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@ayabaiii / ayabaiii.tumblr.com

been through some bad shit i should be a sad bitch
who would have thought it’d turn me to a savage
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amberstarfight
Aria, by lilithiumwords
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They are magicless creatures. Yuuri, whose life has been infused with magic since he was born, whose people are born from magic’s grace, does not understand how they can live without the gift of magic. These humans live sad, lonely lives, shortened and full of anger. They take out their misery on each other, through cunning subterfuge and outright hatred; and other days, they are kind. Magic is but a myth to them.
Yet they want to believe in magic all the same. Their performances are full of fantasy, starlight, and mysteries of old; yet the effects of the magic are only felt in words and song, in flashes of light and subtle movement behind the dancers. Yuuri has to give their imagination some credit, but he finds himself mourning their lack of magic all the same. He thinks he understands these humans a little better, now.
Legend says that humans forsook magic a long time ago, then forgot that they could use it. Yet their love for magic never waned. Magic is in their stories, their dreams, their songs; yet despite their loss, Yuuri would never imagine giving them magic to make up for their deficit.
He finds himself angry at their ignorance, at the soldier’s greed. How dare they steal from him? How dare they take what they did not earn?

A collab with @ayabaiii, previously for the Viktuuri Angst Bang.

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ayabaiii

And here’s my cover illustration for this amazing story!!!! Please read it I love it so much 😍

#yuri on ice#yuri on ice fic#viktuuri#lilithiumwords#collab
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rhythmelia
YURI KATSUKI: HEARTBREAKER!!!!11!!11 [podfic] - rhythmia - Yuri!!! on Ice (Anime) [Archive of Our Own]
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Post: YURI KATSUKI: HEARTBREAKER!!!!11!!11 Writer: ayabaiii on tumblr Reader: rhythmia Rated: General Audiences Summary: A podfic of ayabaiii’s post of Yuri Katsuki’s (non) experiences being romantically pursued during his Detroit years. Length: 5:25, 4.64 MB Cover Art: rhythmia.

Image description: Screencap of Yuri Katsuki in skating jacket, next to a hallway wall arrow. Within the border of the arrow, text reads: written by ayabaiii, read by rhythmia. Within the arrow, text reads: Yuri Katsuki, Heartbreaker!!!!11!!11

Notes: Recorded as part of the Out of the Auditary podficcing challenge! Many thanks to ayabaiii for permission to record this piece!

Additional random thoughts - I had waaaaaay too much fun browsing the We Rate Yuuris tumblr looking for cute screencaps of this soft boi to use as the podfic cover.

#omg
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the opposite of entropy - lilithiumwords - Yuri!!! on Ice (Anime) [Archive of Our Own]
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i have loved you in the space between your heart and mine within time i have sought you over and over forever more, or never again as long as we can be, we can love one another and even when our atoms disintegrate our hands touching, our lips pressed together i will love you even then i will love you…

My piece for the @yoiscifizine​, a collab I did with @ayabaiii​! I hope you enjoy the story and Aya’s beautiful art!

Warnings for Implied/Referenced Character Death and Angst. Rated Mature.

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I will love you past the heat death of the universe

#Yuri on ice#fyeahyoi#yoiscifizine#my art#xoxo ren
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HELLO @victuuriplease!!!! IT IS I, YOUR SECRET SANTA!!!!!

I know you requested fluff and maybe smut but as you know I am too chicken shit to actually draw any smut and this is literally the closest I was able to get my hand to actually do it, so instead of hot smutty loving I decided to draw something that would make any person who thought this show was just about bros who like ice skating to slam their fist on the table yelling “HOT DAMN! THESE ASSHOLES ARE IN LOVE!”

CHI-HO-HO-HO-KO! MERRRRRRY VICMAS!

disappears into the night on a sleigh pulled by poodles

#yuri on ice#yuri on ice fanart#fyeah yoi#chihohohoko2019#my art#victuuriplease#victuuri#victor nikiforov#yuri katsuki#THESE ASSHOLES ARE IN LOVE
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About a month or so after they finally seal the deal in bed, Yuri Katsuki collects himself, steels his nerves, and asks the love of his life… what sort of sexual fantasies he’s had about them. He’s a loving fiance, after all. He wants to make Victor happy. He squeezes his eyes up tight as he asks, the question a hurried, embarrassed blur in his mouth. What kind of kinks has Victor been hiding from him? He knows about the foot thing, but what if he wants to do some really kinky weird shit?

He opens his eyes. Victor’s eyes sparkle. Victor’s eyes beam with happiness. Victor has been waiting for this moment. Victor goes to a small, bottom drawer of one of the dressers in their bedroom, one of the ones Yuri never goes into, rifling through layers of expensive designer clothing. Yuri’s mind spins. What’s he been hiding there all these months? Bizarre Russia-only sex toys? Bondage gear? A whip?

Victor pulls out a hefty stack of papers. It’s a 300k Victor Nikiforov / Yuri Katsuki Victorian Regency slow burn RPF, ghost written by Victor Nikiforov, aka yurikatsukisoneandonlylover. His mouth is a heart in his beautiful face. “Read this aloud to me,” he says, breathless with desire.

100k and 10 hours of reading aloud later, Yuri looks up, confused.

“But do we even bang in this?” he says.

A pink-faced Victor Nikiforov holds a finger up to Yuri’s mouth.

“Ssh, ssh, ssh,” he says. “Read me the part where you almost look at my ankle again.”

#yuri on ice#yuri on ice headcanons#pointed look at nuri#victuuri#victuuri headcanon
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delicately shows ankle

gets banned from tumblr

i’ve been on extended hiatus while trying to deal with the catastrophe of my life but if i ever claw my way back up above the water while tumblr burns to the ground i’m on twitter as ayabaiii if you like retweets of animals falling off of things WHICH OF COURSE YOU DO

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“Self-care is often a very unbeautiful thing.

It is making a spreadsheet of your debt and enforcing a morning routine and cooking yourself healthy meals and no longer just running from your problems and calling the distraction a solution.

It is often doing the ugliest thing that you have to do, like sweat through another workout or tell a toxic friend you don’t want to see them anymore or get a second job so you can have a savings account or figure out a way to accept yourself so that you’re not constantly exhausted from trying to be everything, all the time and then needing to take deliberate, mandated breaks from living to do basic things like drop some oil into a bath and read Marie Claire and turn your phone off for the day.

A world in which self-care has to be such a trendy topic is a world that is sick. Self-care should not be something we resort to because we are so absolutely exhausted that we need some reprieve from our own relentless internal pressure.

True self-care is not salt baths and chocolate cake, it is making the choice to build a life you don’t need to regularly escape from.

And that often takes doing the thing you least want to do.

It often means looking your failures and disappointments square in the eye and re-strategizing. It is not satiating your immediate desires. It is letting go. It is choosing new. It is disappointing some people. It is making sacrifices for others. It is living a way that other people won’t, so maybe you can live in a way that other people can’t.

It is letting yourself be normal. Regular. Unexceptional. It is sometimes having a dirty kitchen and deciding your ultimate goal in life isn’t going to be having abs and keeping up with your fake friends. It is deciding how much of your anxiety comes from not actualizing your latent potential, and how much comes from the way you were being trained to think before you even knew what was happening.

If you find yourself having to regularly indulge in consumer self-care, it’s because you are disconnected from actual self-care, which has very little to do with “treating yourself” and a whole lot do with parenting yourself and making choices for your long-term wellness.

It is no longer using your hectic and unreasonable life as justification for self-sabotage in the form of liquor and procrastination. It is learning how to stop trying to “fix yourself” and start trying to take care of yourself… and maybe finding that taking care lovingly attends to a lot of the problems you were trying to fix in the first place.

It means being the hero of your life, not the victim. It means rewiring what you have until your everyday life isn’t something you need therapy to recover from. It is no longer choosing a life that looks good over a life that feels good. It is giving the hell up on some goals so you can care about others. It is being honest even if that means you aren’t universally liked. It is meeting your own needs so you aren’t anxious and dependent on other people.

It is becoming the person you know you want and are meant to be. Someone who knows that salt baths and chocolate cake are ways to enjoy life – not escape from it.”

-Brianna Wiest, in Thought Catalog

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