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Castiel Derangement Hot Zone

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Laura | 30s | they/he/she | U.S. | writer | AO3 I have never had a heterosexual thought in my life and my toxic trait is that I like the show I'm in a fandom for.
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wake up new pinned post just dropped

⬆ ⬆ ⬆ my old pinned post was too nostalgic to be left out ⬆ ⬆ ⬆

About

  • This is, broadly, a multifandom and personal blog, but 90% of the content you're gonna get here is Supernatural. Yeah. I didn't expect that either but after going on three years I've just accepted that this is my life now.
  • Generally show-positive and actor-positive. Neither the show nor the people who produced it are without flaws and I will happily have a ponder on issues of racism, misogyny, etc. when the mood strikes. However I am here because I like the show and want to celebrate the things that I like about it because fandom is a fun hobby for me.
  • Officially I am a Cas fan first and a human second because I see him and my brain turns into a gibbering pile of mush in a way it simply does not with other characters. Unofficially so many people having bad faith takes on Dean and dunking on him in really classist, shitty, deeply unwarranted ways caused me to become extremely protective of him and love him almost as much as I do Cas because I spent so much time trying to take him apart to see how he works.
  • Basically what I'm saying is that this is a pro-Destiel blog and I think both Cas and Dean are loving, well-intentioned people with a lot of baggage and issues who sometimes hurt each other and both contribute to that pretty much equally but who both, ultimately, are capable of growth, healing, and being their best selves with and for each other.
  • Related to the above, calling Dean or Cas abusive will get you blocked <3
  • Rowena is love. Rowena is life. I don't blog about her nearly as much as I think about her.
  • I'm not interested in policing anyone else's fandom engagement (or media consumption in general) and that includes not shaming people for enjoying things I personally find objectionable, whether that's ships, fanfic, or entire source texts. That's their business, not mine. If I don't want to interact with someone, I block or softblock and move on with my life.
  • Related to the above, Sastiel squicks the hell out of me. I do not want to hear about it, I do not want to talk about it, I want people to be able to enjoy what they like but I would like them to do it far the hell away from me in this specific case.
  • Lastly, I'm one whole grown adult. Not a young adult, an adult-adult with a mortgage and everything. I do not have an MDNI policy bc I think teenagers who are old enough to be online unsupervised are also old enough to decide for themselves if they want to follow or not. (I also don't interact one on one with people via DMs on tumblr very much, as I use tumblr as a blogging platform rather than a social media platform.) However, if you feel compelled to DM me for whatever reason and happen to be a young person, please indicate in some way that you are in fact not an adult because my socially oblivious ass will just sort of assume everyone around me is also in the 20-40 range unless told otherwise.

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  • Writing: all fanfiction, original fiction, and poetry I've written (tbh it's 99.9% fanfic). A direct link to my AO3 can be found in my bio at the top of the blog.
  • Meta posts: either my original posts or posts to which I've added substantial additional commentary
  • Bi Dean: what it says on the tin, posts that are evidentiary of Dean's queerness, a mix of original and reblogged content.
  • 2023 SPN rewatch: liveblogging and analysis posts generated by my ongoing rewatch. [currently on season 12]
  • End of the Book podcast: Hey, I write for that! EOTBpod started as a reaction and analysis podcast for The Winchesters, and is being reorganized as a general analysis podcast for Supernatural, The Winchesters, and any other projects in the SPN universe that may come down the pipeline. [Currently on hiatus out of respect for the WGA and SAG-AFTRA strikes as we have creatives on the show who are currently members or may be future members of both unions and we're not trying to cross picket lines here]

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Dude I love the Indian lake books so much! I've got the third one but haven't read it yet. Jade and Letha are fantastic and I'm obsessed with them

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Literally some of the best literary horror I've ever read, I'm obsessed. After I finished the first book I just sort of had to stare at the wall and experience shrimp emotions for awhile and it's lived rent free in my head ever since.

I'm on track to finish up Don't Fear The Reaper tomorrow and hopefully on my next payday I can scoop up Angel of Indian Lake. Absolutely heartily recommend this series to any fans of the slasher genre who want to read an indigenous take on it (though of course keep in mind that it is very much slasher horror and comes with all the trappings thereof).

Also may I just say: Dark Mill South is the coolest serial killer/slasher name in history and I would like to shake Stephen Graham Jones's hand for that alone.

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aliveboydean

also i have never thought of dean allowing gadreel to possess sam as a violation of sam’s autonomy. dean was acting basically as a healthcare proxy for his brother who was in a coma, making medical decisions for sam because sam was not able to do so himself. it’s not like sam was sitting there actively saying “do not under any circumstances let a strange angel possess me” and dean went ahead and did it anyway, directly violating sam’s vocal wishes. multiple times over the course of s8, whenever dean and sam had talked about it, sam had said that he didn’t want to die, he wanted to live. based off the information he had, dean made yes an admittedly drastic decision, but not one that’s totally out of left field for the in-universe world? when dean was dying in season three, sam wanted him to harvest organs and keep himself alive like frankenstein’s monster. so. let’s have some perspective

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ilarual

@swordofsun yep you nailed it. The show makes it explicitly clear that Dean cannot say yes on Sam's behalf— the angel "yes" isn't transitive, otherwise Dean's "I don't know what I'm agreeing to but I'm saying yes to doing whatever you want" to Cas in 04.21 would have led to Michael immediately possessing him the second it was convenient.

Dean makes it explicitly clear two or three separate times in 09.01 that this is ultimately Sam's choice and he cannot make it for him. The fact that Gadreel subsequently uses deception and assuming a false identity to coerce an uninformed yes from Sam is, to be clear, something Gadreel did. Not Dean. Gadreel. Something which Dean immediately follows up by trying to tell Sam the truth right away, only to be himself coerced into keeping quiet by a threat to Sam's safety.

Dean's only real involvement in the choices that got made were 1) his initial call for help to any and all angels after Cas didn't (couldn't) respond and 2) the vetting of "Ezekiel" as someone he could trust not to screw them over, the failure of which is not his fault since he did in fact get information from a trusted source and it is very much not his fault that Gadreel was lying about his identity. Everything from that point on is Dean repeatedly stating that it's Sam's choice and ultimately agreeing that "Ezekiel" can go ahead with the possession... if Sam agrees to it.

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Being a deancrit is calling Dean an abuser for things Sam and Cas also did and for things that didn’t happen or have been so grossly misrepresented that a normal viewer can barely connect the deancrit’s argument to the show.

All it takes to be a samcrit is pointing out things Sam canonically did in Supernatural.

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The Info-Dumpers who Love Characters Website is totally sleeping on the best Info-Dumping Character of All Time:

Jade Daniels, the 17 year-old half-indigenous girl from Stephen Graham Jones’ My Heart is a Chainsaw.

In everyone’s defense, character-driven slow-burn literary fiction that is also a slasher (stab stab 🔪🔪🩸) is a hard genre to sell. Many of us who love one part of this equation don’t love the other.

But Jade has captured my whole chainsaw ♥️, and I CANNOT be normal about it. Jade has never met a person at whom she wasn’t willing to spout random facts that they have exhibited no interest in. She can bring ANYTHING back around to connect to her hyperfixation which is, coincidentally, slasher movies. And she is the most vivid, alive, real-to-me protagonist I have ever encountered. Because of the way she hyperfixates and info dumps, not in spite of it. (Which surely says something about me but again, I am among friends on this webbed site!)

Jade makes completely normal, totally hinged choices like:

  • (When we the audience are first introduced to her) Going up to a group of construction workers having a trash fire in the middle of the night and being like, “If we were in a slasher right now, this is what the plot line would be. Also, have some random slasher movie facts.” (Their response: Are you okay? You seem like you are not okay.)
  • Writing extra credit essays for her history teacher about the tropes and conventions of the slasher genre. For four years. Not what he asked for, but what he got. (These essays are included in the book and are a godsend for those of us who are not already slasher fans! They literally help the reader understand the story beats as they unfold, while simultaneously giving life to Jade’s voice and helping us understand what makes her tick.)
  • Deciding the New Girl At School has all the qualities of a Final Girl, the slasher film trope in which there is one girl left alive to confront the killer and stop the slasher cycle.
  • Trying to warn the New Girl At School that she is going to be The Final Girl, by putting a VHS copy of the 1971 slasher Bay of Blood and all of Jade’s slasher extra credit essays in her mailbox. With a note. A note that says that she is going to be The Final Girl in a slasher cycle that seems to be starting up. (Jade is just trying to help! So helpful.)

Of course, the core of this novel is: What is going on with Jade? After all, she actually wants a slasher cycle to start in her town. (She also wants the slasher cycle to be stopped at the proper moment, to ensure that the vengeance of the slasher is balanced by the justice of the Final Girl.) She does not see herself as a possible Final Girl, but she is willing to help the richer, prettier, more appropriate classmate who she thinks is that girl. Why, why, why?

To be clear, the novel does not posit that something must be wrong with a person to be intensely, obsessively interested in something or for that thing to be horror- even slashers! But Jade’s behavior is, like I said, not entirely hinged, even for a slasher fan. Something must be up.

The novel gives us all the clues we need to peel back the layers of what’s really happening, and when truths are revealed, everything just *clicks.* Themes are introduced and then reinforced on multiple levels. There is a bear. 🐻 (The bear is the not the slasher.)

And throughout, Jade gets to be fully-human and fully seven-fucking-teen. Even though she is on the cusp of adulthood, she is still a child, and a wounded one at that. (Her wounds in no way fucking diminish her.)  Her judgment is often impaired. Her actions are often questionable. Her hair-dye jobs gets so bad, even she thinks its gross. She is so alive, and so deserving of love. 🥹 

I love her.

I would fight for her.

I desperately want to make soup for her, and let her tell me about the Scream franchise (I do not care about the Scream franchise), and give her a safe place to sleep. Even if doing so makes it way more likely that I’m about to get murdered.

Jade Fucking Daniels. My chainsaw-hearted, info-dumping hero protagonist. I salute you, my final girl.

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aliveboydean

friendly reminder that metatron wanted kevin dead because he was worried a prophet could translate something off of the tablets that would help the winchesters and castiel take him down. gadreel possessing sam just meant he had easier access but is not the motive for the murder and had gadreel not been there kevin still would have died, just at some other angel’s hand

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Anonymous asked:

hey you said in recent tags that you're wary of people calling anyone in tfw "woman-coded" because those people aren't joking and I'm wondering what you meant with that? Like if I say someone's women-coded it's because they're experiencing tropes etc that are usually reserved for women, or like, maybe I mean it as "the writers were clearly being homophobic here because in homophobia terms a man doing something feminine is gay." So I'm just wondering what I'm missing or what others are doing maybe?

So, first of all, thank you for sending an ask about this! It gave me an excellent opportunity to actually refine and focus my own thoughts on this, because when I first read your ask a couple of hours ago, my kneejerk reaction was to say that it's reductive gender essentialism to align particular traits or behaviors with only one gender and then say that a character who presents as the "opposite" gender engaging with those traits is "woman-coded" or "man-coded"...

...but as I had a chance to think about it for a little longer, I'm not sure that's a very strong argument when talking about this specific situation. While it's absolutely true and correct in real life when talking about real people (a man who cooks his own dinner is not behaving "woman-coded" ffs), the fact of the matter is that television is a constructed reality, one which is influenced by the biases and baggage of the people doing the constructing, and that includes the issues we as a society have around gender. And because that constructed reality of fiction is a shared construction, that has resulted in certain storytelling tools (whether it be narrative tropes or certain camera angles or anything in between) which tend to be tied to gender in specific ways.

So with that angle reconsidered, I thought about it a little more deeply and I realized that the real root of my hesitancy around statements of "X character is woman-coded" is that... it's kind of a roundabout way of pathologizing victimhood.

Let me explain what I mean (at great length because I have never been succinct once in my entire life, sorry ✌️). Warnings ahead for brief mentions of SA and terfism.

While there is some use of the "woman-coded" concept in fan conversations about the kind of analysis you're talking about in your ask, the place I most frequently see the term coming up almost always seems to be conversations talking about how one member of TFW is obviously winning the oppression olympics in a race where their only competition is the other two. It's almost always used in the context of "Sam is woman-coded because he gets sexually assaulted!" (ignoring that every one of the male leads is repeatedly sexually assaulted, both subtextually off-screen and explicitly on-screen) or "Dean is woman-coded because he does household chores for his male relatives!" (ignoring we see him just as eager to do housework for Lisa and also the context of his parentification that heavily drives the caretaker aspect of his personality) or "Cas is woman-coded because he symbolically/metaphorically died in childbirth! twice!" (ignoring... well actually you know what that is honestly really weird and I am actually gonna just "two nickels" this particular situation lmfao).

Basically what I'm getting at is that whenever I see someone earnestly using the term "woman-coded" in their meta posts, 99 times out of 100 it's a post where (depending on how blunt the poster is being) either the explicit text of the post or the implicit subtext of the post is how their favorite is the Most Oppressed and the other characters should be paying their fave reparations for being so mean to him. "Sam is woman-coded because he has long hair and drinks smoothies and Dean is a hateful bigot for feeding him real bacon" type analysis. (And to be clear I have absolutely seen this kind of thing from fans of all three leads, I just have gotten pretty good at avoiding the bad takes of Dean fans and Cas fans and so I see those less often). And don't get me started on the "[literally any one of the main three, take your pick] is woman-coded because he performs emotional labor for [whichever one of the three leads OP likes least] at his own expense!"

Point is: it's often used as a cudgel to wield against fans of other characters to prove that their favorite is the most oppressed member of TFW by labeling them as woman-coded. It always seems to come back to posting in the vein of The Character I Like Is The One True Victim™.

In short, it's often a rhetorical tool that's using "woman-coded" as conversational shorthand for "victim-coded."

I should hope I don't have to elaborate on why insistently linking victimhood to womanhood is a bad thing. But since crypto-terf rhetoric is all over in the ecosystem of an unfortunate number of fandoms these days, I'll say it anyway: consigning one gender to permanent, passive victim status and another gender to immutable, violent abuser status is very much terf logic. It has no basis in fact and should be rejected.

Now, am I saying that every person who says X character is woman-coded is a terf? Absolutely not! As I've previously said, an enormous number of fandom spaces have unfortunately been permeated by terf ideas over the past decade or so. Awhile back, I found myself having to go back and intentionally unlearn some pretty toxic gateway terfism rhetoric I'd picked up unconsciously just by existing in the fandom ecosystem. I'm sure I'm still having to pick bits of terf reasoning out of my brain here and there several years on! It's pervasive and unpleasant and can lead to people who have never thought that deeply at all about the actual implications of what they're saying calling their fave woman-coded and not realizing that this is the concept they're unwittingly endorsing.

All this is to say that I would love it if everyone who used the term woman-coded was using it the way you are, anon: to talk about the specific ways in which the show explores and interrogates gender, gender roles, and the trauma associated with gender. Unfortunately that does not at all seem to be how the vast majority of people are using it, and once I figured out how dead serious people were about it and that it wasn't just like a funny in-joke I started to be a bit more cautious when seeing it "in the wild" so to speak.

So I guess in the end it kind of was about gender essentialism, just not in the way I initially expected it to be when I first started thinking about your ask.

Now, to actually touch on the way you use the term, anon, in response to the specific post whose tags prompted this message...

Just adding an example of my own experience with this is frequently seeing Dean referred to as a mama or mother. I'm specifically not talking about posts where people are playing with the idea of Dean and gender being an essay question or even people talking about how his experience is so frequently one pressed upon women (though I think parentification is not only a "girl" thing and much prefer a discussion that recognizes that).

Instead I mean the posts that treat him as the woman parent and partner because he's a caregiver. Because he's loving and nurturing. And frequently it's associated with headcanons that cast him as mother because he is doing household chores or parenting.

It's something that bothers me in part because of the pervasive narrative that women should be "natural" parents and men shouldn't. It's a very straight, heteronormative way of looking at the world. He must be a mother because a father can't be those things. I mean one of the beautiful themes underlying Dean’s story is that he goes from obligation to something softer, and he is at his heart love. That he is fighting the specter of his father who wasn't those things.

But also it's invalidating as a mother who traditionally falls into a more masculine role with a cis male spouse who does the cooking and was a stay at home parent. I'm genderqueer af but I'm also mama. And I have fought a lot of pressure to let others define that specifically as the role that they are pushing onto Dean. Not to mention the fact that Jack has a mother who died and who is often erased from the narrative.

All of that to say that one of the really amazing things I love about this show is the queering of gender and family. Families are found. Women can be tough and queer. Men can be the most loving person in the world. So when the discussion moves from "this character has been placed into a trope usually reserved for a female lead" to "this character is like a woman because they aren't meeting certain cisheteronormative ideals" you start to lose something important to me and you replace it with something fairly invalidating.

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Anonymous asked:

hey you said in recent tags that you're wary of people calling anyone in tfw "woman-coded" because those people aren't joking and I'm wondering what you meant with that? Like if I say someone's women-coded it's because they're experiencing tropes etc that are usually reserved for women, or like, maybe I mean it as "the writers were clearly being homophobic here because in homophobia terms a man doing something feminine is gay." So I'm just wondering what I'm missing or what others are doing maybe?

So, first of all, thank you for sending an ask about this! It gave me an excellent opportunity to actually refine and focus my own thoughts on this, because when I first read your ask a couple of hours ago, my kneejerk reaction was to say that it's reductive gender essentialism to align particular traits or behaviors with only one gender and then say that a character who presents as the "opposite" gender engaging with those traits is "woman-coded" or "man-coded"...

...but as I had a chance to think about it for a little longer, I'm not sure that's a very strong argument when talking about this specific situation. While it's absolutely true and correct in real life when talking about real people (a man who cooks his own dinner is not behaving "woman-coded" ffs), the fact of the matter is that television is a constructed reality, one which is influenced by the biases and baggage of the people doing the constructing, and that includes the issues we as a society have around gender. And because that constructed reality of fiction is a shared construction, that has resulted in certain storytelling tools (whether it be narrative tropes or certain camera angles or anything in between) which tend to be tied to gender in specific ways.

So with that angle reconsidered, I thought about it a little more deeply and I realized that the real root of my hesitancy around statements of "X character is woman-coded" is that... it's kind of a roundabout way of pathologizing victimhood.

Let me explain what I mean (at great length because I have never been succinct once in my entire life, sorry ✌️). Warnings ahead for brief mentions of SA and terfism.

While there is some use of the "woman-coded" concept in fan conversations about the kind of analysis you're talking about in your ask, the place I most frequently see the term coming up almost always seems to be conversations talking about how one member of TFW is obviously winning the oppression olympics in a race where their only competition is the other two. It's almost always used in the context of "Sam is woman-coded because he gets sexually assaulted!" (ignoring that every one of the male leads is repeatedly sexually assaulted, both subtextually off-screen and explicitly on-screen) or "Dean is woman-coded because he does household chores for his male relatives!" (ignoring we see him just as eager to do housework for Lisa and also the context of his parentification that heavily drives the caretaker aspect of his personality) or "Cas is woman-coded because he symbolically/metaphorically died in childbirth! twice!" (ignoring... well actually you know what that is honestly really weird and I am actually gonna just "two nickels" this particular situation lmfao).

Basically what I'm getting at is that whenever I see someone earnestly using the term "woman-coded" in their meta posts, 99 times out of 100 it's a post where (depending on how blunt the poster is being) either the explicit text of the post or the implicit subtext of the post is how their favorite is the Most Oppressed and the other characters should be paying their fave reparations for being so mean to him. "Sam is woman-coded because he has long hair and drinks smoothies and Dean is a hateful bigot for feeding him real bacon" type analysis. (And to be clear I have absolutely seen this kind of thing from fans of all three leads, I just have gotten pretty good at avoiding the bad takes of Dean fans and Cas fans and so I see those less often). And don't get me started on the "[literally any one of the main three, take your pick] is woman-coded because he performs emotional labor for [whichever one of the three leads OP likes least] at his own expense!"

Point is: it's often used as a cudgel to wield against fans of other characters to prove that their favorite is the most oppressed member of TFW by labeling them as woman-coded. It always seems to come back to posting in the vein of The Character I Like Is The One True Victim™.

In short, it's often a rhetorical tool that's using "woman-coded" as conversational shorthand for "victim-coded."

I should hope I don't have to elaborate on why insistently linking victimhood to womanhood is a bad thing. But since crypto-terf rhetoric is all over in the ecosystem of an unfortunate number of fandoms these days, I'll say it anyway: consigning one gender to permanent, passive victim status and another gender to immutable, violent abuser status is very much terf logic. It has no basis in fact and should be rejected.

Now, am I saying that every person who says X character is woman-coded is a terf? Absolutely not! As I've previously said, an enormous number of fandom spaces have unfortunately been permeated by terf ideas over the past decade or so. Awhile back, I found myself having to go back and intentionally unlearn some pretty toxic gateway terfism rhetoric I'd picked up unconsciously just by existing in the fandom ecosystem. I'm sure I'm still having to pick bits of terf reasoning out of my brain here and there several years on! It's pervasive and unpleasant and can lead to people who have never thought that deeply at all about the actual implications of what they're saying calling their fave woman-coded and not realizing that this is the concept they're unwittingly endorsing.

All this is to say that I would love it if everyone who used the term woman-coded was using it the way you are, anon: to talk about the specific ways in which the show explores and interrogates gender, gender roles, and the trauma associated with gender. Unfortunately that does not at all seem to be how the vast majority of people are using it, and once I figured out how dead serious people were about it and that it wasn't just like a funny in-joke I started to be a bit more cautious when seeing it "in the wild" so to speak.

So I guess in the end it kind of was about gender essentialism, just not in the way I initially expected it to be when I first started thinking about your ask.

Now, to actually touch on the way you use the term, anon, in response to the specific post whose tags prompted this message...

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