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saturnsuv

being mutuals is like we’ve never talked but i saw your vent post and do you want me to kill that person for you. still won’t talk to you tho bc that is scary sorry. love you

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#hey there friends 🤧#i don’t even know what to say to start this little talk (?) of mine#i’ll just (for old time‘s sake) call it#midnight hour thoughts#im currently listening to ceilings by lizzy mcalpine like i have for so many nights for months now#i miss all of you#i don’t even know who’s still around these days but to all my mutuals my friends i miss you and i hope you are all truly doing well 💜#i miss bts and i miss being here being active and making gifs#i came here to give a little bit of a life update because things have recently been turning around for me for the better (i think)#i’ll be starting my first day of work; my first job ever on wednesday#i’ve been pretty open about my struggle with social anxiety and depression over the past few years#and when i tell you i had pretty much given up on ever actually living again; not feeling stuck… and now that life is finally#finally happening again after all these years i just feel so much relief… but also my anxiety is kind of sky rocketing because#I START WORKING ON WEDNESDAY!!#so yeah excited but also really scared of failure i guess and also the possibility of embarrassing myself which has kind of become my thing#but i’m also so proud of myself for always keeping hope alive and not giving up#i‘ve been at such low lows in life that now i feel so relieved that finally i can feel the good things coming (if that makes any sense)#like happiness?? didn’t even remember what that felt like for some time because so much darkness had clouded my being#and now i’ve reached something? i’m finally not stuck anymore and that’s been something i wanted to be able to say for YEARS#IM NOT STUCK ANYMORE#and it’s so very freeing#and i guess i just wanna say thank you to everyone who’s been with me through my darkest of days and everyone that’s been encouraging me#and gifting me with hope and strength to keep going#i wish i could hug all of you 💜#and i just want you to know that whatever you are going through.. it’s temporary and there is light even if it feels pitch black right now#just keep going and don’t ever stop; rest and allow yourself to heal and then keep going!! 💌 you won’t regret staying 💕#kiki talks#i miss you all so so much i might just be crying right now
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i hope that you know that even if you feel like you haven’t done or said enough today that it’s okay. tomorrow’s another day to go and try again. every little thing is progress. every little step is you trying. please don’t let anyone tell you otherwise... so instead of telling yourself you weren’t enough, be proud of yourself for trying and try again tomorrow. set goals for the day and if at the end of the day you were able to complete just one of the goals please be proud of that instead of feeling bad about what you weren’t able to do... i know how hard it can be to drag yourself out of bed in the morning, but the fact that you tried (and maybe you even did get out of bed) is an accomplishment you can be proud of! i love you, i’m sending you a warm hug and i’m right behind you when you feel like you’re all alone with your struggles i just wanna let you know that i’m here and i know. i know how hard life can be, but think about everything in life that can make life worth living. for example, i was taking my dog for a walk today and i watched the burnt-orange leaves fall from the trees and the cold drizzling of the rain on my face made me feel so alive. it’s the small things we usually ignore when we go on with our day that we don’t appreciate as much as we should. there is so much beauty in the little things... actively searching for them and romanticizing your life sometimes can make the biggest difference and is something that helps me every day. 

just know, that you’re going to be okay! you just need to hold on and know that you’re not alone with your grief or pain, you never are! 

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