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Cloud Auditore Fair

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Jack. Captain Cloud. Shipping trash who is also working on a novel. Apparently INTJ-A.

The way Jessamine is mostly remembered in a vague, depersonalized way, less of a person and more of a symbol, a tiny fragment of her soul still lingering in the world with Corvo being the only person to listen and to hear her thoughts as he was the only person who truly knew her in life, and the way Corvo is a mere shadow of himself during the events of the game even to the people who claim to be his friends, because the masked personification of death to their enemies with no opinion or ambition of his own is all they care about. Corvo might have survived and avoided execution, but both Jessamine and him are ghosts, their past selves remained at the gazebo and now they haunt the ones who wronged them and even the people who claim to act on their behalf, as something else entirely.

corvo: i just lost the love of my life, the mother of our child, the woman who is anything and everything in my life and I swore to protect to my dying breath and failed to save when she needed me most

whale satan: oh,,,,, did you want the undead talking heart of her

corvo: ??? what ?? why is this an option?? is it her or like, a ghost or -

whale satan: no, no, just, her soul. trapped. forced to see through space and time and all eternity. in her heart that still beats because SCIENCE and MAGIC.

corvo: will she remember who she is? or me? or our child???

whale satan: i mean, sometimes, but when she does, she'll just cry about why hasn't she died yet and for the pain you and said child are both in. not even big cries. just quiet sobs only you can hear.

corvo: ????????????????

whale satan: you're welcome

This keeps me up at night

I just wanted to put this out there. If you're someone who tries to comment on fics. If you're someone who tries to reblog art and headcanons and meta. If you're someone who wants to let creators know that you appreciate their creations.

You're doing enough. You're doing more than enough.

Please don't feel guilty for the times that you can't or the times that you forget or the times that you just don't know what to say.

You're appreciated, even when you don't speak up. You're welcome in fandom, even if you don't speak up at all.

You don't have to pay a fee to enjoy someone's creation. It's incredibly appreciated when you do, but it's not a requirement. You're welcome in this space either way. ❤

One day I'll finally play the Mass Effect remaster and it'll drag the writer in me out the dirt and I'll drop a story that's been in my heart for like 5+ years but...it'll be.....Mass Effect

Edit: I hope. That's if I ever write again tbh

I'm sobbing at 3:30am. I don't think I've posted anything since 2017 and I really stopped using this blog the next year I think. But it's mid 2021 and my follower count has more than doubled, my inbox is full as fuck, and my notifications are to the moon.

I logged into ffnet for the first time in who knows how long and I have pages of messages, hundreds of new reviews (I'm sure many are essentially "update" or the variety that messed with me, but I know some are extraordinarily kind) and so, so many alerts.

I don't know why so many of you stuck around or came here to this abandoned place but I'm definitely in my feelings now.

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