piercing the heavens

There's 3 months left in 2016 and I would just like to say that the 2016 me is quite...incredible? Remember the colleague that I said I was crushing on? Yeah yesterday I asked him if he'd give me half of his life if I give him half of mine (read: Edward Elric proposing/confessing to Winry) and although he didn't give a concrete yes or no I still feel lighter emotionally and also somehow...freed? I mean I put my heart out there, make it known how I feel about him. If he takes up my suggestion that's great but if he doesn't then that's okay too. I don't even know how I'd ever manage to do something like that ever. I guess it all comes with age? I dunno at 25 I don't find a need to conceal much of how I feel any longer. Nobody has forever to live, so

I have been sorta crushing on a colleague for a few months, but last week he told me the girl he was wooing from college ‘came back’ to him and so now he’s torn between the love of his life and uhhh, me. He didn’t exactly say my name but unless he acts the same way he does around me with every other girl then I dunno.

Anyway I told him today he should try to woo her back if his heart is still not set to 'move on’. Like, having the person you crush on actually reciprocate your feelings?? Who doesn’t want that amirite? So yeah. I also told him to stop giving false hopes to the other girl (me), under no circumstances is he to falsely lead the other girl on because that is “an evillll thing to do”.

Gosh I feel surprisingly light in the emotional sense after telling him that. No more reading into the game and stuff. He’s probably the only guy I’ve been so straight up with after so long. I ain’t taking any chances to lose a friend again without any closure (like what happened with my friend from college) sooo yeah.

In other news this year has been an incredible year of growth, particularly in the psychological department.

After finishing Assassination Classroom, I started on Nanatsu No Taizai, also known as The Seven Deadly Sins in English and goshhhh I don’t know why it took me this long to realize its existence.

The art style is gorgeous, and the story is fast-paced and compact. Not a single chapter was written in a way that makes you feel as if the mangaka is purposefully dragging on the narrative, and instead the plot is revealed concisely; at the right time.

The lead characters’ growth feels a bit slower compared to the movement of the story and even slower than the remaining cast (if that’s even possible lol-could just be me) but at least all the other supporting characters were given enough “story time” of their own that makes each of them memorable and easily distinguishable, so the mangaka was successful in that its non-lead characters did not simply dissolve into mere background characters.

I was thinking of watching the anime, but I probably won’t. Manga is always the better medium for me personally.