seeing dean with people who aren’t cas feels like being lost while searching for the path to endgame
seeing cas with people who aren’t dean feels like finally being given up on after being someone else’s hopeless case for far too long, only wanting them to stay and realizing this time, finally, they won’t
#deancas#destiel#YES i’m still thinking about this#YES i am feeding myself glass#you push someone away and you want them to FIGHT you#fight FOR you#keep coming back to you#like throwing a stick for a dog to fetch#and eventually they don’t bring it back#they say ok#you don’t want me so i’ll go#you clearly don’t want this or us#so i won’t force you#i’ll move on#and then they DO#(or try)#and it’s everything awful#everything you didn’t want#but you couldn’t accept the love so they gave it to someone else#and now you’re as broken as you always thought you were#because clearly this is your own fault#THAT is what i feel every time i see a gif or a fic of cas with anyone who isn’t dean#psychic damage#my post
