More Paul Verlaine headcanons because I love him! This time it is about you being a pupil of Paul Verlaine.✨💛
(This can be depicted as platonic or romantic, however you like it.)
• So, you are Paul Verlaine's pupil? Get ready to be bruised and beaten!
• But don't worry. He'll give you some ice.
• And maybe advice, advice which reminds him of training with his dear friend.
• This makes his icy blue eyes hollow with sadness, growing darker.
• And you? You just stand there, concerned. But you don't say anything, fearful of intruding into his life or something.
• A few months later you fair better. Verlaine actually feels proud when he looks at you going toe to toe with one of his star pupils.
• But if you are a slow learner, he is more than willing to spare more time with you.
• He is quite patient when it comes to training assassins. Not because it's a sensetive job but because he feels responsible as Arthur did for him.
• Although you gained his trust, he doesn't shed much light on his past. He sometimes tells you of his experiences in the field/training.
• While looking back at his past and telling you small bits of it, he feels sadness wrapping his heart in thorns but he has a strange smile on his face.
• He is glad he has those good memories to look back at.
• It's almost impossible to get close to this man but what if you did?
• He doesn't test his luck by telling you everything. Somehow, he feels like you'll see him nothing more than an object.
• However, he reads you his poems with a sad melody unlike you've ever heard before.
• You cry, whether you understand French or not.
• Verlaine's reaction to tears is... confused for a brief moment.
• He simply waits until you are finished, since he doesn't know how to comfort someone.
• Verlaine was never comforted by anyone in his life. Even Arthur.
• It's true Arthur helped him cope but no comfort. Then there was war, spying, killing people. There's hardly any room for comfort.
• Due to his process of learning everything including being human and feelings, he lacked to understand that he needed comfort.
• Until you comforted him.
• He didn't tell you anything, true but the pain is written all over him.
• Comfort felt like lying on silk, soft snow with a wonderous cooling sensation making the heat of his warm tears go away.
• He didn't shed them in front of you though. He did it in his solitude.
• His tears shed in deafening silence. His heart overflowing with sadness.
• But this time, it doesn't hurt. He is letting them all out.
• One day, his heart might be empty enough for joy to take over. He knows it and so does Arthur.
I personally headcanon Paul Verlaine as someone who hardly had any time to sit back and actually thing about his feelings. How some people acted at times confused him even if Arthur explained the situation.
And I feel like this was the case at the end of Storm Bringer. He finally sat down and thought it through.