𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐳𝐞𝐝

Xiaojun wants a girlfriend so badly… but his hunger is unpredictable.

⊹ 𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐂𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭 5.4k ⊹ 𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 socially estranged female y/n x unstable college dealer Xiaojun ⊹ 𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞 college au, dark au, strangers to lovers au, angst, smut ⊹ 𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 selling and purchasing of marijuana, swearing, self-deprecating thoughts, anxiety/panic attacks, pyromania, contact high, kissing, dry humping, mutual masturbation, unprotected sex, y/n nearly burns to death ⊹ 𝐀𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫’𝐬 🦷 𝐍𝐨𝐭𝐞 This fic takes place on New Years Eve. Drug terminology at the bottom.  ⊹ 𝐋𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐬 disclaimer | masterlist

　“Um, I’ll tell Hendery if I need more,” the girl said stiffly. She hastily thrust several crumpled bills into Xiaojun’s chest before he could offer his number again.

　The pair had stopped by an underclassmen’s residence hall to make the rounds for various New Year’s Eve functions. Naturally paranoid, Xiaojun wasn’t one to linger during transactions, especially ones involving halves. But in the spirit of the upcoming holiday, Xiaojun had resolved that this would be the year he wouldn’t be spending the celebrations alone.

　“But – wait, you–” Xiaojun spluttered, letting the money flutter onto the seedy laminate flooring as he stepped further into her room. 

　Hendery grabbed Xiaojun’s scrawny bicep, giving him a look of warning. He scraped up the fallen dollars and waved apologetically at the girl and her roommate before guiding Xiaojun out the door.

　“Trying to trade a couple grams for love again?” Hendery scolded, dragging Xiaojun down the ratty hallway. “They’re freshmen, you idiot.”

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Y’all I totally called it — in the wayv video reaction they said xiaojun is hyperventing into a paper bag because he’s traumatized/anxious. Completely nailed it like 3 years in advance😮‍💨

WayV 威神V 'On My Youth' MV Teaser Image 1 #YANGYANG

WayV 威神V 'On My Youth' MV Teaser Image 1 #WINWIN

i’m like 100% sure kun took advantage of wayv’s unemployment era to go to every sm song camp and charm the fuck out of the producers to get them to give them such good music

Actually for real fuck all the other neos. Now that shotaro is gone no one even bothered to congratulate wayv on their first album in 3 years. They dont deserve how happy xiaojun was for all of them when they had new releases EVEN when wayv was at their lowest point and had no music no activities no hope no future for a year xiaojun was so genuinely happy for them. Well im not a good person like that i hope all the other subunits keep getting shitty songs forever and i hope it eats them up inside that they spent the prime of their lives releasing clown shit music that people make fun of and they leave a doodoo garbage legacy. die

NOOOOO FUCCKIINGNNNNN WAYYYYYYYY THIS IS HAPPENING AGAIN WAYV IS LITERALLY CURSED OH MY GOD???

the way i almost had a panic attack and immediately searched wayv on google because I thought another member was kicked out of the group 💀

𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐳𝐞𝐝

Xiaojun wants a girlfriend so badly… but his hunger is unpredictable.

⊹ 𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐂𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭 5.4k ⊹ 𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 socially estranged female y/n x unstable college dealer Xiaojun ⊹ 𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞 college au, dark au, strangers to lovers au, angst, smut ⊹ 𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 selling and purchasing of marijuana, swearing, self-deprecating thoughts, anxiety/panic attacks, pyromania, contact high, kissing, dry humping, mutual masturbation, unprotected sex, y/n nearly burns to death ⊹ 𝐀𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫’𝐬 🦷 𝐍𝐨𝐭𝐞 This fic takes place on New Years Eve. Drug terminology at the bottom.  ⊹ 𝐋𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐬 disclaimer | masterlist

　“Um, I’ll tell Hendery if I need more,” the girl said stiffly. She hastily thrust several crumpled bills into Xiaojun’s chest before he could offer his number again.

　The pair had stopped by an underclassmen’s residence hall to make the rounds for various New Year’s Eve functions. Naturally paranoid, Xiaojun wasn’t one to linger during transactions, especially ones involving halves. But in the spirit of the upcoming holiday, Xiaojun had resolved that this would be the year he wouldn’t be spending the celebrations alone.

　“But – wait, you–” Xiaojun spluttered, letting the money flutter onto the seedy laminate flooring as he stepped further into her room. 

　Hendery grabbed Xiaojun’s scrawny bicep, giving him a look of warning. He scraped up the fallen dollars and waved apologetically at the girl and her roommate before guiding Xiaojun out the door.

　“Trying to trade a couple grams for love again?” Hendery scolded, dragging Xiaojun down the ratty hallway. “They’re freshmen, you idiot.”

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I’ve come to realize that this fic is supporting/displaying violence/retaliation against a girl saying no. And she gives into the manipulation.

I don’t really know what to do with this realization. In theory, or as a real person, I would not be okay with this scenario. From my perspective, it’s more of BIPOC men enabling other BIPOC men to continue abusing BIPOC women (even though I didn’t write the y/n’s personality with me in mind, I still assume she’s a woman of color). It’s despicable. But this is tumblr. I think I read a while ago that journaling your ugliest, most awful desires and thoughts is good for you. And that’s what I think of tumblr as, a journal of sorts.

When I wrote this fic, I was kind of crumbling internally. This fic almost preserves what I had endured but I also understand that it romanticizes manipulation and abuse (as do many of my fics). My reasoning in writing these kind of fics was simply that it was a way to get out negative emotions I was experiencing in a healthy way but it may have been ill-advised to share them… I think the romanticization came from trying to rationalize why those I truly loved caused so much harm. This isn’t my reality anymore and it’s so sickening what other men have put my through for me to get to this point.

At the end of the day, a lot of these stories are small stories about me and whether I like that or not doesn’t really matter. I understand a lot of people have had some sort of comfort from my darker writing and I don’t want to get in the way of anyone’s entertainment or healing process. I just wanted to put it out there that I understand how problematic my writing can be. And even though I’m a little disappointed in myself for not realizing this while writing, I’m glad tumblr became a safe space where I could release all these horrible ideas and memories.

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nct fic community - to readers and writers alike!

@nctpromptmeme is open! for those who don't know what a prompt meme is, it's like an open request box for any writer to see.

for readers, it's like screaming your ideas out to a crowd of writers to see what they would create for your ideas. for writers, it's an ongoing funnel of prompts at your disposal without any obligations to complete them.

this is for only READER fics (no ships please)!

please read the guidelines carefully prior to submitting your prompts. tl;dr is essentially whichever member(s) you want in the fic, the genre, and any tropes/aus/dialogue prompts that you can add to the fic. it can be a few words or even a paragraph if you want to get specific! beyond that, there really are no exclusions - if you have an idea, it will be posted.

i am unsure if this can get started on a platform like tumblr, but i think it'd be fun to give it a go.

i will be tagging writing blogs for signal boost, even if you haven't written nct fic in a while or if we're not even mutuals! even if i didn't tag you, please consider boosting because this won't work without requests nor writers.

last song: Here’s the Thing by Don Bronco! toxic as hell but its catchy af. ever since I saw them in concert a couple of weeks ago ive been bingeing their music

currently watching: jigokuraku, rewatching neon genesis Evangelion (im already on rebuild #4 it went by so fast booo). im gonna need a new anime someone drop some suggestions T_T

currently reading: I had ordered 2ha months ago and they are both currently sitting on my shelf but I’ve made no progress LOL. I did just order the entire 86 light novel series I might end up reading that first </3

current obsession: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I can’t really say im obsessed with something per se. I need a new hyper fixation </3 im very brainrotted on yuuta as you know but what else is new

no pressure tags: gonna go through my notifs and tag the first nine peeps in there LOL but everyone is tagged in spirit pls go ahead!!

@touyangel @tyga-lily @yeagerbombs @dabisqueen @gunfiendbabymama @yuutaok @pinkkittysaw @buerriberry @gojoest

thank you aleks for the tag!!! <3

last song: photograph by r.e.m. ft. natalie merchant

currently watching: the way i am struggling with my watchlist is ridiculous! you know how you sometimes don’t want to start something new that will demand all of your attention (i swear this is not commitment issues) and you keep rewatching stuff you’ve seen million times? that’s me rn refusing to step out of my comfort zone and for that reason i am rewatching hxh but also watching (waaaaaay behind though and super slow with my progress) mashle & why raeliana ended up at the duke’s mansion (i’ve already read the manhwa and now kind of unmotivated to finish the adaption tbh so might drop it). also starting my jjk rewatch this weekend!!!!!!!!

currently reading: i have a lot going on here but i’m mainly focused on blue lock, dreaming freedom, olgami, hito hitori futari + 1q84 by murakami

current obsession: gojo satoru. i feel like that’s my constant obsession lmao. also megumi.. he is growing on me

tagging (no pressure): @bizarrebankai @nyimasu @kiirschtein @peachsayshi @thus-spoke-lo @casualcrybaby @keiskyutie @aizenhours @dearestgojo

Thank you for the tag hun 💕

last song: Body Count by Jessie Reyes

currently watching: peaky blinders, Komi can’t Communicate, and bunch of other stuff I can’t keep up with.

currently reading: I’m not really reading anything right now…I opened All He’ll Ever Be by Willow Winters does that count??

current obsession: I will also be saying that Gojo is my current obsession though that’s nothing new here.

Tagging: @indigoballad @heavenlyevil @vampnyx @saccharine-darlin and anyone else who wants to tell me about themselves tbh.

Ty for the tag @dearestgojo ❤️❤️❤️

last song: drive off a bridge - jakey

currently watching: andor, my hero academia, some others that are lower priority lol

currently reading: so close to being finished with the jjk manga… I’ve also been in the middle of interview with a vampire for ages lol

current obsession: it’s still Toji tbh but also jjk in general. But like I’m not normal about Toji lol

tagging: (no pressure of course) @consolationblog @javertthejollypastrychef @solomons-poison @alucrds and anyone else who is interested ❤️

Thanks so much for the tag!!

last song: Anaheim by Don Broco (i’ve also been obsessed since I saw them live a few months ago)

currently watching: bungo stray dogs, demon slayer, fire force (and constantly rewatching haikyuu)

currently reading: BL Metamorphosis by Kaori Tsurutani

current obsession: tears of the kingdom, obey me

tagging: (no pressure!) @being-gay-on-ice @yourfamilyfriendsatan @kirishwima @kirishimasmom @bam-here

Thank you, thank you, thank you for the tag! I love these🥰

Last song: If we ever broke up by Mae Stephens

Currently watching: Demon Slayer, Summertime Rendering, jjba, (YouTubers) Dr. Hollow and Berleezy

Currently reading: MHA, are we okay, killing stalking and fire in his fingertips

Currently obsessions: Obey Me, alien abductions/cryptids, ai chat, and paranormal stories

No pressure tags❤️

@animelovingpanda @piggypie399 @brainrot-baby @akimbo628 @night-of-bastet @simpinginthecorner @javertthejollypastrychef @dragcat-zzz @polandspringz

Thanks for the tag @bam-here 💖

Last Song: How Soon Is Now? by The Smiths

Currently Watching: Invader Zim, Vinland Saga, Queen Charlotte

Currently Reading: Deserter by Junji Ito, SpyxFamily by Tatsuya Endo

Current Obsessions: Obey Me!, fall/Halloween stuff

Tags (only if you want to!): @ragdollinasweater @freaks-and-geeks-ptii @frenchfrieswithmayo @reasonscome-reasonsgo @pieprincess @moodyhaaze @neon-pink-witch @beedlebeeb @tauper

ty for the tag @akimbo628 !!! ( ˘ ³˘)

Last song: You First by Paramore

Currently watching: The Walking Dead (on season 8!!), Inuyasha

Currently reading: No Longer Human by Osamu Dazai, Solita by Vivien Rainn, Frankenstein by Junji Ito

Current obsession(s): Obey Me!, oldman!Lucifer, horror related stuff, cats, gothic fiction novels

people i’d like to know better (๑ˇεˇ๑)

Thanks for the tag @moodyhaaze ! 💕💕

Last song: Innervision by System of a Down

Currently watching: tbh all thr YouTube drama going on right now. That Miranda Sings bullshit? INSANE

Currently reading: Remarkably Bright Creatures, the Black Butler manag series, Hope and Help for your Nerves, Demon Copperhead

Current obsessions: Obey Me! ( as always), Black Butler, pizza rolls with ranch.

People’s blogs I enjoy! 💕 No pressure, tags!

@beelscustard @beelzeboobie-enthusiast @cosmicstarlatte @rubystarraven @bam-here @boxbusiness @bite-sized-devil @mammonswhore @otomejerk @xpixie @obeymesimp3579

Thanks for the tag @lucifersimp333 💞💞

Last song: Teen Idle by Marina

Currently watching: I lowkey struggle with watching movies/anime but I am starting to watch black butler for the new season & BSD, obsessed with Kubz Scouts on YT tho

Currently reading: “Ready Player One” by Earnest Cline, i’m at like page 265 or something

Current obsession: Obey Me! (both nb and omswd hehe), and dumplings. Also a my melody themed lipgloss I bought 2 days ago, it’s so cuute <3

taags ^_^ (no pressure!)

@nightmareeffect @leviathans-watching @l3viat8an @projectbluearcadia @lost-in-lamentation @attic-club-sandwich @ad0rechuu @avatarofstars @lvminy

Last song. — cinderella by exo (stream exist!!)

Currently watching. — i just finished a mini drama called handmade love with lee soohyuck on youtube

Currently reading. — does a webtoon count? because i’m that case marry my husband over and over again 🫶

Current obsession. — SNSD!!! also i really want to do requests so i’m thinking about that a lot but i’m not getting any :<

No pressure tags ( because i don’t think i can ever be too close to u guys! ). — @bluehwale-main @ari-shipping-stuff @sunoo-bby @rieuvie @leo-seonghwa @girls4cheol @sweatyjeans @tocupid @end0rchans @felixsramen @yunstarz @seonghwaddict @i-luvsang @aoi-turtle @thelargefrye @renstears @4ssun @42e15 @alixnsuperstxr @mrowwww @pocketjoong @a1sh1teruu @hwaightme @jaehunnyy @justhere4kpop @nebulousbrainsoup @paradiqms @ssaboala @starrysvn

Last song. — kick it 4 now by the new six!! (it’s been on loop!)

Currently watching. — i just finished the bear s2! now i’m onto black mirror s6!!

Currently reading. — my mutuals’ works 🤭 but in all seriousness, lots of webtoons! specifically jackson’s diary, questism, marry my husband and never-ending darling! <3

Current obsession. — ateez!! (i’ve deeply gotten into them in the past months and now i am trapped.) also, for atsv fans: miguel o’hara!!

No pressure tags ( i really look up to and appreciate all of you!! (even if we’ve never really spoken like that rip) ). — @bobariki @alohajun @saucyjaeyun @uwuheeseungie @h00nerz @maplecornia @hvcmixtape @ujunxverse

[last song] → nct u - WITHOUT YOU (Chinese Ver.)

[currently watching] → king the land (k-drama), see you in my 19th life (k-drama), and hidden love (c-drama which i’m almost finishing up!)

[currently reading] → i’m slowly entering tumblr again and have been (re-)reading a lot of @starlightkun ‘s works, which i highly recommend <3

[current obsession] → nct lol (slowly catching up with all the things i’ve missed + i’m even thinking abt releasing some wayv drafts i got from a while ago)

since it’s about people i’d like to know better imma tag some mutuals/people i follow who i sadly don’t interact much with (anymore) but wish i could because they are really awesome 💗:

@winsmoke @en-ternity @maiverie @floraljae @asahicore @goldenhypen @seungstarss @leejungchans

Last song — I DO by (G)I-DLE

Sometimes I just need a 80s song to get through the day.

Currently (re)watching — Dr. Stone

Pt. 30 of me forcing my bf to experience all my favorite shows/movies/music

Currently reading — Any news article about Iranian women

Tired of men & institutions always….

Current obsession — Danielle & Minji of New Jeans

I don’t watch any nj content… they feel a bit too young for me but I love looking at pictures of them lolllll.

Tagging — all the hotties who make my feed spicy

@markresonates @multifandomfantasies @naptimed @nctsworld @nctxtrash @rixcity @sherwees @ujunxverse @weishenkun @990808

oh brother.... this is gonna be interesting