🍊’s last note!

hello! i’ve decided to follow suit with some of the other muns here and use this post to gather all of my thoughts and also what will happen to my muses in the rkfuture!!!!

KANG MINA AS ANNETTE FANTINE DOMINIC!

FT. the shield’s successor ⚔️

— `, ● girls on fire .

rkyurim​:

she watches yoorim’s enthusiastic response to her and it feels comforting to know that the both of them were on the same page. hopefully, she says. just the fact that she uses the word hope proves that they both felt the same on how they wished they could be able to debut with the other girls. even if it meant that she’d be up against people who are far more qualified for being an idol than she is with her three weeks of being a trainee and years of dancing to songs, she was still trying to tell herself to be optimistic. 

truth be told, there wasn’t many people she could rant about these emotions too. of course she could trust soobin with any secret of hers now, but there’s a possibility she could get in trouble if she told anyone who wasn’t even a trainee. the fact that he holds such significance in her life is already breaking the contract rules. all of her friends who were already part of the project have been trainees for months already and she didn’t want to burden them with how badly she wanted to debut, too. and daniel, while the main reason for her wanting to be here, wasn’t apart of the project with her. 

but she’s glad she has the other. and she’s glad they can go through these next few months of dancing and singing together. sure, it may be a bummer that they won’t be able to do evaluations with their friends in other companies, but that doesn’t mean that this experience would be terrible for them. even if they don’t get to debut in the end, it’ll still be a great learning opportunity for them... even if  mina’s hopes were already so high.

"right. we gotta work hard so that we can debut together!” after saying that, she remembers the fact that they were going to be late to practice. “oh! but maybe we go back to practice first? that way we don’t get on our coach’s nerves?” she gives her a cheeky smile, already not regretting this conversation despite the fact that she might get lectured for it. 

our lucky day

yuzurk​:

the hug that the other girl gives to her feels more comforting than she expects it to. it’s funny the more mina thinks about it. just months ago, she was just amazed over the fact that she met yuzu in the living flesh. hell, the fact that she’s considered a genuine friend of hers now that she’s even able to get a warm and tight hug like this? 

the past mina would practically be starstruck at this. but the mina now hugs her back happily. when she hears the other encourage her to work hard so that she can debut with her, she couldn’t help but giggle in response. “yuzu, it’s still too early! i don’t even know if i’m ready yet,” she responds with a smile. 

but she wasn’t going to deny the fact that she wants to be able to have the privilege of being a group with her. so she nods her head confidently and gives the other a thumbs up. “i’ll work hard! i promise you,” she answers with a smile. “i’ll work so hard that you and i can debut together.” 

。˚∘ it ends how it begins ;

rkchungha​:

even if mina personally disliked the song that they were to perform today, she tells herself to suck it up so that she can at least try to enjoy the evaluation. if not for herself, at least for the fact that this would be her last group evaluation with the other. 

she was obviously excited when the announcement came out that the girl was set to debut. she was probably one of the only girls that immediately gave chungha a big hug after the monthly announcements were over. but she’d be lying if she said she wasn’t at least a little upset by what would follow after this announcement. 

and that’s the fact that from this point on, mina would be on her own. 

as she listens to the older, she couldn’t help but pout. “noo... don’t be bummed out about debuting! you worked so hard for this!” she says before she’s pulled into a hug. she hugs the other back, making it a little tighter than she usually would because she wants to comfort the girl. “i’m going to be fine! i promise you,” she answers her with a smile. a part of her doesn’t even know if she’s 100% sure about that, but she doesn’t want to think about that for now. “unnie, don’t stress over me especially after the good news! you don’t deserve that!” 

after hearing about the announcement of chungha’s debut, it only motivated mina to work harder than she usually does. of course she’s been trying her best with performing ever since she got into the project, but the stakes were much higher now. with chungha being the seventh girl to be revealed and juyeon being another girl who is set to debut, that only meant there were four spots to the final line up. that meant only a few months for mina to have a shot at debuting with the only other trainee who she was closest with in sphere (and soon, that trainee title will turn to idol). 

HAPPY 1 YEAR TO MXNARK! 

hi everyone! i can’t believe it’s been a year since i got accepted into rookies and get to write for my little favorite gremlin! seeing that me having this muse for a whole year is an achievement, i made a video edit in honor of such a poggers moment that’s happened in my rp history. i’ve been thinking about making a video edit like this since july, yet only got around to working on it in the span of two nights just this week. 

obviously, the other people that aren’t mina are important to mina’s development and also her journey as a muse, whether that be just as a rookie or a trainee (though, she and i still love all the connections and plots we have for her!). i’m going to be a little bit sappy and emotional under the read more to just talk about my experience with rookies and how i’ve grown to love the place. 

CONTENT WARNING UNDER THE CUT: depression, anxiety, VERY minimal mention of suicide (was very vague about this) and dissociation (mentioned it once) 

rkheunji​:

mina had made some goals for herself while she would be taking part in the debut project. not only was she hoping to grow as a performer during the next few months she has with them, but she also hoped to grow closer to the other girls in the project as well. the girl could definitely use some more friends. not to mention she needed to not cling to the ones that she had already known beforehand.

that's why she's glad to help out eunji with her evaluation performance. sure, she had to practice for her own, but she only needed to touch up her performance and she could definitely do that another time. she walks into the dance room and is immediately greeted by the familiar face, waving back with a smile. "no problem! anything to help you out, sunbaenim," she responds with a grin. "and you're not taking up my time at all! motivation's a great song, and i think you're a great performer! so you don't need to worry about me."

‧ ₊ ˚ ♡ MORE AND MORE.

rkheejin​:

she feels like she's valid to be nervous. considering the fact that she, compared to her brother, didn't know heejin as well, she wasn't really sure on how to impress her. with the fact that she was practically a newbie compared to all the other trainees who have been training far longer than she has, she just wanted to make sure she didn't seem at all weird to any of the other girls there. heejin especially, considering the fact that she was able to see her talents on her tv screen.

so the sound of her laughter eases her worries and she lets out a mental sigh of relief. thank god she hasn't messed up so far today. how unfortunate would that be if she did! not only did it calm her down, but it makes mina smile to know that she made the other laugh genuinely. the fact that just her awkwardness gets a positive reaction? it definitely felt comforting. especially if it came from someone as cool as the other.

what heejin says in response makes mina smile, but not in an uncomfortable way. in fact, the other girl summed up her experience thus far better than herself. it was already a huge shock to be acknowledged via the star bright auditions. but now have a chance to debut barely a month into being a trainee? as excited as she is about the amazing opportunity (especially with the fact that she wasn't the only one going through this), it did feel like a lot was happening to her. it felt comforting to know that someone was able to sympathize. she's sure the other girls could understand, but hearing heejin's words definitely felt like how a good senior would talk to a person new to the field. was she admiring the fact that she's talented and kind? yes. did care? not in the slightest.

"thank you, unnie," she says in response to her words, soft smile still on her lips. "honestly, i'm just really thankful i get to be apart of this project with such talented people. including you, obviously. because you were amazing on the mgas." the fact that she's practically telling heejin that she's a fan of her is a little peculiar, so decides to end her response with something else. "what i'm trying to say is i hope we get to know each other more through this project. and possibly become better friends by the end of it." there we go. an excellent response.

my turn

danielxrk​:

the topic of auditions come up and she finds herself hesitating to respond. not because she's embarrassed by it. sure, she could've chosen a different song for her audition. but she was satisfied with going with a demi lovato song to dance to, as the nostalgia that came with the song benefitted her spirits for her performance. even if she did want that audition to be good enough to get her here, she was not shy to admit it.

rather, what she was hesitant to say was the interview that got her there, to begin with. she feels like she spent a good two (if not more) minutes talking about how his journey from empty enigma and the mgas to being casted was what inspired her to even audition in the first place. even with the fear of her mom's disappointment lingering in her.

she's sure she'll be able to thank daniel for all of that one day... but not on her first day at sphere!

she listens to his audition story and she couldn't help but snort at his way of recounting the event. "can't forget kang daniel, mnet's favorite guitar boy," she jokes. "but it's good that you added some part of yourself into your audition! especially with the rapping. we all need a bit of mc kang-d out there." wanting to move on from that awful, punny nickname, she answers his question finally about her audition. "really don't care from demi lovato? a classic from middle school. there's a choreo for it on youtube and it looked hard, but fun. i sang and sounded really shaky at like... the second half of my audition, but i mean, i'm proud of myself! and miss jiyoung liked it enough. so..." she shrugs with a smile.

she shakes her plans. in all honesty, given the situation she was in right now, she was looking for things to do after training tonight. sure, she gets home late enough that she doesn't have to talk to her parents that much, but just being at home was a real mood-killer for her. so when daniel suggests spending time with him to celebrate her achievement, she finds herself smiling. "zeroth... really?" she asks, laughing at the other (in a loving way, obviously). even as lame as that word was, she still accepts the invitation. "why not! i like cupcakes. if we get a bigger cake, that'll definitely be much better. but you're the one buying it, so it's up to you."

she rolls her eyes at his teasing. honestly, if she were to be emotional for a second, she'd probably take a lot more time than what she's given to get through the rest of the day. not to mention, she wasn't comfortable with showing her emotions in a public space, let alone with her brother standing there in panic of what to do. but thankfully, they don't linger on that topic of conversation for too long. she looks at her schedule, that she took on her phone for her own convenience, before responding to him. "uhh... should be music theory with piano," she answers, later looking up at him and showing him the picture. "i'm still new to the building, so if you could be the kind, patient, slightly loser-ish brother you are and help me find the room, that would be great!"

twelfth flyer

michaxrk​:

she thought she could get away with referring to him casually, as he’s technically her senior and she wanted to be respectful. but she’s proven wrong when he lets her know that she doesn’t have to address him formally. it definitely catches her off guard and she feels a little embarrassed by the fact that he said it. but it’s not his fault! if anything, that just made him seem friendlier than she had expected him to be. 

it’s not like mina wanted to make him uncomfortable on purpose. the fact that even if there weren’t any coaches or managers around, she’d still feel... weird with calling micha- changmin in a less formal way. she was only that way with people she was comfortable with. people who she was used to imagining being on the same level or comfortability as her. it’s why she sometimes slips up with chungha and why she’s a little too informal with her brother and woong. 

but even before getting into sphere, she first knew the boy in front of her as convex’s micha when she was just a normal consta. she’s talked about wanting to be his friend (hypothetically) to her friends and mutuals. but actually being in that situation right now? it was a little more than mindblowing for her if she had to be honest. she’s surprised that anyone would want to be her friend, let alone the changmin. 

but obviously, she didn’t want to refuse the opportunity. so she finds herself smiling (a bit awkwardly, but it’s mostly natural) to the other. “ah! right. are you sure?” she asks again, just to confirm that he was okay with her addressing him more casually. it’s a little silly to ask. in a normal situation, asking someone who’s her age if they want her to be formal or not would kind of be laughable. but she’s sure if someone else (maybe another fan like her) were in her shoes, they’d be doing the same thing. 

“okay! minnie then... you said you wanted to be called minnie, right?” she asks curiosuly. “if any manager or coach comes by, i’ll just call you minnie-sunbaenim so that i’m not technically being informal with you.” there’s a playful tone in that, hoping to make the atmosphere less awkward around them. she’s not sure if it’s actually working, but it doesn’t hurt to give it a try. “oh! training is going fine. little overwhelmed by everything, since it hasn’t been too long since i got signed... it’s still weird to think i’m a trainee now, especially since i was used to being... ordinary.” 

see the light.

juyeonrk​:

it was almost funny how mina could already feel herself getting comfortable with the other girl. her personality made it easy for her to talk to as well as calm her nerves. sure, there was still that intimidation factor that came with her being her senior. but even if so, she didn't feel too scared talking to the other right now. the fact that juyeon didn't really mind dropping the honorifics for this interaction was only bonus to that feeling. (but even still, mina decides to be respectful to her anyways. she didn't want to set too bad of an impression on any of the coaches who could be around.)

mina listens to her as juyeon explains about her thoughts on evaluations and she nods in agreement to all she says. of course, since mina was new to everything, evals were definitely more difficult than she thought they'd be. but, she was still confident about how this month's evaluation would go. not only was it her first, but her brother was helping her out with it, too. the perks of already having someone close to you in this company. "that definitely sounds more exciting, now that you mention you guys do something different every month!" she says with a smile. on the topic of evaluations and other trainees, she couldn't help but come up with a question. surely juyeon would be able to understand what she would want to ask about, considering the fact that she's been here for three years, much longer than mina's... three weeks(?).

but before she can ask, juyeon speaks up and she finds herself responding to the other's comments first. "oh! thank you so much," she answers with a laugh. "i hope i do! hopefully well enough so that i can stay in the same company for a while." it would definitely be something if she managed to debut with juyeon, let alone with all her other friends that she had run into here... which reminds her to ask the question. "actually, on the topic of evaluations and stuff... are you perhaps in the heartz project?" she asks curiously. "i just wanted to ask because i know like... two girls who are apart of it and they briefly talked about it to me?" she shrugs. "i don't know. they didn't really go much into it, so i can assume it's kind of complicated compared to being a regular trainee." she laughs lightly... hopefully not making this situation any awkward than it was before.

shock attack

rkchungha​:

her giggling is expected when chungha raises her hand for mina to high-five, obviously returning it for her accomplishment. “it’s the perk of being his little sister,” she responds to him with a confident smile. “even if i didn’t really expect that from him either. i just know for sure that i have impact.” when chungha adds onto her statement, mentioning her brother being happy that she was here, she nods her head. “he should be! i’m amazing~” she says confidently. she laughs off her joke for the time being, nodding her head and smiling sincerely for what she says next. “honestly? i’m happy to be here with him, too.” and she meant it, even if it did feel weird to admit to the other. 

if she had to be honest, she doesn’t think there was really any other company she wanted to be apart of besides sphere. sure, she liked all the artists from samsung’s four other companies. she definitely wouldn’t mind being in a company as intense as trc or as popular as kt. hell, she probably would’ve been happy being with yuzu and yoojung at royal. but after seeing both daniel and chungha on the mgas and get casted by sphere (even if it was years later), she could only hope to be in those companies with them. being casted by one of samsung’s companies, let alone by sphere, was an honor. but being casted into a company with trainees that she considered practically considered inspirations? a blessing. 

when the other pulls her into a hug as they walk to the line has her a little surprised, but she definitely wanted to return the hug. as the both of them waddle into the line, she laughs at the other’s comment. “good. so do i,” she responds with a laugh. “we can be the center of attention together while daniel just sits and eats his food. or gets embarrassed by us... though, that might come later. maybe we’ll be more embarassing during lunchtime.” 

the next comment warms her heart and she feels herself pout from how wholesome it sounds. “of course! i promise you i’ll survive! you don’t need to worry about me, unnie.” she gives her a thumbs up. “it’s not like i’m going to cause a ruckus later on... but let’s grab a plate so i can guarantee you i won’t do something stupid later on.” 

there are many interpretations to “rollercoaster”, but one thing is for certain is that this song is about love. back when this was first released, mina didn’t pay as much attention to the lyrics as she had to now. but now that she decided to perform this song for her evaluation, she had to think about how she could get herself into the mindset. 

to say mina was nervous about evaluations would be an understatement. even if she's practiced with her singing and rapping skills on her own and even for her last solo evaluation, the number of lines that she got with not shy compared to the two lines she got for news was very alarming for her. it doesn't help that she also got center parts as well.

but while she is nervous about it, it made her all the more excited. if anything, it made her want to work harder on improving. the fact that she's getting more lines could mean that they're seeing her potential, something that the girl obviously wanted to keep on showing off her skills to the coaches. if she keeps pushing herself, she'll probably get a chance to be on stage with all of the other talented girls apart of this project. and she definitely did not want to miss out on that.

look out

rksbin​:

though mina was still worrying about riding the bike, she'd be lying if she said his smile and him pinching her cheeks doesn't make her feel any better. if she thought she had it bad before she started dating him and getting butterflies just from seeing his face, she would not know what to say to that mina about this effect on her.

she watches him go on a couple's bicycle on his own and she looks at him with a look of worry. it's only natural, really. but she doesn't stop him, as she wants to see him prove his point to see if it'd make her feel any better about the situation going on. that's obviously her mistake as a girlfriend, but she doesn't think too much about it. that is... until he lifts his hands off of the handles. "soobin, i don't think that's a good idea," she tries to warn. but it was too late as he falls off the bicycle.

despite the anxiety that fills her brain on whether the boy was okay, a loud pfft leaves her mouth as she finds herself laughing out loud at the situation. the fact that she (and probably he) knew it was a bad idea, yet he still followed through with it and faced the consequences? it was comedically perfect.

but then she quickly stops as she finds herself rushing over to his side. stupid mina! your boyfriend's probably in pain! "oh my GOD! are you okay?" she asks, her voice painted with worry. "i knew this was a bad idea! i don't even know how you can say you're all fine after a fall like that!"