s awakening was described by Levi as a form of dissociation, as if he was not fully aware of what he was doing. Consider his words here: “I didn’t think it was strange that something had happened to me at the time. The pain in my head disappeared and I felt calm, as if my head was submerged in water. And the idea of what to do came to mind. But I just followed the instinct and acted accordingly.” And yet, Levi likely blames himself for the brutality of which he killed his attackers, despite acting in self-defense and having no other recourse. It was an answer to his question: what is wrong with him? He must be a monster. Being forced into such a situation as a child would instill this view in Levi that he was born into his life only to bring suffering to others. That is why he suffers in turn.

This perception of an inner monstrosity in Levi is furthered by what the man in the glasses tells him directly after this: “Stop doing things that will make your mother in heaven sad!” Levi’s impression of Kuchel, his mother, was the one thing that brought him comfort in his life. He remembered her “elegant” posture. With these man’s words, even that one comfort was lost to Levi. Now the thought of his mother would instead be associated with the idea that she would view him as bad—that she would have seen his “murderous” actions and would cast judgment on him. This is completely incorrect, of course. The only reason Levi even awakened his strength was because he was protecting his mom’s image from the cruel words the men were speaking against her. Levi was severely beaten to near death, all because he loved his mom essentially. Think of the tragedy of that; Levi was directly punished for loving someone. This further demonstrates that innate goodness in Levi—how he continues to love and care about others, despite the immense suffering it’s brought him over and over. To further the tragedy of all this, it is evident that Levi still views his mother with fondness, in spite of the belief that she would hate him. Levi purposely seeks out the brothel in which he grew up with her, undoubtedly filled with countless awful and traumatic memories, in order to feel closer to her presence.

After Levi’s awakening, Levi soon after finds himself in yet another fight, and it is this moment that Levi watches as Kenny walks away and abandons him forever. Levi thought Kenny wanted him to become strong. He thought his strength would earn him Kenny’s acceptance, but instead, he was met with his rejection. If Kenny still didn’t love him even after becoming strong, that once again proved to Levi that there was something deeply wrong with him. Similar to the way Levi would come to associate his strength as the thing responsible for making him a “killer” and ruining his mother’s perception of him, Levi would likely form the association that his physical strength led directly to Kenny abandoning him. Moreover, what was the purpose of his strength? Levi did not want to use it to bring suffering to others. 

Levi discovered on his own that his strength could be used to help others—to protect. This is incredibly significant because Levi was literally taught the opposite his whole life: that it made him a monster, that its only purpose was for saving himself and bringing death and destruction—he was taught even that that’s something he should desire. Somehow, despite all that, Levi still found a way to use his strength for the benefit of others. Although, this highlights a further tragedy in Levi. As demonstrated earlier, Levi was taught that it was the normal state of the world, the status quo, for him to be abused; he learned that this treatment of him was, not only happening because it was something he was somehow meant for, but also happening because he was some abnormal monster. Levi desiring to use his strength for others does not negate Levi’s own negative perception of himself. All of the events in Levi’s childhood taught Levi that he had no worth, and that is indeed the way we see Levi treat himself throughout the entire series. 

Levi never once defends himself against people’s cruel words against him. Think back to the way Mikasa said it was Levi’s fault that they had lost Eren in the “Female Titan” arc directly after Levi had lost his entire squad; think of the way Levi accepts Dieter’s words against him and Erwin about being “devoid of humanity” in the aftermath of the Female Titan’s attack; think of how Levi accepts the negative way the people of Trost and the merchants were speaking against him; and as mentioned earlier, think of the way Levi accepts being called a monster during “Uprising”. Levi directly refers to himself as “abnormal” as well during that same arc. There are countless more examples of this. Levi fights during the Battle of Heaven and Earth, despite being grievously injured already. It is because of this that he ultimately ends up in a wheelchair. Levi fights for other people to the complete detriment of himself. That is pure selflessness. Levi treats himself as completely devoid of worth, despite seeing so much worth in others. As such, Levi dedicates everything he has, even if it would result in severe damage to himself; he views himself as expendable. It is clear too that Levi views himself as unclean from all the blood he has on his hands and all the filth he was surrounded by growing up. It was his “dirty” hands after all that killed all those men and led to his mom’s teacup breaking at the end of "Bad Boy"; a sign of his inner badness. 

I also wanted to add something additional, but wasn't sure where to fit it into the main body of the post itself. When Levi learned that Kenny wasn't his father, after being under the impression all those years that he was, it brought back the question: who was his father then? Levi, without a doubt, would have made the natural assumption that it was one of his mom's clients, given the nature of her work as a prostitute. That must have been further devastating to Levi's self-esteem, this idea that he was likely the product of rape. Levi might have made the connection even that this monstrosity he views as innate to himself may have resulted from the man who got his beloved mother pregnant.

Ugh, fantastic analysis, once again @scarletskiesinthepaths

One thing in particular that I've been thinking of, too, is what it tells us about Levi's life with Kenny, that he displayed no real desire to go on living by intentionally seeking out and engaging with those men. Levi's life with Kenny must have been absolutely miserable. He clearly views the world as cruel and ugly, saying he wanted to "spit on" it. Kenny was abusive toward Levi, for all the reasons you lay out in your analysis, by immersing Levi into a life of violence and cruelty, by further cementing for him what he already would have been shown through seeing the treatment of his mother, and himself in turn, and by the impoverished and desperate circumstances of their lives, the idea that life was cheap and worthless and nothing but suffering, and by Kenny withholding his own approval and love from Levi, evidenced by Levi's belief that, if he could just become strong, it might make Kenny actually proud. Clearly, Levi's life with Kenny was so unhappy, that it drove him to thinking death would be preferable to continuing on in such a state. While Kenny may have taken Levi under his "protection", and while he may have saved him from starving to death, very plainly, he didn't treat him well, and he didn't care enough about him to ensure he was safe. What you point out here, about how obvious it is that Kenny left Levi alone in the Underground for long enough periods, that Levi was able to get into this kind of trouble, makes it clear that Kenny was largely absent from his life, period. There's absolutely no way in hell Kenny wasn't aware of the type of danger Levi could and would run into in a place like the Underground, and that tells me that Kenny believed Levi's survival was up to him alone. That the onus was on Levi to defend himself, and if he couldn't, well, then that was proof that he was clearly never meant to live anyway.

I also think what you say about Levi being witness to, and even subject to, sexual abuse, is definitely likely. The fact alone that we see him being specifically targeted here and belittled for his status as "a whore's child" speaks volumes about the way he would have been viewed in general on the streets. People knew he belonged to Kuchel, and they probably would have viewed him as an extension of her. If they saw Kuchel as a sex object, then, they would have viewed Levi as the same. That's fully backed up by how these men talk about Levi, saying he might have "inherited his mother's talents", saying he would be "good to sell", etc... They were viewing a child that couldn't have been older than 9 or 10 as a sex object. And also given the obvious fact that the child sex trade was prevalent in the Underground, even a thriving business, you know there were plenty of men prowling around down there just looking for a child to molest or rape. Again, Levi's status as a "whore's son" would have marked him out to those kinds of predators as the perfect victim.

I also love your point about how Levi was only ever taught and conditioned to view his strength as an engine of death and destruction, both by Kenny and by the general cruelty of the world he lived in, and yet, he never accepted that, refused to let it be that, and continued to search for another answer as to it's existence. That also speaks to Levi's inherent goodness, that in defiance of all he'd been taught to believe and feel, in defiance of all the negative associations he had with regard to his strength, including ruining his ability to find comfort in his mother's memory, he wished for it to be for something better. He actively sought out a way for it to be for something better.

Further, what you say about how Levi was essentially punished by these men for loving his mother, is so on point, and demonstrates the horrific cruelty of Levi's life. It really is a miracle, that Levi remained capable of giving and receiving love, in the aftermath of all of this. And it's also a miracle, that, despite being made to believe his mother would hate him, he didn't develop any resentment or bitterness toward her for that. He took all the blame onto himself. If she hated him, it would have been because he deserved it, by failing to be a "good boy". As you also point out, the true tragedy of that is in how it isn't true at all. Levi was always a good person. The shame he feels at what he's done, and in the thought of having failed his mother somehow, is absolute proof of that. His mother would have been proud of him. He just never had enough of a sense of self-worth to know it.

That is a fantastic point you bring up about Kenny, how the fact that Levi even felt the need to become strong for him and make him proud demonstrates that Kenny was actively withholding his affection from Levi. Moreover, Levi also wouldn’t have seen this as a flaw within Kenny, but rather, a flaw within himself. Why? Other than all the reasons laid out already, Kenny displayed clear affection for Kuchel. He came to search for her after all and introduced himself as a “friend” of Kuchel’s. Levi would have seen that love (at least as much love Kenny is even capable of) and would have wondered why he didn’t experience the same.

This also ties in to my point about Levi learning Kenny was never his father. At least when Levi was under the impression Kenny was his father, Levi would have found some small amount of solace in the idea that the man who got his mother pregnant held some affection for her. As such, the circumstances of his birth were not a complete stain on the life of his mother. Finding out Kenny was actually his uncle, though, made Levi realize that perhaps his birth was an entirely negative experience for his mom, becoming pregnant by someone who only viewed her as a sex object.

I completely agree with you as well that Kuchel would have been proud of Levi. Her son saved the world, after all. He helped end the titan curse like he said he would. Kuchel, having lived in the Underground herself, would have understood more than anyone the ugliness of such an environment and what it forces people to be. She would have never judged Levi for defending himself. She gave birth to him precisely because she wanted him to live, and live he did. Just as Kuchel was the one light in Levi’s life, Levi was the one light in her life. She gave birth to a miracle because it was by the strength of his heart that humanity didn’t completely die out, even though he had every reason to hate the world. Levi most perfectly encapsulates the theme that the world is ugly, but beautiful as well. Levi, more than anyone, experienced that ugliness, but he actively sought out the beauty and protected it.

You also make such an excellent point about how Levi would have wondered why Kenny withheld any love or affection for him, because he would have seen the affection he held for Kuchel. And indeed, Kenny came to bring Kuchel to the surface, but he didn't extend that same level of care toward Levi. He couldn't be that bothered, and Levi must have absolutely felt that from him. That disinterest. That general apathy. Kenny did the bare minimum in keeping Levi alive, but it's clear he never showed him any, real love. Levi's misery and despair in this story proves he felt unloved. His overall negative feeling about the world and his place in it proves he felt unloved. As does the fact he believed he had to become strong to be accepted by Kenny at all.  Kenny’s love and acceptance was never shown to Levi be to unconditional.  People who think Kenny was a good parent to Levi are such fools. Kenny clearly wasn't "protecting Levi all the time" since Levi almost fucking died here and Kenny was MIA. Sure, I'm sure Kenny would have killed anyone who directly threatened Levi's life, because that's his sisters kid, but the fact he wasn't THERE to protect him when Levi needed him shows Kenny's absolutely obscene level of negligence toward him. Nobody in their right mind would call Kenny's treatment of Levi "good" or "loving". He intentionally placed him in harms way, and intentionally forced him to fend for himself in the most dangerous place inside the walls. Kenny was literally the definition of a deadbeat father.

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That's a great observation! And totally heartbreaking. @lephalacat pointed out that the way Levi makes the tea is all wrong, something I added to my analysis post, because it's important. He's clearly a child trying to imitate an adult, in this case, his mother. He's trying so hard to do it right, to be careful and precise, but he crushes the tea leaves in his bare hand, and he spills them all over the place when trying to put them in the pot, and then he spills the boiling water over the edges of the pot when he pours that, too. It would make sense to me that Levi didn't allow the water to cool enough before pouring it into the cup, and that's what lead to the handle breaking. It's indicative of the shock Levi is in, after the trauma of what he's just been through, and when the cup shatters, we see him snap out of that shock, and he bursts into tears, showing just how much psychological distress he's actually in after everything. Truly tragic. If anyone laughs at this scene, they need to go fuck themselves.